Thursday, November 30, 2006
i stand still, thinking that life was gonna get better.
yet, i felt a buring pain passed right through my heart.
right at the moment, i dropped right down onto the ground.
with blood gushing out from the heart,
the tiredness of everything made me give up.
i chose to close my eyes, to slp through it all,
to rather feel nothing than the hurt and pain.
and as i slowly fade away...
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 PM.
a series of unfortunate events.my whole day was basically off track.
first, i dropped my phone in the mrt while i'm on my way to meet adeline for work.
when i got to work, i got cut by the W.V booklets.
papercut sucksmy finger kept bleeding and being the kid myself,
my other hand got itchy and started pressing till there werent any blood coming out.
cutiie pie was so sweet to get me plaster when i asked if he had any.
i was on cloud9 when my
shuai ge, jesstern waved and said hi when i walked past his counter.
AWWWW....lunch at Scotts again, and we popped by to say hi to weili as well.
did a lil bitsy bit of catching up before heading back to work.
just before the unlucky day ended, a nasty customer came and caused some trouble that made nick so pissed off.
he was fuming and he was definitely ready to whack her up,
lucky the manager came and settled the issue.
just right after everything was settled,
baby and i had a quarrel over a certain something.
anyway, the conclusion to the whole matter caused me to feel so down,
as if my day was any better already and yet it still had to be ended like that.
feeling so tired and drained, i gave up.
i didnt want to know, i didnt want to bother at all...
walked out of Wheelock to catch a breather, and i felt like crying at an instant but i was determined to hold it in.
i didnt see a reason to cry over that when he doesnt understand.
lucky for me, yisong is always there.
he nvr fails to be that listening ear of mine.
called him up with the intention to go drink,
so we met up and had dinner at yishun first.
after dinner and with lots of comforting and hilarious moments,
i gave up the intention of drinking.
he just knows how to spoil me, he bought me purple candy floss =)
chilled at the hut nxt to 139 bball court before heading back cause i was having gastrics.
what a long day....
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:28 PM.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
was down with high fever ytd, my temp was 38.1 and i was burning.
still headed to work but went straight home and crashed into bed immediately, the only thing that got me waking up a few times was mummy and daddy.
they kept coming into the room to touch my forehead.
days at work are basically almost the same everyday,
the only thing that keeps adeline and my smile on was our
shuai ge and
cutiie pie.
also not forgetting
baby's msg and concern =)
something very yucky happened towards the end of work today,
some
not-so-good-looking guy was on the phone and he said "
i told her that you do the stripping and i'll do the fucking" super
loud while walking past Borders.
adeline, nick, cindy and i were like staring and we burst out laughing.
i'm getting lazy to think bout any other happenings today,
that shall be all.
oh yuh, i saw yan korkor at Borders just now,
forever with different girls.
what a
LALALA bro. haha
mySWEETaddiction <3
6:15 PM.
Monday, November 27, 2006
the weekend ended up great even though we failed to have peace for the both days that we met.
somehow or another, we'll just quarrel over anything and everything but i'm glad it'll always end up fine.
definitely it's more of my fault since i havent been very considerate lately,
both of us had a long day at work but i fail to stop complaining
etc...
this week started out
horribly since cindy came back to work.
she totally drives adeline and i up the roof and it's very sickening,
i hope fri hurry comes so i'm able to see my darryl again.
it hasnt been exactly fun ever since he's on his one week break,
it just feels else like something isnt exactly in place.
i'm lazy to continue.
i miss my baby =(mySWEETaddiction <3
7:05 PM.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i cant deny but i've been really lazy to update after work everyday so it shall be a post with lots of pics taken over the week instead.
work is fun but very tiring and boring at times,
but having great company does make my day so much better.
great company like adeline and darryl, you guy rocks!
though i'm working everyday =
very tiring,
i still had my fair share of time spent with
baby and friends.
instead of meeting up in the afternoons like usual,
we've been meeting up after work or sch.
HAPPY 14MTHS TOGETHER MY BABY.
all the joy and pain we went through together paid off.
i love you more than anything else.
mySWEETaddiction <3
7:25 PM.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
i know that i've been MIA-ing for quite sometime but i cant seem to settle down when i get home everyday after work.
i've been very tired every single day since i started work but i was still able to take out time to meet friends.
i'l blog more about what has been happening when i'm free.
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i'm very upset over a certain issue.
i dont understand why he doesnt seem to get my hint,
tmr is a very impt day to us, or isit
me only.
baby, do you even know what i'm talking about?mySWEETaddiction <3
9:18 PM.
i wonder if he even rmbs what day isit tmr?
i wonder hard,i wonder deep,but i cant seem to find an ans within.mySWEETaddiction <3
8:30 AM.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
why shld i worry when the person cant seem to be bothered?at least, i did my part.
the amount of knowlegde that has to be saved inside my head is weighing me down, it isnt alot but neither isit little.
i'm nvr good in memorising details but i've got to,
i need to be prepare for the different kinds of qns ppl may ask tmr.
every little mistake will be watched and noticed.sighs...
working is stressful!
hard earn money is get from the amount of time spent working.
mySWEETaddiction <3
4:05 PM.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY TOO.after MIA-ing for suchah long time,
the bestiie and i finally did some catching ups on msn.
if she's gonna be working at the fareast outlet than it'll be great news,
i'll have someone to lunch with me during breaktime or i'll most prob skip break since eating alone seems rather very depressing to me.
was reading adeline's blog in the afternoon and it sparked me that how lazy i was. intended to get my messy hair a proper trim since forever but i've been giving myself all sorts of excuses that has led me being suchah couch potato.
the thought of working seven days a week till end of dec has made me got my ass out of the hse to get my hair a proper trim or i'll be too busy once i start work.
i was stoning while waiting for baby's reply not long ago and it stuck me how much things have changed throughout this wholetime we've been together.
i was browsing through those past msges and well frankly, i miss those sweet dovey stuffs he used to say to me.
even though most girls know that guys often say it more than they mean it, it's just something girls like me like within the process of a relationship.
i shld be thankful for everything i guess...
i better stop daydreaming of something i know impossible to happen again.
mySWEETaddiction <3
5:45 PM.
Monday, November 13, 2006
good friends are hard to find but easily lost.who are really my good friends?time will decide, that's what everyone says.
but how could i be wrg?
i thought she was, but is she still....?
every vacation we have, it just turns out like that.
why isit that immelia seems like the only trustable one in my life now?
dont turn and look ard.you may just be the one i'm refering to...yesterdaywas out to celebrate daddy's and aunty lily's birthday.
celebrated at Oriental Hotel and the buffet was great but what got me drooling was the wide variety of desserts.
yes, desserts! lots and lots of it.
after lunch, we went shopping ard marina square and daddy, the poor guy had to be very patient with us since we took a very long time.
two very pretty footwears caught my eye, one is a sharp-pointed pump(40bucks) and the other is a glossy pump with heel(70bucks).
what i love about the glossy pump was that the heels was of the correct height for me, not too high but neither was it too low.
*time for more saving of money nowwent into topshop and mummy loved a particular blouse so i got it for her as a gift in the end.
went to get some daily essentials with jiejie before heading back home.
washed up and pasted the pore-removal strips on my nose,
after 10mins, my nose was feeling so clean and fresh.
i've got very clean nose now!
todayrise and shine, got up of bed.
my eyes glued to the com and tv without a break.
time shall pass by and pass by it shall..
i'll be starting work on thurs.
*shivershope it'll all be good.
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:35 PM.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
met
baby today and it was quality time spent together.
it was very sweet of
him to fetch me over at my place first before we headed to simlim to get his stuff. than it was back to his place.
i fell into a deep slp during late evening and he even cut my favourite mango so i had something to munch on when i woke up while he cooked dinner.
well, not exactly either since he only did like a pinch of it.
though dinner was only maggie mee,
we cooked it with lots of love and it tasted so good.
it was so simple yet delicious.
he fetched me home and he is safely back home too.
who says my life isnt back on track anymore?
i
love my boo.
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:15 PM.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
1omins more before my day at sis's office is finally over.
i was the office girl doing lots of stuffs like calling so many schs comfirming stuffs, updating the data, separating booklets
etc...
and i did it all, the whole day for
free!
not exactly willingly cause i got pestered by my sis and now that the end of the day is drawing very near, no one can even imagine how happy i am.
it'll be another long day tmr too,
will be in the office early to continue my work before the training starts,
and i'll be meeting my
baby at the end of the day....
i cant wait!
i guess training will be fun since i've got adeline's and malcom's company and we'll also be heading down to borders to check somethings out after the briefing session.
I CAN FINALLY GO HOME NOW.
YAY!
mySWEETaddiction <3
6:00 PM.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
BAKING SESSION WITH THE BABE!gosh, it's been ages since we last even had so much fun together.
anyway, the day actually started out with me accompanying jo to town to get her freaky interview over with, than it was over to taka for lunch and to get the cookies premix before heading back to her place.
slacked, slacked and more slacking we did,
definitely tonns of updates we did as well.
- our very delicious cookiessssssswe basically took lots of pics, and i seriously mean lots of it.
well, that's what you get when two girls havent been catching up for a very long time.
not only lots of updating, but also non-stop of cam whoring.
- spastic uswe packed and actually sent some of the very delicious cookies over to tina and we actually ended up slacking even more at her place while we continued our never ending catching ups with each other.
there was a point when a dragon fly actually flew into her hse and we were scared like shit while catching
Princess Hours.
we were running everywhere hoping that the dragonfly would just leave us alone but it just wouldnt.
so we headed back to jo's place after the show and slacked awhile more before i left.
anyway, the cookies were really delicious and it is also
very addictive.
not only on us but also my family, we couldnt stop munching on it.
i shall not upload every pic cause it's very tiring and i'm quite lazy now.
it's been a very long day for me and it'll be another long day tmr too.
the craziest day but i loveeeeeeeee it to bits&pieces.
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:58 PM.
Monday, November 06, 2006
everything was supposedly settled and my job was to be gift wrapping for customers at borders but apparently, sis's friend made some last min changes.
my duties have been swapped to becoming WV spokesperson.
oh man, i'm feeling the chills again.
have been off work for more than a week excluding the one-day event i just did on sat, and the thought of working and most imptly, earning money is making me real excited but i really hope that plans every sat with
baby will not get affected.
nothing much for today except that my hse is officially empty with no food!
my brunch was just pathetic with only two slices of bread left at home,
so i had no other choice but to make french toast.
and i'm still feeling hungry now =(
mySWEETaddiction <3
3:40 PM.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
what a loser i am!
yet, i still chose to keep mum and just cry everything out silently.
i wish
baby was right here by my side right now,
but sadly, he isnt.
already a rotten one,becoming worse now...mySWEETaddiction <3
9:25 PM.
yesterdaygot my ass out of bed at 6.20 and got ready to leave.
got our breakfast and took 854 over to meet immelia,
than it was 62 all the way to punggol.
work was super slack,
most of the time we just stood there and did nothing.
but the catch to it was that our pay was very good,
considering that we actually did almost nothing throughout.
so it was meeting the bf(s) after work together at bugis.
since
baby was unwillingly late due to
him bus hopping,
we went for lunch at sakae first while waiting for
him to reach.
after which, we headed over to swensen for the giant earthquake.
lots of funny moments, though i've told immelia like uncounted times before, i still wanna say it again.
i seriously love and enjoy it when we four are out together!
so my sweet
baby accompanyed me to collect my pay and due to some nonsense from the office, i almost couldnt got it.
baby too, was so pissed that he felt like whacking some asses.
so it was hoooooooooohaaaaaaaaaaaa after which i finally got it.
seriously speaking, the management
sucks big time.
i was over the moon when i saw zhiyang and malcom,
it seemed like forever since i last saw them...
we took a cab back to the bf(s) place and we had lots of hilarious moments again inside.
totally crashed into
baby's bed cause i was dead tired until his phone rang and we headed out with his friend to balestier. then, it was back to his place again to meet up with immelia and daryl.
the bf(s) including aunty fetched us home.
-the bf(s) & gf(s)what a long and tiring day but i got to see my
baby, that made my day.
todaythings are just not going right, basically, everything seems so wrg today.
it's been ages since i last had a great cry,
and thanks to immelia for listening as usual.
i cried till my heart's content, and i felt so good after.
i'm upset over a certain issue,
something maybe peanuts to others but not me.
but anyway, i decided to keep mum this time.
i've learnt to keep mum over certain things now,
maybe then, i
hope my love ones will be happier.
i'm not someone who loves keeping things to myself, but i'm learning.
it hurts but than again, i rather it hurts inside than to say out now cause sometimes it's just difficult for others to understand when they arent exactly standing in my shoes, feeling what i'm feeling.
rencently, a friend of mine felt so shocked when he learnt about my past,
the environment i grew up in
etc.... cause of the impression i gave him.
he thought that i was someone who's forever
happy-go-lucky and has nothing troubling me at all cause my smile is always on my face.
that was the impression until i told him more, then only,
he was wondering how i could still smile after going through all those.
i simply laughed it off and told him,
because i've got great friends outside who nvr fails to make my day when i'm with them, why shld i not smile? i am happy that's why i choose to toss all other stuffs that are bothering me aside and just enjoy myself, only to worry about them when my day is ending.i'm no robot, sometimes things do affect me so much that i wish i was nvr in this world at all.
then again, dont things always happen for a reason?
even though the results may not be instant but after some time,
you'll look back and realised it somehow.
as i happily indulge myself into jay's song,
Qing Tian.
mySWEETaddiction <3
4:10 PM.
Friday, November 03, 2006
my com is finally free from virus,
all thanks to sis's friend lioniel who came and fixed up all the mess.
hard work definitely,
my com was so screwd that he actually fixed it till 1am.
surprisingly, we clicked so well which is very seldom.
anyway, mrsKoh called just now.
blah blah blah...nothing much today execpt that i'll be heading out later in the evening to meet
baby.
mySWEETaddiction <3
2:52 PM.
am i just pretending that it's not hurting?
i wish i had the ans.
sometimes i just feel that i'm so used to it that i just dont feel the hurt,
but then again, i wish i knew nothing at all...
i know i'm being very contradicting right now, but who wont?
it seemed like i reacted very cooly after hearing bout it,
or let's just say, how am i supposed to react after hearing?
there are like thousands of qns in my head right now,
threatening to explode any moment just like a ticking timebomb.
was it cause of his ego? or was it really how he felt deep inside?but i guess nothing struck me that hard except the meaning he brought across,something about exchanging gf...i guess that just hurt that most.
i turned and felt every corner of the room icy.the coldness of winter and the bitterness of a lonely person.what more am i supposed to expect just when everything seemed to be back on track.mySWEETaddiction <3
1:30 AM.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
ohmygoodness.i wasnt even aware that i actually went missing for so long!
anyway, i seriously cant rmb anything much other than the two days working at Dynamic Asia.
the so-called event turned out having us stopping ppl and trying to persuade them to buy the charity coupons which costs 10bucks each.
well, other than how the managements runs which is horrible,
the ppl there are fun and interesting just like a family.
i definitely got to know great friends like zhiyang, jasmine and malcom.
they have left something very memorable in my heart even though it was just two days.
the day just basically started out with us having a meeting,
locating diff grps of ppl to different parts of singapore.
first daymy grp which consisted of jasmine and zhiyang was located at habour front, the lousiest place to pick cause it was super dead there.
they made me felt as if i was part of them even though if was just my first day and we were actually very slack.
so we actually went to candy empire to get some chocs before starting our day. standing in the hot sun, going after ppl, getting reject time&time again yet still having to put a smile on our faces when we approach another...
who says earning money is ever easy?
i'm glad that i finally realised that, so i'll most prob think twice before deciding on getting something the nxt time.
the day ended very bad for me,
i felt the pressure when i only sold nine coupons.
though everyone told me that it's very normal for observers on their first day, i felt that it was so difficult to hold on to my tears.
called
baby but instead of getting encouragements,
i got something else from
him which actually made me felt worse.
that was when i couldnt hold on to my tears anymore.
gathered at ard 6plus and everyone headed back to the office,
counted and summited our earnings for the day and headed back home with adeline.
second dayafter much thinking the day before and all,
we decided that it shall be our last day since our parents werent exactly happy since we didnt even had a basic pay.
though they did try to convince me to think bout it again,
i felt that i needed a job which is more stable.
had a changed of ppl, it was malcom instead of jasmine.
a very exciting and hilarious day since both funny guys are with me,
it definitely made my last day a very memorable one.
we were located at bras basah for the day,
just 5mins away from our office which means we have more time.
we even made the space underneath the escalators our resting hole.
whenever we're tired or just plainly out of mood to sell,
we'll be there resting and crapping ard.
well, most of the time it's only me and malcom since zhiyang is the chionger in our grp while malcom and i are always out of energy.
managed to take phots with only malcom cause we're only the ones who're always resting inside the hole.
malcom my bro, the one who is always sayang-ing me.
i was on cloud9 when i managed to sell the remaining coupons from the day before as well as another booklet, a total of 21coupons.
credits to zhiyang and malcom cause i couldnt explain to the person properly in chinese so zhiyang came to my rescue and as for malcom, he sold off one for me after seeing that i'm actually stuck at two left and feeling superly down.
back at the office ard 7 and our team lost to Excel team,
so 14 of us were punished to finish three bottles of 1.5litres of pepsi.
on our way to the mrt station, eugene came after us pestering and stuff.
since the girls have actually warned me bout him,
adeline and i kept running away when he tried to approach us.
luckily he gave up after a few tries.
together with oh jin and malcom, we took the train back together.
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i'm finally able to rest after standing of a total of more than 12hrs for both days.
getting up early, enduring the hot sun above my head,
it's all finally over.
i cant wait for 13th nov,
i'll than have a fresh new start with a brand new job.
though pretty nervous since i'll definitely meet a few nasty costomers but on the other hand, i'm very excited about starting work.
mySWEETaddiction <3
1:10 PM.
