More Than Words

Sunday, April 30, 2006

blogger is so screwd pls.
i just finished a nice long entry and it decided to not post it,
having me to retype every single thing again.
rarr.

i'm so BORED at home that i'm having a techno fever going on and
it's driving my sister nuts cause it's so loud that it's giving her a headache.
haha.

been feeling rather lethargic the whole day that i got so lazy,
gave a missed to meet up with ahbong and zhibao to head out to bugis.
had a last min plan with mr terence aka senior actually
since we were both so bored at home and wanted to head out.
but he had to move some furnitures so we had to cancel it,
changed our meeting up to tmr instead.

just had a very long shower with a full body scrub
and i'm feeling so clean and fresh right now.

iLOVEmylife for now.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:25 PM.

a stay-home saturday ytd,
i guess it'll be another stay-home sunday as well.

there may be a change in plans if that pig, ahbong wakes up.
haven promise anything yet so far so i shall see to my mood.
firstly, i finally got my haircut and hair steamed ytd.
the outcome was alright i guess, nothing really fantastic though.

my parents are out again.
they seem more interested in entertaining uncles&aunties more now,
with me getting no more attention from them anymore. *sighs

i'm real bored right now, hopping sudden plans will appear
so i can get out of the hse before i get bored to death.

till then.....
MORE SLACKING IT'LL BE.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:45 PM.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
*

was having a bad stomach pain last night
so gave a missed to updating my blog.
so here goes..

yesterday
mrJoseph decided to cancel the test since he
provided us with the wrg ans to study with.
it wasnt exactly fair if we had the test, studying with wrg notes.

mrFoo was absent again,
a free period but was mugging for geog.
skipped recess to carry on mugging for geog.
intended to cheat during the test but i had only a
peek from the notes below my desk and
decided to dismissed that idea i had.
gave all i had and im hope real hard to pass the paper.

met up with honey and sheena later after sch for a mugging
session but to only end up with chatting cum eating session.
LOL
it wasnt that bad, we did afterall taught sheena some maths.

left ard 7plus and took the train back with honey.
had a sudden major sharp pain in my tummy when i got home
which made me stuck to my bed cause it was hurting so badly.

today
was supposed to head to town with joyce jie today but
something cropped up for her so a changed in plans to other days.

had tuition at 9 and i completed a full 2hrs of chem.
PHEW.
and i'm having a headache right now.

was blog hopping through my links when i noticed something,
something i thought was way too familiar to me.
it gets rather frustrating when you read it,
esp. when ppl have been telling you bout that person.
owell, when it hits my limit.
i guess i'll have a changed in my add once again.
know your limits, i see my patiance running out real soon.

i guess it'll be another day of slacking at home
with more movie marathons with myself and the couch.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:05 PM.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

what a screwd up day for me.
and thanks to those who decided to make my day upside down.

sch started out fine only to be screwd up almost at recess time.
got quite pissed off actually.
so blah blah blah and then blah blah blah...

that was the bad part,
but i still got my fair share of fun and laughter though.

met up with han`ny and eileen after getting my stuffs back home.
went over to khatib mac to mug but it wasnt productive at all,
too much to study too little time to finish up.
geog test and poa test tmr. *God bless me
raymond came and eileen left so soon,
mug till 7 and we left for northpoint.
she, met up with her sis while i went to find ahbong.
finally gave in after many days of pestering from him,
went to the lan shop to meet up with him.
saw familiar faces like derong, zheting, zhizian, eric, francis, ah lu..

left soon after and had my usuals of ball shooting at TimeZone,
after which i accompanyed francis and ahbong to knock some asses.
well, arcade game that is. LOL
i'm having something like asthma right now,
something feels like it's stuck within my chest
causing me to have breathing difficulties...
i think i've breathed in too much second-hand smoke.

the government shld really ban smoking in s'pore,
since it's causing too much probs in our bodies and health.
110% support from me.

it got worse on my way home.
BOOOOOOOOO.
almost every single one who walked past me was smoking,
blowing it smoke to my face.
making me feel a thousand times worse than how i'm already feeling.
how inconsiderate!

shall stop here.
i'm going to stay awake and watch da chang jing today
and i shall not doze off again.
i've missed too many episodes already cause i'll always doze off.

Feeling your love, there's nothing to fear when you are near
Through every season love grows you're part of my life
Live with you this precious moment forever

I'm thinking of you always feeling you inside
I hear only your gentle voice
Your words of love when I close my eyes
My heart can still feel your warm embrace

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:15 PM.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

in just another blink of the eye, it'll be my Ns already.
just how fast time passes without us realising much.

with much excitement to be a grown up yet reminiscing the
times when everyone was still young and innocent.
with the only goal in mind to strive hard for exams and nothing else.
now, we have true friends ard to walk us through the good&bad times.
striving and working together for the only goal in mind,
yet not forgetting the meaning of what true friends is.
together going through the unexpected, the rough times
when we'll quarrel over the smallest thing possible...

TIME FLIES.
dont walk ahead too quickly,
take a breather and look back once in a while to
see what you've actually missed out along the way.

had my eng oral today,
and i'm glad to say that i'm actually quite satisfied with it.
the usuals of walking up to our choice of examiner, msEdna.
for three consecutive years, i've nvr failed to choose her.

been feeling rather moody and restless these few days.
maybe it's the weather, the unexpected rain and shine.
had my fair share of slp during M.T lesson again,
i bet mdmLu is too tired to even bother waking us up anymore.
pluck on the earpiece and head's down the table.
slpt for almost two periods when i got a sudden shocked
and woke up, immediately completing the worksheet given.

myFoo is absent again and the class was worried bout oral today.
hope everyone did alright, else we'll slaughter mrFoo. LOL

jingyong suddenly contacted me today and
he kept apologising over that thing that happened ages ago.
insisting to arrange a time to meet up so he could give me a treat,
it isnt necessary seriously.

adeline: sweety. i've got something to tell you. IMPT!!!

when you're not ard
my heart stood still
within you'll remain and always will

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:05 PM.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

i'm having this superb hilarious conversation via sms with
mrDerekEng right now and it's driving me up the wall.
HAHA.

our love that once shined so brightly
you, the light who used to guide me through darkness
you, the sun who used to shine my day
you, the star who made me feel so special
you, the only one my heart yearns for.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:10 PM.

chinese oral sucked totally.
reading the passage was such a major prob for me,
lucky msHong was nice enough to listen with patience.
i actually pity her, having to listen to me after a hard day at sch.
i was practically skipping so many words that it was as
good as totally not reading at all.
hope the discussion part will help me gain more marks.
*prays real hard

mrFoo isnt here today,
the usuals of being absent when exams are near.
the Ah Lian-ny relief teacher took over two periods again.
did two worksheets by mrFoo and was munching away my honeystars.
since we had only a period for poa today,
i bought mini boxes of cereals instead. honeystars, fruit loops & frosties.

M.T period was darn slack today.
did sihan(informal letter writing) and i was actually listening to songs
at the same time. mdmLu was not bothered at all.
i did complete my work my own today afterall, like finally pls.

lunch with the girls at 848B.
yummylicious.
had the famous ipoh kway tiao and it rained making us rush back to sch.
they took out their umbrella while running.
so hilarious.
we even had an umbrella fight in the rain. HAHA.

tmr will be eng oral.
aint that worried bout it, just hope that i'll not get pathetic marks.
shall do my best since i know i'm dead for chinese already.

shall stop here for now.
i'm famished right now and i shall go have my dinner.

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:45 PM.

Monday, April 24, 2006

看着我们当天的那照片当天我们的记念
那灰蓝的天又再回到从前
躺在我的怀里看夕阳你说希望永远都一样
不管怎样不停回想结局过后还能怎样

还记得我们的承诺总想起你说过爱我
自暴自弃也没用难道我真的想不通
虽然伤口越来越痛感觉呼吸越来越重
不会再停着一直做梦哭也没用忍着伤痛
*

i'm home from a restless day in sch.
the weather hasnt been much of a great help today,
either raining or the sun's shining so brightly.
causing me all-so-moody the whole day.
adding to it, we had chem remedial in the lab.

mr DerekL is absent from sch today and
we had a relief teacher who looks like an Ah Lian.
gosh!
the way she walked and talked, she's like a typical Ah Lian.
she was formally from our sch, ACJC then NTU.
darn shocked, cause she had 9points for Os.
well, this is what i call a high-class Ah Lian. LOL.

oh. guess i'm falling sick soon.
symptoms are showing and i better take care of myself,
i wouldnt want to fall ill during MYE else my results will deteriorate.

a week more to MYE and i haven started revision yet.
oh my oh my.
i better start SOON SOON SOON.
busy week it'll be with chinese oral tmr and eng oral on wed.
lets see how i'm going to die tmr,
since i cant even read a complete passage from my textbook.

today's assembly was very boring.
we had a talk about making sense of money by this guy from citigroup.
he totally bored us with insurance, turning dreams into reality, medisave, madishield, investments blah blah blah...
i got so bored that i was on the verge of going into dreamland.

i was so happy that it only rained after i got home,
i had forgotten to bring my unbrella to sch and if it had
rained before i got home. i bet i would have been drenched.

finally cleared that heavy feeling pressing me down,
made it clear and straight bout how i'm felt.
i'm relieved that he took it quite lightly,
without even affecting anything so far for now.

i shall go watch my show for now.
BYEBYE.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:40 PM.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

我想這一定是報應
都怪我太貪心
才讓你頭也不回的離去
*

my birthday is coming, a week after MYE.
i've got so much that i want to have, so much i want to get.

but i guess nothing will be better than me getting to see him.

it may not be my best birthday present as compared to last year,
since i was able to spent it with him for three consecutive days.
to be able to slp within his embrace and wake up seeing him.
but i'll be happy enough.

things i want to get
- flats
- bronze woven bag (honey's getting for me)
- slipper
- puma/adidas bag
- adidas/puma/pony jacket
- tops
- shorts
- belts

i guess that's all for now = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:35 PM.

When dreams of hope are shattered,
there comes a pain inside the heart,
Hard to explain and unable to forget.
With time that pain decreases and disappears,
Little by little,
slowly and slowly.
but the memory of that pain,
remains...
forever in my mind,
forever in my heart and,
forever in my life...
*
another mth with the date 23rd passing by,
i cant help but to always look back.
esp. when we're better and somehow closer now.

it's been pretty confusing wondering why it suddenly happened,
and i really dont deny that i'm happy that it happened.
afterall the memories we had together.

wishing not for the past to be back,
i'm contented with what i have.
to look back at who made my smile,
i'm glad i had that memory with my all these while.

had roti prata for brunch since i got up pretty late today.
it's been awhile since i last had that...

my parents are out for karaok again,
leaving me home alone...
BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

finally got someone interested in the ipod photo for jiefu,
hope to be able to help him sell it off fast.
will i get any commission? LOL
*all thanks to Han'ny for that info

i guess it'll be another sunday with me rotting away.
yawns...

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:20 PM.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

had tuition in the morning and i felt so dumb the
moment i was up cause i got up too early.

met up with jiejie and jiefu at northpoint and we went town.
over to Apple to collect jiefu's ipod again.
gosh, the fourth time there. ipod is so screwed up pls.

peeps who're interested in getting a complete ipod photo set(brand new).
pls inform me or tag at my tagbox.
it'll be selling within the range of 200-300bucks.

lunch at fareast and we went ard window shopping.
three of us started feeling lethargic as we made our way to heeren.
saw kelly pan jia yi and the weicong from superstar.
seriously, who cares!
i'm so not into them at all. LOL
since we were getting worse, feeling even more lethargic than before.
we made our way to cine and slacked cum dinner at maestro bistro.

most of our time were spent on cam whoring since we were bored
and had totally no where in mind we shld head off to.

allow the pics to take you through the journey.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 PM.

Friday, April 21, 2006

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
*

received a fabulous news from Han'ny today.
am so glad for her and my meifu. *tsk tsk

sch ended early at 10.10 today due to the APD cum art exhibition,
yet i still bought my HONEYSTARS to class as my snack.
was munching thoughout the whole poa lesson.

after which i met up with jiejie for breakfast since she wanted company,
had steam dumplings and she had hand-made noodles.
we chatted and left ard 11.30 than met up with sweety at ard 1.30,
we train down to bugis. went ard searching for a prezzie for TF,
but nothing seemed to catch her interest to only end up
with her getting nothing at the end of the day.
went to search for a top for my beach trip tmr, got it from esprit at 40bucks.
quite ex for a plain top though, but it's very comfortable
so i got it in the end after deciding for suchah long time.

was msging with him most of the time and i actually was at the exact
spot where he met my mum for the very first time..
memories that kept flooding my mind, those great times that i miss...

dinner with sweety at the foodcourt.
cheeken rice it was, and it tasted totally fabulous.
saw tzehui and his friend, and they joined us walking round&round...

suntaning at sentosa with jiejie tmr.
YAYNESS!
i'm going to get my golden brown tan again...

i know i miss you
i know i love you more than i do.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:20 PM.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

HANGING BY THE MOMENT.

i guess i've had enough of cooling myself down.
it's kindah frustrating cause i've been quarreling with ahbong
this few times. in order to get things done with,
i'll always shut myself away till things are better.
i maybe running away from things but at least it helps...

another quarrel i had with him just now.
rejected his call a few times before sorting it out slowly,
i hate to see things going on the wrg track.
it'll nvr fail to get me depressed since life is so hard to live already.

sch was madness today.
bought a big box of cereal from shop&save on the way to sch.
was munching throughout till the box was empty,
a fair share was given to peeps in class too...
HONEYSTARS for tmr.

our class got chased out by mr loong from the lab again!
thanks to mr joseph who made an empty promise to the class,
it got us so furious that the remaining time was hell.

sch seems really stressful this period of time since
we're having tests every single day till MYE's here.
and once MYE ends, it'll be intensive revision till Ns.
STRESS, STRESS, STRESS...

being a good girl today, got back home straight after sch.

hope there'll be plans for tmr cause we'll be ending at 10.10,
then it'll be preparations for those involoved in APD.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:30 PM.

TOTALLY IN NO MOOD!!!

be smart.
leave me alone.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:00 PM.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

sunday
movie marathon through out the whole day.
as lazy as i could get, i was on the coach the whole time.
with my mouth munching on junks non-stop.

monday
got ticked off by mr foo for not handing in my essay
which i've owed him for more than a week.
had chem remedial and we completed topic 12.
pathetic attendance though, as usual wesley and gang dissapeared.

got home and it kept raining non-stop.
wash-up and went to northpoint, met up with jiejie and jiefu.
we had lunch at LJS and i got down with my essay.
ahbong and zhibao came and met us later.
went over to TimeZone and i had my fair share of ball shooting.

accompanyed jiefu over to the lan shop, he played red alert
while we slacked at the side doing nothing but rotting.. LOL.

today
sch was alright.
finally handed in my essay and got quite pissed bout something...
whatever...

stayed back for social studies remedial but as usual,
the attendance sucked.
the attendance will forever be like that with ppl from our class.

it rain again!
having an umbrella wasnt an issue anymore cause i'll
still get wet no matter what, got home with my skirt and shirt wet.
HOW GREAT.

andand not forgetting,
thanks a million to peisi for agreeing to help me edit the pics.
*MUAHHHSSS

we fell apart
and our precious bond was broken
and our feelings just feelings anymore
it's just words without any emotion no more.

baby,
you're truely something to me
something only i thought i would see in my dreams
but at the end of the day,
everything got broken in the end...
with only a soft whisper from me to you.
I MISS YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:55 PM.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己

我的心中还有太多话来不及说
是不是不够勇敢
我的心越飘越乱
忽然失了方向感
哪里能找得到答案?
*

on our way to SPCA,
the bus brought me back to memory lane.
the road he used to take me to collect the car from his granny's.

there was something inside me that didnt allowed me to hold on to the tears.
faced out of the window and sobbed silently to myself.
i knew somewhere, somehow, i still do miss him at times.
at times like this, when i'm brought back to memory lane unknowingly.

had this major prob at SPCA that we ended up not doing CIP there.
totally sucked!
since we got up so darn early intending to finish it up.
rushed over to tao payoh during noon and went door-to-door
at the estates there where lots of old folks live...
finally, this sweet couple allowed us in,
lots of stories from their times they've told us...
great experienced = )

caught the movie, Take The Lead with my sister in the evening.
a very inspiring show.
lessons on how to respect ppl and accept ppl for who they are,
to not always be a wet blanket and presume that they cant acheive anything.
overall, i'll rate it 4stars out of 5.

met up with jiejie, jiefu, zhibao, ahbong and aaron at 925.
slacked outside funland, and zhibao asked me something...
chatted abit and kindah got quite upset over something that happened.
well, like what i'll always say i know it's hard to be so near yet so far to... but...
i'm not ready! not ready to get my whole life screwed up all over again.
after all the chatting, we went over to mac to have ice-cream...
SWEET SWEET TOOTH =)

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:30 PM.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you left
Like a love heart carved on a tree

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you've left them
All over this heart of mine
*

had so much fun during POA,
had our lesson in the rundown lab when
mr loong decided to spoil our fun.
we were expected to leave and head back to class
but that blockhead locked us inside the room!
how much dumber can he get?

RAIN, RAIN, RAIN...
it keeps raining non-stop these few days but we love it,
cause our class is so freaking STUFFY when the sun's out.

blah blah blah...

gave a missed for POA rememdial today.
we were in no mood for remedial so we went home.

met up with jiejie, jiefu and ahbong in the evening for a movie, black night.
the whole theater had only 8ppl but the show wasnt bad at all.
one movie which actually included three horror stories.
got scared by ahbong repeatedly inside and whe the movie ended,
jiefu decided to give it a big ending by scaring jiejie and i.
i actually cried cause i was so shocked and didnt know how to react..
dinner at LJS and over to cold storage to get mummy something.

homeSWEEThome = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 PM.

Monday, April 10, 2006

i'm still not sure bout going MOS on 30th may.
sighs.
i guess we'll talk bout it aft the mid-year's over.

lost to Boardrick Sec 15-12.
they stood an advantage cause they were using home ground
and our players were mostly down.
we tried our best, but maybe it just wasnt enough.
it's over. so, great work girls = )
our game tmr shall be one we'll learn frm.

another game that got me injured once again...

had dinner at northpoint's mac with jiefu, jiejie, ahbong, aaron & zhibao.
ahbong was super nice to help me complete drawing my phy thingy.

adeline called me regarding something.
darn shocked to hear what she told me
and definitely darn pissed off bout it.
well, tmr is THE day.
the day where that bitch will be sent to the heidi's.
MUAHAHA = D
*i'm suchah mean girl.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:40 PM.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

finally done with editing my friendster account...
since we've always intended to make a SEVENsisters account,
but it seems like no one's taking the first step.

i took a few hours doing everything and
i've finally done it all, editing the account and stuffs...
hope you girls love it = )
pm me if there's anything you want to add or change...

*

why do i sometimes feel the urge of wanting the past to be back again
yet on the other hand, feeling so afraid and hurt that it'll end...
i do wish that we havent started at times,
so we'll still be that close like how we first started out.

how have you been?
have you miss me all these while?
have you wish we havent ended at all?
do you still love me deep within?

so many qns i feel like asking but...

230305.
i guess it'll just numbers with true meaning deep within.

every mth, i'll look forward to the 23rd.
knowing that it'll nvr be the same anymore, but inside...
i'll always count towards the nxt mth coming ahead.
hoping i was more mature in that relationship,
else it'll already been our 1yr 17days together.

it's too late to turn back,
to look at what shld have been done
for everything was gone in a night's time...

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:15 PM.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

my back is hurting!!!
RARR.

i got so bored that i started cam whoring.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:05 PM.

BEEN FAR AWAY FOR FAR TOO LONG

yesterday
match against Temasek Sec.
sadly, we lost to them 36-10.
was quite a tough game due to our stamina...
we had everything prepared and ready, except for our stamina.

was quite upset at the end of everything,
broke down and got the others worried. *SORRY GIRLS
i know i shldnt blame myself for our lost but
yet somehow i felt i'm to be partly blamed for it.

there was this particular one who kept her vulgerities
going on&on during the game. it got some of us quite afftected
and things started going the wrg track on court.

got my kneecap and back injured again.
TOTALLY SUCKY!!!
we've got matches on this coming mon and tues.
so it's totally impossible for me to recover in such a short period of time.
my back is actually hurting that i've got difficulty doing my normal stuffs.

met ahbong, aaron and freddy after that.
accompanyed them for dinner at 925 but i lost all my appitite...
chatted and they went funland, stood outside talking to ahbong
and left soon after since they were going to somewhere else.

today
Even though I still love you
I've got to let you go
I'll have to let the memories of us just stay alive
instead of being with you
Even though we arent together
I'm grateful for what we had in the past
and all that you've made me felt
You will always have that special little place in my heart
*

tuition as usual in the morning.
was msging with him during tuition and
something inside me really felt like turning back time.

to be back in his arms,
to be back in his embrace.
to feel love overwhelmed inside me.

i've gave a missed to go bugis with ahbong and aaron simply
bacause i'm TOO LAZY and my back is hurting...
so i shall be a good girl today and stay at home = )
it's actually nice slacking at home since i'm broke right now
and i havent been home during the weekends since who knows when.

had a chat with mummy and she asked about him.
didnt say much to her but she got to know what she wanted though.
nothing much to hide since it's been over for 3mths plus..
mummy was actually asking how i'm intending to celebrate my
birthday which falls nxt mth. SO FAST!!! 15 on going to 16 = )
haven exactly thought of any plans yet, but prolly wont be having a chalet
this year since mummy's pocket is kindah tight and Ns are coming soon.

a definite thing is that i'll be celebrating with the SEVENsisters.
hmmm..
maybe my parents will be nice enough to let me have a shopping spree? LOL.

enough of day-dreaming for now.
shall allow my back to have more rest since i'm a princess at home today.

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:35 PM.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

MEMORIES THAT ARE PLAYING LIKE A FILM WITHOUT SOUND.

looking at those photographs
it never fails to make me laugh
i wonder what had happened that made our eyes red.

if i could relieve those days we used to have
will i still be as happy as i am?
*

received a bad news early in the morning.
got us all so pissed off, thanks to some self-centered ppl
who only think for themselves and not others.

the sitting arrangements are once again changed,
for the worse it had became this time.
ending with everyone feeling so unhappy bout it.

cam whored before poa remedial
and we finally got a complete seven sisters pic. LOL.

had the yearly principal's tea gathering again.
this time was a lil bit different though, it's principal's tea cum workshop.

ice-breaker blah blah blah..
discussed bout stuffs and food was cathered for us too.
great gathering together with the other leaders since we're
normally very busy to even talk to each other....

ended at 5 and i trained back home with sihan.

Naval Base Sec VS Temasek Sec
all the best to us tmr = )
strive and all the way we shall head forward.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

saturday
tuition in the morning and off to town with jiejie and jiefu.
great time out with them again, had lots of nonsense going on.

our day at town was fabulous starting with
wheelock, over to Apple to collect jiefu's ipod.
lots of window shopping done at fareast before heading
over to lucky plaza for pool to kill some time away.
saw abang and friends there, it's nice since i havent seen
him in ages after he grad from our sch.
dropped by nee ann city for lil while since ahbong wanted us to...
slacked outside for sometime and jiefu got us nuts after ahbong
carried on with his work inside the show...
jiefu was going 'lets go slack-eat-cum',
while jiejie meant 'lets go eat-cum-slack'.
see what nonsense we were going on&on throughout the whole time.

had our dinner at maestro bistro again.
we were eating and somehow we felt so high that we couldnt
stop ourselves from going on&on with our nonsense.
it's as if we had drank and were drank, so we were THAT high...

waited for ahbong and aaron to finished up their job and they met us
together with freddy, the guy whose face i felt like punching. LOL
trained back and he was so sweet to walk me back.

today
after that heart-to-heart talk we had ytd,
i felt so much inside me somehow.
i'm not sure whether what i'm feeling inside shld be taken with actions
but i believe that time will show me a route, a route which is right for me.

it's almost the sixth time he has asked.
yet, every single time... my ans came out the same.
so much i'm feeling but with THAT much fear i'm having,
it's stopping me from making a decision i know i shld make.

i'm glad that he understood what i was said last night.
i know how much it hurts deeply inside to be so near yet so far
from the one you truly love.
but... i'm not ready yet cause i'm afraid of what i've to handle in future.

Dark clouds cast a patch of shadow over our hearts
I listen closely to the feelings that have long been silenced
Distinct and transparent
Just like a beautiful landscape
That can only be clearly seen in one’s memories

A gentleness that came and went
Has already been locked by time
All that’s left are grievances that cannot be waved apart

I ignite a candle to warm this year-end’s autumn
The aurora steals the horizon
The north wind flits across, thinking of your appearance
I think of love as a falling leaf
But I cannot trade back that familiar face

My love for you transcends time
Two lines of tears that fell for the end of autumn
Has let love completely permeate the surface of the earth

Can a heart that’s been thoroughly wounded keep on loving me?

i dont understand...
why are you suddenly all-so-nice-and-sweet to me now.
everything that i used to longed was destroyed in a night's time
yet after going through all those hurtful times alone,
you came back being the one i used to see inside my heart.

can this be a sign, a sign of something i'm not sure of?

the past has came back, awaiting for me to be back in his arms again
but than again... i cant seem to figure out what you're trying to do.
leaving me in total confussion of how this whole thing shall be.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:40 PM.