More Than Words

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

I'M A HAPPY GIRL IN A HAPPY WORLD.

today, i realise what my heart has been yearning all along.
what my heart miss the most all this while.

i'm glad i didnt rush to make any decision at all...

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:05 PM.

i'm getting the urge to blog once again
thou life seriously isnt that exciting anymore.

everyday just seems to be happening according to plan,
without much surprises...

got back my eng and poa results.
was really glad that i passed the paper and with acceptable gardes.
scored 33/50 happy but not good enough and for poa,
i scored only a pathetic 9 and a half over 40.
my mood was so crushed and the sisters were trying
all means to cheer me up.
it was supposed to be ms tan's lesson but mr joseph
decided to take over the other period. once i collected my paper,
i headed straight to the toilet and
the five of us skipped the rest of the lesson.
our usuals of slacking in the toilet chatting till the period's over.

ms tan's lesson was definitely the BEST today seriously.
a new trend has started, guys frm my class are sticking stickers
on each other's back or even their ass. it was so hilarious.
it went to the extend that one of them even pasted it on ms tan's back,
walking ard the class without even realising it...
but the whole class kept laughing non-stop,
only to realised it when the lesson was almost over.
she wasnt angry yet she was laughing together with us.

chinese lesson ended late so by the time i went to find
ahkoh to discuss bout tmr, she wanted to head out for lunch.
sighs. i've got to go see her tmr instead.
we'll be having hse meeting tmr, but we decided to skip it. haha.

was supposed to meet up with HappyApple today
but i decided to gave it a missed in the end.
aint as hyper today, kindah feeling down at the same time too..

finally, caught up with immelia sis.
chatted on the phone for sometime. everything she said to me,
i kindah understand it all yet feeling all so confuse at the same time.

i had suddenly lost my appetite again.
guess there is suddenly so much qns marks inside my head right now
that i'm trying to figure them out one by one...

andand HappleApple is so cute. he said
"i know why you lost your appetite cause you didnt see me today..."
haha. he was trying to cheer me up when i was upset over my poa results.
how nice = )

-

i dread it when ppl just wouldnt stop asking whether
am i gonna reconsider my decision and patch back with him.
no, my decision is final. i hope you ppl get this in.

it's not that he is not good enough or what so ever reasons..
it's just that i'm in no condition to get into another relationship.
i know very well what the outcome will be,
it'll just happen sooner or later
but the prob is that it'll happen somehow, one day...

i really dont like to be in this position right now.
when two others are good buddies yet...
so i've decided to not make a decision,
aftall i've told myself that i aint gonna risk getting hurt once more...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:30 PM.

Monday, February 27, 2006

TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS BUT NVR THE SCARS.

just when i thought i ran out of reasons to SMILE,
you came along in my life.
bringing the most genuine smile on my face.

i never knew that one day, someone will drop a tear for me.
i never expected to be cherished by someone so much,
yet not being able to be together.
i never knew that i was so impt to someone till you appeared.

*

sch was alright.
collected back our physics results and my grades are horrible.
a pathetic 11/35
BOO....

thanks to my peeps for helping me through this period of time.
in a state of confusion, i'm really afraid i'll go the wrg path
and if it wasnt for you girls. i guess i couldnt have did it = )

all this while i've been asking myself whether it's all worth
the tears i've been crying silently at night...
till this very day today, i finally understand everything.
IT WASNT WORTH IT AT ALL!!!
cause what i heard hurt a thousand times more..

since your feelings have faded so long ago,
why didnt you end it sooner...
why didnt you end it sooner,
so i wouldnt have allowed myself to get hurt any deeper.
but i guess, whatever i heard isnt gonna matter anymore.

came straight back home cause sweety was pressing for the pics
and for me to hurry update my blog which was left untouched for a week.

well, i went to met HappyApple at the playground ard 5.
sat there and chatted, disturbing each other as usual.
changed our place to a staircase under a blk near my pri sch
and we were having a heart-to-heart talk.

we really opened up and i got a shocked to see his tears.
i never thought that this very day would come,
when a guy tears infront of me telling me how much he's afraid
i'll leave his life and not turn back...
but i am seriously not ready for another relationship,
i'm afraid that history will just keep repeating itself...
things just ended with the both of us tearing..

it feels utterly safe when i'm by his side,
the shoulders that is always there when i'm upset..
all i can say is MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH LAUGHTER CAUSE OF YOU.

all the hurt and pain i'm living with,
i'm wondering why you broke my fragile heart again.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:00 PM.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

sorry peeps.
havent been able to squeeze out time to update this rusty blog.

i better update else i'll get slaughtered by sweety. haha.

monday
maths test.

tuesday
social studies test.

wednesday
last day of the common test.
YAYNESS = )

physics and P.O.A test.

had training and ahkoh gave the captain post to me.
though i was quite reluctant but i've sorted it out with
the support of my sisters...

had our dinner at 848 and started our nonsense again...

thursday
sch was immediately as usual. though we were still in the
want-to-slack-more attitude, none of the teachers gave in...

rushed back home aft sch and got ready,
trained down to khatib and met up with jo.
she wanted to head to town, changing to esplanade aft that
and when i met up with her. she felt like going no where.
cabbed back to her hse to slack while we cracked our brains
to decide where we shld go.
ended up we cabbed to northpoint's BK.

while waiting for princess jo to get ready,
auntie jo was talking to us both about guys.
she told us that we're still in our growing up stage so we shldnt
make wrg decisions or we'll regret later in our lifes.
i guess she's really right bout it...

we were so bored that we went to took neos but
it was all screwed up so we ended up cam whoring.

aft the girl left, i went to met up with ahbong and kangxin kor.
hang ard and we headed over to 213 then headed to 296....
left and got home ard 10.

friday
honey and i went to bugis as i was in a hurry to get my stuffs.
i was very happy that i've got no prob finding for my jeans and slipper,
the only prob i had was deciding which suited me better. haha.

in the end, i got myself a total of 100bucks of things.
my jeans, slipper, necklace, pouch, two earstuds.
excitedly we trained back to yishun,
met up with 213 peeps at BK. saw joseph&pris baby daughter,
her name is kexuan. so adorable can, i wanted to bring her home.

aft they we done eating, honey left first and i accompanyed
them to 293 mac, meeting up with baby sharmine too...
since kexuan was in the pram, ahbong and i took her for a walk
only to allow ahcai to make fun of us. saying how young we both
are as a parent to kexuan and him. it was so hilarious can...
half way through our stroll kexuan was slpy so i carried her instead..

slacked at mac till 10 and ahbong walked me home.

saturday
had tuition in the morning and met my sweety at ard 1plus.
had our lunch at LJS brfore training down to town.
went to the library to search for more info for our eng assignment.
finished up in no time only to get stuck in the library waiting for
princess weili&steph. once again, we waited for an hour.

walked over to fareast since they had cravings for Na Na Thai.
had our dinner and something really funny happened that
it got us laughing so hard that everyone was looking...
walked over to shaw and got our butts sat at TCC,
waited for ahbong and HappyApple to arrived...

cam whored once again, seriously...
it's starting to be a hobby of mine when i'm dead bored.

some random pics taken.

trained home at 10 and went to 213 to met up with the rest.
slacked outside ahdan's hse and the bball court...
only left at ard 11plus, got home ard 12...

sunday
met up with sweety and honey to complete our assignment.
honey had TTSH appointment, so she left ard 3.
sweety and i then slacked till ard 4, headed over to northpoint...
she's so sweet to accompany to me TimeZone to shoot balls.
did lots of slacking, accompanyed her to wait for her bus ard 4.

met up with HappyApple aft that.
went to 293 mac and i started drawing my netball strategies for the team.

ahbong came ard 5plus 6 i guess, and bencheng came soon aft.
aft they ate we left ard 7 and headed over to 213.
accompanyed them to buy their cigarettes, only to had a tiff with
ahbong on the way. was so pissed off that i walked away instantly..

called HappyApple and he came to accomapnyed me.

we sat at the playground till 9plus.
my HappyApple just never fails to brighten up my day...

-thanks for always being there, protecting me frm this cruel world.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:51 PM.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

poof.
i just got back home.
tired, tired, tired...

my day was horrible at the beginning.
actual plan was supposed to meet jo but
something cropped up suddenly so she couldnt meet up.

had a hard time searching for ppl to come out last min,
so ended up meeting my cousin. he's suchah sweety,
he accompanyed me till 3.30 and he left for tuition.
AB came ard 4 accompanyed for lil while till
diana and shipei came at ard 4.30...

studied my chem and did my notes.
wasnt exactly in my bestest best mood though,
i aint sure why either but exams are damn stressful now.

went over to 213 since they kept asking...
slacked there for a while then headed back to BK,
only to head back there again.
KX was damn mean, he told me to come back in threes instead
of two cause shipei was at BK waiting for us to get back.
packed our stuffs and back to 213, sat under the void deck to study.
the wind was very strong, so our papers were practically flying.

left ard 8 and we had our dinner at northpoint's foodcourt.
the mini woks seafood crispy noodle tasted great, shall have it again.

as i count down the days that everything's gone.
another 6days more to the second mth...

-

one last thing for today.
ppl who are unhappy with what i blog here,
leave at once for i dont give a damn whether you like it anot.

for it's my blog and i'll blog whatever i want here.
as long as i dont break the law,
i fucking dont bother whether you like it anot.

if you want to leave a comment at my tagbox,
DARE to leave your bloody name then.

THANK YOU = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:15 PM.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

we lost our past to the future.
unknowingly, we allowed it to slip through our hands
with time passing by so fast before us realising it...

was all really planned out this way or
were we that ones who made it end that way?

if only ans could be known before it happens...

*

[*/EDITED]
just got back home frm tuition.
i'm dead tired and i had a hard time getting myself out of bed.

chatted on the phone till 2plus ytd,
till he decided to chase me to bed and he carried on maple-ing.

it's been sometime since the last time i went for tuition,
was talking to sharon and she really got me awake with everything.
it's time to prepare for my Ns, though it's only term1...
i'm actually running out to time for preparations for be precise.

she wrote a time-table for my personal sec3 revision.
SELF-DISCIPLINE!!! is what i'm actually lacking right now.
deadline for unit1 of maths, chem and phy is on 11march.
notes to be written, TYS to be completed and doubts to be cleared.
MAY THE LORD BLESS ME WITH SELF-DISCIPLINE = )

shall do some slacking for now.
revision will resume in the afternoon once i'm completely awake.

mummy is preparing steamboat for dinner tonight,
though i havent been eating my 3meals daily...
i shall skip lunch and keep my tummy open for dinner
YUMMYLICIOUS = )
-

i'm having this feeling,
this feeling that tells me something isnt right at all.
i aint sure myself either but i just cant stop thinking bout it.

well, i just past my day without any revision.
was slacking all day long but tmr is a must to start!!!
*slaps myself left&right

i hope i know what's bothering inside
but only you can give me the ans to what's bothering...

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:10 PM.

Friday, February 17, 2006

it's 11plus right now and i'm super duper tired.
just got home and my eyes are threatening to shut any moment.

my day was pretty screwd in the morning.
was feeling all-so-depressed when i headed to sch
but my day soon became better after that.

things started out fine till my mouth decided to screw myself again.
felt ALL-SO-FUCKED-UP with myself,
that i started msging honey things like "i'm really starting to hate myself..."
met up with the dear one ard 3 and off to BK we went,
started our nonsense while copying our maths2.
well you see, ahkoh suddenly found our books and asked us to copy
those new notes frm our new book to the old book she has found.
to think that we're all so free having nothing better to do!!!

we had so much fun and with our non-stop nonsense going on...
i guess all troubles seemed to have dissapeared suddenly.

i got my dose of surprise today, which definitely made my day = )
honey was saying that i'm starting to act really weird this days,
that if she doesnt know me. she'll probably think that i'm nuts. lols
i seriously havent notice anything unusual so far can...

she left ard 7 and i stayed to carry on studying with diana and SP.
i wasnt exactly in the studying mood till blah blah blah happened...
was damn pissed off that i went back to BK and started on my maths.
kerry came ard 9.30 and diana left straight away, heading back home.
i had so much fun listening to them gossip bout cherine...
finally leaving at 11 and separate ways we headed.

i'm kind enough to have done whatever i did,
to think that it all turned out was just an embarrasement to myself.
i'm saying this for the last time.
i aint your spouse at all,
so dont think that i'll take all those attitude nonsense frm you...

exam
eng was alright, easier than what mr foo used to make us do
but i shant say that it's very easy either...
we're like damn lucky that informal letter came out instead
of report writing which we all thought that was gonna come out.

chinese sucked big time seriously.
try answering qns when you totally have no idea what on earth it's asking.
staring blankly and looking for possible solutions that popped out suddenly.
well, if i pass chinese this time. i'll say that i'm damn lucky,
and if i dont... i guess it'll be a real rough road ahead...

ALL THE BEST TO MEMEME = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:35 PM.

I HATE MYSELF FOR SCREWING IT UP!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:25 PM.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

it wasnt a fairytale neither was it a play,
yet i felt happy having able to feel this way...

it wasnt false that it's been long since one treated me this way.
nothing more,
nothing less i could ever ask for...
and i thank God for sending you.

my very very close friend, that's YOU.

*

i'm feeling so ~~fucking~~ upset right now.

the start of my day was fabulous,
i was smiling to the widest and my mood was great...

met up with jo, jes and yona to study at BK.

something keeps bothering me till now.
confided it to yona just now and she was trying to make me realise
i'm not in the wrg at all but words that came frm *her was quite harsh..
and yona was like telling me it's gonna be alright.
i just cant get it off my mind and it's actually starting to irritate me now.

COMMON TEST WILL BE STARTING TMR!!!
and i'm like seriously so not in the exam mood right now.

i was so affected by those words and i couldnt concentrate on my work,
all that was inside my head was those words banging ard inside.
even diana was trying to get me to concentrate on my work,
but it seems like it was of no use even thou she kept nagging at me.

left ard 7plus and headed to TimeZone, did my usuals of shooting of balls
and left soon aft. accompanyed them to get some daily essentials and left.
gave a missed to 925, i felt i wanted to get home immediately...
KY asked whether i wanted to meet up and chit-chat but gave it a missed too.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE HAVING
THEIR COMMON TEST ON RIGHT NOW...

all i felt is an empty space deep inside
never felt so lonely,
never felt so alone
but it's making my heart cry.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:05 PM.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

MY LONELY VALENTINE

what does L O V E really means???

was real excited early in the morning cause i wanted
so much to see the faces of my sweeties...
the reaction given by them once i handed them the pretty flowers were great.

met up with my honey again and we headed over to BK to study.
ABC popped by for lil while to accompany me, how sweet of him = )
yes, studying on valentine's day is pretty sucky alright.
seeing everyone feeling so happy, hand-in-hand with their love ones..
i was looking, inside feeling green in envy...

at least it wasnt so bad aft all cause i did have my honey...

was on my way home when KY called me.
he booked out of camp and sat outside four leaves doing nothing.
he was so depressed over something that happened recently,
since i had nothing on. i accompanyed him till 9,
had a heart-to-heart talk with him and waited with him till his bus came.

it's heartbreaking to hear all that had happened.
all i can say is, that's what i call THE POWER OF LOVE.

over to funland to met up with AB, ABC and benny.
got bombed and got kindah pissed off but ABC was apologising all the way.
so hilarious can!!! i mean i seriously wasnt THAT pissed of thou.

today
school was pretty boring since most of the teachers had courses.
a sigh of relieved cause that fat pig wasnt the one reliefing today.

chem test was horrible.
was totally lost when i got the paper and the only thing that went through
my mind was "WHAT ON EARTH ARE THE QNS ASKING!!!"

went home straight and waited till jo was ready.
she had remedial and we were meeting up to study at BK.
she was damn long can. left home ard 3plus and she came only ard 4.
my slow princess. chatted so much and we were cracking our brains for solution
to what it was regarding, though it wasnt serious yet but it was draining her up.
started on our work and yona came ard 5plus.
once again we started chatting, only to bid goodbye to them ard 7.
met up with ABC at the overhead bridge and we went to yishun library's mac.
had a long conversation on our long walk there,
felt so much better aft that, though tears did flowed out slightly...

ABC was such a great company today.
benny, AB and eric came to joined us ard 8.30 but i too left soon aft.
rejected AB's offer to walk with me. i felt i needed to be alone right now.

*

WHAT SEEMED SO IMPT TO ME ALL ALONG
SEEMS NOTHING TO ME ANYMORE...

true friends...
what does that really mean to me anymore.
cause i feel that i've lost you totally.
but nothing will ever make me give up my 7sisters no more.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:45 PM.

Monday, February 13, 2006

that short msg made my day = )
yes, i was jumping with joy. thou it was nothing much...
my day was brighten up so much.

i'm so tired, just got back home and i'm still hyping with joy.
met up with adeline and andy aft school. dragged them both to town with me
to get my VALENTINE'S DAY present for my three sweeties.
searched high&low, finally made up my mind to get jiemei and honey chocs frm ROYCE.
left soon aft and met up with suling at city hall.
trained back and they alighted at khatib while suling and i went to 925 to makan.
she then accompanyed me to search for my pretty roses for my darlings...

homeSWEEThome...

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

terence suddenly called and we started chatting bout old times...
everythings so different now, he has finally graduated frm sch and working.
am real glad that he did quite well for his Os...

we chatted so happily bout those times in my lower sec.
the times when we just got to know each other to being always there for each other.
i guess all this just aint gonna be the same no more...

i felt the sudden urge to rewind time, so everything could just go back
and start playing once again... but time waits for no one.

as i'm listening to the cd he burned for me as a present on my 15th birthday,
i'm having that sudden urge to have him in my arms again...
i started opening all those files, files that i kept our memories.
the dise days of our lifes made by him, i played it once again aft so long.
i felt like having those feeling back again...
but nothing could, as happy he is right now....

people, just a word of advice.
do treasure the ones you love. treat him/her nice and well
for you'll nvr know what will happen the very nxt day of your lifes...
take this V.day to show them how much they truely mean to you cause
not everyone will be able to spend this very speacial day with their love one.

i love you.
it's true,
i mean it frm the bottom of my heart
yea it's true,
without you i'll fall apart...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:00 PM.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

friday
was feeling so damn terrible the whole day in school.
my head was spinning and i felt as if i was carrying a ton of thing on my head.

met up with honey again at ard 2plus and we trained down to city hall.
retold her the route the stalker was stalking jiemei and i,
and she was making lots of sounds.. haha.
lunched at ThaiExpress but my appetite was horrible pls.
ate like only half of my noodle and ABC came to met up with us.
it was so hilarious when he arrived. he was making a joke out of himself. LOLS.

since AB was still working, we went to ABC's workplace to slack first.
walked a huge round ard clark quay and the breeze was just great.
we walked along the banks of singapore river and took lots of pictures to kill our boredom.
we had so much fun together... everyone was so hilarious pls.

-ABC trying to zilian

went back and did lots of slacking till AB came. the ppl there were really funny.
found out that one of them actually stays opposite me only.
when AB finally arrived, both of them started working leaving us both sitting there doing nothing.
we aint that dumb anyway, we started cam whoring once again. haha.

sat there till AB was done with his work and we walked over to the esplanade,
awaiting for my pretty fireworks to start.
but meantime while we were at the rooftop, the live band below was singing jay's song.
bu zhun bu jue ni yi jiu li kai wo... do you guys know how depressing that song is!!!
well, the nxt thing that happened, honey and i started crying...

took that time and made things cleared with AB bout why i chose not to ans his...
simple and easy, my heart is still missing him.

-the city's nightview taken frm the rooftop

waited till AB was done with work and we headed to the rooftop.
slack there till the PRETTY PRETTY FIREWORKS started.
it was really very PRETTY thou it bearly lasted for 5mins.

left esplanade ard 10 and ABC headed back to work,
while AB accompanyed us to the mrt station then went back to find ABC.

honey's mouth is super sway can.
since i wasnt feeling well this few days, she said that she had a feeling i'll puke when i'm home.
true enough, i vomitted everything inside my tummy once i got home.

为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味

是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你

sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你

today
nothing much bout today.
jiemei was at my hse doing mr foo's assignment.
i wasnt feeling very well, so i was practically doing nothing at all except
cutting, pasting and decorathing our assignment thingy.
thanks so much girl = D

i just it'll just be more slacking for me i guess.
and i really just hope i'll recover SOON!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:25 PM.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

jus had my dinner, daddy bought me meatball soup.
yummylicious.

did some catching up with immelia just now.
we both found out something and had the same reaction.
owell, guys just think that girls are the dumbest mammals on earth i guess.

mum was so nice just now. she took half day leave and
when she got home, she made birdnest for me = )
she asked whether i would want to go malacca this sat,
i said no at first but she told me to cancel my tuition and go with them.
since she told me i can do my shopping there, i said alright...
i hope i'm really able to do some shopping there.
and since this tues is V.day, i'll try to get something for my honey too.

i guess my nxt post will be on sun.

meantime, i shall update what's installed for my weekends.

friday
will be heading out with my dear honey,
meeting up with ABC and AB in the evening and head to
esplanade to catch those pretty fireworks.

*

i'm ~~FUCKINGLY FUCK FUCK FUCKING~~ pissed off right now.
thanks to someone who just had to keep screwing up plans i've made.
it wasnt a reason to be serious, it was plainly an EXCUSE.
since it had to be lyk that, cant i ~~fuckingly~~ be told first,
then to keep screwing it all LAST MIN when it's supposed to be tmr!!!

i'm super duper fuming right now.
be smart and leave me alone!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:10 PM.

it's 11.40 right now and i shld be studying in school
but my mum didnt allowed me to head to school today.
basically cause i wasnt well yet.

so i guess more rotting till late aftnoon and
i shall start on my ss and eng homewk...

last night, AB asked me... and i said i chose not to ans to that qns.
sorry but i'm not in for another round of hurtful days coming along..
i'm happy with how things are going in life right now and
hopefully this kindah life will stick with me till my Os are over...

and thanks to peeps who have been tagging my blog and sending smses.
i'm feeling better now and i'll be back on track tmr.
hopefully homewk wont pile up so quickly when i'm back tmr.

shall go wash up and watch skyhigh again while having my breakfast.
nothing much for me to eat so i shall eat chilli crab cup noodle = )

shall update more aft i'm done with my work or something.

i guess it doesnt hurt anymore as everything kept within me
were only those sweet memories we had...
as much as i hope the past will return,
i'm moving forward to what's installed for me in the near future.
till then... you shld go for it.
i believe she's the true one who'll bring you true happiness.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 AM.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

puked early in the morning.
thinking i was alright, i headed to school.
sadly, i was proven wrg when i came down with a temperature.

the highest it went was 37.8degrees. i was almost gonna faint pls.
andand i love my honey sooooooo much, she carried my bag for me
when we reached school cause it was weighing a ton that i had
trouble climbing up the flight of stairs to class...
i was seriously having trouble walking cause my head was spinning.

was in sch till 10 and daddy came to fetched me back.
kept vomiting and i started getting a few of them worried.
msged daddy and he came rushing down.
fever subsided by the time i got to the docs but my head was a killer,
my body was aching so much that i couldnt stop complaining.
saw jordan at the docs too, what a coincident. he had MC too.
he gave me a MC and i can skip school tmr but
i decided that I'M GOING!!! i cant afford to miss anymore lessons.

I MISSED MY SS TEST TODAY!!!
i seriously pray that there wont be a retest and
attendence will be marked as MC.

i seriously love my family doc so much.
he told me "if you dont feel like eating, then dont eat..."
haha. exactly, i wasnt intending to eat either cause i'll just probably
puke every single thing that when into my mouth.

nothing went into my tummy except sips of water i drank.
had sufficient rest and decided to blog before i start feeling sick again.

i've realised that not ALL FRIENDS are/will be always there for you,
so think real hard and crack the brain when you are choosing FRIENDS.

shall go watch skyhigh now. before huibin wants his vcd back = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:05 PM.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

not a great start today.
well, our VP mentioned to us that ANOTHER sec1 boy got knocked
down by a car ytd. jiemei and i were lyk "WHAT. AGAIN!!!"
ppl, i thought the year of the dog was supposed to be auspicious.
i guess it turned out to be NOT SO TRUE aftall.

was chatting bout 2blahs with jiemei and we did our conclusion bout it,
they aint controlling us no more for we had enough of everything.
i seriously want this year to pass by so smoothly that there aint
gonna be anymore childish friendship probs no more but
somehow the 2blahs aint giving us sufficient peace.
well owell, we've decided not to bother no more = )

wesley seems to be having some brain cells prob as he just cant
stop mentioning the word SEX. yes, he kept going on&on during
CP and i guess ms tan almost went nuts trying to get him to shut up.
CP was as usually fun but this time there was a slight twist to it.
was discussing bout marriage/parenthood and i dont know what
got into me that i broke down aft lesson. went to the toilet and
cooled myself down before clearing those tears away...

headed to BK aft sch with honey and we started on our revision
for tmr's SS test. jo and theon appeared again, what a coincident.
so we sat together. was talking to jo and she found out something that
got her all so pissed off. out we went and phone callings started.
i hope THAT thing is almost cleared by now.

jo:
worry no more alright. ring me up anytime you need me = )

STRESS, STRESS, STRESS...
was having this super duper sharp pain pierceing in my tummy
and i was totally going insane. didnt did much revision as i
was grumbling non-stop that it was hurting lyk shit.

i wish teachers in the world will understand the stress we, students
are going through right now. i mean, homewk are coming
in so quickly as if we're robots. sadly to say, WE'RE NOT!!!
spare us some time to relax for my/our brain will be bursting so soon.
i guess i'll be the nxt to jump down frm a 12storey building.

alright, shall end my post for now.
it's starting to hurt again...

GOOD LUCK 4A1.
HOPE ALL WILL PASS THROUGH THIS TOUGH TIME IN SEC4.

you are always on my mind.
tell me,
tell me that your sweet love hasnt died...

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:00 PM.

Monday, February 06, 2006

YAWNS.
i just got home and i'm really drained out right now.

my brain hasnt stop functioning/thinking/frustrating over tiny bitsy
thing that is/have/will been happening all this while...

lunched wid adeline at LJS before heading over to northland,
jo gave me a scare pls. was chewing on my food half way and
she decided to BOOOOO me. i nearly choked to death!!! haha.

bus'd 811 to northland and waited for the two princesses for
freaking long. half-an-hour to be exact but we headed in aft
them not appearing for so long.
the game was great and as expected, amk sec won.
YAYNESS...
noted down a few strategys and decided to try it out on our nxt training.

got bombed by the two princesses and ended up not going for dinner.
accompanyed weili to northpoint to get her chocs while i got changed.
walked over to 213 and met up with AB. intended to go play bball
together but ended up accompanying him to ahdan's hse to
watch naruto first. some animation which i've got totally no clue about.
did lots of slacking at ahdan's hse.
was laughing so much with ahdan, angela, benny, suling and him ard.
left for 219 with them, meeting up kangxin kor and eric downstairs
to shoot balls and headed over to 213 to continue but
left soon aft and accompanyed suling to get dinner.
we did lots of catching up and i found out stuffs bout blah&blah.
lets just say, it's better to hear both sides of the story before concluding.
she told me to give him a second chance but...
like what i've told everyone, it's just not the right time now i guess.

undenyable but i've been really happy this few days.
not only cause... but definitely cause friends have
been making life NOT SO MISERABLE for me = )
I LOVEEEEEEEEE THEM SO MUCH.

psps. had to leave early cause suling needah get dinner for her mum.
didnt mean to ps you. well, you had your friends there too.
hee. andand you whacked my hand and leg, SUPER PAIN can!!!

had rojak for dinner = )
YUMMYLICIOUS....

shall stop here now.
shall go watch some tv and into dreamland i'll head to.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:30 PM.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

THE BEGINNING OF MY HAPPY LALALA DAYS.

i guess i havent been THIS happy for suchah long time already.
well, it's just the beginning and i'm starting to love life like this...

to peeps:
THANKS FOR ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME.
WORRY NO MORE,
FOR THE WEILIN IN THE PAST HAVE DIED = )

it's been a new start for everything.
life isnt that bad aftall and i'm offically able to shout out loud that
I CAN STILL LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM!!!
all i'm only keeping are those bittersweet memories we had...

my parents have decided to live me all alone at home today
and head out to some gathering with their pals at hotel royal.
POOR ME. haha.
well, shall do some slacking before i get started on my pile of homewk.
if i'm able to finish it early, most prob wil be heading out later
since AB asked whether i could head out today... shall see bout it.

work to be completed:
*eng journel entry
*maths excercise
*chem textbk & chem workbk
*physics workbk
*geog workbk
*study for chem & SS test [wed]

work to be completed by today:
*eng journel entry
*maths excercise

i guess that's all for now till jiemei tells me what more i've gotta do.
ANDAND i havent summit my SS homewk to mr loh,
i've owed him since the second week of sch. i think i'm so dead pls....

my happy days have just started but at the very same time,
sch has been really hectic. too much homewk to complete
yet too lil time for me to finish it...
JEEZ...
i'm so going nuts right now pls. haha.

shall start chionging already,
THE COMMON TEST ARE STARTING IN 2WEEKS TIME!!!
STRESS, STRESS, STRESS....

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 AM.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

definitely a great day out with my sisters
but it seems that we're always not complete, always shorting ppl.

an early start, supposed to meet at 9.30 at khatib.
well, only three were punctual. the other two princesses were late
as usual, they only arrived an hour later at 10.30.

trained to amk and kindah got lost on whether we shld board the bus.
since we were late and really lazy to change buses to laufuzi's hse,
we cab to his condo. really kind cabby to allow 5 of us in = )

laofuzi doesnt want others to know that we went to his hse,
so i shall let those photos to tell our day at his place.

-his daughter making her weird face

-his super duper hyper son

-six of us, missing ms chong yamei

-definitely my fav pic for the day

left laofuzi's hse ard 1plus and we separated into threes and
cab down to marina square before meeting up again.

made our way to the theater and got our tickets for i not stupid too.
yes, my second time watching it but with diff ppl thou.
this time is definitely with my sisters of course.

headed to the toilet and we started cam whoring.

walked ard and we did lots of slacking at mac till the movie started.
well, being with the gurls definitely means lots of nonsense going on.
sihan and eileen gave a missed to the movie so they left ard 3.40.

the show was so damn touching and left four of us for crying non-stop.
so lame, so cool, WHATEVER!!!
haha.

rushed adeline to the mrt station aft the movie as she was in
a rush to head back home. was walking so qiuckly with her
while the two princesses took their time.
dinner'd at Thai Express with steph and weili,
started our gurlie talks and had so much fun.
intended to head to esplanade to watch the fireworks display but
we gave it a missed in the end as steph needed to head back home.

i seriously hope that 7sisters could gather again,
this time i hope all seven will be present = )

i guess, my nxt sat's programme have been almost fixed by now.
since i missed my fireworks display today,
AB asked me to go with him nxt sat along with ABC, his friend.
they'll be bringing me to somewhere where i can catch it real
clear cause ABC might be working there nxt sat.
YAYNESS..
i definitely miss those pretty fireworks = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:45 PM.

Friday, February 03, 2006

it's been almost 2yrs ago since that very day but i guess
AB's nothing more to me than just a good friend.
the feelings that used to be so strong 2yrs ago, is no longer there.
i dont have anymore strength to lead myself to any route of hurt anymore.
as for now, i'm very sure that my heart needs no one else other than him..

*

lessons were as usual again.
mr foo made us did a journel entry, wrote something really personal...
geog lesson was pretty hilarious,
wesley and daa guys at daa back of class, jus couldnt stop making fun
of mrs tan's hair. MAGGIE MEE, RUMBUTAN... all the name callings.

met up with adeline at khatib aft sch and surprisingly, both of us were
wearing PURPLE. mine was light purple while her's was dark purple.
made our way down to city hall as we were heading to daa esplanade.
yes, a place we both seriously need to go to get a breather aft...

something happened when we arrived at city hall.
a guy in his mid-twenties(i think) was stalking us,
thinking that he was lost and needed directions...
we stopped when he tapped my shoulder but what happened was
totally unexpected. he wasnt lost nor did he need any directions,
he called out to us cause he wanted my num. WTH....
directly i said "NO" and we hurried off but to our horror he kept
stalking us through out, being so thick-skin he just wouldnt give up
and continued asking and asking. i was so terrified that i called
immelia sis for help and she said she'll be there shortly, luckily
he had left already or else i bet immelia will scream at his face. LOLS.
met up with her outside citylink's ThaiExpress, did lil bitsy of catching
ups and we headed of seperately....

lunched at CAVANA and headed straight to esplanade,
lots of photos taken.... to our surprised, we saw james and khairul too.

-look ahead and be strong for what's installed in the future

-i took this shot, great skills huh = D

-SHHH... too much to say yet too little time.

headed off to town since khairul wanted to go fareast.
trained our way down, with so much laughter...

shocked to see dominick and douglas standing outside 7-eleven.
well, i guess it's just FATE that we saw each other today.
accompanyed them to eat and started our little talks...
james and khairul left first and we left ard 5plus but
when we were in the train towards marina bay, we saw them too...
FATE again i guess = ) so we trained back together...

shall have an early night tonight since i'll be starting my day early tmr...

there's something i really dont understand
but i shant get myself to understand any of it no more.

whatever it is, whatever he says...
those hush words...
immune i am to all of it.
as long as i'm sure of what i'm doing and heading,
all daa best to him.
as i no longer have any more strength to always clear everything.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:20 PM.