Thursday, March 31, 2005
okiie.. continue bloggin for jus now...
trainin wasn`t tat badd except tat it was very tirin.
[did steps, tip-toe,push-ups,crunch`s and ran ard sch...] we did 3sets and they were so gonna drop dead ani moment. haha.
actually i thought tat trainin todae was reali good. alison and i was reali damn strict towards
them which we reali kinda push them to their limits. [was obeyin ah koh..]
i thought tat ah koh was reali pushin us to the limits cuz everyone was droppin dead.
a few of us didn`t reali felt tired onli felt tat our body was achin due to PE in daa mornin.
but lucky for us PE help`d us not to be so "dead" durin trainin...
*thanx to ah koh, i tink i`ve burn`d the carbs todae. which i`m able to slim down slightly : ))
wasn`t reali happy todae, many seniors didn`t come...
ah koh is makin alison, pei shi and i go for the principal`s tea thingy, which i wasn`t
interest`d at all. thanx to the V-P cuz i hate her for catchin this tat and everythin... : ))
but still gotta go aniwae.. complain so much oso no use... lalala...
*i`m so in charge of our netball t-shirt.. woohoo. hey gurls, rest assure`d tat i`ll do a good job.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.
you sae`d you`ll come at first but wen you sae`d tat you`re feelin much more worse den ytd..
i knew tat things weren`t gonna be as plan`d.
i dun wana hear those "sorrie" from you. i dun wan to.
yea i`m reali sadd cuz it`s the second time already.
but still... it ain`t your fault. i reali felt angry at first... but aft further tinkin it reali ain`t your fault. i reali dunno wen i`ll get to see you again...
so many stuffs are goin thru my mind now... i reali dunno wad to do...
i`m so confuse and stress`d up....
*those sadd stuffs are goin ard and ard my mindd... i`m afraid tat things will go wrg.
i am tryin to be strong. i dun wana get hurt again... i`m afraid of broken relationships, i accept`d you cuz
i reali lurf you... the last thing tat i eva wan to happen is tat sadd dae to come...
i`m gonna go trainin soon, i reali miss you so much. i wish i could be dere to look aft you but
yet i cun... i`m suchha useless gf...
chao!!! shall update later wen i`m bac from trainin... more to come...
mySWEETaddiction <3
2:22 PM.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
sadd is wad i`m feelin... wait`d so hardd for sch to endd and 4pm to come...
but you didn`t come in the endd... he was sick and wasn`t able to meet me...
chat`d on the phone at nite, cry`d out of a sudden cuz i was missin you so baddly.
do you reali noe how much i feel for you???
how i wish you can ans this...
*i reali miss you so baddly, yet i told myself to control those tears.
i noe i`ve promise`d not to cryy so easily but i reali cun do it... i`ve reali tried...
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:08 PM.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
many people enters and leaves my life. i`m never sure whether they`ll stay long
once they enter it, but i`m very very sure of sumthin...
>> you enter`d my life and my heart. i`ll never wan you to leave it lyk tat. cuz
you`re sumone wae too impt for me to lose. *ilu
even if the dae i wouldn`t wan comes... i`ll sure to rmb the moments spend together. as you`re sumone who`ll never leave my heart widout leavin a footprint in it...
mySWEETaddiction <3
5:49 PM.
i miss you so much dearr!!!
SPORTS DAE EVERYONE!!! but ain`t reali in tat kinda spirit to feel happy.
i reali hate sports dae... it`s reali so borin and ain`t fun except tat you gotta go on sch hrs widout studyin. lalala : ))
was suppose to stay in my own hse which is *vigour, i stay`d dere onli for a lil while
and i start`d runnin to the other hse`s. in the endd land`d up at *vengence.
>>many stuffs happen`d... blah, blah, blah... lazy to type, but nothin badd bout it thou.
after sports dae end`d, i accompany`d suling jiejie and jiayan jiejie to j8 to
get some stuffs... in the endd they both bought mrs.fields kinda lyk cookie cum cake thingy.
they were so enthu into it cuz they got the chance to decorate it themself`s for both their dearrs.
awww... so romantic :p
after tat we wen bac to northpoint cuz we wan`d to watch the eye10. wait`d for their dearrs
outside golden village BK, got the tics for the 2.50pm show and wen in.
shock`d cuz dere were so many NBSS ppl dere.
outcome of the show>> scary and funny.
was practically freezin inside the theatre. both jiejie were so lucky to have their dearrs
beside them, huggin them wen they`re either afraid or cold...
was wishin dearr dearr could be dere at tat moment. but he has exams goin on now so...
magiic word >> i reali lurf you alot, i`ll nv wana lose you at all.
*am reali missin you so much... it`s been 2 daes since i last saw you. cun meet
you tat often cuz you`re havin
your exams now. [e exams period] reali wana hugg you so tightly and not let go... weneva you
leave, i`ll ask myself this "wens the nxt time i`ll be goin to see you again?"
mayb goin to causewae wid daddie later to get my new sport shoes. hope
i`ll not get disappoint`d once again. cun wait to get my new shoes... wee...
mySWEETaddiction <3
5:20 AM.
Monday, March 28, 2005
5daes already and i ain`t feelin good in a wae. well, i reali miss you lyk crazyy but...
was suppose to go out and study wid jiejie todae but she couldn`t make it, so wen out to study wid jo`n instead. aft sch took a cab to her hse, den a cab to my hse and den another cab to sem mos to study. hehe.
CABS, CABS, CABS..!!! spendin so much money on cabs nowadaes i notice.
aniwae got to mos ate and den start`d to read my physics notes. while readin half-wae
cong come... den it all start`d all rite till the end...
haiz i kinda find it`s my fault thou jo`n sae`d it wasn`t.
ain`t wana see anione sadd, it`ll jus make me down too.
jo`n didn`t hadd the mood to study so we wen to NTUC to walk ard. we took
so many pics. wae wae too many pics.. but afterall we hadd fun thou...
we sit`d outside the 7eleven talk`d stuffs out, walk`d ard sunplaza so many times...
in the endd i guess they talk`d things out and it`s gonna be alrite.
was gonna go home wen ken korkor call`d me tellin me stuffs.
got shock`d so wen to find him outside mac, he`s reali sadd but i noe he`s tryin not
to be infront of me. i reali noe how you feel so dun have to hide anithin...
wana go home le, jo`n is gonna be late. pei her to hire a cab. den aft she got in. i walk`d
to the mrt station to take the train home.
* i reali miss you so much. thanx for alwaes bein dere for me.
you reali mean alot to me. i dun wana lose you at all.
i reali dunno wad i`ll do if you ain`t here at all.. : )) *ilu
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:38 PM.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
headache!!! headache!!! uncle at my hse now. gossipin wid my mummie.
cannot stand it. they`re talkin so loudly as if they`re very far apart.
talk till i`m havin a headache. can be be more civilise`d abit.
talkin so loudly. my head is burstin.
*i feel so stress`d up. i wana leave this hse. dere ain`t lurf here at all.
it`s as if i`m livin in my own worldd. i hate this kinda life.
i wish tat dearr dearr was here. i wish tat he ain`t livin tat far awae. i need him, i reali do.
i rather spend all my time wid *him and my fwens den stayin at home.
this ain`t a home to me.... dere ain`t lurf i see....
i miss *him so muchie much!!!
*u ain`t got to buy nothin
it`s not wad i wan
baby it`s u
we dun have to go nowher
it`s not wad i wan
baby it`s u
it`s not for wad u got
cuz i noe u got alot
no matter wad u do
u alwaes gettin hot
it`s u,
it`s u
baby all i wan is u...
mySWEETaddiction <3
6:32 PM.
i`m so piss`d. wad did i do?? you promise`d to buy the shoe...
daddie was jus inside my room helpin me wid tat dumb hi5. whyy did you flare up for...
wad.. becuz me and daddie are closer... and tat stupid reason was gonna cost me my shoe.
you`re not actin lyk a mummie. i ain`t your ventin machine alrite.
dun vent on me waneva you feel lyk it. i`m your daughter for goodness sake.
I AIN`T YOUR DUMB VENTIN MACHINE!!! dun treat me lyk tat.
wana meet dearr dearr but he`s studyin at cck, dun tink i`ll go and find him... wan him to concentrate on he`s revision. i noe i`ll distract you wen i go dere...
i`m hungry but yet i dun feel lyk eatin. am i becomin an anorexia??
hope i`m not. jus wana lose summore weight tats all.
mySWEETaddiction <3
4:06 PM.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
i wish`d i didn`t ask, i reali wish`d i didn`t ask.... sobs sobs : ((
it turn`d out much worse den i expect`d. i noe it`s your past, but it still hurts.
since you sae`d tat if i reali lurf you i shouldn`t mindd, den i`ll not mindd.
i wana forget everythin, i dun wan anithin to haunt me. but i noe, i noe tat it....
it alwaes hurt one`s heart to noe the truth, esp from your lurf ones.
*it hurts to noe the truth, it hurts to noe so much
i wish`d i didn`t noe, i wish`d i didn`t ask`d
i wana erase it from my heart, i wana erase it from my mindd.
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:59 PM.
slept late last nite. am so tired. mummie woke me up for breakfast ard 11am+
but i was still damn tired. no choice gotta wake up cuz goin out to study later.
was suppose to meet jie jie at 12pm but i told her change`d to 1pm. mummie got me breakfast
so i told her i`ll be late. was watchin channel8 while havin my breakfast.
so into the show, it hadd jay and nan quan ma ma in it. so engross tat i was late. so told jie jie i`ll be late. got to BK at bout 1pm+ 2pm. opps :x
didn`t reali study in the endd. got dere chit-chat`d ard. did manage`d to read a bit of
my chem. but wasn`t able to concentrate so kept my book in the endd.
hadd nothin to do, so we wen to 925 to eat chicken rice. ate half and was fil`d up. so sian,
we wen to safra to slack ard. left bout 6pm+
wen to pei jie jie eat laksa. but onli she and jie fu ate. i ate dessert onli.
got home hadd bit of curry and bee hoon and was fill`d up.
*I WANA SLIM DOWN!!! my stomach is gettin smaller i notice. dun have to eat much and
i`ll be fill`d up in no time. hope i`ll slim down soon. wee... : ))
i miss *him so much... winder wen i`ll get to see him again. wasn`t able to meet him todae,
haiz sobs sobs. : ((
[whyy do i feel this wae weneva she`s mention`d. i dunno whyy. but i noe tat i`m
very afraid tat i`ll lose you to her. i`m afraid, i`m so afraid.....]
mySWEETaddiction <3
10:05 PM.
i wish`d i didn`t ask, i reali wish`d i didn`t ask.... sobs sobs : ((
it turn`d out much worse den i expect`d. i noe it`s your past, but i still hurts me.
since you sae`d tat if i reali lurf you i shouldn`t mindd, den i`ll not mindd.
i wana forget everythin, i dun wan anithin to haunt me. but i noe, i noe it will....
it alwaes hurt one`s heart to noe the truth, esp from your lurf ones.
*it hurts to noe the truth, it hurts to noe so much
i wish`d i didn`t noe, i wish`d i didn`t ask`d
i wana erase it from my heart, i wana erase it from my mindd.
mySWEETaddiction <3
11:59 AM.
Friday, March 25, 2005
i`m drinkin now.. opps :x hope dear dear will not angry ar.
wen to town and the esplanade jus now wid jo`n and cong. den out of the
sudden dear dear wen
dere to find me too. so so so happy. it`s lyk never seen him for so long le.
took so many pics wid jo`n whereva we wen to usin her digi cam. click click
so many... wee.. jo`n kept wantin to take pics of me and dear dear but we kept turnin awae.
bleahx. in the endd she manage`d to take one. but i was so ugly in it.
dear dear so lucky, he`s mummie wans to buy for him a zen micro. but den he doesn`t wan it.
i wan oso dun have... lol.
havin gastric now, haven reali ate anithin the whole dae. onli share`d a pac of
carrot cake wid jo`n in the mornin. mummie bought it for me.
got home ate the curry mummie cook`d. YUM YUM!!! so nice to eat.
but so spicy den i ate a little onli den dun wana eat le.
*miss you so much now. wonder wens the nxt time we`ll get
to see each other again.
sorrie tat it`s hard for us to meet alone, the er ren shi jie you wan`d.
haiz so sorrie : ((
mySWEETaddiction <3
9:00 PM.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
i`m reali shock`d bout wad you told me. it`s reali damn shockin.
i seriously thought tat you were jokin. dun worry kz i wun tell anione. i promise.
pls gurl dun do it again kz. even he`s not dere i`ll be dere de kz.
*i hope it`ll last, reali hope tat it`ll last.
i dun wana noe e future, i dun wana rmb e past,
all i wan is tat i`m wid you now.
tat is reali wad matters most to me now...
mySWEETaddiction <3
6:06 PM.
wad is wrg?? whyy am i alwaes bein torture`d by you ppl...
i`m so tired of all this things happenin. esp wen you`re my cousin, jiemei & korkor.
backstab isit wad i wana endd everythin wid... haven`t you ppl thought of how i felt.
*i`m so tired of all those backstabbin, i`m so tired of bein accuse`d,
i`m so tired of bein made use`d of....
i`m tired of livin life lyk this.... wad has my life turn`d into???
whyy dun you ppl jus do me a great fav by jus leavin me alonee. it`s time i stand up already.
i dun wana tolerate all this animore. i`m reali very tired, i`ll breakdown if this continues..
*i thought i could trust you but i guess no one can be trust`d at all.
esp wen you`re one of my family members.
i dun wana live lyk this animore. i`m reali tired... pls... jus let me off.
i jus wana live life normally.
*dere ain`t true fwens in this worldd, dere ain`t happiness animore, dere ain`t fun left.
dun you trust tat you`re my everythin??? do you reali tink tat we`ll drift???
if tats how you feel in one dae, i reali dunnno wad to do... sobs sobs. : ((
mySWEETaddiction <3
3:35 PM.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
thanx dear dear for tat surprise again.. i reali lyk`d tat pic alot.
haiz you dun believe me. lol.
wen to long john at 4pm+ 5pm wan`d to study but in the endd hadd no mood so didn`t too.
he call`d and intend`d to "scold" me but in the endd, we chat`d on
the phone instead.
*23.03.05 i`ll never forget this date.
jo`n was lyk go buy 4D, nah i`m not into gamblin.
rain came, rain go. you came but i dun wana let you go.
haha i i`m suchha genius.
it doesn`t matter if we cun see each other everydae... all tat matters is
i noe i`m in your heart. cuz you`re in mine too. lalala...
i`m bored. ate long john jus now. havin a sudden cravin for chocolates.
but i dun have ani at home!!! sobs sobs. : ((
mySWEETaddiction <3
7:29 PM.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
i lurf`d tat surprise. thanx so much dear dear.thanx so much : ))mySWEETaddiction <3
9:50 PM.
hadd trainin, did physical and ran 1.2km. am so damn shagg now,
but met "dear dear" after trainin.
was damn shock`d cuz i thought you weren`t comin le, den suddenly
you sae tat you`re gonna meet me. i thought you were gonna carryin on studyin...
was happy yet pai sei i guess. after wad you told me.
bout the thingy you ask`d me to forget... hmmm...
i`ll try to kz. i promise. and i`m glad tat you told me everythin.
after noein everythin, i was damn crazyy
in class. kept smilin lyk an idiot.
so chem... dunno wad you mean. but after you explain me.. i kinda noe le ba, i guess.
thanx once more, you reali came and pei me again, thou it
was jus a short time. but i reali appreciate`d it.
jo`n was so crazyy after seein "dear dear" keke. i so pai sei after seein him.
dunno whyy oso.
aniwae.... i hadd a great time, thou it was after trainin.
*thanx for everythin... i finally understand le.
thanx for takin time to pei me, i`m reali touch`d.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:34 PM.
Monday, March 21, 2005
IT`S A DAE I`LL NEVER FORGET!!!
jus now he came, i was damn happy and damn touch`d. wen to meet him at OCBC.
he bought oreo and kept wantin me to eat but i didn`t.
he kept saein i was crazyy, which i`m not.
suddenly thought of wad you told me the other dae, felt so sadd and
my tears kept drippin. didn`t wan you to see me lyk tat so i wen out to cryy instead.
my heart ache`d once i saw you, yet i cun do anithin....
*e glances i`ve made, the tears i`ve drip`d were all for u
thanx so much "dear dear"... reali thank you. i`m reali so touch`d tat you came all the
wae to yishun jus to pei me study... i reali hadd a great time.
hehe sorrie tat i keep hittin you. opps :x
bleahx :p
keke so badd lo. jus now choke me. later i die how ar?? my neck pain pain neh.
you la. bully me i go tell mummie ar. bleahx.
thanx for tat pic.. i put it as my wallpaper leh...
i`m suchha nice person.. muahaha.
o ya o ya.. not forgettin to thank you for teachin me my work.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:55 PM.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
i regret`d.... i wish i can have the carefree life once again.
i wish dere ain`t troubles in me.... i wana be free from everythin.
i dun feel lyk noein animore stuffs. i`ve too many, too many tat i feel so stress`d up.
LIFE AIN`T TAT CAREFREE ANIMORE!!!
i`ll never feel tat lurf`d animore... save me sumone out dere....
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:28 PM.
*it`s bleediin lyk how it use`d to. the never endiin blood jus keeps flowin.
it`s another hurtful moment i`m in again.
mayb i`ll be so numb one dae, tat i`ll never feel ani more again.
mySWEETaddiction <3
1:38 AM.
*i`m kinda feelin tat you`re more impt to me. isit onli wad i`m tinkin
or do you feel tat wae too??
those sweet phrases... reali glad tat you meant it. haha. you`re changin
my life into sumthin more wonderful.
*not regretin tat i told you tat i`ll alwaes be dere.... cuz you`re one person tat mean so much..
i guess life ain`t tat badd afterall. havin you and stuffs... hope it`ll jus
stay this wae....
i dunno whyy but i keep tearin after seein wad you`ve type... mayb i`m jus not meant to have
anione to lurf me??? i`m sorrie to sae. mayb you`re jus sumone reail too inpt inside my heart.
i may get hurt once again.. but it`s worth it... reali... -sobs sobs-
i`m gonna lose all this wonderful things again. i noe all this will be gone in no time.
but i`m gonna treasure every single thin now...
mySWEETaddiction <3
12:22 AM.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
wana noe wad. i hate you guys. you sae`d you`ll come and you broke your promise.
i hate ppl who are lyk tat. it ain`t the first time. if you cun come, cun you make an effort to
at least tell.
*i trust`d you too much tat i`m so tired of it. i tink i`ve hadd enuff and i`m not
gonna be so dumb to believe you again.
hadd so much fun msgin "dear dear". ain`t gonna regret noein you at all. you reali brought
happiness into my life. thou we dun see each other alot, you`re sumthin
i dun wana lose. [tats from the bottome of my heart]
sobs sobs. haha he slpin. not free to pei me chat. but hadd fun chattin wid him earlier on.
SHARKS!!! my hp bill for last mth jus came, it`s 90+ bucks. o man.
now i reali needa save lots of money to pay it. haiz. saddie gurl.
*come on, it`s no use saein i`m sorrie wen i`ve wait`d for 1hr+. it ain`t fun at all.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.
Friday, March 18, 2005
yawns. so tired. was chattin and irritatin lil piggy last nite. hadd suchha great time.
was irritatin him tryin to find out sum stuffs. woohoo. at last he told me. so happy.
*seriously, i do feel the same wae. but sumhow i`m afraid tat one of us will get hurt.
i noe tat no relationship is perfect. but i too dun wana risk our fwenship too.
am glad tat things weren`t tat badd aft you`ve told me. winks winks.
tats a great sign kz. haha.
*i`m still gonna be dere for you, you`ll nv walk alone in the boulevard of broken dreams.
cuz i`m gonna be dere wen you need me.
reali shag it`s kinda lyk i didn`t have enuff sleep yet but actually i had already. haha
aniwae enuff of bloggin. gonna go chat on msn already... lalala...
mySWEETaddiction <3
1:18 PM.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
suchha nice dae i guess. so much stuffs happen`d in one dae. kinda piss`d wid
suling jie jie jus now. was tryin to be concern by askin,
but got scold`d instead. so piss`d tat i didn`t reali bother talkin to her.
caught jia yan jie jie and kor kor..... blah blah blah.. keke.
i`m suchha pro. woohoo.
wen to safra jus now saw tat bitch which i wish`d i didn`t saw. yan and ling jie jie
wen to bowl. so me and two kor kors sat wid them while they bowl.
left and forgotten to take my wallet. finally found it missin aft half an hour later.
so dumb rite. so sadd. rush`d to get a cab. lucky and thanx to those kindd souls who help`d me found it. muackies lurf them all.
wen for dinner, felt hungry but didn`t felt lyk eatin so i jus ate dessert.
*hey to you, good luck in ur drivin test. cun do much. all i can
do is to give you my support.
JIA YOU...
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:15 PM.
Monday, March 14, 2005
so happy. wen to sentosa to tann. hadd suchha great dae. the past are gone. feelin so relax now.
we tann too long. all of us had sunburn. o man. *ouchies ouchies
pain pain!!! but to me i tink it`s jus worth it. after havin so much stress in sch and
so many probs tat need`d to be solve. it`s a dae tat i`ll never forget.
hong xin, lucia and i hadd so much laughter in the water. kinda
trick`d tat bunch of guys dere.
yan, ling and i walk`d al the wae to siloso beach bare foot`d. crazyy rite. wen to get ice-cream
saw a billabong shop dere and we kinda wen nuts. wen in. so many nice
stuffs tat we wan`d. no money so can onli see. but after everythin it`s jus an unforgetable dae
for all of us.
mySWEETaddiction <3
9:36 PM.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
a new beginnin for me now. dun wana rmb wad has happen`d in the past. i`m movin on.
WILLIAM you`re the past tat i dun eva wana rmb.
mySWEETaddiction <3
8:00 PM.
