Tuesday, May 31, 2005
i`ve been at home daa whole dae and i`ve been rottin all daa wae...
ask`d my baby whether he could come down to yishun after sch tmr but... as usual he`s not comin down. he sae`d that he`s mum sae`d that sch time cannot alwaes come down...
wad an.... nvm..
ok fine, so he`s not comin... so i`ll jus continue to rot.. so wad!!!
as if dere`s ppl out dere who cares whether i`m alive. freakin piss`d off...
i`ve tried to maintain daa fwenship... but as if sumone out dere cares..
i`ve done so much... as if ppl out dere appreciates!!
you once sae`d that i`ll only find you wen i need you ard,
not true. but hack. i jus forget bout that.
you sae`d that i`ve never made daa effort of askin you out...
i did. i did ask`d but you reply`d so reluctantly...
wad can i do???
i`m so tired of everythin that i needah go thru... i feel that i`m jus gonna break down soon.
that`s whyy i hate daa holis so much. so wad if i dun have to go sch.. it`s as good as i`m
losin my fwens for a mth too... wth. i rather not have any holis den.
*i jus dun understand. whyy cun ppl jus be in my shoes for once, understand for once
wad i`m or i`ve gone thru. i mean i`m feelin real tired of all this..
i noe so farr dere isnt anythin happenin yet. but isit a sure thing that nothin will go wrg again??
LYK ONCE I`VE SAE`D, THIS FWENSHIP MEANS LOADS TOO ME.
sumtimes i reali wonder, how impt as a fwen do i mean to you... haiz : ((
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:45 PM.
Monday, May 30, 2005
got up real early cuz my jiefu needah pass`d my mum sumthin food stuffs.
hadd a real early mornin call from him at 8.15am sayin that he`s comin real soon, askin me not
to fall aslp first. dah.. i`m already up... so jus slack`d ard on daa bed,
listen`d to daa cd my baby hadd burn`d for me.
aft he came, i was obviously too awake to slp back so i watch`d tv and crack`d my brains real hard cuz i dunno wad to wear... was suppose`d to go out wid daa gang but...
in daa endd i kindah got bomb`d i guess...
me and suling jie were ready waitin for daa rest to call, jiemei was helpin her mum...
daa rest was takin their O`s so was jus patiently waitin for their paper to endd.
my cousin and justin wen missin right aft daa paper and none of was were able
to reach`d them. *irritate`d
wait`d till it was already 2pm+... i call`d jie and she say`d that she`s not goin cuz justin not goin... jiemei havent finish`d helpin her mum, obviously cun get out too..
conclusion >> freakin piss`d off i guess. i got ready at ard 1pm+. my baby reach`d my hse ard 1.30pm. yet both of us were sittin on daa sofa watchin tv lyk sum dumbols wen we`re
suppose`d to be outside townin ard.
in daa endd, my baby was jus slackin in my hse from 1.30pm+ till 8pm... lols.
thou we didnt wen out but i felt real good jus bein able to be my he`s side...
he got daa good side of my dad, he help`d me to fix`d my com.. muacks.
thanks so much baby... i cry`d for uncount`d times...
1st >> mummy`s thingy
2nd >> read jiemei`s blogg
3rd >> hugg`d him and cry`d
4th >> miss him so much that i didnt wana say goodbye
thanks for wipin my tears awae usin your sleeve,
huggin me dere lettin me noe i`m not alonee,
tellin me you lurf me uncount`d times wen you saw
i start`d tearin once again...
baby i reali dunno wad life will becum wen you`re gone...
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:09 PM.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
slackin ard at home now.
have to be lil guai abit, later gotta go sch get my report book : ((
i`m so afraid that i never do well.. cuz a few of my papers i did real badly.
jus hope that my overall is alright and i`ve pass`d it.. *pray hard
jus now in class was damn funny. me and jiemei bluff`d isacc and miaohui
that we both smoke`d den we sae aft sch go to a blk to steng(share) daa cigratte.
and they actually believe`d us.
so funny. den jiemei kept wantin to laugh out, and i kept askin her to control...
aft sch isacc was damn high. kept askin both of us to hurry while we`re packin our bags.
we wen to 7-eleven to get our mocha first den we wen to a blk.
isacc ask`d me to start first but i sae`d that i`m drinkin.... lols.
in daa endd we didnt smoke, onli both of them did. they suspect`d that we lied.
isacc >> you both bomb`d one isit??
me&jiemei >> no la... we didnt bomb
miaohui >> den whyy dun wana smoke leh??
jiemei >> i dun feel lyk smokin todae...
me >> cannot smoke ah.. mummy at home. dangerous man...
lols freakin funny. in daa endd we kept laughin but on daa other hand we kept bombin
an excuse wen we laugh`d : D
aft i collect my report book, i`m gonna meet my baby i guess... he has
a match at nee soon east community centre and he doesnt noe how to go.
*daa thought of nee soon east CC brings back loads of wonderful memories i hadd wid you..
daes wen i`m free, i`ll be sittin at daa playground behind watchin you train so hard
for upcomin match`s and stuffs.. you playin bball wid 213 peeps. shoutin and laughin ard.
you sendin me home aft trainins weneva i`m dere waitin for you...
your shoulder gettin all wet wen i cry on you. you dere to get food for me
wen i`m havin gastrics...
those are daa nice memories i`m keepin..
widout eva you existin in my life, i wouldnt have known how to compromise at all.
we`ve made uncount`d promise`s to each other durin our time together. but none was
yet true at all... nice memories is all that i`m keepin.
i`ve move`d on, so did you.. i`m glad that you`ve found *her.
as i`m happy wid my baby right now.
thanks to you.. thou it hurt`d wen you broke my heart, but cuz of it i`ve learn`d to be
sumhow stronger. and CUZ OF YOU, I NOW NOE THAT I CANNOT LOSE MY BABY
LYK HOW I LOST YOU..
* baby those are onli daa memories.. nothin`s gonna seperate us.. promise : ))
it`s you that i`m true. i dun wana lose you...
till daa dae you tell me that we`re nv meant to be... den i`ll let go.
but from now till den, nothin`s gonna change daa fact that you`re my baby boy.
i lurf you too much to let go.....
hold me tightly aight, and pls dun eva let me slip awae too *ilu
mySWEETaddiction <3
2:55 PM.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
suddenly decide`d to be guai todae. aft sch wen to northpoint foodcourt to have lunch wid suling jie... saw wilson and he`s fwen, they were sittin beside my table. lols.
jie and i were chattin ard and keepin each other update`d wid stuffs...
aft that wen home and wen online.. my baby was schin, dun wana msg him. i wan him to concentrate : D was entertainin immelia jiejie online.
she was depress`d as she havent seen her darling for 3daes. she`s sucha babe. and she rawks.
we`ve decide`d to meet up durin my holis as she`s not studyin now.
SHE`S REALI BORED ALL DAE!!!
was tryin my best to make her laugh but in daa endd she wen madd.. lols.
i`ll be awaitin for daa holis to come.. loads of stuffs to do..
mySWEETaddiction <3
7:16 PM.
Monday, May 23, 2005
HAPPY 2ND MTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!
aft bein talk`d thru by my baby and immelia jie.. i finally realise`d that i dun
reali hate my parents... that`s a reali good thingy.
wasnt intendin to go out but in the endd, i wen out wid tanfon, jiemei, cousin and my baby.
we wen townin!!! town is gettin bored already. hope other entertainment places hurry
get built : D
some of our gang ppl were suppose`d to come to my hse to watch "hse of wax" but
in the endd, jiemei`s dad hadd lend`d daa vcd out. no choice we wen to town instead.
walk`d aft and left ard 4pm plus. wen to tanfon`s hse to watch vcd. my baby hadd
left earlier as he has to go he`s ah ma hse.. was kindah sadd as i wan`d to
spent more time wid him. esp it`s OUR 2ND MTH!!!
thanks my baby for that vcd you`ve made specially for me. muacks i lurf it loads.
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am freakin piss`d off right now. jus got home and i jus got scold`d by my mum.
hao bu rong yi decide`d to not hate you so much but....
i guess it`s jus meant to be lyk that, you`ll jus alwaes make me hate you weneva i`ve deicide`d
not to. told my baby, but still IT`S MY FAULT!!!
*dun see a point tellin
me >> i jus got scold`d by my mum
baby >> huh?? whyy??
me >> my tone while talkin to her wasnt good
baby >> whose fault?? huh..
me >> mine.. but it wasnt totally my fault too.. nvm : ((
*all i wan is to jus be in a world all alonee..
allow myself to be awae from all daa things that are troublin me.
all i wan is jus to be in a world where dere`s onli YOU&ME.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:20 PM.
hadd my birthday chalet from 20th to 22th. was freakin happy cuz
i got all my gang of fwens dere to celebrate for me...
first night was pwettie fun, and and i got to watch sun rise. daa impt thing is my dad has accept`d my baby.
WOOOHOOO!!!!
baby hadd to go home on daa first night, leavin me dere alonee... but it`s alright. my fwens were at least dere.. muacks.. mummy tonn`d over too..
*parents so call`d "six sense" afraid that sumthin will happen... : ))
second night was freakin scary... loads of things happen`d. kindah spoil daa mood dere.
yaduh yaduh..................... daa whole story is very complicate`d...
dun wana elaborate much as it`s over!!!
jus was at ease till i noe that everythin was gonna be alright for that night ba...
was suppose`d to cut cake and stuffs wid joy and laughter but
endd`d up cryin and feelin very upset... but was ok aft everyone tried their
very best to cheer me up.
*thanks so much guys : D
* sorry for that wreak`d party. was suppose`d to let you guys have fun but endd`d up havin you ppl to comfort me and tellin me everythin was gonna be alright.
most of all i felt so guilty as my baby was put`d into a very difficult spot,
so stress`d that he cry`d out.. i`ve never seen my baby cry`d before and i felt
so helpless wen i saw that happen`d. i was in dilema at that time : ((
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aft all everythin was fun and i was reali happy... thanks you guys for those presents.
i reali lyk`d them loads to daa core. it`s not wad you guys gave but daa thoughts
that were in it.. *muacks..
and thanks my baby for stayin up late jus to burn that cd for me. : D
I LURF YOU GUYS & MY BABY LOADS!!!
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:30 AM.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
i`m so happy to see dajie in sch todae... lols haven saw her for a few daes already...
she`s back to RELIEF. she came to relief my class todae. that alan kok dunno
fly to where. haven been comin to class this few daes : D
was fumin at jiawei jus now after recess. cannot stand daa way he
speaks widout usin he`s brain cells. it`s lyk empty inside...
i dun reali care whether you`re my fwen`s stead. as long as you made me madd i`ll fume aight.
he was usin GOD`s name in vain!!! thou i`m not a very faithful christain but still...
i`ll fume!!! i`ll go reali madd aight. dun you eva dare say that again or i`ll sure slap you in public... it was suppose`d to be a bet on whether a fwen in class could win a arm-wrestle,
you freakin dun have to bring in any religon..
i stood up and shout`d at him. was damn piss`d off daa way he say that. we dun play or talk`d
bout ppls religon. that is that kinda tinkin you shld have MR.
havin trainin later... which i kindah dun have daa mood to go but... i`m still goin as usual
: ))
i`m so happy... i`m goin for my chalet tmr!!! i dun have to be home for 2daes... and and
I`M GONNA HAVE LOADS & LOADS OF FUN!!!
mySWEETaddiction <3
2:00 PM.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
wen to lavendar wid suling jie to make my ic... wen to town to top up my cashcard
first, that guy was so slow... made me wait till bu nai fan le.. keke.
hurry wen to take a train down to lavendar, lucky i wasnt late... dun wish`d to go back dere
daa second time : D
was suppose`d to meet justin at yishun.. cuz he`s dearie suling was missin him lyk crazy.
but he didnt came in daa endd cuz HE FELL ASLP!!! that pigg... opps : X
aniwae i wen to 925 to ate my dinner, walk`d ard northpoint to digest daa food...
am now home watch "hai tun wan lei ren"...
*i miss you so much.. i`ve so many quotes that i wana tell you but i`m not gonna tell yet.
bleahs : D dun ask me wor... slowly guess..
hint hint --> pay attention to msg`s i send you... lalala...
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:28 PM.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
nothin happen`d much todae except that i nearly so call`d quarrel wid my cousin.
haiz... yaduh yaduh.. dun wana say much bout that.. : ((
got back a few of my results. gosh!!! my results scuk man.
i`m so gonna study hard. i wana set my mindd to it!!!
was kindah sadd jus now cuz jiemei was havin mood swings i guess. and she was freakin
cold to me. kinda felt left out jus now. so was practically sittin alonee durin chinese period.
--> jill, about daa comment i made bout her as a bballer... i apologise`d for that.
but dere`s sumthin i reali need to clarify. we didnt resort to violence first. i did told elaine
that her team member was usin violence, but she didnt bother`d. so in daa endd i was elbow`d
so many times. my fwens were facin me, they saw it. we didnt start`d first...
am gonna go lavendar tmr to make my ic. i`ve made up my mind on gettin
that top i saw at top shop. and i`ll be gettin it nxt week... woohoo : D
i`m jus gonna slack ard daa whole dae todae, aint havin any mood to go out. skip`d goin
to daa gym too.. o yes o yes, i reali needa slim down again!!!
mySWEETaddiction <3
2:45 PM.
Monday, May 16, 2005
hadd daa cabin club captain ball`s match todae. everythin start`d out fine till
she start`d usin violence on us. i ren till so du lan, bo bian i wen to tell jiemei they all
to use violence too in order to protect themselves.
she`s a bballer, so she has more strength and she has hurt`d my ankle already too.
so wad if you`re a bballer!!! it doesnt give you any authority to use violence too.
i got elbow`d so many times yet we were blamed in daa endd. i dun
get daa point, it`s freakin obvious that they`re jus biased. wth... wadeva!!!
she even elbow`d tanfon kor till he`s hurt now. i freakin dun see a point in usin violence in a game jus cuz you ppl are losin. it`s jus a game for goodness sake!!
so wad you ppl won now. you ppl won widout any pride, you all use`d violence
and daa guys team pang jui for you ppl. it wasnt even a fair game.
even thou we lost but at least we lost wid pride. yuh i agree`d i did use`d violence too
but i use`d it cuz we hadd no choice too. i wouldnt wana keep lettin her
elbow us as if we aint gonna feel hurt at all.
wen to simon kor`s aunt photo film shop to took my ic photo. lols daa photo is
so funny. but nvm : D
wen to kfc for dinner and slack`d ard northpoint. my ankle hurts even wen i walk`d.
kor... dun worry, we`ll not diao them or wad so eva... we aint that bo liao!!!
jiemei and i notice`d that she looks lyk a pigg. muahaha.
but frankly, i rather look at a pigg den look at her... look at her will onli spoil one`s eyes...
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:58 PM.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
finally manage`d to convince`d my mum into gettin me a new hp.
my hp is jus crazy, no sound is comin out of it. and i dunno wen ppl...
cousin tonn`d at my hse and i woke up at 10.30am. onli to realise`d that i was late wakin my
dearr lil one out of bed. quickly jump`d of out my bed and ran to get daa phone to call him.
was suppose`d to wake him up onli but endd up chattin on daa phone wid him... : ))
hadd my breakfast and i wen to get my new hp. i wen down 3times and was freakin
tired aft everythin. my cousin got tired too cuz she accompany`d me. lols.
hadd mothers` dae dinner at coca restaurent. was piss`d off wid my dad...
yadah yadah... dun wana exactly sae waad happen`d but was so angry
that i totally hadd no appetite to eat. saw my aunt and family at fish & co...
*i miss you, i miss you... poor lil one`s body is achin all over.
wan a full body massage?? lols. bleahs. muacks
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:04 PM.
Friday, May 13, 2005
endd of daa exams!!!
woohoo.. finally daa exams are over. so enuff of daa stressful studyin daes for now..
last paper was chemistry. daa paper was ok?? i guess. lols : ))
wen to bugis wid my cousin and suling jie to get another bikini. so damn depress`d
cuz daa colour i wan`d didnt hadd
my size. so wen ard lookin for nice clothes in daa endd.. but didnt found any suitable
oso. slack`d ard till my lil one came. wen top shop to look ard, saw a nice top
and i guess i`ll get it sum other dae.
wen to far east aft that, was freakin happy cuz i found my bikini dere.. at last i bought sumthin.
wen causeway to get daa accessories me and jie wait`d for so long. wen cold storage aft that cuz we need`d to get daa food stuffs for daa steamboat. took a
train down to my another cousin`s
hse, wher daa rest of daa gang were already dere..
didnt reali hadd much appetite so ate a little onli. slack`d ard till 10.30pm,
accompany`d him to daa mrt station and i wen home.
*thanks for lettin me have a wonderful dae todae.. i lurf you.. muacks.
i reali hadd so much fun. esp wen you hugg`d me and i fell aslp...
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:50 PM.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
my tummy hurts.. and i feel so badd daa whole dae.
wen to khatib mac wid a few of our family tree tong ppl, to study for tmr`s exam.
but i didnt reali study cuz my stomach was hurtin daa whole dae... and it made me feel
so uncomfortable : ((
we wen home early todae. met dajie on daa train, she jus finish`d her tennis trainin.
on daa wae home near our homes, me and my cousin saw a poor lil cat. meowin in hungar.
so we decide`d to go to econ minimart to get a can of cat food. i bought one
and he got one too. but we endd up givin both cans to that lil cat.
i`m suchha nice person cuz i did a good deed todae...
and and i`ll be reward`d i tink... lols i mean that`s wad i hope so... : ))
am msgin dearr and he tinks that i`m havin stomach flu cuz i`m have symptoms of it..
was havin fever, tummy aches den diarreoa... o man i`m goin crazyy for sure..
i need my doc!!! where`s my doc eng... lols.
i miss you so much...
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8:29 PM.
todae`s a great dae as i`ve jus recover`d from my fever. was reali touch`d seein
my parents gettin real worry`d over my fever last night. that kinda lurf i dun get to see every other
dae. got up feelin great and left for sch... it was rainin so i wore my sweater and
walk`d in daa rain. lols.
i swear if my lil one and mum noes, they`ll kill me!!! aniwae it was not a very long distance
and so was pwettie lazy to hold on an umbrella. daa paper was alright i must sae.
was pwettie proud of myself as i manage`d to complete daa paper wid out askin for ans : ))
wen to northpoint to slack ard wid jiemei and honey. hadd long john and was chattin ard.
got home and my tummy aint feelin very good. i`ve been suspectin whether i`m
reali ok. as in i dun wana go see a doc but i`m worry`d sumthin is wrg.
havent been feelin good this daes...
*i read my lil one`s blogg. i`m very sorry to sae my dearr... if i have pass you daa
cheque already, all this wun even happen`d. i`m reali sorry...
sorry that i wasnt dere for you too : ((
i`ll pass it to you tmr wen i see you.. i`m so sorry my lil one, pls dun be angry
wid her, it`s ok that she insult`d me... it`s reali alright. pls dun hate her my dearr..
she`s jus worry`d that i wasnt gonna return back her daa money...
was kinda hurt aft readin he`s blogg but it wasnt fully her fault too. i mean it was me who delay`d daa payment. i guess he should hadd blame`d me instead of her.. but i promise i`ll pass it to you tmr wen i see you. i promise!!!
i`m feelin so guilty now. it was me who was daa cause`d of everythin...
i should hadd known earlier and pass it to him, so non of this would happen`d : ((
i feel so badd now. i`m daa cause`d of all this.
i`m so useless. i`m suppose`d to be blame`d for all this that hadd happen`d...
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:15 PM.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
suchha depressin dae for me. firstly, i cried last night while talkin to my lil one
once again... : (( haiz
dere`s so many stuffs to thrash out... but i`m not gonna do it...
got up as usual at 5.30am except i felt pathetically weak wen i got up.
my head was spinnin ard and i coudnt do anythin fast at all. ask daddie whether i hadd
a fever, but i didnt hadd one. thank godd.
aft bathin, i got so dizzy that i ran to daa toilet a few times to puke. but nothin came out cuz
i havent ate anythin yet...
hadd bread for breakfast and drank barley. ask`d mummie for panadol and she was searchin everywher for it. she ask`d wads wrg so i sae`d i was feelin
very dizzy and i kept feelin lyk pukin.
so she got me daa panadols and dizzy medicine.
took 3pills total. aft that rush`d down to meet jie and my cousin.
was so stress`d up as non of da notes seems to be gettin inside my head.
my head jus kept spinnin till i felt that i was gonna faint any moment. jiemei was askin
me to be careful, she didnt wana see me faint.
social studies paper was a screw up, i kept feelin dizzy that i wasnt
very sure wad i was writin. but hack...
i`m sick!!! so i deserve a rest. aft i finish`d daa paper, i slept on daa table.
maths paper2 was alright, dere`s jus a few question that i didnt noe how to do.
so obviously wid my trademark, i left it blank. lols. ~smirks~
my body was jus goin hot and cold. head was daa same too.
since i`m not feelin well.... i shallnt go out todae. gonna stay at home to rest,
so i`ll be at my best spirit wen i meet my lil one.
*i`m flyin up high wid daa lurf you`re providin. pls dun stop or i`ll jus go crashin down as if
i dun have any wings at all...
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:55 PM.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
i feel that you wouldnt tell me anythin that`s botherin you.
it`s hard for me to noe wads wrg, i`m alwaes guessin... i reali wish you`ll jus sae wadeva is botherin you out. i noe that aft you read this entry, you`ll jus tell me that
i`m jus tinkin too much but i noe that i`m not...
sumtimes i reali feel very tired of guessin wads wrg le, and i`ll jus keep silent
and pretend it`s not botherin me.. but actaully it does.
it bothers me greatly!!!
i dun wana sae cuz i`m afraid that i`ll stain`d our relationship... so i rather blogg it in instead.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:58 PM.
havin been bloggin lately. due to daa exams... been reali stress`d up this few daes.
not that i dun wana have good grades but i`ve reali tried hard rememberin daa notes...
aniwae i feel so stress`d up that i feel i can break down any moment. haiz...
*i noe that you`re dere for me. at this point now, i`m reali stress`d up... sorry that i vent my anger on you
a few times.. so sorry.. i noe that i shouldnt have done it. all you were tryin is jus to show
me daa concern i need`d.
daa maths paper todae was much easier den i expect`d... but daa poa paper.. haiz no hope le : ((
daa whole class got hard time handling daa paper, and i seriously found it very stressful as i couldnt do it.
i alwaes did well in my poa but now...
wen to northpoint wid simon kor to get our paparoti, yum yum. ~smirks~
got home, wen online as i was waitin for jie to come my hse before i could bathe if not
dere wun be anione to open daa door for her. was suppose`d to meet daa rest of daa gang at 2pm.
but jie onli got to my hse at 1.40pm, so i hadd to rush and stuffs....
onli manage`d to met them at 2.10pm. sorry guys : ))
wen to to civic centre to study, but didnt reali study`d.... feelin so damn crop`d up.. saw sum ppl
that we didnt wish`d to. they were so damn juai. cannot stand it.
hadd long john for dinner and got home. was infront of daa com, wen my dad suddenly came up to me.
he >> show me both your hands!!!
me >> *show`d my hands
he >> are dere any slitin scars on your hands?? did you even slit your hands at all??
me >> huh.. eh.. no lah. wher got. whyy??
he >> my fwen read daa newspaper bout teens slitin their wrist... and he wen to check he`s daughter and
found out that she slits it to. she sae`d that it was fashion in sch.....
me >> oooo... reali.. nah.. dere aint such fashion in sch...
he >> make sure i dun find you slitin your wrist or you`ll get it from me.
me >> yah.. okok i noe.
yuh.. i did slit but i didnt sae. i dun wana get into further trouble anymore. esp i dun slit it anymore.
i noe that my dad`s concern, but dere`s sumthins hard for me to communicate wid him..
esp wen he rejects me gettin a bf. i mean whyy cun i?? i dun get daa lurf i need at home,
it`s obviously normal that i`m gettin it outside.
sumtimes i reali wonder how much do they reali noe me... even fwens that aint that close noes
much more bout me den them..
cuz obviously they never listens and so i`ll never tell them anythin.. : ((
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:18 PM.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
_very last moment in time_
time stops for no one and moves unaware
its easy not to notice
its easy not to care
conversation circles
dere`s money changin hands
i`ve been standin in daa middle
i`ve been caught up in daa spin
but out of confusion
daa static and daa noise you got my attention
and made me wana live
[chorus]
live lyk its daa last moon risin
scream lyk dere`s no one dere
lose all my defenses
hold you touch you lurf, you lyk its
a very last moment in time
it seems lyk i woke up beneath a diff sky
and i`m drunk i wan i`m seein thru these open eyes
all daa little ways you move me
all daa places you expose
daa illusion i held on to
you`ve got me lettin go
i jus wana stay here soakin up daa rain
fallin out ard me wash daa world away
[chorus]
let me feel you nxt to me
let me taste daa breath you breathe
open up daa space between us
[chorus]
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:23 AM.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
hadd tuition at 9am. was so tired but it`s daa exam period so cannot miss lesson.
bath and read my lil one`s blogg before leavin for tuition...
dere was nothin for breakfast so i wen to drank a packet of ribena and wen off.
did physics daa whole lesson, half way thru... i suddenly felt so giddy. lyk i was
gonna faint any moment. but i held on, tryin hard not to tink so much, as i hadd another 1hr
more of tuition.
after tuition, wen to get my lunch and i wen home. watch`d starry starry night. gonna go out study later...
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:38 PM.
Friday, May 06, 2005
first paper todae and it`s freakin stressful... many more papers comin too...
hope daa exams will faster endd. cun wait for my chalet!! : ))
aft sch took a bus home, we wait`d so longg for that bus. so slow man...
reach`d home and it rain`d so heavily. hurry bathe and met my cousin downstairs.
no choice gotta take an umbrella. so paisei man. hate takin umbrella.
met honey at daa mrt station. wen to khatib to met kor and jiemei.
we wen to bishan. opps : X am late once again.. keke.
sorry my lil one. walk`d ard tinkin hard wad to get, but in daa endd we got daa cookie thingy.
it`s reali delicious so i dun mindd.
we place`d our order and gonna go collect it on sun. aft that we walk`d ard to get my cousin`s
mothers` day present. den they bought sum candle thingy from daa body shop.
we took a train back to khatib, wen dere to study.
my lil one got so nice by accompanyin me dere... it was lyk a couples gatherin,
all were couples dere... : )) my lil one was so poorthin, he got torture`d by me. lols.
ard 7.30pm+ we wen to shop & save to get sum food stuffs. wen to my cousin`s hse to cook spegetti and sausages. yum yum.
slack`d ard till 10.30pm den wen home. watch`d survivor and wen to bedd.
*thanks so muchh lil one. and so sorry for torturin you.. lols. muacks
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:37 PM.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
sch was pwettie normal todae. blah blah blah.. nothin reali excitin happen`d except for recess.
we`re gossipin bout "theresa" right infront of "her". lols so funny. frankly kinda dun feel lyk invitin "her" to my chalet
but bo bian almost all of them noe le. includin "her" sian 1/2
aft sch, got home to bathe and wen out to khatib mac to study. my lil one was so nice... he came down durin he`s
drivin break to accompany me. awww.. muacks.
ate infont of him. was too hungry to bother whether he was lookin. lols. study`d half way suddenly very sian,
so decide`d to took he`s hp and we start`d takin pics.
ate my choc fudge ice cream. yum yum : )) and i was lyk
me >> o no!!! i cannot eat ice cream leh.
him >> huh.. whyy??
me >> cuz will fat!!! lols.
him >> buy already den tell me cannot eat. siao ar!!!
so funny. den he wen to tell my gan jiejie and we all start`d laughin. make me paisei lo. humpt.
den dunno whyy my backbone so suan. told dearr and he was so sweet to help me massge it.
and he found a so call`d "lump" dere. he was lyk askin me to go see a doc but i didnt wan too.. and he wasnt reali please`d.
*i`m afraid to see docs. i`m afraid aft goin things dun turn out right. i`m afraid that if my backbone has sumthin wrg,
i`m not able to play netball again.. i have so much afraids that`s whyy...
wen home wid jiejie and simon. was chattin stuffs... i reali tink that things werent suppose`d to turn out
lyk that. and frankly i tink most of these has to do wid "theresa"
*dere`s no way i`m gonna trust "theresa" again. we`ve all trust`d too much.. "she`s" too jiao hua le.
and i`ll jus labelin "her" as daa realtionship wreaker and daa lier!!!
it`s daa wae you hold me. daa wae you tease me... *ilu
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.
Monday, May 02, 2005
am jus back from studyin at khatib mac. dere`s these grp of gurls.. lols. so funny : D
i kept laughin den she kinda got paisei. opps : x sorry.
was chattin so much wid jiejei jus now. talk`d bout our dearrs, up comin events, tf korkor b`d and and not forgettin to gossip
bout "theresa". lols.
so fan now. we both not very sure wad to buy for their mums for mothers` dae and and it`s comin already...
how? how? how?
wen 925 ate chicken rice but my appetite not very good so ate bout 3/4 of my food onli. aft that walk`d ard nothpoint
den saw a few 213peeps and i saw wesley kor too..
*I MISS MY LIL ONEEEEEE!!!
was expextin him to come but... in daa endd still daa same.. he didnt... and he wen to slp instead.
notice that weneva you sae you`ll come and you didnt in daa endd i`ll feel very stress`d up. lols. mayb cuz i reali wana
see you too much already. this doesnt onli happens to me alonee, suling jie oso lyk that...
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:42 PM.
happy holi everyone!!
mayb not a very happy one. lols... cuz daa exams are comin right up and i guess everyone is chiong-in now.
my exams are startin this fri and it`s freakin stressin me up.
woke up and got a naggin from my sista. wad a dae right.. nagg this, nagg that...
lalala wadeva... no time to bother havin a headache now due to daa starvation i`m in since last night. i onli ate my
breakfast ytd and i was starvin daa whole dae. and i`m still starvin now!!!
later gonna meet suling jie and justin kor to go study. haiz they`re a couple, and my lil one aint free...
nvm aniwaes he has family dae todae so cannot pull him awae too.. he`s suchha guai kia. lols : D
it`s another 17 daes to my chalet and 19 more daes to my b`d... woohoo..
it`s gonna be daa best b`d eva cuz i`m havin fwens and my lil one dere to celebrate for me..
o ya o ya... i`m gonna celebrate my b`d wid my cousin. jus lyk how we use`d to celebrate durin our childhood daes..
lurf her loads!!!
update later aft i`m back from studyin if anithin special comes up...
AISHITERU *ILU
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:52 AM.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
was suppose`d to have tuition in daa mornin. but aft my bath, i receive`d a msg from my tuition teacher saein that she`s gonna postpone daa tuition. so i sae`d ok.
daa tuition is postpone`d to wed at 3.30pm. lols so i`m not gonna be on that dae den. cun go out study too.
my mood isnt very good this few daes and i`m not sure whether isit cuz of my "good sista" or i`m jus pmsin cuz of it.
so many thoughts i`ve been havin, so many stuffs i`ve been tinkin. you sae`d that you`ll be madd if i ask`d you those.
that`s whyy i nvr will ask you. i`ve been simply gettin piss`d chattin wid you this few daes and i`m wonderin whyy.
whyy? whyy? whyy? whyy? can sumone jus tell me whyy?
it`s not lyk i wana get piss`d or feel irritate`d or sumthin but everythin seems wrg? i dunno too : ((
i`ve been feelin pwettie jealous this few daes. you jus keep tellin me that she`s very chio... that gurl this, that gurl that..
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*sumtimes i reali wish that guys can stand in our shoes and feel wadeva we are feelin. i`ve been tinkin loads this daes. i`m very afraid to lose you. every min, every sec i`ve nvr stop tinkin bout you.
i wana have loads of nice memories wid you so jus in case i lose you one dae, i`ll nvr let those memories fade awae. dere`s sumthin i`m very sure bout now, i nvr will wan this fairytale to endd.
i noe i`ll not be able to stand up strongly once again if it turns out to be a shatter`d dream.
aishiteru *ilu
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5:14 PM.
