More Than Words

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

the weather's been suchah ass for freezing me the moment i got out of the bathroom, to make things worse,
the wind was super duper strong and i felt like it was gonna be winter soon.

couldnt stop complaining about how bad the weather was as soon as i met up with the bestiie.
oh yes! there was this weirdo who walked past me outside the MRT station's toilet when i was waiting for honey, and he actually stared at my boobs right infront of me.
i totally felt digusted pls!
so maybe he thought that it was fun since i did nothing the first time,
he actually walked back again and stared at it.
the moment i stared right at him, he hurriedly looked away.
what's with guys this days?
sick in the head or what?

today's lessons were suchah bore!
due to the very freezing yet shoick weather,
it was impossible not to feel slpy.
with boring lessons right after another,
i was so close to dosing off halfway through SS.
as for geog, it seems more like a routine that everyone gets bored instantly when mrsTan walks in.
so i spent most of my time msging,
and i actually got caught by mrsTan while i was replying halfway.
being nice, she just told me to copy down the ans she wrote on the board and as i did what she said, i continued on replying.

seriously, we're truely greatful that the number of subs per day has been decreased but replacing it with a longer period is a killer.

being totally half-dead by the time sch ended,
honey and i decided to cab back home.

i'm really tired but i cant slp cause i dont have the habit of taking afternoon nap.
i guess, all i can do is just rest and i shall start on my homework and revision for chem test later on.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:10 AM.

Monday, January 29, 2007

seriously, i need to rant bout something before i continue on with my entry.

i dont deserve to be treated like a venting machine to you-know-who-you-are, i feel like a shit to you.
i've been very tolerate and understanding bout it but i too have feelings, why must you take it for granted just cause i'll forgive you every single time you decide to apologise to me?
does sorry really mean nothing at the end of the day?
than what's the point of apologising when it comes out just like any other ordinary word.

sch seems more like a picnic to us since we were munching most of the time inbetween lessons.
anyway, a few of us stayed back after sch and continued with our pride day inter-class competition.
we did lots of crazy stuffs, pumping up the music and getting all so hyped up.
a very different side of us since we didnt used to bond like this before,
i guess we've realised how fast this year's gonna end soon.
time is passing by us quickly but the bond between us is getting stronger,
and i definitely thank God for that.

stayed till late evening before we got chased out by the DonaldDuck.
who kept threatening us to hurry before he locked us in.
it was so hilarious that we couldnt stop laughing so loud trying to immitate him.

a horrible day turned great.
friends, you guys are worth more than anything.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:20 PM.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

I'M FEELING EMO-ISH NOW.
I NEED A NEW HAIRCUT!

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:57 PM.

friday
friday's match was one tough one for us since most of the time,
the scores were tied only till the very last min did we manage to score one goal and defeat AISS.
anyway, i hope that everyones injury will get better since almost our whole team is down with injuries.
great match girls!
but the really tough one has yet to come.

saturday
half my day was out with the bestiie, xiaoxuan and edwin,
while the other half was spent dearly with the loved one.
non-stop crapping and nonsense with edwin ard nvr fails.
did some window shopping but i left half way and headed over to SimLim with baby to check out some stuffs.
and than it was back to his place for me to have some rest.

surprisingly, baby finally agreed to get the couple ring.
he wanted to get it on V.day itself,
which means i'll be spending it with him.
i totally cant wait!

today
sis and the kids came over so we celebrated a surprised birthday for mingming.
a good rest at home and time spent with the family and friends.

a million thanks to pinkie for downloading songs,
he who said that it was just for me only.
so a million thanks to him!
and yea, we shld go catch a movie with jackie soon.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:20 PM.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

alright, just got back home from training which i wont exactly say that it was a great one.
the sun was so freaking hot that i think it burnt and dried us all.

well, the four toilet bitches, which is us were late.
terribly late for 20mins and we got blasted by mrsKoh,
which landed us having to run ten rounds ard the court.
while trying to be funny taking every step without wearing my kneeguard, totally almost made me cried for help cause it did hurt quite a bit.

the usuals of mrsKoh dragging our time,
letting us leave ard an hour later than we were supposed to.
anyway, hope that fri's match will turn out better than expected.
GOOD LUCK TO US!

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:52 PM.

MY LIFE SEEMS TO BE TURNING THE OTHER WAY ROUND.
THINGS SEEMS TO BE GOING SO WRG!

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY SUPPOSEDLY HAPPY ENDING?

~~GOOD~~ DAY.

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:50 AM.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

this will be a random entry.

it's difficult to end the weekends without a quarrel nowadays,
and it's scary to be quarreling over every single thing.
well, i will be the one starting most of the quarrels but it's because i dont feel assured at times.
simple things like our mthly anniversary can be either forgotten or rmbed wrgly, it does upset me alot even though it may seem like something small.

to me, simple things like this will mean a whole lot more.
reason being, it may just be a small matter but because it's small,
that doesnt mean that it isnt impt at all.

esp. to see how some friends ard seem to be luckiest ones ever and on the other end, some other friends will be struggling through just trying to make things work out.

i realised that no matter how close we are with our other half,
certain things will still be unnoticed.
rmbing what others used to tell me before,
it's when both are together for long that the small gestures will start fading, will not be as impt as how it used to be.

that's the prob.
it's because of being too comfortable and used to the person that one may think that these small gestures wont matter anymore.
i'm not sure bout others, but to me,
i personally feel that being together longer will make these small gestures even more impt than before...
agree?

anyway, no matter what happens,
i'm just glad that everything will still be solved at the end of the day.
that is what's more impt too,
to solve it properly putting down all pride and ego to talk it through.

I LOVE YOU!
- you know i do =)

"what could be worse than losing the person that you love"
quoted from SmallVille

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:50 PM.

Monday, January 22, 2007

~~HAPPY~~ 16MTHS MY LOVE.

nvr let your love fade away...

i wonder how much this seems to you,
though you may think that it's a small matter.
but on the other hand, it means a whole lot more to me...
maybe, you just dont understand.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:30 PM.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

NP's open hse was great,
just that there were too many ppl ard and having so lil time to look ard,
i gave a look at my course a skipped.
the happiest thing ever was that i saw Bud Bud,
it's been ages since i last saw him.
chilled ard with his friends and left slightly after.
nice ppl, nice knowing them as well.

friday
1hr 50mins of PE totally killed us, me.
by the time recess was over,
i was half dead during mrJoseph's lesson.
to end my day completely dead,
mdmLu had to make us stay back an hour extra for chinese remedial.

feeling like a dead corpse,
i gave training a skipped and went home.
lazed ard the rest of the day till baby came with dinner.
fell aslp while watching tv half way and when i woke up,
his ~~big~~ eyes were looking at me and he smiled.

you know how to melt my heart...

saturday
after dragging for two weeks, i finally went for tuition.
nothing much i guess, same tutor as before, 5yrs to be exact.

met up with baby in the evening and since the usuals of having nowhere to head to, we went back to Marina Square for the uncounted time.
in fact, every single weekend that has passed since x'mas eve.

dinner-ed at LerkThai, window shopped ard and left.
he drove ard before we finally settled down at the stretch of road at Changi looking at aeroplanes again, than down to Changi beach.
we were heading to nowhere in particular till baby took the wrg exit which he landed us both back at yishun.
upon seeing my face changed since i wasnt ready to head back home,
he brought me to Upper Seletar Reservior.
the both of us being cheeky, decided to do something naughty.
definitely NOT what your little peanuts up there are thinking,
all we did was parked inbetween two cars that were doing it inside.
how did we know?
that's simple aint it, having all four sides and the back of the car covered with newspaper and cloth.
they probably thought that it was thrilling experincing it in there.

anyway, we left soon after both car left since we were getting bored too.
headed home and enjoyed each other in the comfort of the little room of mine =)

today
got woken up all thks to my aunt whose voice is as loud as ever.
realised that i slpt in the wrg position during the night causing me to sprain my back.
OUCH PLS!

NorthZone offically starts tmr at SSS for us.
LOTS OF LOVE AND LUCK FOR US GIRLS!
i shall continue with my half done homewk for submission tmr.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:15 PM.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

these few nights have got me pondering quite alot,
and it has even come to a point where i start questioning myself about all that i'm having.

i wonder what has become...

this is so random but,
i seriously wonder how 16mths & V.day's gonna be like for me?
one thing for sure, i wont be spending it with him =(

alright, TIME FOR SCH NOW!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:52 AM.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

got up feeling super dizzy but i still dragged my ass out of bed and prepared for sch.
only when i felt it was totally impossible to move ard,
mummy said i better stay home.
YAY!
so i crashed right back to bed after a cup of milo and slpt till noon.

mummy suggested ordering Mac for lunch,
so it was burger, fries and ice tea.
was talking to mummy and well, it was a good chat.
TV, TV AND MORE TV!
daddy's been complaining that i'm watching too much tv now that sch has started.

oh well...
anyway, we're going for NP's open hse tmr after sch for some course thingy as well as to look at the courses offered.
am hoping to bump into many familar faces!
cousins, friends, bro(s)....
cant wait!
-

as i was browsing through my friends list on friendster,
it got me wondering why are some ppl born so almost-perfect but yet on the other hand, some are just so ordinary looking...

is it due to self-esteem or isit just that some just dont bother dolling up?
cant deny that some girls are born pretty naturally,
but most doll up for their almost perfect look.

and then i look back at myself...
how am i in other's eye?
then again, does it matter that how much others look at me?
contradicting, definitely yes!

i find it so hard to get clothes that are suitable for me,
but after attending the Motivation Camp,
i've learnt to blame no one.
alright, so i might be choosy at times, maybe always.
but nothing seems to fit me perfectly,
nothing seems to bring out the best in me,
futhermore, nothing brings out the confidence in me...

something for sure, no girl would wanna be called ugly.
treat all with respect!

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:30 PM.

Monday, January 15, 2007

it's the start of a new week again,
and we are definitely dead tired since it's day one of week three.
ohmygoodness!
it's already WEEK THREE.

anyway, the start of my day totally sucked.
the stripe of my bag gave way and broke out of a sudden,
and that freaking bag just fell onto the ground with a loud thud giving us a scare.
i guess it's time to get a new sch bag. *hints hints

it's been raining non-stop and my knee is hurting =(
training tmr again, god bless me.

it's just the start of the week and i'm already missing baby so much.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:10 PM.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

friday
it was the last day of our motivation camp and all of us learnt very impt knowledge there.
something that we wont get to learn in our daily lifes.

some impt phrases learnt:
(1) THE GREATEST FORM OF REVENGE IS TO BE SUCCESSFUL
(2) ALWAYS GIVE IN YOUR 100%
(3) EVERY CHOICE YOU MAKE HAVE A CONSEQUENCE
(4) LIVE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT ANY REGRESSION
(5) DOING THINGS YOU DONT LIKE WILL BENEFIT YOU

it was of so much fun, laughter and tears going on throughout the whole three days.
i personally loved the emotional part where they made us faced up to our inner self, our true self.
all of us cried like a baby cause we felt guilty of so much things that we nvr bother thinking about the past 16yrs.

thank you melvin, danny and woei tang...
YOU GUYS ARE ONE OF THE BEST TRAINERS EVER!
FOR A MORE DETAILED ENTRY OF WHAT WE'VE LEARNT THROUGHOUT THE THREE DAYS, POP OVER TO ADELINE'S BLOG.

we ended late cause we had a talk in the hall together with the parents and poor baby had to wait for me for half an hour.
dropped off honey at the mrt station before heading back to my place.
signal mum and they got ready for the surprise installed for baby.
he got a shocked when he opened the door,
they were carrying a birthday cake for him.
it was just priceless to see how shocked baby was.

got ready and we left ard 11 and headed pver to Macpherson for dinner.
we ate so much that we were bloated at the end...

what a great day to end with...

saturday
baby picked me up in the afternoonbefore we headed to Marina Square and Suntec, intended to do some shopping but i just couldnt find a right top, so i totally gave up.

the day wasnt exactly perfect since my mood was up&down.
slacked ard before baby brought me to a dog farm at Pasir Ris,
i was so into this particular puppy that i didnt felt like leaving.
we headed over to Changi Airport after and chilled over at coffee bean till ard 10 before baby brought me over to a stretch of road near Changi Village to look at aeroplanes fly/land.
i felt like a small girl at once,
getting all so fascinated looking the the planes.
we left ard 11 and we went to fetch his cousins before meeting up with his parents for supper at Geylang.

BLAHBLAHBLAH and my mood was totally spoilt,
i guess, i too spoilt their mood during supper.
felt so guilty but than again,
i was totally pissed off that i didnt bother much.

we totally ignored each other when he was driving me home,
and we totally lost it when we reached my place.
he let out everything but all i did was just cried,
i felt bad but i didnt did it on purpose...
i felt like shit inside but i wanted him to know how i felt inside.

thankfully, everything was solved after we talked properly instead of raising our voice at each other.

baby, i'm sorry.
i love you.

today
woke up slightly past one and the weather was too good to be missed.
i was so tired cause i reached home ard 2 in the morning plus my eyes were totally dead after crying so much...

brunch while watching television before i came online,
and i shall start on my homewk now.

i shall start motivating myself to study!

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:48 PM.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Happy Birthday To My Dear Boy

i'm quite sad that i wasnt able to celebrate with baby today,
with the motivation camp ending at 9pm,
there was totally no way i could meet up with him =(

i totally cant wait for fri,
baby's fetching me from sch after my motivation camp ends and we're gonna go for supper as a belated celebration for him.

it's so amazing how time flies,
in just a blink of an eye, i've known him for 5yrs.
i can still rmb very clearly how baby used to look like when he was in sec3...
it just brings back so much memories.
not forgetting about everything we've been through,
tough yet a fruitful one.

Happy Birthday again my dear,
may the year ahead be smooth sailing for us both.
i love you!

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:05 PM.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

i was hoping that my knee(s) are going to get better,
or at least, it wouldnt hurt anymore.
sadly, i was just wrg!
everything was just the beginning of what i would say, hell.

just after two trainings, my knee(s) have worsen so much than before.
even walking now seems to be a prob.
it has affected my performance,
Northzone may start nxt week.
i shall hope just for a miracle to happen...

mrsKoh and the girls have advised me to check out what's wrg with my doc, and maybe get refered to a hospital for a thorough check-up.
if i'm lucky, relying on medication will be sufficient to heal whatever's wrg but if i'm not, i may have to undergo physiotherapy at S'pore Sports Council.

anyway, training was alright today except that the carpark was so slippery that none of us actually performed for fear of injuring ourselves just before Northzone.
smart girls!
did like a million times of the strategy before getting it almost perfect, totally got mrsKoh annoyed since it seemed like forever for a perfect pass to happen.
20mins of running everywhere ard the sch before training was officially over and none of us cant be any happier.

since my knee was a hinderance,
i decided to take a cab home to safe myself from walking.
with my delicious herbal cheeken awaiting for me at home,
my dinner was settled happily.

am so tired that i didnt even touch my books today.
lucky for us, our motivation camp offically starts tmr and ends on fri.
which means that we wont be having any books-based lessons for three freaking days.
YAY!

i shall get ready for bed soon.
it will be a very long day tmr since sch only ends at 9pm,
in fact, sch only ends at 9pm till the end of the week.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:55 PM.

Monday, January 08, 2007

it's very sad to see that someone can change so much within that short period of time.
it's hurting us to know that there's no way to let you know and accept that as a fact.

life, something no one can ever predict.
something that can make someone happy yet,
it can crush someone elses dream.
life, it made our good friend changed into someone who we totally dont recognise anymore.

i wish you can see the way it's hurting us so much.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:23 PM.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

i'm just feeling very upset right now.
this time i've chose to keep mum and not let you know how i truely feel.
i'm sorry but i dont wish to spoil the fun.
I LOVE YOU!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:35 PM.

Friday, January 05, 2007

training ytd was just B O R I NG,
it almost seems like everything that's happening these few days seems rather boring to me.
so anyway, we did nothing much other than drills and competing captain's ball against the bballers since it was raining cats&dogs.

i totally lost my stamina after not training even one bit for 3mths.
totally lost it during PE today, had our 3.2km run and i couldnt even not stop every lil while.
to make things worse, my knee was hurting and aching that every step i took seems so heavy to me.
msTay said that i might have hurt my ligament,
hearing that totally sucks like shit.
Northzone is most prob starting 2weeks after,
how on earth am i gonna hang on with two injured knees?
the only solution to it for now is to wear a kneeguard,
i'll only go to the doc only if it continues hurting badly when i'm doing sports.
afterall, i dont wish to receive the bad news that i have to stop participating in sports.

daddy came to fetch me after sch today,
and i accompanyed him and mummy to the hospital for mummy's weekly checkup.
waited for quite a long time and we got rather agitated by it.
anyway, we have good news which is obviously good cause it means that mummy doesnt need to undergo op for it to heal completely.

shall end my post now.
am feeling very giddy so i'm gona rest before meeting meeting my dear boy for dinner.
YAY!
i miss him sooooooo much.
i havent seen him for four freaking days. gosh.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:45 PM.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

everyone shld be wondering how's my first day of sch...
well, first day of sch is basically very B O R I N G!

every teacher that came in were saying almost exactly the same thing,
a few were being wet blankets as well, trying to hit us hard with the truth that getting promoted to sec5 is no joke and that we shld start having the correct attitude.
so the whole day was spent listening to repeated things and to make things worse, that plastic principle of ours had to give us a talk.
by the time he was done, it was almost time for sch to end.

the worse of the worse is that we'll be having a compulsory motivation camp thingy nxt wed to fri from 8am all the way to 9pm.
i really wonder if they're trying to kill us.
which means that i cant celebrate baby's birthday for him only until i get to see him on sat.
how great is that!

anyway, lots of things have been changed ard in sch.
like how our new uniform for the sec1(s) look totally awful,
the general office changing it's name to the admin office,
the HODs are being called Deans now etc...

after sch ended, steph, weili, adeline, honey and i cab to northpoint to check out some books that we're short off.
with weili leaving earlier, tanfon came too and joined the rest of us for lunch at the foodcourt.
it was hilarious how tanfon and steph were exchanging remarks about what the colours of their penis and boobs are.
BLAHBLAHBLAH, honey and i headed over to LJS together with bekah and joann to chill and caught up with stuffs.
while honey had to leave earlier, i stayed and left when they had to go for jonathan's chalet over at downtown east.

my first day of sch just ended like that.
how will tmr be like?

no matter what, i couldnt stop missing my baby the whole day.
it aches to have to accept that fact that i cant see him as often no more.

just so you know,
this feeling's taking control of me...
i miss you!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:15 PM.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

i totally got a shock with uncounted times of trying to get my blog window to open,
for a moment i thought it got deleted somehow.
oh well, i was just scaring myself.

today's training was quite a blast!
except for the 10rounds we ran cause we were late from class trying to complete the class pride day thingy for submission supposedly tmr.
peishi wasnt ard so i got sub-ed up and i became the shooter for the day,
i'm so pleased with my performance today.
i was totally right on form, almost all shots got in.

rushed back to clas right after training to complete as much as possible.
we're actually good to go but since we do have some more time,
we've decided to add more to the class.
i guess the craziest thing we did today was to paint the wall outside our class,
heard that we were not allowed to but since we were too enthu bout it,
we didnt bother much bout what will happen when the teachers see it tmr.

it's been quite sometime since sis and i chatted on the phone,
and it was great catching up with her just now.
since her company is having some offer thingy,
we may be able to get our MotorRazrV3 cheaper.
i cant wait!
i shall pay for it this time, my first phone with my very own pay.

in times of darkness, i see your face.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:40 PM.

quality time spent with the bf before sch offically starts tmr.
am not sure what will be installed for the days to come,
but i hope that it's gonna be good.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:26 PM.

Monday, January 01, 2007

GOODBYE 2006, HELLO 2007.

New Year's Eve
it was the last day at work and boy was i feeling rather upset.
basically, i really will miss everyone at work but it was time to move on, to welcome and prepare for the new year ahead.

my sweet love came to fetch me after work and we headed to marina square to get our movie tickets before heading back to my place.
while i was getting ready, baby actually fell aslp for two whole hours.

since marina square's carpark was full, baby decided to park at suntec first before transfering over after.
finally settled our dinner at swensens after walking ard the basement for more than two rounds.
left right after but we had some probs with the marina square's carpark management before finally being able to get in.
totally bored ourselves to death since i wasnt very much in the mood to watch the fireworks.

we caught The Night At The Museum and i shant say it's a very good show.
the beginning of the show was totally B O R I N G,
and as it goes on, it was on and off-ly interesting.
i was semi awake at the beginning and when it got funny, it does get really funny but when it gets boring, i'll be on the verge on falling aslp.
anyway, i'll only rate it 3/5 stars.

after the movie, baby drove us both to Geylang hoping that the dim sam store wont be too crowded, but too bad, it was very crowded.
so a change of plan, we headed to Thomson for supper instead.
we were dead tired so we headed back right after,
and we got back to my place only after slightly past 4.
that slpy head crashed straight to bed while i had to wash up.

New Year
both of us being the slpy heads was still in bed even after 12,
we were finally awake slightly past 1 after my relatives surprised visit to spend some time with my mum.
when there's more than one family getting together,
who can expect peace and quietness?
they were so loud that baby and i got shocked out of our slp,
looking at each other with huge question marks on our heads.

washed up and introduced baby to them,
they were sooooooo nice and they kept asking him to eat.
it was so hilarious how baby just followed me ard while i was chasing after glen feeding him.

baby left ard 3, undenyable that i was very upset cause the thought that sch's gonna reopen in 2days more makes me feel...
i dread for sch to start so soon cause that will only mean that plans for our relationship will have to be changed all over again.
no more meeting up as often and no more saturday dates,
his training will be starting soon which means that our meeting every saturday will have to be replan somehow or another =(
oh man, i'll have to get use to whatever plan it will be.
i'll have to trust him that he'll know how to solve it out.

shall end here to catch my 9pm show.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:00 PM.