More Than Words

Friday, March 31, 2006

wednesday
training, training, training...
our last training before the first match of the netball league starts.

the weather was so warm that i kept gulpping down mouthful of water.
nothing much done as compared to our usuals but
at least we managed to complete the impt parts.
trained every possible place the ball could be out and started
from scratch so we wouldnt forget during the match.

ended earlier cause ahkoh needed to rush to the stadium.

had BK for dinner with shushan and hazel
then accompanyed them to 325 to play bball...

thursday
7sisters decided to give sports day a missed
since every year's the same old thing.

got sufficient hrs of slp, only to get up ard 12.
watched tv and slack about before meeting jiejie and des
at 3. train down to town and we headed over to heeren.

dinner at ajisen and we walked over to find ahbong and aaron.
chatted for a while and we went to cine to get des hp wrapped.
saw a straw bag and i got so tempted but was cashless. LOL.
sweet sweet dessert at mistro bistro, banana split and waffle ice-cream.

was late. supposed to be home by 9 but to only got home at 10plus.
naggings as usual from daddy than from mummy...

watched da chang jing and off to dreamland.

friday
had only four subjects today but time passed by really slow
during maths. NIGHTMARE!!!
was so pissed off with ahkoh, it's as if she had a grudge
against me. had to redraw my graph more than five times and
yet she wasnt satisfied at all...

rushed back for a quick shower before heading back to sch.
the sch bus sent us to Guang Yang Sec,
the game was great except that we played it way too fast.
the weather was horrible and we had to stop during half-time.
final decision was decided by them to end the game with only
scores from half-time, which means we won against them 15-05.
great game it was but i wished we had played against them full-time.

nxt match will be against Fuchun Sec,
hope we'll be able to play the game better and win.
shall give in everything since we won them before.
THREE CHEERS FOR NAVAL BASE,
HIP HIP HURRAY,
HIP HIP HURRAY..

dinner at khatib mac with steph, weili and adeline...

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:10 PM.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

THE HEART THE BEATS, THE TRUTH THAT HURTS

just a random title here i guess.
no particular reason, just a title that struck me suddenly.

CP lesson was fun, TanLH was discussing to us about BGR.
somehow i felt the sudden ache inside, the time of truth to be told..
we were put into positions of being a parent and in a relationship,
as usual wesley couldnt stop his mouth from going SEX SEX SEX.
it was fun, CP lesson is always a time for us to relax i guess.
at least there isnt stress and pressure = )
well, adeline and i got to plan our CIP thingy real soon.
task to be completed by end of this month! rarr.

had lunch at Buddy Hoagies with steph, weili and honey and
Han`ny came later. it was fun slacking there esp when the foods great,
we were practically starting our nonsense again, laughing non-stop.
aft our lunch we had our fair-share of sweetness, waffle with coffee ice-cream.
YUMMYLICIOUS = )
steph walked home while we took a bus,
accompanyed Han`ny to 145 library to check out something.

had our fair share of talking to each other too.
great time chatting along the way, had so much to talk about...

homeSWEEThome...

physics test tmr!
but i'm really in no mood to study somehow.
well owell, shall see bout it later i guess.

NETBALL LEAGUE
~ against Guang Yang Sec (fri)
~ against Fuchun Sec (mon)
~ against Sembawang Sec (fri)
~ against Broadrick Sec (mon)
~ against Temasek Sec (tues)

ALL THE BEST GIRLS = )
rmb our goal -> we have to get into 2nd round.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:45 PM.

Monday, March 27, 2006

somethings are better off be left untold,
somethings are better off be left buried deep within.

if only i was respected more by you,
if only you wont take me as a robot time&time again,
to only make me swallow those flaws over&over again...
IF ONLY...

i'm only human with feelings,
with limits that some will crossed over after some time.
but the limit i gave,
the limit i kept stretching inside time&time again for you...

everything just seemed too unbearable for me any further.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:25 PM.

sometimes I run
sometimes I hide
sometimes I'm scared of you
but all I really want is you to hold me tight
treat me right,
be with me day and night
all I need is time

-

THE ENDING TO THE LOVE WE HAD.

sch was alright except for certain stuff in the early morning,
was actually so pissed off that i couldnt be bothered no more.
aint gonna elaborate what happened,
those who are supposed to know are told already.

a poem to describe it all.

the victim i am again

to the past i've been glad that has gone
creep up to me a night in bed
gave me that fear i've longed lost
and appeared in that unexpected way
the fear i have is back again
haunting me like how it would the other time
so long to every thing
i'm not going to take this to the grave with me.

today's assembly was HORRIBLE!
we had to watch some opera thingy and
the music was so freaking loud.
my eardrums could have burst if i havent covered it.

had chemistry remedial after sch.
we waited for LimPL for quite sometime,
she shld have opened the AVA room for us first but she didnt!
ended at 3.30 and i had to rushed to northpoint,
met shanxuan and des at mac and we had an early dinner.

derek eng chin how is so annoying and
he is about to drive me nuts soon. LOL.
that ah pek! forever as naggy and irritating.

our meeting have been postponed for 2weeks since he was busy
and now, he wants to make it 3weeks.
how am i not supposed to be annoyed? = D
i want my stuffs!
RARR.

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:40 PM.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

an artistic shot i took ytd.

the day spent with me lying on the couch,
stoning infront of the tv.

daddy and mummy have gone to some community centre tour,
leaving me home alone again.
i'm pretty much starving right now but
the bad news is that i cant find any food at home.
BOOOOO!

nxt week shall be a super busy week.
with sports day on thurs and the netball league on fri.
GOOD LUCK PPL = )

i feel the love,
i feel the care...
i feel all those that i havent get.

the past was bad
but it came back.
bringing me into another chapter of life i wish i had.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:30 PM.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

SOMETHING TO FILL UP THE EMPTY SPACES.

my mum's being suchah BITCH right now.
RARR.
may peace be filled in this hse of mine.

day out with adeline.
YAYNESS.
as i'm finally able to step out of the hse.

met up at khatib and trained down to somerset,
walked over to heeren where shanxuan was working.
met up with her since she didnt want to have lunch alone
during her breaktime, so over to cine's BK for lunch.
had mushroom swiss double meal since there wasnt
any student meal available there... was freaking full after that.

waited for Han`ny at heeren and we started window shopping ard.
to only leave for wheelock after that, was having a hard time
deciding what i wanted to get from Marks&Spencer.
so i bought chips and mixed mint sweets = )
waited for meisui and we left separatly.

adeline accompanyed me over to get des's ipod repair
and the receptionist mistook me for his gf when
she took over the line from me to clarify stuffs with des.
to my surprised when i explained that i wasnt his gf,
she said "yup, i know. you're his bro's gf right..."
well, owell... what am i to say?
headed over to BORDERS and i saw lots of novels that i wanted.
shall get them after i'm done with my to have and to hold.
i'm so starting to love reading. it's super addictive!

walked over to fareast to try my luck since i was looking for
a top that suits me since forever... LOL.
after looking at so many tops, i finally got it from VOLUME.
something nice and simple, easy to match with my bottoms too.

trained back and asked my sister to accompany me to northpoint
for dinner but she wanted to catch a movie, failure to launch
so we gave our dinner a missed instead and got our tickets.
it was pretty nice to have her company since our last movie date
together was ages ago, when i was in pri sch...

i'm in his NP(mmc) polo-t right now...
well, pretty much undenyable that memories flooding in.......
i'm really not sure why do i keep going on&on bout him.
but if God were to let me make a wish,
i'll wish that it had nvr ended at all
but as much as i miss those times together so much,
there's nothing called FOREVER.
i've accepted that, after falling down time&time again.

~~If only I can be back in your arms again~~
Then I can make you feel the love we knew back then
Maybe you and I would see forever
~~If only I can be back in your arms again~~

GOODNIGHT.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:20 PM.

Friday, March 24, 2006

BOOOOOOO!

i'm so rotting the whole day away.
got kindah grounded, not actually but
cant really go out due to what happened ytd...
i swear the hatred i have for daddy is so much more now.

i've been a goody girl today, been home all day after sch.

was chatting on the phone with gabriel just now.
since it was his off-day, he gave me a call and
we started talking craps cause we were both bored.
it was pretty hilarious the topics we were actually crapping about.
what to do?
two ppl who are super bored, stuck at home. LOL.

i'm seriously not use to staying home the whole day,
it just makes me feel so lazy to do anything cause
i'll just slam my whole body on the sofa right infront of the tv.
i'm a wild girl who prefers the outdoor than home. haha

sometimes i really wonder what's on guys mind.
to only be ultra sweet to you when their moods good and
to so-called slam the door right in your face when
their moods downright down the drain.
it just makes us, girls, feel as if we mean NOTHING at all.

ps: RESPECT US OR GET LOST!

daddy's not home yet and i'm already starving.
rarr.
dinner! dinner! dinner!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:30 PM.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

~~happy 1st year anniversary~~ it was supposed to be...

dragged my dear honey to the gym with me today.
didnt did much but we were there for bout an hour or so.
basically trained more on my legs than arms,
noticed that i've got really weak arms when i was teasing weibin.
it's getting on my nerves that my kneecap starts hurting
when i'm in the mist of tough trainings or straining exercise.

most of our time were spent on the bicycle machine and the trackmile.
my kneecap starting hurting again so i gave up half-way with
the bicycle machine, slacked while honey continued.

left ard 5 and headed for FOOD at BK.
we were starving as if we havent ate anything in days. LOL.

saw yucong and zhiyong,
may be heading to the gym with them this sunday.
plans are not confirm yet cause their timings are freaking early.

over to 219 and slacked while the guys played bball.
with nothing else to do, my storybook came in handy...
got home ard 9 to get a thrashing from my dad.
shant elborate what happened but
something inside seems to be reaching the limit of exploding soon.

accompanyed kangxin kor to wait for his bus,
which took suchah long time to come...
had our usual conversation again and well,
replies that came from me were almost the same again too.

maybe it's a phobia i'm having that getting into
a relationship is way too far a qns for me to ans now.
regardless whether it's a phobia or a fear of the outcome i'm having,
a relationship is not something that i'm taking lightly now.
cause i'm not/dont wish to hurt myself any further.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:30 PM.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

thanks honey for standing by me just now.

was listening to those sentimential music and
the heart was remembering the sweet moments i guess.

as hard as i was trying to hold on to those tears,
it gave way somehow and i couldnt stop...
walked away and talked to honey.
got her so worried, something she said got sense into me.

aft this last time, let go.
let the old heart be replaced by the new one,
you're living with it happily now.

your past is your past,
nothing will gonna change it.
only hurting one's self with bitterness.
for your own sake, learn from it and let go...

it's tiring to keep crying over something you know wont come back
but yet, it was still something that meant so much to just let go...

time will heal those wounds
but it'll never heal those scars left behind...

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:10 PM.

Monday, March 20, 2006

THE HARDEST THING TO HOLD ON IS LETTING GO.

it's first day of sch today.

BORINGGGGGGG.

lessons seems even as boring than usual.
still cant get myself out of the holi mood i guess.

our supposingly fun phy lesson has turned so boring too.

well, a change of sitting arrangements again.
mid-year's time-table is so ready for distribution already,
how great can that be...

a total of 13chapters to complete just for phy alone.
GOD BLESS ME!

lunch at Buddy Hoagies with steph, weili and adeline.
i love their bake potato to bits&pieces and
definitely not forgeting their flame grilled chicken.
THUMBS UP for both = )

Gold 95FM has been playing really nice yet depressing songs lately.
and it's definitely twirling my mind,
twisting it like a rainbow twisted mashmellow...

owell, i guess i'm actually quite relieved that things are cleared.
making things easier for both of us already, i hope.

i'm actually quite addicted to the song when i need you by Leo Sayer.
daddy was listening to it the other day and
i've been listening to it every single day after that...

maybe that song is interpreting what my heart's trying to say.
maybe it is, maybe it isnt...
i'm not very sure bout it,
things seems to be happening way too fast for me to get it right.
as for now, i guess it'll just be me, alone and my life.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:05 PM.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

when i need you
i just close my eyes and i'm with you
and all that i so wana give you
it's only a heartbeat away

*

WORDS FROM THE HEART DEEP WITHIN

finally got my new track shoes,
it'll be byebye hot hot hot base during trainings.

came back with two shorts too.
one nike and the other reebok...
well, the nike is for casual wear
while the reebok's for the netball league..

exactly a week or so to get my shoes season up
and the netball league starts...

double-checked something with HappyApple
and sadly, the outcome was something i expected i guess.
thinking bout it scares me somehow.
and i'm actually kindah stuck and confuse on how i shld
actually react to this particular thing right now...

i guess, i shld put this thing behind my head for now.
got to go complete my maths as deadline is tmr.

GOD,
PLS STOP FOOLING WITH ME.
LIFE SEEMS TO BE TOO MUCH OF A GAME FOR ME...

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:25 PM.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

GOODBYE MY LOVER, GOODBYE MY FRIEND

that's it i guess, the end of everything between us.
i thought i would live to regret making this decision
but i guess, it seems like the only choice left...

he kept asking what's the scale of hate/love i felt for him.
to me, it doesnt matter anymore...
it doesnt matter how much i hate/love him anymore...
cause at the end of the day,
nothing will be changed no more.

the scale shall nvr be told but to only be kept inside.
no matter what the outcome is,
i feel so stupid to be stepped over so many uncounted times.

deep inside i cant stop asking myself...
why must guys only learn to treasure that particular one
only when she has left or is numb inside after everything?

pics, pics, pics...
we took so many today.
we practically cam whored the whole time at starbucks.
but due to certain reasons, the pics shall be kept unexposed.

the day out with bong, shanxuan and des was great,
far more than great to be exact..
no words could even express how much fun i had today.

to only see you slowly fading away inside.
the last goodbye i'll say with a smile on my face.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:59 PM.

Friday, March 17, 2006

SILENT NIGHTS I'LL PULL THROUGH.

i wish the outcome wasnt gonna be like this
but as much as i wanted it to stopped hindering me...
i've made my decision, hoping i'll not regret.

GOODBYE MY LOVER.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 PM.

TRUE PERFECTION HAS TO BE IMPERFECT

wednesday
training was great. had our 2.4 run in a different way,
somehow more tiring but it was alright afterall.

accompanyed steph and we met up with her RJC friend.
lunched at the community centre and slacked there till
my sweety was done washing up.
met her at her hse downstairs and we took a bus back my place.

was supposed to head to causeway point's library but
sweety was tired and lazy to head out.
so we slacked the whole day, while i was at the com,
she was slping so soundly at my sofa. haha.

when she got up, i went to wash up and i walked her
to the interchange, waited for her bus as usual then i
tooo bus 804 to bong's place.
met up with them at 814 for dinner before heading up.
slacked and we watched chicken little..

he sent me back ard 9 before heading to funland.

thursday
my day was quite screwed thanks to someone.

was supposed to meet up with honey to study but
she was reluctant to go to bugis with des&shanxuan.
so i gave our meeting a missed instead since she didnt
even inform me that she was working till lasnt min
*super irritating pls

met up with des at northpoint first,
went over to BK. while he ate, i did bit of my work.
and the rest of our time was spent chatting till they came.
shanxuan and benny came ard 2plus and we trained to
bugis. accompanyed them to their job interview and
we went shopping after that...

dinner at a cafe in bugis street, great food...
bought beard papa before we trained back home.

today
i'm waiting for my long-lost sis to be up from dreamland.
basically gave a missed to wild wild wet with the girls
cause i'm seriously broke already.
to the extend that i've got no moeny to go out at all.

so sis will be coming to my place for more slacking,
while i try and complete my maths...

we'll be having a GIRLS DAY at my place.
with food, mags, nail polish blah blah blah..
we'll be so having our girly chats bout hairstyles
and we'll definitely be experimenting different colours
for our nails... *WOOHOO..

i'll stand strong,
look back one day and tell myself that it was worth it.

that i'm standing even stronger than before
even though it hurt when that very day came.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:45 AM.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

shant update bout my trip to malacca.
it was basically quite fun except for the last day,
my aunt started her nonsense and spoilt my whole mood throughout.

yesterday
met up with the girls at 9 and we trained to habour front.
the start of the day was fabulous but somehow things changed...
it got sweety, honey and i darn frustrated that our mood was spoilt.
sweety was basically to pissed off that she ended her day with us early,
meeting up with that special one. (*i bet she's super happy)
honey and i cocked up an excuse and managed to ditched her off,
trained to town in the end to get our ear pierced..

trained back to yishun soon after...
took 804 with honey and met up with shanxuan half way through
the journey, went to ahbong's hse together to wake both guys up.
honey stopped one stop after shanxuan boarded.
slacked at his place. read the letters i wrote to him 2yrs ago,
surprised that everything was still well kept in his closet.
was slacking in his room while shanxuan was slacking at des's..
tickling here&there and he slept while i continued disturbing him,
he finally gave up slping and we watched tv with his younger bro.
left at ard 9.30 and we went to 925 to met up with
their mum for dinner. was so paiseh but was forced to eat...

ate and chatted with his mum.
his mum asked whether i wanted to join them for a Malaysia trip
but i said that my parents wouldnt allow and she said she'll
call my parents if there was a need to.
told her i cant cause my parents will... and bong said i'm not licenced yet
and she said alright, wait till i was older. haha.
only to reached home at 11 after accompanying them to NTUC.

today
met up with shanxuan and she accompanyed me to BK
so that i could start on my holiday homewk.
did my work while we chatted and des came ard 3plus 4.
continued with my work while we chatted and
i was green in envy how loving they both were...
bong came ard 5plus after he was finally up from dreamland.

headed over to 219 to met up with the rest after that,
watched them bball while shanxuan and i sat there slacking.

she told me something regarding bong...
i understood what she was telling me,
indirectly that a second chance shld be given to him..
undenyable that i've been really very happy with him these days,
and i know that i'm very safe with him now...
i shant rush with my decision as i dont wana get hurt further...
shall just allow nature to take it's course.

told shanxuan something before that and after ______ came,
she couldnt stop looking, we kept smiling to each other secretly.
left ard 9 and we accompanyed korkor to wait for his bus
but he decided to cab back in the end.
since he didnt had enough money, i lended him 10bucks for his cabfare.
they walked me home before bong accompanyed him to get a cab.

will be having training tmr so i better get to bed early
or else i'll be dead beat tmr after training...

i'm really not sure what i am to you in your eyes...
sometimes i feel that hope seems to be building up,
but the nxt thing i'll know is me falling down hard.

isit time for me to let everything go?
for once i've been thinking real hard,
maybe it's time...
it's time for me to let go of the past and be free from it.
but will i regret after i've made my final decision...?
i really dont know = (

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:55 PM.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

i'm finally back!
i missed my lil pillow the most,
and definitely not forgetting my friends.

i'm dead tired but shall update a short post before bed.

got almost everything that i wanted to buy except 2 or 3 stuffs,
dissapointed but i guess i shld be satisfied that i bought quite alot.

shall update a proper post when i'm free tmr.

SUNTANNING,
HERE WE GIRLS GO....

i'm hoping for a great weather tmr so i can get a proper tann = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:59 PM.

Friday, March 10, 2006

my schedule had been so packed and by the time
i got home, i'll always be too lazy to update..

finally, aft so many weeks i'm home and not out. LOLS.
past few days have been really fun yet tiring...
school, training and out studying blah blah blah..

just made a new friend two days ago.
his name is weixing aka benny,
a very nice guy who definitely cant stop apologising.
*if you're reading. yes, i'm talking bout YOU = )
andand we kindah have lots in common here&there.

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF TERM ONE,
BYEBYE SCHOOL AND HELLO TO FUN

alright, i'm being naive here.
fun? i'm practically just day-dreaming.
in fact, we are stuffed with lots of homework and
it seems like the teachers are thinking that we're on 1mth break.
that's how much homework we have to complete in a week's time.
BOOOO...

ms tan is so sweet today.
she allowed a few of us to get our report books without us
having to go through to usual meet-the-parents session..
i'm actually very very very dissapointed in my results,
i guess my grades havent been stable yet dropping to be exact.

will be meeting up with the girls later.
we're expected to be in school by 6 to attend some boring Nlvl talk.

i guess, it'll be my last entry till i'm back from Malaysia on sun.
SHOPPING, SHOPPING, SHOPPING...
will be having our W.A.Y tanning session on mon.
i seriously miss tanning so much and
it's been mths since i last stepped into sentosa too...
shall tann till the bikini lines are darn obvious cause
who knows when i'll be back there tanning. haha.

shall stop here for now.
byebye.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:55 PM.

Monday, March 06, 2006

WITH NOTHING BUT TEARS AND FAKE SMILES

i guess whatever i knew was gonna happen,
happened way too fast for me to even realised it.

if only i could turn back time,
i'm make myself invisible frm their eyes...
so things wouldnt have turned out like that but i guess,
it's just too late to turn back anything.

in times when i need him most,
it wasnt him who appeared before me
yet the one who appeared was the one who needed me instead.

no matter how much i try to explain right now,
i feel that it's of no more use....
I'M SORRY.

GET LOST!!!
stay away from me right now,
i'm in totally no mood for anything...

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:05 PM.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

EVERYTHING I'VE BELIEVED IN SEEMS UNTRUE

with a broken heart,
a broken family,
a broken life...

just when everything in life seems pitch black to me.

i think of you
i think of you when it's gone
like you chase away the storm
and making it all okay
i think of you
i think of you when I'm strong
and I know I can go on
its like you set me free
when life gets the best of me
i just think of you

i feel so lost and empty right now.
it seems life isnt as meaningful as it is anymore.

the stress,
the pressure that i'm supposed to swallow down.
it's pulling me deep down..
it just feels almost impossible to climb back up again.

WILL SOMEONE SET ME FREE FRM ALL?

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:45 PM.

met up with ahbong for dinner in the end
and we strolled our way to 219 aft that.

sat at 219 and HappyApple came.
i wasnt in my slightest mood to even entertain him at all,
kept silent and just chatted with ahbong.
without realising it, my heart was beating so fast that
tears started flowing out uncontrollably.
i knew, i knew i was missing him, msged sweety...
as jay's song feng played, i sobbed to myself..

met up with stella at the bus-stop and
she was reluctant to go over 219 cause weide was there..
accompanyed her at the fitness corner and we chatted...
i felt so good aft chatting with her,
it's like everything has been kept inside for so long
and finally someone really understands how i'm feeling.

she went over to aunty's hse and i met up with the guys again.
slacked till 10plus and that pai cah was so nice to walk me back..

-
i'm feeling so torn apart right now.
aft reading his blog....
pls, will someone let me know why i'm feeling like this?

i'm very clear, very clear that it all ended 2mths ago.
but why am i still hoping?
why am i still wishing?
why am i still missing?
why am i still holding on...?

the hurt was just unbearable but
i thought i was supposed to feel happy for him,
happy that she has finally stop drifting herself frm him...

but why am i not feeling happy at all?

HappyApple asked me to read his msn spaces,
read it and i dont know what to do...
it's true that i'm really in no condition for another relationship.
what the rest wants to say,
i'm no one in no position to say anything...

andand now, i'm in no mood for such things...
i guess things will get better somehow but
for now, i'm really tired to handle all these...

my programme isnt comfirm for today.
i dont think i'll have time to finish up my work later,
will be heading to SGH to visit my uncle...
*i hope he'll recover soon

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:50 AM.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

a simple sentence "heard u r sick aso... take care" made my day = )
though short but being able to feel this way,
it's been a long wait for it to ever happened again.

-
had tuition in the morning
and my planner for revision is out!!!
DIE.
which means, it'll be mugging till my Ns are over. sighs.

was supposed to meet up with ahbong but aft waiting
till his awake frm dreamland, i decided to give it a miss.
aint feeling very well still, the weather is seriously a KILLER.

chatted with onlineAngel aft so long of not contacting
each other due to busy schedules...
basically, updated each other about life right now.

well, told him my prob and he told me not to give up.
he said that mr right is out there, it's just a matter of time
when he'll appear in my life that's all...
and when mr right appears, he'll be very lucky
to find someone(me) who loves him truely.
he told me that if i'll never try getting into another relationship,
i'll never know whether the nxt one is mr right.

but to me, i feel that it doesnt matter anymore.
it doesnt matter if mr right is really out there....
i seriously feel that i've got totally no courage
to step into another relationship.
i've lost all confidence to believe that mr right is reaaly out there.

all i truely miss is him and those times together.
9mths together isnt very long, but neither isit that short either.
that 9mths together was made out of so much happy&sad times...
going through thick&thin yet still staying together, risking it all
and finally got accepted by my dad on my 15th birthday...
all these.. all these was what made it all so precious to me....

9mths together isnt gonna just vanished frm my life,
that's why i aint moving on just like that...

it's rare that we will ever have anymore conversations
be it on the phone or msn but i'm glad it did happened somehow.
i'm not sure when it'll ever happen again.
so i'm gonna treasure this very moment...

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here, waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last, somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:15 PM.

Friday, March 03, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YANHAN KOR.
well, someone has turned 19. a year older and wiser.
may his whole year be filled with lots of love = )

*

sch was pretty much the same...
these few days, the weather is horrible.
it's so warm that andy and i keep switching our places elsewhere.

honey bunny told me something that 7sisters agreed on.
well, our class has suddenly appeared a cat..
a cat who copys everything she sees. owell...

met up with sweety aft sch and we headed to bugis.
first stop, was the temple. went to draw lot (qiu qian).
over to paco bugis junction to slack.
didnt had much appetite since i was having my mens so
we had dessert at the foodcourt. so coincident, saw
zhihao and his stead. they were so loving can!!! haha.

since we were so bored and had really nothing else to do,
i started my silly idea of walking into cold storage.
well, as you guys know once i'm inside madness overrules. lols.
BORED, BORED, BORED..
we started cam whoring with stuffs there.
frm chocs to drinks to pampers to pads... MADNESS.

some random madness we had there = )

trained back to yishun and met up with ahbong.
accompanyed him to funland to find the rest....
we waited and waited frm 6plus to 8 for them to finished
playing DOTA.. was outside funland and i kept grumbling non-stop.
finally aft they're done, we accompanyed eric to met up with his
mum for dinner. the whole grp of us just sat there and slacked.
left ard 9, ahbong that bai cah was so nice to walked me back = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:55 PM.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

SOMETHING DEEP INSIDE THAT NO ONE CAN REPLACE.

yesterday
7sisters decided to skipped hse meeting since every year
seems to be as boring as ever...
wrote a note to ahkoh saying i wont be meeting her at 3
as i was having a headache.

went to 848 for lunch with adeline.
i gave a missed to the wantan noodle i intended to have,
the weather really spoilt my appetite. was feeling bloated.
had dry kway tiao with minced meat noodle instead.
headed over to her place and we slacked till 3.50,
walked to the mrt station and rested there till 4.15..
walked over and got ready for training,
ahkoh was nagging cause we skipped hse meeting
but i said that i wasnt feeling well and so she had nothing to say.

training was alright i shld say,
had a sense of satisfaction at the end of it thou.
i invented a new drill for our team.
finally, we can do something fun yet meaningful = )
it's actually very pleasing to see everyone smiling at the end of
the day even though it was hard work they wen through...
another three more trainings to go before the netball league starts.
GIRLS, LETS STRIVE FOR THE BEST.
just like what our sch motto says...

met up with 213 peeps at BK,
sat there and started doing my eng corrections while
they slacked and chit-chatted...
ahbong hurt his toe and it kept bleeding non-stop,
sending chills down shanxuan's and my spine..

left ard 8, walked them to 219 before heading back home.

today
not feeling very well now,
am down with a bad throat since ytd...
the weather has been really sucky lately causing me
to be really tired and slpy in class.
making it really hard for me to concentrate on lessons
that are aft recess as i'll keep having the urge to slp.

skipped mr joseph's remedial lesson cause the sisters
came over to my place for a movie marathon...

bought KFC and brought it back to my place for lunch.
watched final destination 3 and we were practically
screaming our lungs out... weili and steph had the
high pitch scream that sent chills down me...
got freaked out so i got them stuffs to hugged.
since the movie ended in the most unexpected way,
we watched our nxt movie, the fog.
seriously, it isnt very good actually, shall give it 2stars only.
(not worth watching in the theaters)
basically we had no idea what the storyline was so we
kept forwarding it to the exciting parts...

before the girls left, they were looking at our album.
the one he made specially for me on my 15th birthday but
to only get it 2mths aft... haha.
well, so much fond memories i'm left with and
it seems like other than that i'm left with nothing,
that's why i'm treasuring it so so so much.

the girls left ard 5...

i regreted having KFC for lunch.
my voice seems to be changing and my throat is worse.
i'm praying that i wont fall ill, i need to be there for all trainings.
matches are starting so SOON, SOON, SOON...

supposed to be meeting up with him tmr to collect the photos
but since he isnt well. we had postponed it to other days.
*TAKE CARE AND GET WELL SOON = )

Looking in my memory, what did I see?
All the good times you gave to me.

Sometimes i feel you breathing
You're there so deep inside
Though its not always real,
It helps me carry on...

Cross my heart and tell no lies
No one's leaving you behind
Just because we bid goodbye, baby
Cross my heart I do believe
In my thoughts and in my dreams
I'll be taking you with me

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:50 PM.