Saturday, April 30, 2005
happy b`d kor!!!
todae is korkor`s b`d. we wen to ecp to play. too badd i wasnt able to get inside daa water cuz of my "good sista"
but i still hadd a wonderful thou. suddenly felt that kinda bond i longg for wid jiemei for a very longg time.
didnt use`d to hadd a good impression of lena in sch but now... everythins diff!!!
she`s my da jie now.
jiemei, lena and me --> sistas 4eva
wasnt able to get in, so i was sittin ard and chat`d jiemei and da jie, we`re gossipin bout "theresa" lols.
onli we noe who that is.. muahaha. i sat alonee that daa stone for a while and i got sunburns!!!
my face, shoulder and my neck are burn`d. and i`ve becum a chao da zhu now... lols.
so many things happen`d but all that is impt is we`re all very happy and hadd a great time. we left ard 4pm+ and head`d
to daa restaurent for dinner.
we wen to ecp wid our beach wear and left wid our town wear. ppl must be tinkin we`re madd man.
we all hadd sunburns as daa sun was freakin hot!!!
~ouch ouch~
took a bus to bedok and we change`d a train to tanjong pagar. daa restaurent was lyk walkin distance,
so we walk`d dere. da jie is so cute!!! she didnt dare cross daa road wen it isnt green light.
so she was practically screamin wen we were crossin daa road. lols.
hadd our dinner and it was so fillin. daa stars was so nice and wish`d that dearr was dere too but...
too badd he didnt wana come : ((
we hadd karaok in daa vip room so they were singin and singin. hu li`s voice is damn nice.
we three sistas were goin now "so nice he`s voice, he`s singin daa song so nicely not lyk 'theresa' sing till..."
aniwae daa bill in total cost`d 800+ bucks. so everyone was suppose`d to pay 52bucks instead of 40bucks.
loads of us were shock`d aft hearin but we still pay`d. now havin probs payin my hp bill... sadd man.
jiemei was suppose`d to get home by 10pm+ but we onli left daa restaurent at bout 11pm. she got so scared
that she cry`d. so da jie wen to call her daddie and everythin was alright aft that.
[hush little baby dun you cry, everythins gonna be alright...]
got home bout 11.30pm chat`d on daa phone wid dearr till 1.30am den i wen to orh orh....
nites everyone. muacks.
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11:51 PM.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
jus came back from chinese oral, sadd man. tink i`ve fail`d cuz i dunno how to readd so many wordds.
and my discussion part scuk`d.
sumhow i`m so high in sch todae. i kept singin non stop, mayb i`m jus so stress`d up that i need`d badly to release`d it.
aft sch, was suppose`d to go northpoint wid jiemei and steph but we didnt in daa endd. jiemei accompany`d steph to
"zebra" hse, sumhow leavin me all alonee. didnt wana go home so wen back to sch. half wae back to sch, saw sunder so ask`d him to accompany me. we wen to khatib mrt station and chat`d dere till 3pm.
thank him loads man, if not i`m be rottin dunno at wher too.
am i reali still that jiemei of yours?? i`ve tried everythin to allow our fwenship to be stable, but no matter
how much i try, you never seem happy enuff. i reali did my best and i`m reali tired of this.
are you jus makin daa bloody use of me cuz i`m jus so easy to step on??? i`ve accomodate`d enuff,
it`s not lyk i dun have a mindd of my own. it`s jus that i dun wana voice out cuz i dun wana risk our fwenship at all. aft daa oral, walk`d to daa mrt station wid jiemei, steph and weili. on daa wae dere, i felt so left out cuz i was pratically walkin behind. mayb i`m jus not existin to *her at all. mayb i`ll be dere wen she needs me,
but wen she doesnt , i`m pratically invisible.
i`m doin so much but reali dere`s a limit to everythin. and i tink my limit is reachin soon. i treasure this fwenship
but no matter how much i`m doin or i`ve done.. nothin seems to be enuff... : ((
wen i was waitin for daa train to come, lil one is chattin on daa phone wid me. i was reai upset so i was lyk voicin out everythin that was upsettin me.
*sorry lil one. but other den you, i`ve got no on dere to listen at all. it`s lyk i`m all alonee wen you`re not dere.
it`s you that will alwaes bring me thru all this upsettin stuffs that are goin on. it`s you that
will make me realise that no matter wad happens, you`ll be dere. thanks so much for alwaes bein dere. ilu so much.
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5:45 PM.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
wen to town aft sch wid my cousin. walk`d ard town lookin for nice clothes to get.
wen to far east to hadd our lunch. chat`d bout my upcomin chalet and our childhood daes...
met my lil one at city hall ard 4pm+, while walkin to daa esplanade i was pwettie crazy. that kinda made us all laugh on daa wae dere. was jus tryin to make out sum laughter. sat dere for a while, havin been dere for sumtime already.
walk`d to marina square wid my cousin and dearr. we wen to giant and waslookin at everythin dere... giant has loads of stuffs. wen you`re bored you can walk ard dere... it`s pwettie fun too.
my cousin left ard 6.30pm, so we took daa train together but me and my lil one wen to plaza singapura to find my
mummie. my cousin wen for tuition!!! so she didnt wen for dinner wid us.
wen to cafe cartel wid my mummie and lil one, ate grill`d fish and waffle ice-cream for dinner. dearr didnt wan`d to
eat so i shared my food wid him : ))
aft eatin, we walk`d to daa mrt station together slowly. and we took a train home.
hadd our last kiss for daa dae as we`re gonna part.
~muacks~
*thanks so much for lettin me have a enjoyable dae lil one. i lurf you so much : ))
aishiteru *ilu
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10:21 PM.
my good "sista" has come!!!
sch was reali stress`d up due to daa oral we were gonna have in daa afternoon. but bout sch todae, mr joseph got damn piss`d
wid daa class and he hit daa ohp till daa piece of glass broke. and sumhow ms tan got to noe bout it.
and daa whole class is now expect`d to pay daa money for daa ohp. wth.. i mean he could chose not to hit that but still...
so it`s fcukin unfair that we have to pay for wad we did not made spoilt.
my lil one is now at sentosa enjoyin while i`m at home rottin. lols. so unfair he gets to enjoy wen i`ve to bloody buck up.
daa oral is damn difficult. thanks to mr foo who didnt taught we wad to sae durin daa pic discussion, but daa passage
was alright. daa passage was about smokin. *tsk tsk
finish`d sch at 1.40pm but hadd to stay back till 2pm. accompany`d jiemei roam ard khatib. endd up roamin ard
shop & save. lols. we bought food to eat den wen back to sch aft that.
and wait`d for our class turn. oral time!!!
i`m bored now!! listenin to daa cd that honey hadd burn`d for me.
"it`s in daa wae that you move me and daa wae that you tease me. daa wae that i wan you tonight. it`s in daa wae that you hold me and daa wae that you noe me wen i cun find daa right words to sae. you feel it in daa wae..."
daa lyrics is so meaninful and daa songg is so damn touchin : ))
*i miss you so much now.. nonono!!! lets jus sae i`ve never stop missin you at all. muacks. ilu
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4:46 PM.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
todae isnt a very good dae. so many things happen`d and i`m gettin stress`d up once again.
mr joseph is so.... dunno wad daa hell is he teachin too... tink i`m gonna fail poa now : ((
sum idoitic fellow wen to stole weili`s and steph`s stuffs from their bags durin recess. blah blah blah...
both of them cry`d, i sat dere feelin so helpless. all i could do was jus comfort them. how i wish i could help sumhow
but dere wasnt any solutions at all. their keys got stolen too.
seein them cry lyk that breaks my heart too. i noe i`m alwaes cryin but i still dun lyk to see my fwens cry.
after sch took daa mrt wid jiemei and yamei to yishun. we wen to study, but i wen home to bathe and get my stuffs.
met them onli at bout 3pm+ got to long john, sat down and chit-chat`d instead of studyin. was gettin ready to take out my books wen jiemei need`d to get her hub`s b`d present. so accompany`d her thru out. till my lil one came.
he was damn late. lols. call`d him at 2pm and he onli arrive`d at 5pm.
jiemei hadnt bought daa present immediately, she wan`d to ask my lil one for he`s "manly" opinion. aft he sae`d it was alright den she decide`d to bought it. accompany`d her to daa bus interchange for her bus. wait`d till her bus came den i left.
roam`d ard northpoint awaitin for jiejie to come. she was damn long. lols. wen to sem shoppin center aft that
as guoqing wan`d to see he`s "baby" but so sadd. she`s off todae. so we took daa shutter bus
back to yishun and wen to 925 for dinner. felt so stress`d up at first as i dun reali lyttk eatin wid my stead, but i
was freakin hungry so couldnt be bother`d much. ate chicken rice. ~yum yum~
walk`d ard den no wher to go le so decide`d to go home, lil one need`d to go town get he`s boxers too aniwae.
*i`ve readd your blogg. i`m so sorry : (( i noe that you were reluctent to leave. but nothin
could eva change daa fact that it still hurts to see you walk awae lyk that. i noe that you`ve comprimise`d loads.
i guess i`ll needa be more understandin towards this. i`m so sorry lil one.
and i noe that i`ll not be able to see you 24/7hrs at all. even so, all i`m wishin is that i can hear your voice every nite
before i go to bedd. ilu
aishiteru *ILU
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9:05 AM.
Monday, April 25, 2005
miss tan ask`d daa whole class to write our apd reflectio durin assembly period as we didnt hadd assembly todae.
guess wad. she onli gave us 4mins to complete one page of daa paper. so no choice nearly daa whole class stay`d back
to complete it as we were suppose`d to hand it up todae.
was meetin suling jie outside sch and i msg`d her informin her that i`ll be late as i needa complete daa assignment before i leave. but wen i got outside sch, she wasnt dere. and i thought she hadd left already, but actually she was still at assembly.
lucky me, i wen to daa hall to check out first, if not i gues i would hadd left widout her.
>>
pei jiayan jie till 2.30pm den we took daa train back home. was meetin my lil one at 3.30pm. but was late once again.
sorry my dearr. got home late thats whyy. aniwae he was very understandin and he wanst angry at all.
he sumhow arrive`d early so he wait`d an hour for me. felt so guilty wen i saw him. : ((
he accompany`d me to khatib mac to study. but sumhow i onli read my notes, didnt reali concentrate`d.
wan`d so much to spend time wid him. lols.
he need`d to leave at 6pm and i was upset. my eyes kinda got watery as 6pm near`d. wen i felt i can no longer
held on to my tears, i ask`d jie to accompany`d me to daa washroom. came out tryin to be ok wen i actually wasnt.
try`d to smile but it was damn difficult.
*reali hate it weneva i`ve to sae goodbye to you.
6pm came, he need`d to leave already. he ask`d me to accompany him down and i didnt wan to. den he sae`d jus to
daa stairs so i agree`d reluctenly.
so daa stairs and i wen back up. got reali upset and i hate seein him leave lyk that.
sat for not more den 5sec and i decide`d to go pei him. ran down daa stairs to find him. he walk`d so fast
nearly couldnt catch`d up, but i did in daa endd.
*our hands are holdin on together. i dun wana let go of you and this fairytale .ilu
wait`d till he wen up daa station. walk`d back and chat`d wid jiejie till jiefu came.
wen to 925 for dinner, hadd chicken rice as i was starvin lyk crazy. aft that accompany`d jiefu to he`s uncle hse to
collect sumthin and we wen home straight aft that.
[widout you i`ll never noe daa true reason of lurf_widout you i`ll never noe that dere is sumone out dere lurfin me so much]
aishiteru *ilu
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8:53 PM.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
hadd roti prata for breakfast. got up quite late as i onli slept at 2am, was chattin wid my lil one on
daa phone. miss him so muchh. noe wad, he sang on daa phone for me.. awww... he`s so cute, daa wae he sang even thou he sae`d that he wasnt gonna to. muacks.
you`re daa best one my dearr.
i`m offically sick now. havin a heahache and i keep feelin giddy. my voice has change`d and i guess i`m catchin a flu soon. *sorry jo`n. cun accompanyin you study todae. was keen on it but wasnt feelin well. am so rottin at home now. dere isnt anithin for me to do except watch tv, listen to songs and use daa com. missin my lil one so much now. tink that he`s still playin bball now.
_nothin`s gonna change my lurf for you_
>>
i cannot not tink that i wasnt jealous ytd. i reai was. now that i`m chattin wid you, i`m tearin.
but i`m not lettin you noe.
[i dun wana noe how much it`ll hurts if i lose you]
[i dun wana open my eyes and daa nxt time i noe is that you`re gone foreva]
i still rmb`d how much you use`d to feel for her, and how she meant so much to you.
it`s daa past but i`m still afraid that i`ll lose you.
*widout you i`ll never noe how this feels. widout you i`ll never have daa courage to lurf once again
AISHITERU *ILU
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2:29 PM.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
dere is sumthin i wana comment now. s`pore old mans are fcukin pervertic!!!
>>
daa apd was alrite todae but it wasnt as fun as last year. dere were jus too little stalls ard and every stall was kinda sellin almost daa same stuffs except for sum..
got to sch at 9am. met my cousin and andy den we wen to sch together. was damn surprise`d wen i got to sch, many
stalls were already ready for sale except ours. ms tan wasnt dere as she wenta collect daa fishballs. once daa fishballs arrive`d we all got to work. daa fishballs smells so nice!!!
stick`d up daa fishball and place`d them properly for sale. did my duty and was runnin ard once my duty was over. fun fun!!! my lil one came ard 12pm+, was damn excite`d awaitin for him to arrive`d as i hadd sumthin for him. it`s our 1st ANNIVERSARY todae!!!
but he met val[angel] in daa train and they came together. wasnt in a good mood aft hearin that. i mean obviously i`ll be jealous in a wae lah. he use`d to lyk her so much. am very afraid to lose him. : ((
so gave him daa msg in a bottle tubes and i jus turn`d and walk`d awae. i noe i wasnt reali nice by doin that but you
cun expect me to stay and jus smile and sae hie to her. cuz i definatly cun do that.
but i was alright aft sumtime. *sorry lil one
den was accompanyin ard sch as he ask`d me too... blah blah blah... he hadd to leave at 1.40pm as he was gonna go meet jason.
so i left too as i needa go home to bathe. was gonna go town wid weili, steph and jiemei. >>
goth ome bathe and got ready. took a train down to khatib to meet them. wait`d quite sumtime for them to reach. took a train down to town. walk`d ard and wen to grab`d sum food as we`re all hungry. i ate "fish lovers`" and it taste`d reali nice. daa chef was so funny too. walk`d ard town and sumhow land`d up at cine as we ran out of places to go. sat outside daa arcade, saw these grp of guys dancin para para.
laugh till we`re so gonna go nuts. lols. their dancin was reali damn freakin funny. left aft sumtime as we`re laughin so much, we kinda got afraid that we`ll get beaten up as we`re laughin reali loudly. lols. and and weili got to see her special sumone
inside daa arcade. smirks.
was msgin jiejie and i jus found out that we both stead on daa saem date but onli diff mths. woohoo. that`s frakin coincident man... miss her loads!!! : ))
left ard 8pm+ i guess and we took a train down to marina bay and back home. our leggs were so soft that we need`d to sit down. muahaha.
at a stop a old man came in and sat infront of me. he`s fcukin pervertic ok. he kept tryin to peep inside my skirt,
and wen he couldnt see anithin, he tried lookin at jiemei`s and weili`s skirt too. wth...
they alight`d at khatib and i alight`d daa nxt stop. that pervertic old man was still lookin.
argh... how pervertic and low can this old man get!!!
am now home sufferin as my aunt and my parents are singin karaok. lols. help save me!!! and and i`m drinkin red wine now. yum yum!!! nice... sorry lil one. promise to drink onli one cup kz. muacks. *i reail miss you. but it`s alright that you needa accompany jason. thou we did not spend enuff time together
todae, i was reali happy enuff that i manage`d to see you. *ilu
_HAPPY 1ST MTH ANNIVERSARY LIL ONE_
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9:45 PM.
Friday, April 22, 2005
okiie updates time!!! sch was as usual except weili, steph, jiemei and me. we were havin
exceptional fun durin maths period. jiemei was sittin wid weili and i was lyk sittin wid steph. we were throwin wet tissues at each other. lyk woah woah woah.. lols. den weili misqueue and daa tissue hit nesaar. he was slpin!!!
and guess wad. he woke up!!!
that made us four laugh till nuts man. four of us sat together durin recess. did stupid stuffs too.
>>
stay`d back aft school for daa stall deco for tmr`s apd. was damn piss`d off. everyone left leavin onli jiemei, andy and me to do everythin which was so unfair to us. but hack them, we still did complete daa deco.
daa stall was damn simple and EMPTY. lols.
finish`d quite fast as dere wasnt reali much deco to put up. drank 2packets of passion fruit and pear yougart drink.
was fill`d up aft that, so didnt hadd any lunch. aft daa deco, didnt hadd anywher to go, so wen to
my cousins class to help them out. slack inside their class first before goin down to daa carpark once again.
did this and that, ran here and dere... fahan was bein so sweet by sharin he`s mp3 player wid me as i was bored!!! ran ard in daa rain and help`d out my cousin`s class in their deco.
was playin ard wid andy too. he`s damn cute and cubby. and and i kept hittin he`s tummy and it was damn flabby.
opps : X but seriously he`s reali a very nice person. a joker too : ))
help`d them put up daa deco and i got nice and bought ice creams to eat not forgettin to get for them too... but didnt got
my money back. but it`s alright...
it alwaes rain daa day before daa apd. tink that it`s damn sway as it never fails to rain daa day before daa apd.
tinkin whyy it alwaes rain and landin daa deco ppl drentch`d up. aniwae it alwaes is fun stayin back late in sch lyk that. was suppose`d to leave sch at 6pm but my cousin, tze hui and i wait`d for van so we left sch ard 7pm.
while waitin for van, i was chattin wid hui fen. kinda find that she`s nice now thou didnt quite lyk`d her.
order`d sumthin from her stall and it was specially order`d for my lil one. as tmr is our 1st mth together.
>>
*it`s alright if you dun have anithin for me. i seriously dun mindd at all daa thing i`m gonna give
you tmr is jus a token of lurf from my heart. it`s not expensive at all.
it`s jus sumthin from me to you to rmb our very 1st mth together. i lurf you loads : )) muacks
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8:20 PM.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
ate strawberry pocky for breakfast. den to sch wid daa same usual ppl.
did our 5items todae for pe but didnt hadd enuff time to complete all. we onli manage`d to complete our
shuttle run, incline pull-up and our standin broad jump. gonna complete daa rest durin pe nxt week.
my timin for shuttle run was lyk 10sec plus, did onli 4 pull-ups cuz my last finger was injured, and onli jump 151cm for
standin broad jump as i hurt my both leggs surin daa trail jump. ~sway man~
hurt my tiny last finger, my left ankle and my right tigh. aft that couldnt even walk properly as my legg hurt loads.
sumthin happen`d aft recess and i found that it was so.... blah blah blah... dun wana sae so much.
jus hope that they`ll be fine soon.
jiemei cry`d so much jus now. see le my heart hurts so much too. dunno wad to do so i jus allow`d her cry`d everythin out on
my shoulder. that`s daa most i could do. as she wasnt ready to sae and i wasnt gonna ask aniwae....
dun wana ask too, dun wan daa previous incident to happen once more. so i rather not noe.
stay`d back aft sch to do daa apd stall deco. was damn piss`d off wid mikaris, he`s daa damn person incharge how dare
him raise he`s voice at us. was so piss`d off so we shout`d at him damn fcukin loudly. we >> pls man, you`re daa damn fcukin person incharge.
him >> how am i suppose to noe wad to do!!
we >> fcuk you lah!! you`re brains fake one isit. we`re jus here to help you. we`re not fcukin incharge.
you shld be grateful that we`re here. so dun fcukin raise your voice at us. we`re workin here lyk shit and you`re jus sittin dere playin chess.
shout`d till my nao chong xue [all daa blood gush`d to my head.] den he lan lan go
find stuffs to do. we`re all damn high jus now. we on lurf songs to hear. den we gurls all start`d singin as if we`re at kbox and writin those lyrics on daa white-board till it
was fill`d up wid all those nice and meaninful lyrics. smirkss.
o ya o ya. i jus found out that daa fruit and veg yougart drink that was sellin in sch taste`d so nice.
i drank 2packets todae ins ch summore. keke. and and it was green in colour!!! keke : ))
ate daa packet of rice i ask`d that father to bought. sumhow didnt hadd much appetite so ate half of it onli.
AISHITERU *ILU
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7:05 PM.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
i`m super duperly shagg todae, hadd chemistry test.
daa paper was alrite except for daa chemical formula part. baohui was damn pathetic, he miss`d daa lesson wen
we`re all taught daa chemical formula. den wesley didet taught him either.
so he was totally lost wen he saw daa test paper. so i did daa first ques and kinda show`d him how to do it.
but sumhow it was quite difficult so we both were stuck in ques 1 and 2. so i told him to do daa bottom one first as
it was easier. so i tink mrs lee kinda noe it lyk we`re hintin each other. keke : ))
got home and bathe. was suppose`d to meet my lil one at daa mrt station at 2.45pm but he got dere wae earlier
and i wasnt ready yet. he was so nice. he didnt hurry me, he jus told me to take my time. thou i didnt.
i quickly bathe and grab my stuffs and met him. woohoo. miss him loads.
we took daa train to sem mos. sat down got a drink and start`d doin my poa worksht. den
that father of mine call`d askin wher i was. hmmm..
nice wae is askin but in another wae is checkin la. den got kinda worry`d that he`ll suddenly appear infront of me.
hurry call`d hong hong askin wher she was, wen to daa mrt station to wait for her.
den we wen to daa national library to chit-chat ard.
chat`d bout so many stuffs. from bfs to studies to our parents... fun fun!!!
he left bout 6.50pm. thou we didnt spent a longg time together, was reali happy
that he took time to come all daa wae from he`s chalet to find me...
_daa huggs i miss, daa kiss i miss. thanks lil one for huggin me so tight and lettin me i`m gonna
be safe and sound.
*i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you loadsssssss...
AISHITERU *ILU
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7:21 AM.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
fcuk that gurl elieen man!!! she scuks. all daa stuffs she`s saein.
it`s all jus out of jealousy that she`s saein. first, jillian and jo`n.... now me!!!
she`s fcukin nuts. everydae sure needa bitch bout ppl den shuang...
~ go to hell gurl!!! ~
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5:28 PM.
first period was english and mr foo didnt came again. daa relief teacher gave us daa worksht
he hand`d to her. it`s damn fcukin thick ok. but still we manage`d to be "guai" for daa last 15mins and complete those
we noe how to do.
after that was poa. tan fon came in wid daa vice-principa to apologise to mr joseph. daa wae he apologise`d
made me and jiemei couldnt stop laughin. lols.
>>
chinese period was damn funny. gao lao shi and another teacher came in to see how was daa lesson goin on.
lu lao shi was lyk damn polite to us and she spoke so softly. her lesson was freakin borin!!!
tried not to fell aslp but in daa endd couldnt stand it and jus woah. slp till so shuang : ))
den she gave us workshts to do as she start`d noticin that a few of us are slpin already. so jiemei woke me up.
until both of daa teachers left, she suddenly scold us so loudly. a 360change man.
we`re all lyk woah...
us >> lao shi, ni bian de hen kuai hor.
lols. stay`d back aft sch for daa briefin for daa deco of our stall. got so piss`d off wid weeboon. he`s
so not enthu bout it. den me and jiemei kept scoldin him. : ))
finsh`d bout 2pm+ but didnt wana go home so early, so me and jiemei stay`d back wid weili, steph and sihan.
ate yougart for lunch. ~yum yum~
suffer`d aft tat. left sch ard 4pm+. took a cab home as my stomach hurts so much that i was so lazy to
take a train home. *tong ar. hao tong ar.
*daa chalet is comfirm already. woohoo : )) thanks to my lil one and he`s mum.
_you wen to chalet once again. will onli be seein you on my sch`s apd. which is gonna be another few daes more.
so in daa meantime, pls take care wen i`m not ard. lurf you loads. smirks
AISHITERU *ILU
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4:53 PM.
Monday, April 18, 2005
no test todae!!! : )) smirksmy class was in total chaos todae. firstly, mrs lee didnt came so we didnt hadd our chem test.
so mr lim came in for relief and he was lyk
"i`ll teach you ppl to be daa best pupil in daa worldd"
"quiet is daa sumthin blah blah blah..."
hack care!!! no one bother`d bout him thou. haha.
>>
secondly, chiese period was damn funny. wesley, jiemei, isaac and me were lyk chattin bout everythin
den lu lao shi was lyk
lu lao shi >> dere will be 2guests comin to see how our lessons are goin on [in chinese]
isaac >> so wad you`re tryin to sae afterall is that you wan all of us to give you face and keep quiet rite
lu lao shi >> yes!!! good so you all noe. we`ll all cooperate ok??
yea yea dun worry we will.. haha. wesley, isaac and a few didnt do daa chiese worksht and so as
usual. teachers complain!!! so wesley and daa rest was ask`d to stay back durin recess to complete it.
daa period before recess was physic. ms tan was damn piss`d off cuz lu lao shi wen to complain...
we didnt hadd physics test too, ms tan was angry as loads of us didnt complete daa corrections in daa
workbk. lols : ))
>>
didnt hadd assembly todae as they were gonna have daa apd full dress rehersal. stay`d in class and we`re
discussin bout daa apd stuffs.
was force`d to be in-charge`d of daa deco for our stall durin apd. was discussin half-wae sihan suddenly kept
laughin awae and she kinda couldnt stop. it piss`d ms tan so much that she shout`d so loudly.
we all got shock`d. she scream`d at sihan and she threw daa glue stick at her too. but
dhanya was damn sway cuz she got hit by daa glue stick instead. lols.
am gonna go sem mos study soon. waitin for hong hong to get ready.
jo`n, jessica, theon and aaron are gonna meet us dere too..
gonna reali study hard now. studyin social studies and physics later : ))
*i miss you so much, can you see how daa starrs are shinin so brightly for you.
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3:37 PM.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
ate roti-prata for breakfast. yum yum. got up and heat it up cuz daddie and mummie wen to my uncle`s hse.
slack daa whole dae. update`d my blogg, readd ppls blogg wrote testi blah blah blah...
parents ain`t home yet. still wonderin wad to wear for tonite`s dinner.
sian man. havin physics and chem test tmr... argh... goin nuts.. haha.
watchin xiao hai bu ben now [i not stupid]. nice show!!! : ))
watchin in progres - - - -
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2:11 PM.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
thought tat daa hair cut would be ok wid me. kinda find it screw`d up. but hong xin, dearr and mummie tinks
it`s nice. and tat is freakin makin me confuse...
wen to town wid hong xin after cuttin my hair, walk`d ard den saw my juniors at town too. decide`d to grab
sum food and my juniors decide`d to tagg alongg. i ate black pepper chicken. ~yum yum~
drools... haha.
after tat me and hong xin wen shoppin ard for my clothes, but in daa endd hong xin was daa one
who bought daa stuffs. haiz... wana get new clothes.
but thanks to my fahion consultant hong xin, i noe wad kinda clothes i`m gonna wear le.. wee...
and and not forgettin to thank my lil one.. muackies.
thou he was damn shagg aft trainin he still came town to find me.
walk`d ard and spent quality time wid him, thou it was not very longg but i was very happy.
finally aft 1week1dae i can meet up wid him...
*dun turn back lil one,
cuz i`m here.
slp tite lil one,
see you in lalala land.
daa wae you held me ytd wen we`re sittin down chattin, made me felt so protect`d
it`s as if no one can eva touch or hurt me at all.
i felt daa lurf i have hadd for a longg time.
and and we took pics wid lil one`s hp. i feel so confortable wid you, i can be who i reali am.
i`ve never felt this wae wid daa others. and i`m sure this is true lurf.
lil one, holdd me tight and pls dun let go!!!
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11:21 PM.
yawns. jus woke up as i`m suppose`d to have tuition at 9am. but thanks to mummie for purposely not lettin me
use daa bathroom, i wen to change`d my tuition to 10am.
it`s jus another quarrel you hadd wid daddie. whyy am i alwaes enddin up bein blame`d for everythin.
it was you who start`d those shoutins, bangins and bout that bitch. dun blame me jus becuz
you still dun have that sense of secure wid him.
i ain`t that ventin machine of yours, it`s you that i`m gettin timid now.
it`s you that i dun have daa feelin of lurf in this family. everyone is accomodatin you, whyy cun you do tat for us too
for once, it`ll be a grate thing if tat happens.
so i`m have another 1hr to spare. wen to readd my lil one`s update on he`s fun time at daa chalet.
*i readd wad you blogg`d at daa bottom, and i`m reali very touch`d.
it`s ok if you`re not dere wid me physically 24/7hrs cuz i noe you`ll be dere 24/7hrs in my mindd. *ilu
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8:26 AM.
Friday, April 15, 2005
it`s fridae but i ain`t in daa mood to be happy at all, thou it`s gonna be daa weekends.
no wher to go at all, jiejie and me ain`t that close animore so we hardly hang out now : ((
my lil precious one isnt free todae as usual. he`s in sch and later dunno wher he`s goin. sch scuks todae!!!
mr joesph gave onli 30mins to complete daa poa test which lead us to have freakin little time to complate it.
thanx to him loads of us didnt manage to finish`d it. it was so damn difficult. my results are reali
droppin dramactically. i hate this feelin!!
it jus makes me stresser as daes pass`s. havin physics and chem test on mon.
am pile`d wid physics worksht and tonns of notes to rmb.
[am goin nuts and out of my mindd soon]
i`m missin you lyk crazyy_my mindd`s jus goin lalala
am gonna cut my hair later. hong xin is gonna accompany me. gonna cut my fridge shorter and mayb
trim my hair slightly shorter too. kinda sick wid my present hairstyle but ain`t gonna do a 360change.
jus gonna change slightly here and dere.
my cousin is gonna get marry`d on my b`d. lets sae i`m not so keen on it. wan`d to spend
it wid my lil precious one but guess i gotta chaange my plan now : ((
*it`s gettin nearer to he`s weddin and i still ain`t sure wad i`m gonna wear!!!
i needa go get sum nice and approperiate clothes. dun wana be dere wid my town wear. i`ll feel damn weird lyk
tat. gonna ask hong xin to be my fashion consultant. lol. she saes tat i needa get sumthin made of cloth
and i needa get gurlie clothes.. haha anithin you sae gurl.
I JUS NEEDA GO SHOPP ARD TOWN I GUESS!!! not forgettin to ask my close cousin wid me too. winks
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1:40 PM.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
i`m feelin very depress`d now. and i dun have any idea whyy.i`m jus drownin myself in those sadd songs. tinkin of nice nice memories i hadd wid you.i wish i have those answers, i wish tat dere`s foreva lurf on this earth : ((i dunno wad i`m tinkin but i`m for sure on sumthin.i`ll never wana lose you at all!!! (*V*)am not feelin well now. hao xiang ta. wish tat he was here wid me. haha.jus puke and i`m feelin so "sick". puke nothin as i didnt eat so obviously nothin came out.sobs sobs. my tears roll`d out onli. and of course water from my stomach...mySWEETaddiction <3
3:18 PM.
jiemei is alrite now. phew : )) great news for todae.sch was pwettie fun todae. jiemei, me, isaac and wesley were pwettie crazy.out of a sudden felt lyk havin a chalet on my b`d.sms`d mummie and she sae`d ok. wee!!! : ))mummie doesnt noe how to book it. so hadd to ask`d my lil precious one to help me.he sae`d he`ll try. hope he`ll get it. in daa mean time was askin whether who can go and stuffs.*you dun seem daa same, sumthins wrg and i dunno wad. i dun wana feel helpless, i wana be dere.but i cun if you`re ain`t gonna tell me anithin. : (( [helpless gurl]i dunno wad to do lyk tat. i cun see you this week. it`s a torture to me. this whole week ain`t daasame at all, cuz i didnt get to see you : ((i dun feel lyk goin out todae. so am bein good by stayin at home. havin my poa test and eng test tmr. and kor has to sae sorrie to mr joseph at poa period cuz of ytd`s thingy... i mean it`s so unfair.so wad if you`re a teacher. you`re still in daa wrg. wad right do you have to twist your wordds... you`re suchha wimp.
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2:13 PM.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
hadd a very bigg fright in sch todae. hao jiemei suddenly felt uneasy and she nearly faint`d. was damn worry`d, but that stupid teacher wasnt even bother`d at all. i`m lyk wth...aniwae she was so pale that it frighten`d me till i cry`d.me and linda carry`d her all daa wae from daa 3rd floor to daa 1st. kinda carry`d her daa wrg wae andi tink i hurt my back once again...other den tat sch was alrite : ))*rest well gurl!!! you odd to have loads of rest.
after school hong xin was bein nice by accompanyin me to sem mos to study for my social studies test i`m havin tmr.but i wait`d for her till 3pm+. met at daa mrt station and took a train dere.out of a sudden it rain`d but luckily we were indoors already. but daa rain was reali heavy.ate at mos and dere were these few choir ppl i tink.they were lyk goin "la la la... lalala.." and i was goin crazy.was dere to study not to hear them lalala.. got so piss`d off and i was lyk"excuse me, can you all lower your volume. we`re kinda tryin to study here.."wee!! guess wad they were dere for another few sec and they left. so happy. [peace at last]daa rain is makin me freeze.. : (( coldd colddi didnt get to see dearr once again as he`s still at daa chalet.and i`ve receive`d another badd news. i`ll not be seein him on fri as he has to go sch, sat as he has trainin and sun as hehas to go to he`s ah ma hse... : ((saw edwin at mos again.. lalala. he was pwettie scary cuz... blah blah blah.hong xin pei`d me to cold storage to get my waffle crisp and my daisy high low milk. yum yum!!! am hungry now.~eatin in progress~ no disturbin. thanks loads : PmySWEETaddiction <3
9:50 PM.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
todae`s match rawks!!! : ))
aniwae let go back to daa start. wen to sch... was damn tired and hungry cuz mummie didn`t manage to wake
up in time to help me prepare my breakfast. took a few bites of biscuits and wen off to sch.
yamei got caught todae by ms tan todae for foldin her skirt. ms tan was damn piss`d so she decide`d to check all of our skirts.
lucky me, i fold`d my skirt inwards so she didn`t reali realise`d it. dhanya got caught for her skirt and not tuckin in her shirt.
lets jus sae it`s a damn sway dae to start wid.
decide`d to be nice, so i quickly change`d topic by askin ms tan wad kinda stuff shld we put on our class t-shirt.
winks* she start`d smilin aft tat. a great sigh alrite.
blah blah blah.. sch was alrite afterall till last two periods. was havin chi test. didn`t even noe how to readd tat damn paper.
was damn shagg and start`d to feel restless.
thanks to peiying who manage`d to allow me copy a few small parts of daa paper. : ))
my chi is reali damn lousy and my grades for it are startin to fall dramatically. badd badd news.
daddie will kill me for tat dumbb paper. hadd nothin to do, so decide`d to msg wid jiejei.
wen home wid joyce jiejie. she came to my hse and change`d and aft tat we wen to northpoint.
to power9 to get daa cheapp wristband we wan`d. we both bought daa white ones.
am very happy tat we got 1st todae for the round robin. but dunno wad bout nxt week.
aniwae ah koh gave us daa chocs she owe`d us for a very longg time. but i
didn`t ate ani, gave them to my juniors on behalf of thankin
them for helpin my team out as we didn`t hadd enuff players.
they were reali nice so gave them those chocs.. : )) i`m suchha nice senior. lol.
lucky her!!! she gets to see her dearr at daa chalet and i dun : ((
sadd man but i cun go either. as daddie doesn`t noe... lalala. onli mummie noes.
doubt i`ll be seein him at all this whole week as he`s reali busy wid he`s stuffs. haiz hao xiang ta.
tink he`s havin a great time dere now wid he`s fwens, while i`m jus missin him and bloggin. lol.
I`M HAVIN A FREAKIN GASTRIC PAIN NOW!!!
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7:35 PM.
Monday, April 11, 2005
jus came back from sem mos wid jo`n, the rain was damn heavy jus now and i kinda walk`d in it. haha.wait`d for jo`n for half-an-hour. was very freezin while waitin for her to come..was suppose`d to study but i didn`t in the endd, jus couldn`t concentrate. and edwin was reali funny.aniwae in the endd she came, drench`d up as she ran in daa rain. am sneezin now. mayb i`ve caught a coldd.felt very guilty jus now, kinda throw`d my temper at dearr dearr. frankly, i dunno whether it`s cuz i`m stress`d upor mayb i was jus pmsin. my mood hasn`t been very good lately and i dunno whyy.edwin came to mos to study wid he`s fwens too. and he was after the cereal i was eatin. ate half and he wan`d the other half so i gave it to him. and he actually finish`d everythin up widout leavin ani tiny bits for me. muahaha.left ard 6pm+, accompany`d jo`n to daa taxi-stand to wait for the cabbies as usual... den walk`d to daa mrt station alonee.sian 1/2. but i`ve been cravin for food the whole-dae. haha. am depress`d kz. tats whyy i kept feelin lyk eatin.now am home starvin once again cuz dere ain`t ani food for me to munch on at home. sadd case : ((*i`m havin cravins for cereal and milk now + chocolates!!! : )) wee...sumtimes i feel lyk cryin,
lay down and dyin,
tats wen i need you, babiie...
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7:30 PM.
been havin this pain sum sort lyk a gastric since the recess and it hurts badly.
but still.. i`m still goin out to study!!!
havin loads of tests this week and it`s stressin me out lyk shit. am chattin wid dearr now and i tink dere`s a change of plan cuz
he`s not goin out animore now. and he ain`t gonna come find me too. ~ sadd case~
aniwae am sittin infront of the com screen in pain and waitin for jo`n and her conger to be ready. he`s takin foreva to get ready!!!
haha. : )) gonna try and coach jo`n poa later. seems lyk she ain`t listenin in class. muahaha.
my class is decidin on a class t-shirt for the apd and we`re reali excite`d bout it...
aniwe am hurtin lyk shit now. so i`m gonna stop bloggin. cya!! :))*i dunno wads wrg but i tink it`s jus better tat i leave you alonee for now. is everythin gonna change?? : ((i wish it wun. i`m reali very stress`d up, you ain`t helpin in aniwae... sobs i wish everythin wun change...mySWEETaddiction <3
2:41 PM.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
i`m so sick of all this already. whyy dun you ppl leave me all alonee. aren`t you ppl tired of all this.i`m tired. mayb you may tink tat i`m dumb but i reali hadd enuff of it. so i jus freakin apologise`d and wish`d it`ll be alrite. it`s lyk i thought you`ll be dere as in reali dere. but mayb i was wrg i guess. all you sae`d was i`m stupid and dumb. dun you tink i hadd enuff. and bout those anti-me fwenster acc. i told you cuz i treat`d you as my bf but..
i dunno you lah kz. i reali dun wish to live life lyk this animore. you may tink tat they`re childish and if they wana set it
up jus let them do it. but you noe wad. if they reali set it up. it`s me tat they`re saein not you, how would you noe how i`m feelin. it`s not the first time you noe tat.
*i`m not feelin good in aniwae. i regret`d tellin you all this, mayb i`m jus addin to your probs tats all.
i dunno wads inside you mayb cuz you`ll not tell me everythin. but i reali am tired.
mayb it`ll be better if i dun tell you all of this... : ((
I JUS WANA LIVE LIFE NORMALLY, IS TAT TOO MUCH TAT I`M ASKIN!!!
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4:25 PM.
o man!!! i`m goin nuts once again. cuz jus as i thought everythin was gonna be alrite tat stupid"bitch"came and gave me probs. wait a min.. nono. she`s the emoprincess!!! muahaha
aniwae i dun care wadeva princess she is she`s still a bitch. tats wadd dearr sae`d too alrite. haha.
cum on!!! get it rite. i wouldn`t have sae`d anithin if tat "emoprincess" didn`t sae`d anithin in the first place.
i`m not tat free to sae things bout you. i`ve got loads and loads of other better stuffs to do den gossip bout you.
i ain`t tat free aniwae. so wadeva it is "emoprincess" jus leave me and my fwens alonee!! you`re jus a pain in a neck!!!
jus woke up not longg... and my mood is so crush`d by tat "emoprincess" msg. lalalala.. wadeva you sae.
cum on. frankly, you jus tink tat you`re so damn pwettie wen you`re not. whyy do you have to retain. freakin pass tat
bloodly exam and move on lah!! you`re jus pollutin the whole sch wid your presense.
i`m so hungry!!! where`s my breakfast!!! : ))
i`m chattin wid tina now. yes yes tina!!! i miss her sooo much. yes yes, we`re chattin bout those good good times trainin together. i reali miss those times. i miss those times wen we kept laughin wen we couldn`t get those drills rite.
i miss those times aft trainins wen we hung out together and talk bout loads and loads of stuffs. those times are so
memorable. and how i wish it`ll be bac again. hiaz : ((
those nice times wen we hung out at khatib mac aft trainin gossipin bout ah koh. mistreatin our food at the endd wen we cun
finish`d them. those are reali those times i`m missin. the netball bbq at ecp, haiz those nice nice times...
wen will it be bac again?? i wish dere`ll be another chance lyk those for four of us to gather together once again..
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12:02 PM.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
sadd... the time jus keeps on passin and passin...
i`m waitin and waitin.. but he still ain`t home yet.
he wen to sim lim to get he`s zen touch. *lucky him
haiz dearr.. wen are you gonna be bac home?? am reali rottin the whole dae at home le.
i feel tat i`m reali gonna start pmsin ard again. feelin very frustrate`d now.
dunno whyy too...
whyy do gurl`s "bestiie fwen" has to come every mth?? i hate it man.
it`s lyk damn freakin irritatin... and i hate gettin pms.
it`s so gonna drive me nuts... i`m gonna be a nutcase now. lol.
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9:52 PM.
jus finish`d tuition. am so shagg. didn`t wana wake up for tuition at first but hadd to go.
force`d myself out of bedd and wen to wash-up.
did eng and physics the whole 2hrs. so tired. ~yawns~
missin dearr so much now. but ain`t gonna be seein him at all todae cuz he`s havin trainin later.
was msgin jiejie durin tuition. she too ain`t gonna meet her dearr as she has to work.
poor her. gotta work straight shift todae. so ke lian. and she ain`t gonna be eatin again. sadd case man. tell her must eat le. alwaes dun listen.
muahaha.
dun tink i`ll be goin out todae at all. cuz am reali very tired.
i`m gonna slack the whole dae at home.
*i miss you so much once you`re not ard
i miss you too even wen you`re ard
i dun wana let the precious moments spent together goin awaste
so i`m pinnin it down here wen daes i miss you so much yet i dun get to see you. *ilu
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12:47 PM.
Friday, April 08, 2005
sch was as usual except tat we hadd the "ADP" preview.jilian was bein suchha bitch durin recess, i hate her to the core!!!
our class was so zai, cuz no one wen to set up a stall. haha. aniwae no one cares too wad!!!dunno wads wrg. and i feel sorrie for sihan, i noe how it reali feels to be cheat`d lyk tat. dun worry gurl time will heal those wounds of yours. meantime, dun worry yea. you have me ard.intend`d to go home straight aft sch but jiemei was waitin for her dearr, so i accompany`d her till ard 1pm. rush`d home to bathe as i was goin to meet joyce jiejie. while waitin for her to finish`d, i was pmsin wid dearr. mood wasn`t reali good at first. so was pmsin the whole wae.in the endd she came to my hse first cuz i wasn`t ready yet. we took a cab down to her hse. help`d her choose her clothes, den she go bom bom.was late meetin dearr. opps : x keke. we wen to cine to check out the timin for the movies. didn`t noe wad to watch so we watch`d "the pacifier" the show was reali nice and funny. you ppl shld go check it out.the show endd`d at 7pm. told jiejie i would go home wid her but in the endd i wen to bugis to findd my mummie. felt to guilty, as in last min she has to go home herself. didn`t wan`d to go bugis alonee so i pull`d dearr and kor along wid me. thou he wasn`t reali keen on goin but in the endd he still pei`d me dere. lurf him loads and loads man.wen he saw mummie he was so shyy, den dearr was so polite. muahaha.we walk`d ard bugis for very longg. we were so sian. cuz mummie la, shop till so longg. was so tired. haha. aft mummie was done. we wen to find her and we took the train home.-longest time spent wid dearr dearr. muacks. lurf him loads and loads-mySWEETaddiction <3
10:14 PM.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
hmmm... bout sch todae, it`s practically borin. cuz the first period was social studies.
mr alan came, he was talkin bout chpt5 blah blah blah. was highlightin those impt points and stuff. he was talkin on and on till i cannot take it, i fell aslp!!! muahaha. reali damn tired.
den andy suddenly woke me up and he was lyk wake up!!
her >> wad lah!! i`m damn tired.
andy >> you miss`d alot of impt points le.
her >> aiya, dun disturb me. highlight for me lo.
andy >> okok.
and he took and book and start`d highlightin for me. and and, the best part was he highlight`d sum parts wrg for me. haha.
was so tired, so didn`t reali got angry. i jus sae`d nvm la. hack!!! ~smiles~
and i wen bac to slp. hadd no choice to wake up at 9am cuz it was time for pe.
we did incline pull-up, standin broad jump and sit-ups. was so freakin tired and we ran 1km aft everythin. my timin was 4.1 sumthin. was kinda happy cuz me and jiemei was the first gurls. we even won to most of the guys in our class.
wen to change`d and hadd maths...
aft recess i msg`d jiejie askin her not to pon work todae. to my surprise she was already at work. haha. but she ain`t gonna eat.
*jie ar, dun lyk tat. very badd for your body one... at least must eat a bit kz. winks.
aft sch was waitin in the canteen for van cuz we hadd to go to the principal`s tea thingy at 3pm.
felt so uncomfortable as i was bein so "guai" by tuckin in my shirt and wearin my tie properly.
sat the same table as ms tay, ms tan and two other ncc guys. the nicest past was the four of us climb`d mt ophir before. was kinda shyy so didn`t reali talk`d much. in the endd didn`t reali
found it tat badd afterall. aft tat rush`d to change into my pe attire as i hadd to rush for trainin.
was damn piss`d wid my team. all i ask`d was for you gurls to try your best but the sec1s were practically walkin the whole game. got so piss`d and i change`d their positions awae...
aft the mini match i made them run 1round ard the court. was actually bein nice already as
i intend`d to let them run 3rounds.
came home walkin in the rain. didn`t walk fast as i hurt my rite tigh. it`s pain wen i bend or wen i walk. so didn`t bother bout the rain. jus slowly stroll my wae home in daa rain.
[i lurf the rain so muchie much]
*it`s you
yes, it`s you
fate will change the both of you
so come over
come on baby
let me be the one to hold you.
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7:29 PM.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
finally we talk`d but still we`re not close animore.. i can feel it but i`ll still try my best.. i reali wan things to be bac to normal : ((
sch was alrite todae. was kinda fun durin chi lesson. isaac was tryin to copy the ting xie but
he`s "skills" too lousy den teacher caught him. and the whole class was laughin awae.
havin pricipal`s tea tmr cuz we`re the cca leaders blah blah blah, sian i dun feel lyk goin.
but still have to go.
i`m chattin to secret jiejie here and we hadd a promise not to tell "them" wad we`re talkin bout.
and dearr dearr is drivin me nuts cuz he doesn`t believe me. sobs sobs.
but i reali cun sae cuz it`s a promise.
dearr is piss`d off cuz i dun wana tell me.. argh!!! how how??
haiz... sadd man.
mySWEETaddiction <3
3:30 PM.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
wrote so many stuffs den suddenly the stupid window got close`d. i jus hate my sista to the core!!! [stop treatin me lyk sum small kidd, you ain`t anione to me] jus leave me alonee!!
was damn upset wid your msg`s... dunno wads wrg but i feel tat everythin tat is happenin has got sumthin to do wid her.. dunno la.
*the blade insiide my pencil case is jus so temptin. i dun wana live life lyk how i use`d to.
i hate bein depress`d, i hate livin life widout you guys!!! but i jus hate her so much now.
hadd trainin and was damn tired. we wen to the gym and did those normal routines blah blah blah... was kinda foolin ard trainin cuz i didn`t wana be too strict towards them.
was laughin ard and stuff. aft trainin joyce jie and aihui jie wen to hadd dinner wid me.. wee. we hadd long john, aft tat walk`d ard northpoint... on the wae i was lookin out for a gift for dearr`s mum. lalala..
damn piss`d. tat entry i wrote was damn long but the stupid window got close`d.
fcukin piss`d off. ain`t gonna blogg animore... cya. signin off.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:42 AM.
Monday, April 04, 2005
~ slit the wrist and let the blood flow
tat was how i was feelin jus now. everyone seems to be changin, includin me. but whyy
am i the onli one gettin all those pin-pointin. it ain`t fair to me at all.
i treat`d you as my jiejie but yet... do you tink i reali wana be lyk tat, i need time to change bac too. lyk how you need`d time to change... but whyy judge me straight awae.
i didn`t even do tat to you but yet you do this to me...
chew jia yan this is the endd, you`re suchha follower. you dun have a mindd of your own!!!
i cry`d for 2periods jus now. eyes were so swollen. i felt reali hurt and i tink i sank into depression tat very moment. i cry`d till i couldn`t even speak a wordd. for dead is the onli wordd tat was twirlin insiide my head.
andy was reali nice for buyin tat blade for me, thanx so much dude. but in the endd
i choose not to slit tat blade across my wrist.
*life ain`t worth livin for, except for you my dearr. you ppl ain`t fwens cuz all you guys noe is to backstab. i hate life this wae, you guys are jus pushin me wae too farr le. i`m very tired!!!
wen home to bathe den val jie pei`d me to long john to study, while waitin for dearr to arrive.
study`d till 4pm+ 5pm. den pei`d dearr and guoqing to sem shoppin centre. cuz guoqing
wan`d to go see he`s "baby". stay`d in the sem music shop for quite sumtime. aft tat we walk`d ard, den dearr gotta go le cuz it`s he`s mum b`d todae. so we took a bus to yishun den i pei him to the mrt station den me and val jie wen to buy dinner to eat. [diet meal]
*it`s the wae you hold me, it`s the wae you kiss me. i lurf you alot. i wish tat moment would jus last foreva...
mySWEETaddiction <3
7:42 PM.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
at last i got the stuffs i need`d so far. my pants, necklace, bracelet, shoes...
was reali piss`d off wid my mummie.
daddie was tellin me bout the necklace and i dunno whyy you suddenly brought up tat bitch.
i dun wana get involve`d in between you two. i hadd heard enuff.
it ain`t my business!!!
* i act`d as if i didn`t care, i wish i didn`t noe. i dun wana get stuck in between you two animore. i dun wana care bout this no more. jus leave me alonee.
mummie piss`d daddie off and he decide`d he leave causeway. leavin me alonee wid mummie. was bloodly paisei cuz mummie was talkin bout tat bitch so loudly. couldn`t stand it so i shout`d at her, tellin her to keep it softer and dun disgarce me in public. aft sumtime
she decide`d to shout up.
*i tink i hadd enuff of all this. i dun wana be in between anione of you two. i wana jus live life lyk how normal ppl do. whyy add me all this...
mySWEETaddiction <3
9:58 PM.
he leaves for no one but himself is wad he told me ytd nite. but he lurfs me tats wad
he`s blogg writes... : ((
yea sadd was how i was feelin. i thought i meant everythin... haha. guess tat nv was it ba.
but he`s everythin to me... cun reali slp and i dunno whyy. so i jus decide`d to wake up and start bloggin. mummie and daddie aren`t at home now, and i dunno whyy.
faster come home!!! i wana go causeway to get my stuffs later.... : ))
i wana get my new sport shoes, new top, and a pants from giordana!!! keke. lalala..
i ask`d *him wad does i lurf you means to him...
*him >> i lurf you means... i lurf weilin lo..
she >> ... orh okok nvm...
she >> you noe wad. my i lurf you means i truely lurf you from the bottom of my heart, and no matter wad happens i`ll stick by you thru thick and thin. and i can give up my life for you too.. tat is how impt you are to me and my heart...
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:10 AM.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
am jus bac from tuition. the weather is freakin coldd and i`m so coldd now. wish dearr dearr was here to gimme a biggie bearr hugg but too badd... he ain`t here at all...
tuition was alrite, did maths the whole 2hrs. did lots of sums on toa cah soh. haha.
dunno wads wrg wid mummie. she jus keeps on naggin and naggin at me, as if one dae dun nagg will kill her. aniwae i`m jus blastin the tv now cuz i dun wana bother bout her and her naggins..
*watchin starry starry nite on channelU so dun disturb me and leave me alonee
i reali miss you alot... it`s been 6daes since i last saw you. haiz : (( pls do take lots of care, cuz you`re sick. i`m reali very worry`s esp wen you`re insistin on goin for trainin todae...
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:24 AM.
Friday, April 01, 2005
i`m reali very worry`d for you.. i reali am very happy tat you didn`t wen for trainin todae but as for tmr.... can you not go?? how i wish your answer was yes but.... you still wana go,
your body ain`t well whyy cun you wait till you`re better. haiz : ((
[i cun force you to not go, i cun make you stay at home and rest all i can do is to worry bout you and jus hope tat everythin will be jus fine...]
*i wana give you sumthin tat not everyone will get from me. it`s sumthin very special and i wish it`ll last as long as we live,
it`s sumthin tat you reali gotta look insiide it, dun jus look at it but feel wad it`s tryin to sae. it`s sumthin tat even money cun buy... you`ll feel tat magic whereva you are, no matter how near or how farr you`re awae from me...
[it`s my heart!!! i lurf you so much.]
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:43 PM.
sch wasn`t tat badd todae... except tat i felt very tired due to ytd`s trainin.
bady was achin all over the place, even hadd probs climbin up the stairs to class...
sch was overall ok i guess cuz didn`t reali concentrate i guess. opps :x
after sch, suling jiejie wen to my hse to use the com while i wen to bathe and stuff...
after tat, i wen to her hse to wait for her to bathe too...
jus nice as we`re leavin jiejie hse, dearr msg`d me saein tat he was too sick to go for he`s exam. i was damn shock`d and worry`d nearly cried out... but found out in the endd tat it was all he`s april fool`s joke.
we wan`d to shop ard as i need`d to get new tops. i`m alwaes wearin the same tops [sian].
aft walkin ard j8, jiejie bought a tube while i continue searchin for my top. didn`t found ani
so we wen to causeway. walk`d ard and wen to gelare for a ice cream waffle. i hadd blueberry cheesecake yogart ice cream on top of my waffle. yum yum!!! and i got a top from "chase"...
am at home bloggin now cuz promise`d dearr tat i`ll be home by 8pm and i`ve made it... wee : ))
*miss you so muchie muuch. you reali scare`d me wen you told me tat... i was reali so worry`d.
aft i knew tat it was jus a joke i was so relieve`d.. *ilu so much.
[i`ve sent my miss`s to the windd, if you feel ani windd blowin against you... those are the miss`s tat i`ve sent...]
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:03 PM.
