More Than Words

Friday, June 30, 2006

i'm in no mood...
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

it doesnt matter anymore to me...

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:38 PM.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

i'd like to bring it up that before you go too deep again,
hope you have no probs with my schedules.
because it's not too late to back out..
-him

i've learn to not repeat making the same mistakes in life.
once, i've fell. twice, i lost. thrice, i'll treasure.
sorry for the tears as i continue this post.

baby:
no, i'll not back out.
if i wanted to, i would have six mths ago...
i chose not to cause i love you, i always have.
i thought i would get on with it once the time is right but i'm wrg,
time just seemed to past while i just start wishing for more.
for something i myself aint sure whether it was realistic at all.
but till the day you held onto my hand, i knew all wasnt a dream.

i've nvr been once not being afraid of losing you,
the past it was, it present it is and the future it'll still be.

i knew that it'll be a risk giving it all another shot
but i still will, cause i've nvr given up on us.
that's the reason why i'm willing to work it out and
try my very best to make this chance a better one...
one where we both wont regret in the future.

there's just too much words cant express.
close your eyes, and feel my love for you baby...
just close your eyes to feel it.
iLOVEyou.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:40 PM.

just got back from tuition not too long ago.
I NEED HELP IN POA, PPL PLS HELP ME!
this is seriously very urgent...
i also need a smart pill, to improve my memory...
in a way or another,
my memory seems to be failing me towards my studies.
but when anything else that doesnt consist of studying,
my memory seems to be real good.
that's so not good pls. BOOO...

gave training a missed since i had tuition, which is more impt.
inter-hse game is starting i-dont-know-when since ahkoh keep dragging it.
i'm so not into anything anymore, maybe not for now.
Ns will be in two mths time, though i'm very worried.
i dont know what else i can do, it's so stressing.
i'm feeling so squeezed up inside that i feel like i'm gonna explode.

my appetite hasnt been real good lately.
not that i'm into ~~extreme~~ dieting again, just dont have any appetite.
i know it isnt good for my body, not as if i love being like that.
guess i've got baby quite worried for me. opps =X
i'll be skipping my dinner again, hungry but totally appetite-less.
dinner date with immelia sis tmr at sakae,
i'm wondering how i'm gonna eat since i'm like that these few days.
shall eat as much as my tummy allows i guess...

I'M MISSING MY BABY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.
i havent seen him for 5days already, and it's killing me pls.
when's the nxt time i'll get to see him? only god knows.

looking in your eyes

seing all i need

everything you are is everything to me

these are the moments

i know heaven must exist

these are the moments i know all i need is this

i have all i've waited for

and i could not ask for more

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:18 PM.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

we haven talk since four days ago, other than the usual msging.
i'm feeling real depress to be truthful but than again...
i dont want to stress him up and allow history to repeat itself.
i guess i've been feeling real emo after watching green forest, my home.
undenyable that compromising is a MUST in a relationship,
esp. when i'm leaving rather far away from him.
one side of s'pore across each other to be exact.

what's got into me?
i'm not very sure either.
i'm just having this unexplainable feeling that i cant exactly explain.

i've repeatedly told myself time&time again, it's a miracle i got him back.
a second chance to improve everything, hoping to not screw it again.
well, lets just say that i'm not someone whose very good in controlling my emotions.

i know that this post is rather random.
just dont bother bout it, i just needed to let it out...

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:45 PM.

the bf hasnt reply since his first msg during my break time,
he's either back in dreamland or missing at i-dont-know-where.
he's online but not replying too.
BOOO...

jo is really insane cause at any moment she sees me,
she'll start screaming. a changed in her lines today,
it became BABY IS AT WESTMALL WITH HIS FRIENDS...
i got a shocked of my life since she screamed unexpectedly in the toilet.
slacked ard at northpoint with sheena after sch,
and we went to take neos. ages since i last took neos in sch uniform,
the last time was during sec2 if i'm not wrg. i took it with adeline.
on our way to mac for lunch, someone shouted my name so loudly.
i was like WTH...
turned and i saw jiefu, ahbong and another unknown guy.
headed to mac together and slacked but we left right after lunch.

sch's really fun right now, i'm beginning to love sch.
cause of the lovely ppl i have in class that makes my day wonderful.
now that our tables are joined together mostly in fives,
it makes everyone get closer in a way...

hold my hand and let me feel your heartbeat.

put your hand ard me to feel your embrace.

kiss me to make me feel complete.

i love you

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:35 PM.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

GOATEE...
the change in mrFoo is seriously dramatic
and he looks as if he had just suffered a huge blow or something.
his goatee was in the limelight today.
we thought what had happened,
cause his ever-so-cool style was gone the moment we saw him.
did oral practising the whole two periods of eng and
my eyes couldnt stop concentrating on his goatee. haha

CDP period was very entertaining since we didnt exactly had lesson,
we're practically just fooling ard and chatting with msTan.
msTan nvr fails to aim ppl who're in a relationship in our sch,
poor Han`ny became our topic today. she and her darling, raymond.
had a talk by a few of the ppl from 5a1.
a super boring talk since we couldnt see what they wrote on
their ~~huge~~ posters, not. with unnecessary cheers for who-knows-what.
and i did it once again!
i forgotten to bring my chinese textbk, kindah got punished.
stood up at my place for a lil while and i sat back down,
did the worksht while msging with my baby...

my tummy was turning me upside down during chinese period,
and i ended up changing my tuition to thurs and sat instead.

baby's with his friends at westmall now, while i'm rotting at home.
BOOO...
oh yuh, jo cant stop disturbing me at sch.
she keeps going BABY, I LOVE YOU... BABY...
i think that she's going insane from the fact that the Os are approaching.

baby what we do it makes the sun come up

keep on loving till it goes back down

and i don't know what i would do if i would lose your touch

that's why i'm always keeping you around...

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:15 PM.

Monday, June 26, 2006

surprised that i had no prob getting up this morning.
first day of sch wasnt as bad since everyone were still in the holis mood.
we're supposed to have PE today but due to the changed in time-table
again, PE is shifted to two periods before recess on thurs.
it gets rather annonying to have our time-table keep changing.

as usuals, i've got tonns of work not completed again.
so i'm supposed to complete the necessarys by tmr,
which is chinese compo and gong han, eng summary and physics ten yrs series.
BOOO...
i have no idea what to write for my chinese compo,
but it's a must to complete it or else i've got to stay back after sch tmr.
assembly was a total boredom today,
a talk bout keeping our eyesight better...
isaac, israel, adeline, honey and i started blabbing since we got real bored.
chatted and we were sending videos to each other,
i received the video bout the girl who got whacked quite sometime ago..

what a day to be back from sch to see my eldest sis at home.
what a bum to stay at home for so many days and not head to work,
excuses like i'm having a headache blah blah blah...

shall rest a lil while more before i start on my work.

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can't see myself
Not falling in love with you

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:55 PM.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

have been pretty tired by the time i get home these few days,
thus i havent been updating my blog...

friday
met up with my sis and we went for a shopping spree.
got myself a top from esprit and a flats from u.r.s & inc,
not exactly i got it since my sis insisted that she paid for me.

went to pick those three cuppycakes up after that and
went to my sis place to keep them company.
made my way home as usual at 10, and waited for baby to get home.

saturday
baby only got home ard 3plus so i didnt had much slp,
after he went to bed i was pretty much awake already.
tossed&turned in bed till 5 to get up at 7 to get ready...
met my babe at yishun and we trained down to habourfront,
the guys were late. so we only reached sentosa ard 11.

changed and headed to sunset bay.
the weather wasnt very fantastic since mrSunny was reluctent to come out.
only during noon time the weather started getting better.

ramdom pictures

had our lunch at habourfront centre before i met wilson bro.
accompanyed him to town to buy clothes, and we headed to marina square.
settled down at billy bombers for dinner but i had no apptite,
so i snacked on cheese fries and ice lemon tea.
half-way through dinner,
baby suddenly called and said his at marina square.
so he came over to look for me, hung ard and wilson went home.

something happened on our way home,
and baby had to drive over to esplanade park.
waited in the car and baby rushed me home since i was very late.
wasnt feeling very well through out the journey back,
kept feeling very tensed and my tummy was feeling very queezy.

managed to convinced my mum why i was back late
with my very pale face. took some medication and went to bed.

today
woke up feeling horrible,
with totally no appetite but i managed to squeeze down my breakfast.

my face is red and painful.
but i loveee the pinkish colour on my cheeks = )
cracked my brain and completed my compo, one of the lousiest.
SCH REOPENS TMR!!!
BOOO...
early morning and early nights from now on...

if there's one thing in this world that i know is true

it's the love that i feel when i'm thinking of you

no ocean, no mountain can keep us apart

cause no one can take away someone who lives in my heart

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:55 PM.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

HELP MEEEE....
my mind's totally going off track right now,
i'm stuck halfway through with my compo without knowing what to continue with.

oh boy.
sch's reopening nxt week, how fast can it still get?
i havent had enough of fun since i got grounded the whole mth
with a pile of homewk and revision to complete. sighs
fun? i guess that word shant exist in my head till Ns are over,
with constant pressure from my parents...
BOOOO...
anyway, wilson bro popped by my place this morning to get those jellos.
it didnt exactly screw up but it wasnt as perfect either. haha
what to do, i'm just a first timer after all.
i got tricked into getting up at 8.30 when he only came at 9plus,
made me got up so early for nothing other than just facing my com.

i forgot to mention something.
i had this horrible dream of her. (close peeps shld know )
saw her maddling with somthing and
poof my blog add appeared in her com.
that's like the last thing i ever want something to happen,
for her to come anywhere near in contact with my blog.
not cause i've said negative stuffs bout her but
cause i had enough of her constant copying&pasting here.

will someone give me a smart pill?
that will make me smart so i dont have to study at all..
dont bother, i've been day-dreaming too much lately.
shall head back to my almost half written compo..

tmr will be the 23rd again...

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain,

For truth that will never change,

For someone to lean on,

For a heart I can rely on through anything,

For that one who I can run to...

I turn to you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:28 PM.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.

the weather is really nice, it's so calm and windy.
how great would it be if i'm able to head down to ecp right now,
sit on those huge stones and reminisce the whole story of us all over again.

got up pretty early than usual,
quite unexpected since i was darn tired last night while waiting for baby's msg.
his msg nvr came and i fell aslp.
his always suchah pig, once aslp he'll nvr want to be awake.
my loverboy.
bekah's coming over to my place again,
she actually downstairs making her way up while i hurry update.
we'll be making jelly today. YAYNESS...
pls dont get screw up no matter what... prays hard.

alright, shall stop here for now.
bekah's right beside me, telling me that she's gonna upload truckloads
of pics again. i bet most of it has adri's face.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:55 AM.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

After all that we've been through
I find myself still loving you
But I think we need to take the time
To get it right
Cause I never give up on a good thing
Never gave up on the love we had,
Baby...we just need to take it slow

I believe you and me have the chance to make this right
Oh baby if your heart is in it, I'm still with it
Even after all this time has passed
I'm still loving you...

just read the email abang andy sent,
it's bout ppl aborting babies with pictures in it...
it really hurts to see such young and precious lives get sacrifised
for the mistakes ppl made. think again, it wasnt their decision to be
in that place yet they got aborted before they could see this world.
ppl shld be responsible for all these,
dont blamed and than kill the child at the end of the day.
the child is innocent for goodness sake!
everyones life is precious no matter what.

to think again,
i guess i was rather dumb to threaten my mum bout committing suicide.
anyway, i just got back home from my sister's place.
met up for lunch at causeway and
headed to shop for some clothes for the three cuppycakes at civic plaza.
was msging with baby but he is fast aslp at home right now.
it's still rather shocking actually, i cant believed it really did happened.
i'm not very sure whether i shld be happy or sad seriously.
got to thank my bestiie truckloads,
she kept opening me up and letting me know hoe much i still love him.
though i'm still haunted over what had happened before,
i guess giving it another shot will be worth it cause i havent stop loving him.

will be making jelly tmr if everything goes on well.
shall pack a box of wilson bro, cause he requested for longan and lychee.
hope my jelly will turn out fine and not get screw. haha

shall stop here for now.
byebye = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:28 PM.

Monday, June 19, 2006

i saw it in your sparkling eyes.
you made me feel whole again, dont break my heart once more.
i love you.

met up with him for dinner at bishan, had swensens.
everything was perfect and well till we suddenly quarrelled,
i chose to walk away though it hurts but that's the best solution.

everything got really bad but we finally managed to sort it out after
missing and playing hide-and-seek for almost two hours.
i wanted to be strong and not drop weak infront of him but i failed
i cried and told him everything inside my heart.
he understood but he kept running away from the fact that
whatever his doing right now is hurting me real bad.
i asked for my last hug and whispered into his ears,
hold me tight, cause i'll nvr be able to hug you anymore.
i was wrg, he proved me wrg. he finally broke the wall down
and told me what kept him away all these time.

i felt so dumb at an instant,
to think that an hour ago i felt that it was totally over.
so drained out that i felt like i have no more energy to go through it again.
i almost gave up something/someone i treasure so much in my life.

things are better now, so much better.
and i'm real glad for whatever that happened or i'll nvr get my baby back.
though things are slightly different now,
we arent exactly back together due to certain reasons.
but at least i know that i am in his heart...

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:45 PM.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
I am who i am cause you ~~love~~ me

mummy's back from m'sia already and with lots of goodies.
got up and gave mummy a ring since i failed to wait for her last night,
heard that daddy and her had some miscommunication and
they kindah quarrelled over the smallest thing. i'm serious!
it's not a biggie at all but both were dead tired i guess...
mummy was telling me bout last night, blaming everything to daddy
while daddy told me his side of the story blaming mummy. haha
sometimes, such things can really get hilarious.

i'm suchah happy girl,
mummy bought back lots of sour+ gummy for me.
not a big thing but it's only avail in m'sia and you cant get it here.
4000g of vezzo belgian chocs, my favourite lao gong bing....
and i noticed this really cute packaging that says, crispy cheeken biscuit.
i'm gonna grow fat soon.

come to think bout it again, i havent been exercising for almost 2mths.
no netball trainings during the holis.
BOOOOO...
cause i feel that i'm growing sidewards as days passes. lol
i miss training, i miss my team, i miss touching the ball and
definitely training till i'm dead tired with my body aching all over.
i may totally sound insane right now,
but after not having a single training for almost 2mths,
training my butt off the coming one will be very shiock.

the goodnight msg from him last night made me fly.
though it was only that particular word, but it felt like before.
the time, when i had him all...
it's funny how he throws his temper when i dont msg him when i'm awake.
those tiny bickering we had seems happier as compared to those times..
i miss you, if only you knew.
i love you, but even more terrified you'll love me.
seeing my heart tore apart, i rather love you from afar.

i'll be doing a bit of mugging later since i'm still not done with holi homewk.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:30 AM.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

would you be my hero?
stand by me forever and kiss away the pain.

almost everyone is fast aslp in dreamland while i'm still wide awake.
it's 0200 and i'm supposed to be in bed right now
but i dont seem to be slpy at all.
just that my back is aching again,
with a slight pain causing me to feel real uncomfortable...
i guess i'm getting older already = )

daddy's not home yet, always out entertaining during the weekends.
BOOOOOO.

another reason why i'm not in bed now is cause,
my darling fishball in macau now needs help in her HTML codes.
it's kindah scary since i've been facing those these few days,
getting my head twriling round&round trying to figure it out.

i wonder what time daddy's gonna be home?
i bet he'll gonna scream seeing me still wide awake infront of the com.
haha

GOOD MORNING & GOOD NIGHT.
LOVES.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:20 AM.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

i'm so pissed off right now,
to the extent of having totally no idea where to put my emotions.
i guess i've tired my best to swallow as much as possible,
but with every little thing i swallow there's a tiny bit of hatred built.

i'm so affected right now that the only thing i'm doing is tearing...
i see no reason why i shld tear over those stuffs she did at all,
maybe it's the memories of ~~wonderful time~~ we used to have.
not anymore.
that doesnt mean that when i can swallow those nonsense from the past till now,
i'm able to always swallow them down without exploding one day.
that one day is here, it's time to say that enough is enough.
THERE'S ALWAYS A LIMIT TO ONE'S PATIENCE.
i rmb blogging that down quite sometime ago,
indirectly trying to hint that i'm very uncomfortable with whatever it is.
but no response was avail at all, and i got worse coming up.

i have already moved my blog away to prevent any other nonsense,
but what i saw in friendster is enough to prove me right all these while.

sometimes, i just wish that you'll vanish into the thin air.
so your non-existance shall make my life a million times happier.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:56 PM.

through rain&shine my heart beats for you.

had tuition in the morning before bekah came over to my place,
did another two hours of maths and my brain kept storming non-stop.
she's been right infront of the com the moment she stepped into my hse,
helped to edit her blog cause miss perfect here is so fussy. opps = X
zz kor and i helped her to sort those eye-straining HTML codes
and finally, her blog is all done and well-perfected out.
from 11 till 8plus, she just wouldnt bear to leave the com for a moment.
even during lunch time, her head was probably stretching over...

nothing much happened the whole day,
except myself getting all so hyped up thanks to miss perfect here.
oh yes, i'm very proud of myself today.
cause i cooked lunch for both of us and since i was in suchah good mood,
i even washed the dishes in the end.
that's so unlike me since i'm always suchah princess at home.
andand, bekah's the one who's always making me break my self-records. *tsk tsk

cam whored and we were almost nuts,
due to the madness that was going on.

no one's home, daddy's out entertaining again,
mummy's in m'sia and she'll only be back tmr night,
and that idiotic sister of mine is at i-dont-know-where/i-dont-give-a-damn...

did i mention how crazy bekah is?
she's totally insane pls, she uploaded like a whole bucket full of past photos in her entry.

am feeling restless right now due to getting up so early this morning
and my head cant seem to think of anything else to update for now...
did kindah plan on going back to church tmr,
but i seem to be petty lazy and tired that i ended up dismissing that idea.
i do feel guilty somehow, i've neglected our Father for too long afterall...

home alone.
i'm feeling kindah scared to have the whole hse all to myself at this hour.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:05 PM.

Friday, June 16, 2006

sometimes i just feel like quitting the fight.

beautiful pieces of the past shattered,
torn and broken on the floor.
try to move on but the heavy chains hold strong,
chains that were once your warm embrace.

the love and joy i used to know,
the laughs we shared,
the love we made all vapourized within one pathetic moment
and the love that took so long to build all destroyed,
burned and crashed in a lightning flash

but till the end of the day, i still love you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:25 PM.

as i spin round&round without knowing what to do,
i'm left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.
those memories that cant be replaced,
those wishes i wished and dreams i chased.

after i plucked out the nail ingrowth ytd,
my toe seems to be hurting so much... affecting my precious slp too.

was 30mins late for remedial cause we took our own sweet time for breakfast.
again, my usuals of HOTCAKES made my day = )
saw buibui, honey and i practically went insane at mac. haha
remedial was alright and we were let off 10mins earlier.
met up with wilson bro and ran some errands with him.
from northpoint - chong pang - northpoint - my place...
i love chilling out with that bro of mine,
it's always never boring cause of the madness.
did lots of catching up and lots of small talks too.
i kept repeating that i miss him soooo much,
since the last time i last saw him was ard 3weeks ago.

slacked abit at my place,
when my dad suddenly called saying that his downstairs.
scared the shit out of us, and he hurried left for his friendly match.

was supposed to meet up with my sis for some shopping today,
but since the lil kiddy back home is down with i-dont-know-what...
the whole plan was cancelled, leaving me rotting home again.

it seems to be raining almost everyday.
i pray that nxt sat will not have such horrible weather
cause i'm gonna tann till my heart's content.
TATA...

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:25 PM.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

the rainbow you've created in my eyes.

got up earlier than expected since i couldnt get myself to slp,
a msg from him at 5 got me up and wide awake.
i tossed and turned and finally got up at 6,
got ready and met honey and diana at northpoint for breakfast.
we had mac, i'm lovin it = )
ordered my all-time favourite, HOTCAKES.

since it was pretty early still, we started cam whoring.
lots of pics taken today since i was in my bestest best mood.

pretty surprised with the ppl who turned up for poa remedial.
the unexpected sainow, jiawei and israel turned up too.
the usuals, when israel starts blabing, he'll not stop at all.
lots of nonsense from the ppl at the back,
jiawei, israel, sainow, honey and i.
got mrJoseph quite pissed and irritated at a point of time. haha

mrJoseph

first time ever, me paying attention in his lesson

the few who turned up for the remedial

took a bus to northpoint after the remedial.
settled down at Bk and chatted with the babe.
it's amazing how we always have never-ending topics to talk.
our chats bout blah blah blah..
headed over to northpoint to check some stuffs out,
saw a real plain&simple top from esprit but the size was too big and
my phone was bombed with never-ending msges from him and ahbong.

was supposed to head for tuition anytime soon but
something really urgent cropped up and sharon had to cancelled it.

home stay till i'm up for remedial tmr.

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:50 PM.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

the voice i heard tore me apart
the song that played,
the person that was mentioned was the cause of us being too far apart.
i thought that reality was taking place,
to be awake from everything in a sigh of relieved.

as relieved as i was, cold sweat covered all over me.
i was so happy when i saw a msg from him that woke me up.

stuck home once again, but i managed to convinced
my parents into letting me out for a few hours ytd.
met up with weili, han`ny and raymond at BK and we studied poa.
afterwhich we headed back home.
am watching my MVP valentine again,
definitely had my fair share of crying in between too.
i guess, it's the only drama series i'll turn too when i'm depressed.
so many scenes for me to let myself cry till my heart's content.

since i missed my maths revision ytd,
i'll have to start on it today else i wouldnt be able to hand in up on time.
i need more motivation to keep me going.

我会好好过
等你再爱我
总有个角落
会让你想起我

我会好好过
等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:25 PM.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

(Boy) I need you
(Boy) Adore you
(Boy) Gotta have you
(Oh boy) I wanna feel your touch
This ain't no little crush

sometimes, i seriously adore my dad to bits&pieces.
since i was starved the whole of ytd without proper food,
daddy just bought back lunch for me before heading out again.
cheeken rice with char siew from upp thomson road. yummylicious.

today's the last day before my bill comes.
i'm so dead pls...
i've overused my sms this mth, a total of 1900+.
i bet the overall bill will be exceeding 80bucks,
and i've got to save like shit before the bill's due again.

blabs blabs.
another day stuck at home.
shall continue with my maths revision once i'm done with lunch.

looking at you from afar.
i finally understand, love has no demands.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:30 PM.

Monday, June 12, 2006

apparently, i've been starved the moment i got up from bed.
the hse is empty with only instant noodles which lets just say,
i'm in no appetite to eat that at all...

got up real early at seven to get him up for work,
after which i cant get back to slp. leaving me tossing and turning in bed.
did some maths revision while watching bubble boy.
did way too little revision today cause my head feels like it's about to burst.
the outcome of me starving for too long,
with my tummy rumbling non-stop and my head spinning ard.

today's the last day i'm able to chat with my phone kaki, jackie.
his leaving for genting early in the morning tmr,
which means i've got no one to chat to till his back on fri.
BON VOYAGE MY FRIEND = )
HAVE LOTS OF FUN AND YOU BETTER NOT FORGET ME!

I'll keep waiting til that day when
You come back on home to me.
Life's too short to live without you,
Where you are is where I want to be.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:35 PM.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

hanging by the moment.

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose nothing left to find
there's nothing in the world that could change my mind
-

it's raining....
rain, rain, rain...

i wish i could stand in there,
allow the rain to wash away my pain.
with nothing but hurt and pain inside my heart,
hope it washes away everything.

now that everythings fine.
to be able to have him by my side,
when will i have him back in my life?

as i continue to dream bout my lost fairytale.

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:55 PM.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

was so tired after staying up for last night's world cup opening.
i'm sooooo happy that Germany won, expected actually.
Germany won 4-2,
jackie went nuts since the score was twice more than what he had bet.

did 2hrs of maths during tuition today.
the weather's great, windy and cold though it isnt raining already.
met up with the three cuppycakes at northpoint,
bumped into ken at the foodcourt and
he jokingly asked whether they were my kids... haha.
shanshan loves him so much, though she was very shy towards him.
i guess nothing much will be happening since
i'll be home the rest of the day.

the voice inside my head.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:30 PM.

Friday, June 09, 2006

shall post a short entry before i start mugging,
or else i'll get slaughter by him.

was slacking watching my MVP valentine till he said that he was coming down,
i hurried prepare and got my butt out of the hse.
it was suchah rush to get ready in only 30mins time.
train down to causeway for gelare,
had my usuals of waffle ice-cream with blueberry yogurt ice-cream.
shopped ard for a while before we left,
i took a train while he took a bus.
it wasnt a lovely sight seeing him leave but
i'm happy enough for our time spent today.
though it was only for a short while but it felt a whole lot more.

took some pics of him, shall post it when i'm back home.

just got off the phone with bestiie, was talking bout that cat.
i guess she's just hopeless, like how everyone is telling me...
-

just got back home.
feeling so shagged but definitely flying on cloud9 right now.
well, i got a msg from him after i left my sis's place
arranged and we met up at yishun and he sent me home.

pictures of him as promised.

je vous aimerai pour toujours plus.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 PM.

nightmare nightmare pls stay away as far as possible.
shoo...

i had this horrible nightmare that caught me in tears,
one of the worst nightmare in my 16yrs of life.

here goes.
headed to sentosa with bekah and sheena but before
our tanning session could start, dark clouds overtake the sky
and it started to pour real heavily.
without much notice, a huge wave engulfed the ppl who
were near the water. in a state of shock, everyone started running
in all sorts of direction, everywhere as far away from the water.
in that moment i saw yanshan and zhiting, my nursery bestiies.
i only managed to grap hold of yanshan but
the rest of them got washed away by the water.
i was panicked and ran as fast as i could,
but the current was too strong for me.
i nearly gave up but a helping hand appeared infront and
pulled me back on track. we ran to a rundown apartment,
feeling so cold and shocked. i just stood there crying.

this may just be a nightmare, but definitely not an ordinary one.
it made me realised the importance of friends in my daily life,
friends who have been there for me all these while.
without them ard, i guess there wont be me ard.

got up still dazed from what had happened in my nightmare
but i can still rmb every single detail inside it.
gave jackie a morning call and i made him not have another
half-an-hr of nap but to accompany me instead.
told him bout my nightmare and started crying.

i was so afraid that one day this will happen.
i wish the day my friends will leave me never be anywhere near.
for i cant see my future without them ard in my life.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:50 AM.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

j'ai ne vous laisse jamais partir.

tout ce moment précieux avec toi par mon côté.
doit être un cadeau du ciel qui me tient toute la nuit.
je ne sais pas je vous ai trouvé mais je suis reconnaissant qu'I have.
i ait trouvé un amour si vrai. pour se tenir, pour garder, pour partager.

i had this dream that made me not wanted to wake up.
j'ai vu toi et moi avez pensé qu'il était vrai.
votre chaleur embrassent était veulent I longtemps pour
le tout ceux-ci tandis que. j'ai pensé que vous avez êtes revenu
mais à la fin, il était toute juste un rêve que j'ai eu.
the one whom my love was so true.

will be meeting up with my sis later on for lunch,
i'm glad it's not another day stuck at home for me.
i feel caged up i guess...

will be accompanying her for a haircut and off to her place.
shall mug there till those three cuppycakes are back home = )

my dear bestiie will be back tonight.
yayness.
i've been missing her so much and she's finally going to be back.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:45 AM.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

i'm so proud of myself = )
i did 2hrs of maths revision and
my head felt as if it was on the verge of splitting apart.

i'm glad to say that my bestiie will be back tmr night.
yayness.
i haven since her since last thurs, exactly a week ago.
am chatting with jackie right now,
heard some stuffs and oh boy i'm real surprised to hear that.
i thought that she's always been quite pretty in a way or another
and i guess i got proven wrg time&time again.
enough bout her i guess.
it turns me off the moment i rmb what she loves doing...

i shall stop right here now.
i'll continue watching my MVP valentine,
the uncounted times i've already watched but nvr will get sick of.

if only there was suchah a real life love story that will happen on me.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:35 PM.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

got pretty emo when i chatted with jackie last night,
somehow we got to the topic about family...
those past that huanted me.

alright, here's a new skin by immelia and her friend's help.
THANKS SO MUCH = )
a pretty simple skin, needed a change badly.
though the previous one is nicer and holds a memory,
but it's the effort and help i got that matters.
i love that sis of mine.

it's raining now, and i'm feeling so hyped up.
i love it when it rains esp. when i'm home alone.
the sounds of those raindrops, the cold wind that blows...
i guess, i feel so much less lonely when it rains.
it's gonna be another day stuck at home,
mug mug mug.. it's getting quite bored but owell...
shall do some maths and physics revision later.

shall prepare my breakfast and watch totally spies on kids central.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:05 PM.

Monday, June 05, 2006

in a few mths time, a major exam would be taking place.
to look back at my childhood days,
where life was so carefree.
there wasnt so much pressure from everywhere.

but now, 16yrs later.
every single thing i do seems to make an impact somewhere.
studying, setting goals for the future, aiming for the future i want...
where's the carefree life a child used to have?
days, mths and years, they seem to be going by the same routine.
it's like a cd where songs just keep replaying itself again&again.
the pressure to strive for good grades, to control the future of ours
and not let it take us to somwhere we'll regret.
i know that i haven done anything to make my parents proud yet.
the daily bicker i have with them seems to take up much more time
than i spend communicating and understanding them more.
but how much truely do they really understand me.
in times where i need a shoulder to cry on,
a listening ear to hear me rant... where were they?

be it for my future or for their face,
i'm still setting my heart to strive for good grades.
who doesnt want to have flying colours,
but understand me when i said i've really did my best.
i'm not gonna let the future control me,
for i'm going to control my own future.

friends, have been the greatest impact in my life.
without friends, it seems like there wouldnt be me ard.
great trust i gave to be misused and be betrayed,
the hurt and pain i've got to go through, made me so emotional.
until i found the one who'll always stand by me no matter
what happens, trust me and believe me for things i do...
yes, my bestiie HONEY. if it wasnt for her standing by me,
i doubt i'll have the strength to keep standing up everytime
i fall flat down on the ground, getting all so depressed.

it isnt easy to find someone true to you, a true friend.
someone who'll stand by you no matter what happens,
but i'm glad i found mine.
through those times we had to go throught, we're still together.
it wasnt an easy process, that's why i'm not letting her slip of.

I LOVEEEE HER TO BITS&PIECES = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:20 PM.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY HAN`NY = )

my mens is really giving me a hard time.
ytd and today, my tummy feels bloated and
it somehow killed my appetite,
the sight of delicious food infront of me turns me off.

chatted with jackie till 12 and i guess i got so slpy
that i was totally turned off. i barely heard whatever he said,
and when i couldnt not hold it any longer, i went to bed.
woke up and saw a msg from him,
it was sent at 4plus before he went to bed.
i smiled at an instant after i read the msg,
it wasnt anything near to what i thought.
it definitely made my day the moment i opened it.

was chatting with my parents just now,
and i got a go ahead to take up wakeboarding after Os.
YAYNESS...
i'm gonna work hard for my Ns and after that,
i'll work hard for those chings chings and pay for most of the cost.
my dad is suchah a bugger.
he's bugging me to do at least two hours of maths today.
i'm so not in the mood pls.
the mens is making me pms the whole day.
i really do wish that he'll disappear for like a week or something,
so that there'll be peace and not so much naggings ard. *how irritating

i pray that immelia would hurry complete that thing,
so my tiny plan could be carried out and get settled with.
else, that person would be copying&pasting everything in sight.

it's that far when you miss it,
yet so near when you have it...
L.O.V.E is what you call it.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:45 PM.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

LOVE hurts,
LOVE scars ,
LOVE wounds.

friday
had tuition and i did full two straight hours of maths,
came back with my time-table for next week.
3 topics of maths, 2 chpts of physics&chem and eng homewk.
BOOOOO...

i had this urge, the urge to let everything end in an instant.
i wasnt sure of who i am and want i really wan anymore,
with the thought of him twriling all around,
i prayed that i'm able to set myself free.

i felt so tired of hoping for a miracle to happen.
every single night, the love i had was kept deep inside.
baby, you're the only one who can set me free from these pain..

saturday
met up with jackie ard 2 intending to mug,
but i got bored and our time were actually spent more on elsewhere..
he was supposed to leave at 6 but since there were last min
arrangements in meeting him to catch X-men: the last stand,
jackie was sweet enough to accompany me till he came.
the usuals of being late, an hour late to be precise.
before that we slacked at the playground opposite 213,
it's really hilarious when jackie's ard, stressfree i guess = )

had dinner with him at LJS, wasnt feeling very well due to the mens.
kindah lost all of my appetite but i still got forced to eat by him,
managed to only forced down a piece of cheeken and a few fries.

there was an urge to break down,
an urge to embrace him tightly.
but than again, it's all i'm dreaming about.
i guess, maybe jackie's right.
i still hold those feelings tightly inside,
without a doubt everythings still lingering ard within.

baby, i wish time would freeze that very moment.
your shoulders are as comfortable as i rmb,
your smell still as addictive like before,
your touch still as tender like a child..
what does those meant?
baby, tell me. tell me what they truely mean.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:25 PM.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

the further you are, the lesser the pain.

i'm so HAPPYYYY today,
finally met up with my dearest bestiie.
she's back from m'sia for a day and will be back there today.

she came over my place and accompanyed me to have my haircut,
my hair is short short short now.
though it's still long, but it's so much shorter when it's tied up.
what i'm happy is that, it's so much thinner and neater now.
making me look so much fresher and even honey agrees to it.
regarding the length, i shant worry much since it's the holis.
it's gonna grow back by the time sch reopens = )

train down to causeway for pizzahut.
got ourselves a reg pizza, drumlets, soup and a drink.
it's been econs since we last had so much food,
and we were practically stuffing it down since we were bloated.
did lots&lots of catching up,
shopped ard and got myself a playboy earstud in red and pink.
train back and headed to northpoint to get my comb and
dearest needed to head home before we took neos.
but well, we shall take when she's back in town nxt week.
till than, it'll be mug mug mug and more mugging to do.
so much plans when she's back in town,
we'll be meeting up with the NP guys and stuffs..
WOOHOO...

promised to wait till his home from his bike lesson
and we shall chat on the phone since i slpt before we chat ytd.
i better make myself stay awake today.

shouts to jackie.
you brought the sunshine into my life.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:20 PM.