More Than Words

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

i was reading she-thinks-everyone-likes-her blog. (shant disclose her name)
well, i was reading and there was this particular post that got me real fumed.
even though it's the past, but still...
she, who thinks that she's the one who controls this world. as if!
a ~~decent~~ girl who loves causing unnecessary probs to other couples life.
can you even how lowdown she is.
seriously, i look down on such ppl.

i'm glad to say that i'm on cloud9 cause baby aint in contact with her anymore.
in fact, any one ard her shld beware esp. when their bf(s) are anywhere near to her.
she's one who i label as a relationship-wrecker.
a word of advice-dont treat the one you love like a dog.
alright, enough of her. it's causing my blog to be no words could even describe.

the seven of us gave maths remedial a missed today and
it was raining cats&dogs when we left sch.
so honey and i decided to slack at northpoint till the rain gets smaller.
meantime, i went to cold storage to get my coffeebeat chocs.

my boy has been very sweet and loving lately.
his been so cheeking, esp. our non-stop crapping about we-know-what via sms.
i've been having a great time even though his not physically here with me,
but i'm contented enough with what i'm having now.
it's not bout quantity but instead, it's quality.
though we see each other only once a week or even longer at times,
it's the quality time spent together that made the whole trip out worth.
i love my boy. *smuachs

i've got to go prepare soon.
meeting up with honey at 5 before heading back to sch for our SS night class.

i've got to learn how to work hard more than playing hard now
and in about two mths time after everything has ended...
i'll have as much fun as i want, that is before that results are out.

TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION TMR =)

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:50 PM.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

my guess was right, it was utterly shocking but still...
i had my precautions and it was all obvious enough to the eye.
no wonder i've been treated pretty weirdly than usual is what i call it.
it was of no purpose to ignore everything but it's scary to even think back
how you've been treating me, i aint in for a girl-girl thing. sorry.
it started out like what normal friends would do, but things got out of track.
i'm attached and love my baby so much that no one can replace him.
that's like almost the end of everything now.

sch was like any other day,
except that msTan wasnt ard during CDP period.
which was like HOORAYYYYYYY to all of us. opps =X
being good students,
we settled down and completed our 2005 physics paper.
had SS remedial after sch till three, notes notes and more notes piling up.
most of my brain cells will most probably be dead after my SS paper since it's like a gamble taking up that subject,
study 10chpts and only 2chpts will be tested.
GOOD LUCK PPL =)
*RMB, BETTER CHOOSE THE RIGHT TOPICS TO STUDY!

heavy downpour, so honey and i got a cab back home.
i paid for the whole journey this time since i needed to rush back urgently.
can you imagine how heavy the rain was?
we were holding an umbrella each yet we still got drenched from head to toe.

tuition at 7 later, i better rest and replenish all my energy.
oh yes, i hope there's SS night class tmr again.
i'm starting to love that topic =)

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:05 PM.

Monday, August 28, 2006

msged daddy in the morning during msLim's chem lesson,
told him that i had sudden sharp pains and my chest was slightly tight.
he didnt replied so i guess he was busy at that time and
soon i didnt even bother whether he was gonna reply
while the girls kept psychoing me to see a doc for a x-ray. haha
chatted with israel, wesley and honey and the guys were shocked to see my bruise.
they were going woah. na me da ah..., you shld see their expression.
it was super hilarious.

i was like trying not to burst out laughing the whole day since
we girls were pretty high, and laughing at almost everything.
time after time i would tell myself to control cause my ribs would hurt,
but i just couldnt. our nonsense was just totally crazy!

supposed to finish sch at 3 plus mdmLu's remedial but
daddy came to fetched me back suddenly and the guys were going
eh... ask your dad be my godfather can? bring me home too.
anyway, visited a x-ray clinic over at amk but the results arent out yet.
since we had to wait for a minimum of 1hr, daddy fetched me back first.
shall rest before i head back to sch for remedial from 6 to 8,
more like a night class to me. haha
it's spooky to be still in sch that late since there are many stories ard...

while i'm updating, the contractors upstairs are driving my head nuts.
been feeling very dizzy since i got back home,
and the drilings upstairs is making me feel worse.
BOOOO...

good day everyone =)

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:10 PM.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

firstly, i wanna thank everyone who've been very concern bout me.
i totally appreciate it alot.
LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS&PIECES.

i've been a good girl, home ytd and today.
well, let's just say, i'm kindah terrified to step out of the hse now.
ytd was horrible,
i couldnt close my eyes cause i'll have playbacks of what happened.
told my parents i was alright (i lied) cause i didnt want them to worry.
was crying silently in the room ytd,
felt that the whole incident had just turned my life over totally.
i didnt felt like myself anymore, something just wasnt right anymore.

i am frighten, i am afraid of having to rmb that whole incident
but nothing seems to be able to erase it away from my mind.
the moment i close my eyes, i can clearly see that guy's face.

i'm trying to take it as a lesson learnt, for i-dont-know-what-reason.
that incident has passed and i want it to remain as the past.
i hate that it's huanting my thoughts everyday.

at this point of time, i've got to be strong.
i really dont wish to be a burden to anyone,
though i'm still wondering why it happened to me when so many others was there.
i guess, it happened for a reason though i dont know what isit right now.
-

[1710]
it hurts the most, to see everyone concern bout what happened yet
the bestfriend didnt even bother asking how i am...

my bestfriend, the one who i needed most but not ard at all.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:50 PM.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

that unfortunate event.

i went to mug with immelia at civic centre's library ytd
but it was unproductive and i did nothing much thanks to my dumbness.
i rmbed to bring every thing i needed except for the most impt, notes.

just a reminder to girls out there,
pls do be extra careful when you're at causeway point.
everywhere in s'pore or infact ard the world isnt safe anymore.
i was right outside TimeZone when an unsound looking guy molested me,
but he managed to escape despite me pulling on to his t-shirt.
he came back to find me again in anger,
after noticing we had informed the security guards.
i got assaulted and fell to the ground,
my lower rib got hurt and also with a huge bruise on my kneecap too.
i made a report and gave the police my statement...

this happened to me just ytd!
so girls pls do keep a lookout,
if it happens to you, pls do not keep mum, inform someone.
such ppl are not worth to be left running outside freely,
when we girls will definitely in danger.

baby was so sweet to rush down immediately after receiving my call.
after everything ended,
we headed over to gelare for our fair dose of ice-cream.
accompanyed immelia for a cab and we trained back.

thanks sis. if it wasnt for you, i would have not known what to do too.
sorry that i scared the shit out of you but
yet you were still standing strong for me.
your hugs and kisses assured me so much that i was gonna be alright.
I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU SIS =)

on my way home with baby, we sat down i told him lots of stuffs.
it just felt great that i'm able to just open up after holding back for so long.
with his hugs and kisses, i wish time would just paused right there.
nvr will time wait for anyone.
that's why i'm treasuring my baby even more

iLOVEyou & iMISSyou my love.
your appearance was enough to show that you care and you love me.
nothing's gonna change my love for you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:10 AM.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

as much as i feel like crying, i'm trying to hold them back.

i'm speaking the opposite from what my heart's saying.
saying it's alright if he doesnt want to meet,
when the fact is that i'm missing him dearly and wish to see him...
i'm sorry for the tears as i cant control no more.

it's when my heart starts breaking silently.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:30 PM.

dont tell me stuffs i hate listening,
dont tell me things i'm supposed to give in,
dont tell me lies i'm supposed to believe...

the bf isnt gonna meet me this sat, so is nxt sat too.
too much stuffs that are occupying him too much for him to squeeze lil bitsy time for me.
what to do?
his just way too busy for me, even with the fact that his exams are over.

i aint gonna force no more.
if he has time, than he has time, if he doesnt, than forget it.
i'm so tired of having to ask whether he'll be free on what days and all...
i aint the bf, he is.
so why am i always doing what the guys are supposed to do?
oh... whatever!
i'll just start planning my days properly, so i wont be lonely without him.

sometimes i really wonder why doesnt he just understand.
it isnt like i'm so unreasonable, maybe at times i am but not always too.
i'm lacking of so much a relationship is supposed to have
but i'm not able to breathe a thing out fearing he'll be pissed.
why? why cant he simply understand that all i need is just love, care and concern.
three simple words but yet so hard to understand =(

who says that i aint compromising?
well, the fact that i've been compromising too much seems to be the reason.
why are guys forever so difficult to please?
when you dont bother, they'll accuse you that they're not impt.
when you bother too much, they'll say that you're controlling them.
so tell me, what the hell am i supposed to do?!
why isit that we, girls, are forever at a loss at no matter what we do.
it's so hard to deal with it...

PE was great today, skipped PE with adeline and eileen who're both sick.
i'm not feeling well too, in a way or so. haha
gossiped ard and slacked while the rest were playing soccer.

saw ken kor, yao kor, suling jie at different times after sch, what a coincident.
skipped maths remedial and
i finally got my hair steamed and washed with a head massage too.
i'm so lalalala-ing right now.
i've been so tensed that the head massage was so relieving.

tuition at 6.30 later, i shall do maths again.
there's just so much topics i'm missing out on,
sec3's work are all returned back to the teachers even before i graduate.
how terrible is that!
so i shall be a good girl and start mugging my ass off, i'm running out of time.
and i'll try my very best to complete at least three chpts of chem tmr.
i'm meeting immelia sis... YAYNESS...

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:25 PM.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

[ /edited ]

phew.
i just managed to esacpe a death sentence for not completing my chem homewk.
luckily, and a thousand thanks to andy for saving my life and again as always.
handed up just in time before the bell rang and msLim didnt realised anything.

am in the com lab right now,
two free periods since mrLow hasnt finished marking our papers.
funny rules of no chatting, downloading of songs blah blah blah...
to think that we're gonna even listen, how naive.
anyway, poa test later... godblessme.
i'm not feeling any better sadly,
it feels as if it'll cramp any moment.
BOOOO...

anyway, i shall stop here.
gonna check out the super gore website mrLow told us about.
-

i got home almost an hour earlier,
wasnt feeling very good and thus daddy fetched me back.
well, i called him in fact but he wanted to fetch me back though.
my temperature wasnt even consistent,
feeling cold one min and very warm the nxt.
i kept perspiring, as in mao leng han (cold sweat).

daddy was super sweet, he rushed down asap.
so i managed to skip poa test today and even helped han`ny to cheat. opps =X

i shall have my rest now.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:25 PM.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

HAPPY 11MTHS & MANY MORE TO COME.
BABY, I LOVE YOU.

[ /edited ]
i've been farting non-stop ever since before my menses came,
and it came today exactly as when i've counted it would.
i've been pmsing the whole day,
thanks to andy who couldnt stop irritating me even though i've gave my warning.

weili, steph, honey and i stayed back in the library during recess,
slacked and discussed bout the chalet the guys suggested but
the bell rang before much was even settled at all.
anyway, i guess the idea of having a chalet is pretty much settled.

was having cramps during mdmLu's period and
my head was practically down during the whole time.
it was hurting so bad that i skipped completing my prelim's correction.
got back my prelim chinese results and i flanked badly.
paper 1- 32/70
paper 2- 25/70
how am i supposed to get promoted with such horrible results?

it was so nice of my honey to cabbed back with me,
intended to get lunch from northpoint before heading back home
but the pain was too unbearable that i had to give it a missed.

daddy isnt gonna be back home early and there goes my dinner,
am still in a dilemma whether i shld have my dinner...
had gastrics again ytd, for the 2nd time again in a week.
since daddy and mummy was gonna be home late, i skipped it ytd.
well, i shld see how it goes later...
-

red fluid(blood) gushing out causing me to have cramps throughout the day.
it got better just now, a few hrs after sch but totally not now!
it's making me wonder whether it'll hurt as bad tmr,
or i would have to skip sch. i wouldnt want to feel tortured throughout the day.

what a bad experience since i havent exactly experienced cramps since
i started having my menses in late pri5.
what a day!
for me to go through this, luckily i cancelled today's tuition just now.

baby i can't believe,
that you feel the same for me
this is reality, not some fantasy
that you're mine
when you hold me in your arms
i feel like heaven's holding me
and i know there's no one else for me
your love is all I need

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:25 PM.

Monday, August 21, 2006

too hard for the eyes to see, use your heart to feel.

i feel that the quote actually explains alot.
how much can one actually see of a person in reality? too little!
even though some may know us inside out but how many have actually seen that true self we are hiding inside us?
often ppl are changing to adapt to the changes/ppl ard,
many just got so used to becoming what others expect of them and
at the end of the day, we just lose who we really are.

that's how i feel after times are improving and all.
to be able to keep up with the rapidly growing world,
everyone ard us just seems to be changing without knowing too.

treasure the true friends ard for you'll nvr know how great they are when they're nvr ard.
I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE MY HONEY.
-

there was this sudden urge in me that felt like adding that in.
anyway i met up with felicia aka lao shi after mdmLu's chinese remedial,
a pathetic remedial since most of the guys escaped and left only 16 of us.
we headed over to civic center's library and she tutored me poa.
for once in my 2yrs of learning poa after mrRahman left,
i actually understood what was going on. haha
after she patiently explained every single thing that i needed to know,
we started chatting bout lots of stuffs. guys, bf(s), friends etc...
lots was said and shall be kept private, so i shant post it out here.

anyway, there's alot in my mind now but i've learnt to not post everything out anymore.
it's afterall a very public thing having a blog and....

i hope that things wont be as what friends have predicted.
i've got faith in you and wish that you'll prove them wrg,
much of what may be hurting to feel that it's almost totally impossible...

are you really who i think you are
or are the external factors just making a fool out of me again?
as i continue wondering...

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:40 PM.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

got up earlier than expected since i only went to bed at 3,
had branch with my parents after being guilty of being lazy the past few weeks and not head out with them for even a meal.
gave in to them too since i got home ard 11.30 last night,
and they didnt even said anything.
so since sis wasnt home, there were only the three of us.
headed over to gim tim restaurent and had dim sam too.

dad was super hilarious last night the moment he got back home from karaok.

dad: are you alright? howcome you're still awake? (already 2plus)
me: ya, i'm alright. cant get to slp so i came online.
(which i lied, i was actually waiting for baby to get home)
dad: who are you chatting with? boyfriend isit?
me: nopes. chatting with a friend only.
dad: you sure? the other time you also had a boyfriend out of a sudden and i was the last to know.
mum: she's old enough already! she has grown up...

super funny.
so i thought that it'll be a great idea to let them know after my Ns are over.
well, though i've still got to choose an appropriate timing,
at least after hearing what my parents said,
i guess things will be slightly easier.

nothing much today since i'll be home the rest of the day.
i shall slack while the rest of the family is napping in dreamland.

good day everyone =)

i wish to feel that i'm the most impt, on top of every other things once in a while =(

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:02 PM.

baby decided to meet me in the end,
the usuals of meeting up at city hall before deciding where to head to.
well, i waited for baby for half an hour while stoning and watching those trains passed by.
was listening to those chinese songs that got me thinking again and
my tears started running like a water fall.
the moment baby saw me, he gave his what happened look to me.
kept mum until he threatened me, so we talked awhile before training down to bugis.

went to art friends to get his diamonds and
baby got me my storybook from popular cause he kept insisting on paying.
afterwhich, we headed over to bugis for some shopping and
baby had a sudden urge to munch on junks so we headed over to OG.
got ourselves chocs&biscuits before we headed over to sim lim to meet yanhan kor.
so the day turned out to be a double date instead,
real fun since the last time that happened was like two yrs ago.
strolled ard slightly before we trained to marina for a movie.
finally a movie after ages of not catching any!
caught The Break Up, the ending was darn saddening and i started crying.

oh yuh, i forgot to mention that i was so emo the whole day.
my mood was constantly going up&down,
causing baby to get quite annoyed when i kept crying out of a sudden.
i'm feeling darn bad now!
and my menses are coming soon, what a week to start with nxt week.

after the movie,
we strolled over to the esplanade which was flooded with super lots of malays.
we were wondering what was the occcasion?
so we changed venue over to the merlion area,
things started out fine before baby and i got into a tiff.
it was freaking draggy, with me crying and him getting annoyed and all
but am glad to say that things are settled and i still love my boy as much =)
the train ride back was fun with baby's non-stop teasing ard and
i took a short nap since i was drained having being out the whole day,
esp. with two and the half hrs of tuition early in the morning too.

the walk back home was horrible,
i felt a sudden sharp pain and the moment i got up, i knew it was gastrics.
that made my way home like hell.
with every step taken, a sharp pain will continue with it...

there's pics but i shall upload it when i'm up from my beauty slp later.
-

kor&dasao

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:15 PM.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

feeling totally moodless right now as i wait...
a blank mind.
a vanished smile.
a hollow heart.
a sorrow girl.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:15 PM.

Friday, August 18, 2006

i try to hide the hurt behind with a smile.

yay.
my last paper has finally ended.
went to causeway with honey to get a top,
thinking i that will be meeting him tmr but than, i was wrg again.
the bf decided not to meet me cause he wants to study,
when his been going out late the past two days. what a great timing.
owell, since plans are changed, new plans are made than.
i shall head out to study tmr...
study hard baby!

i'm trying to be as perfect in your eyes
but with every little thing i try to change, i start losing my ownself too.

saw wilson bro on my way home,
accompanyed him for dinner before heading back home.
just got off the line with a friend,
since i've got no where to go, i shall study tmr too.

i noticed that i cant handle stress recently,
i'll start breaking down out of a sudden.
well, it happened again just now and i gave bro a shocked. haha
shant elaborate what happened but only a few close ones knows the exact thing,
it isnt something to be very proud of so i shldnt post it out.

i will find other things to do,
to replace the sadness of not being able to see you.
the time we have just seems to be decreasing slowly,
unknowingly that i may even lose you again.

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:35 PM.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

i'm just drained.
tired.
upset.
depressed.
hoping.
wishing.
so not motivated.

i'm going for tuition now.
byebye.

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:48 PM.

the eng paper today was freaking difficult,
i'm so praying that i'm not gonna be coming back with horrible results.
afterwhich, we had PE and
our actual plan of soccer was replaced by a 3.2k run outside sch.
since we girls havent been having trainings since forever,
our stamina dropped to zero after three quater of the run and
the remaining one quater was spent with us chatting and strolling back to sch.
super shagged but i felt very good since i havent exercised for suchah long time.

accompanyed honey to cold storage since she wanted to get junk foods,
but i ended up psychoing her to get instant hot choco mix instead. haha
we shared and splitted the packets inside and went over to BK for some catching ups.
got ourselves bread from four leaves before heading back home.

owell, i've got only another three hours to slack before i've got to head out for tuition.
maths, maths, maths...
YAYNESS...
last paper tmr, which is my nightmare, chinese paper2.
totally no idea what i've got to study for it, so i shall not study.
i shall be a good girl and learn to do more maths sums during tuition.
-

sometimes, everything just seems to fall out of place
and there's just totally no excitement in looking forward for sat.
whenever sat arrives,
i'll just be telling myself that oh well, another sat is here again...
there was supposed to be this magical thing about every sat that was coming,
but it just seemed like it had dead off after time passes by.

where is the love?

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:10 PM.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

three papers down and two more to go.
i'm real proud of myself today =)
i managed to complete my paper 20mins before time. ahahaha...
but the most troublesome thing is that,
i was flipping my dictionary more than five times in just one sentence.
it was as if i was reading my dictionary, flipping from page to page.

i was super afraid that they'll set those qns with all those chimchim words,
cause there was once when i did my paper without even knowing the qns.

i'm getting so addicted to Ritz's apple and mango strudels,
i've had it like twice this week already and this week hasnt even ended yet.

was chatting with felicia via sms in class.
her words did got me thinking alot i must say,
i guess it's words from the experienced from one who has gone through it.
i guess, other than immelia and her, hardly anyone else truely understands.
but having two is better than none, i'm contented enough.

this song that i cant stop listening recently, Lonely by Shannon Noll.

do you ever get lonely, baby
dont you ever get tired of living that way
dont you ever wonder whether there a better life out there
do you ever think about what we had

i look around the room and wonder
when it was and how my life has changed

do you ever think you'll never love that way again
do you ever miss me
wishing you could kiss me
if only you could hold me
do you ever get lonely like me

i've been spending too much money these few days,
10bucks out and hardly even a cent survives back home
but i'm proud to say that it's all spent on food. haha
my sandwich breakfast from 7-eleven costs me almost 3bucks,
plus recess and food i buy after sch back home.
i better start controlling or i'll be broke in no time.

i'm suchah bad girl, i just lied to daddy.
i said that i had strudel and a burger for lunch but the fact is that i only had strudel.
soooooo skipping dinner today again opps =x
and baby better not find out anything bout it, or i'll be lectured again.

having to go through the hard way will be tougher than before
but staying by the soft way will just hurt me more.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:20 PM.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

phew.
the very stressing SS paper is finally over today,
a super huge and heavy rock off my back for now.
HOOORRAYYYYY!

i totally screwd the 25marks source base qns, half of the paper's mark.
can you believe it?
yes! cause we gave up studying merger&separation since we were short of time.
i hope my other 25marks on structured-essay would help me pull through.

three more days of language paper before i need to start mugging for my other papers for a mth later, which i've got totally no extra time to waste or else i'll definitely be dead.
chinese paper1 tmr,
am not studying for it cause i've got no idea what to study too.
will be doing my eng ten yrs series later for my thursday's paper.

till then, thanks to all my friends who have been encouraging me =)

a few have been telling that i shld reconsider and make a decision.
maybe i shld stand up for myself once in a while and make it clear that i'm not easily step over
but it seems like i'm always getting step over time&time again.
my feelings are hardly even considered at all.
sometimes, i feel that i'm so drained and feel like ignoring but i always fail to.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:25 PM.

Monday, August 14, 2006

i'm feeling so FUCKED up right now.
i feel that i cant even handle the stress from the prelim, what more Ns?

sadly, the bf isnt exactly here for me...
where's the one i need most during times like this?
when i feel that i cant take it, but i've got to go through it.

i'm feeling so agitated and i just started tearing for i-dont-know-what reasons.
i'm having the very teansed feeling,
tightness around the chest area and slight breathing difficulties.

will someone just save me from everything?

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:10 PM.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

STRESS STRESS STRESS...

i havent been feeling this pressure on me for suchah long time,
i'm feeling helpless as if i'm gonna breakdown soon.
the last thing i want, is to watch my whole future down the drain.

i want to strive, but i need uncounted help from all.
a hug to tell me i'm able to get promoted with me starting to work hard right now....
to let me know that hard work will bring me up...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:55 PM.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

sometimes, i wish you'll understand...
how much those little things you do means a whole lot more to me.

if only you understand.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 PM.

i'll not be updating for the time being...

till then,

in your eyes, i found the greatest prize

you and i could not be closer

and in your arms, is everything i want

now i know my search is over

i'm not sure how we got here

baby i'm just glad that we got here

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:55 PM.

Monday, August 07, 2006

honey's sick and i ended up going to sch alone.
am so happy that there wont be any lessons tmr,
will be playing for surani's team during the captain's ball game.

my head was spinning the whole time in sch,
luckily i wasnt grouchy at all...
a fight happened in class today that got us, girls scared to our wits.
mikaris was whacking venkat and isaac when to help,
but got whacked by mikaris on the head instead. gosh.
israel wasnt happy that his bro got whacked so he joined in too.
jiawei and sainow was like trying their very best to seperate them.
you shld have seen, it was darn scary.
they were like whacking each other ard the back of the classroom
and the tables and chairs were practically all overturned.

got cup noodle for lunch on my way back,
but am not having a very good appetite so i didnt finish it.
i'm so addicted to my tokyo juliet, shall continue with it
and will have to call immelia sis back after my show.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:15 PM.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

i've had a good night's slp and yet i'm still having a headache.
woke up and realised that i had dreamt bout jason's gf,
whom i dont know and i've nvr seen before either.
that's so weird cause she looked exactly the same as her pics. haha

sis and bro-in-law are having the same nonsense going on again,
causing the whole family to get so frustrated over them.
i guess the ones who are really suffering most is their kids.
adults are always like that, nvr sparing a thought for us.
daddy bought durians for mummy but to be home to find her missing.
haha.

nothing much since i'll be home the whole day,
i shall call immelia sis now...

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:00 PM.

[/edited]
chatted with immelia last night, unknowingly that it was already 1,
hurried to bed or else i'll have a major prob getting up.
got up at 8 feeling horrible, due to the gastrics i suddenly had last night
and on my way to tuition was worst, my tummy hurted like shit.
i was in dilemma whether to go for tuition since i was already half way there but the angel in me,
i still went to tuition in the end. *imma good girl

the excitement i'm supposed to be feeling,
aint how it's supposed to be.

will be heading out in the evening to meet my boy,
meeting him at city hall and to marina as usual...
will update when i'm home.
-

i'm finally back after getting stucked in the jam for almost an hour.
i'm glad to say that things have totally improved so much,
to be exact it was way beyond my expectations too...
that's the good thing bout not setting your expections too high,
you'll be back smiling like a little girl, just like me.
it feels so good to be feeling so-love by him again,
esp. those hugs&kisses i've been receiving throughout was great.
I LOVE MY BOY!!!

we were supposed to head down to chinatown and bugis instead
but we couldnt find a single parking lot after going in circles.
so we ended up heading to marina instead and
it was so packed with ppl who are engrossed in the fireworks display
that we only managed to get a parking lot ard 8plus.
baby got so impatient and got so reckless as usual...
i got real bored and hungry while waiting for a parking lot,
so i started entertaining myself.

settled with dinner at swensens and i spent 20bucks plus
at candy empire getting sweets&chocs for baby and myself.
did a lil bit of window shopping before leaving since
it was getting late and i was supposed to be home at 11
but i was late, i only got home ard 11.40...
it wasnt my fault, i was stuck in a freaking jam with a headache.
my head was pounding every min causing me to feel real slpy,
so i slept throughout the whole journey back and
baby was driving so fast that i felt super giddy in the car.

alright, it's late already.
i shall hurry finish my soup and off to bed.

i melt every time you look at me that way
it never fails, anytime, any place
this burn in me is the coolest thing i've ever felt
don't know how you do it i love the way i lose it every time
with just one little stare from you is all it takes

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:45 AM.

Friday, August 04, 2006

~~FUCK FUCK FUCK...~~

why cant everything just goes smoothly,
he must fucking turn my happy day upside down.
THANKS MAN...

you got what you wanted.
happy?

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:35 PM.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIYONG.

i just got back from a very fun day out with immelia sis and
her best friend, yuqi, who joined us in the later part of the day...

met immelia after my weekly sucky chinese remedial ended,
and we took a bus back to my place as requested by the sis.
she went online and we had lots of topics to bitch about non-stop,
only to bathe at ard 2plus and hurried left for woodlands.
headed over to civic centre's library and we got down to work,
did my two sets of phy Nlvl paper with lots of question marks. haha
apparently, i seemed rather abnormal today thus explaining my very weird behavior causing immelia to go crazy time&time again.
she's freaking mean, she kept going the word stupid is on your forehead.
yuqi joined us for dinner and we went to sakae,
i ate very lil though but i was darn full at the end.
we were so high throughout dinner, girl bitching and all.
the funniest thing was that i got so blur here&there that
i guess i totally drove immelia crazy,
with her saliva shooting out from the side of her mouth just like a waterhose.
oh yuh, immelia even gave yuqi and i a nickname, groosies. lol

not forgetting that we had suchah fabulous time at timezone after dinner.
we were so addicted to the ball-shooting machine.
though we started out with only 5bucks but at the end,
we spent 15bucks in total at the end of everything.
I HAD SUCHAH GREAT TIME WITH THOSE TWO BABES!
i shall upload the pics tmr.

let's see, we have 24hrs a day and guess what?
baby and i only exchanged ard 5msges today...
great huh.
a day more to a mth not seeing him...

the more i love, the more i...

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 PM.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

PE today was as great as last week.
we played inter-class bball and i was like the only girl running ard in my team since eileen didnt even wanted to move at all.

wesley has been really dirty these few days...
he has been mentioning stuffs related to my boobs and stuffs, how annoying.
i'm so upset with myself right now, i spent 14bucks on junk food.
can you believe it! i'm so gonna gain all those excess now =(
well, not exactly all on juck food but most of it.
got my favourite ritz apple strudel and sushi too. *i'mma happy girl

i'm so addicted to the drama tokyo juliet that i'm facing the com everyday the moment i get home from sch.
there's this part where i feel that it's so true yet touching.
ahsi: why? why isit that when you're together with him, there's only sorrow on your face but yet you're still willing to stay in this relationship together with him? do you know that my heart aches when i look at you?
sui: pls, dont say anymore.
ahsi: though i'm not sure what has happened inbetween you two but one thing that i'm sure is, he is the only one who can make you this upset. only he is able to do that!
the outcome was definitely ending up with me crying as usual. haha

got a call from my best bud just now,
how surprising since i havent heard from him since forever.
am glad to know that he's still alive and nonsensical as always.
chatted for a while before he went to dreamland bidding me goodbye.

i'm gonna stop here and carry on watching my tokyo juliet..

because ILOVEYOU, that's why i'm holding on tighter than before.
afraid that you'll let go of me before my heart dies for you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:40 PM.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA.

my day was pretty up&down...
got blasted early in the morning by han`ny,
causing me to be darn distant away from them.
something/someone got me rather pissed off in a way,
i dont care whether it was unintentionally or what-so-ever but
honey told me that my face was super black during recess.
it didnt trigered me until i started having this headache halfway
through the SS test and looking at that person just made it worst.

my nail is finally out, thanks to immelia who cant stop psychoing me ytd.
i kept looking at it and the fact that it was 3/4 out but not out yet
got me rather annoyed and my itchy fingers decided to pull it out.

i felt stupid on my way back home from sch.
was walking to the mrt station with adeline and the
sudden thought bout him asking me what time i was ending popped up.
for i-dont-know-what-reasons,
i started looking everywhere hoping he'll just surprise me like the other time.
at the end of the day, it was just my own wishful thinking...
i knew the obvious yet i was still wishing, how silly of me.

i'm addicted to mandy moore's only hope and i wanna be with you.

after catching too fast too furious,
it's totally impossible for me to miss the fast and the furious tokyo drift.
i'm wanting to catch too many movies but i've having too lil time,
the must watch will be tokyo drift, click, world trade centre, the lake house...

i shall stop here and start on my maths homewk soon.
maths test tmr again, every thurs to be exact. godblessme.
counting down to the first prelim paper, 12days more.

i wanna be with you
if only for a night
to be the one who's in your arms to hold you tight
i wanna be with you
there's nothing more to say
there's nothing else i want more than to feel this way
i wanna be with you

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:00 PM.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

[/edited]
i shall update a very short post while squeezing down my bread
and afterwhich, i've got to rush and complete a whole pile of homewk.

sch was great since eleven ppl were absent,
remaining only thirty ppl in class today.
which is great and no one can deny that since it was rather peaceful.
the weather was rather cooling yet warm at the same time,
thus explainingly why all of us were close to dropping dead on our tables.

i better not forget, MY TOENAIL IS 3/4 OUT ALREADY!
it's rather disgusting,
i showed to honey and adeline in the toilet just now.
i'm pretty excited in a way cause i havent drop any so far but
i'm dreading for it drop cause than, i've got to unpolish all my nails.
i'm still hesitating whether shld i pull it out like what immelia says...
i shall update more of it tmr, or maybe it'll be out by then..

i've got to go through my SS notes for our source-base test tmr
and a pile of chem workshts to complete...
actually, there's also POA too and i may try to do it later, NOT. haha
-

was reading the papers and i came across an article bout those bloggers.
was clicking ard way too fast and my sis saw my blog.
she wanted to have a look at it, but i insisted on her not looking at it and
i closed the window but she continued asking...
she kept insisting that i was afraid they'll find out something,
that's the reason why i chose to not let her have a look at it.
that's so not the reason!

like what i've been saying all these time,
dont act as if you really understand me when you actually dont.

the fact is, i'm not afraid of letting anyone look at it but
why shld i allow them to have a look at it and
totally crash my whole privacy?
it's a fact that they totally dont understand me,
so why do i bother updating them with what has been going on
when they wont even understand how i'm feeling.
for instance, if i tell them i'm back together with baby and
i've been missing him like crazy since i havent seen him for 3weeks plus..
just imagine what they'll tell me after hearing what i said?
your prelims are coming and you shld be concentrating on your work
and not thinking bout bf all day long...
goodness.

miss me,
miss me not,
miss me,
miss me NOT.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:40 PM.