More Than Words

Thursday, June 30, 2005

was intendin to get a skirt and a top from northpoint...
yamei accompany`d me back home, wait`d for me while
i wen to bathe and got change`d..

wen to northpoint, shop`d ard. got so irritate`d
as i couldnt get wad i wan`d. finally gave up aft goin
to so many shops. wen to hadd long john, ate and hadd a long chat.
wen to espirt to look ard, i saw a top that was plain but yet
it was sumthin lyk wad i`m lookin for. and it`s on sale i guess
cuz it`s real cheap. got a necklace from power9 to match`d my top.

while gettin lunch for my cousin, walk`d pass a small stall
and got a nailpolish. daa colour is real natural and nice...

am in cousin`s hse revisin my maths, havin test tmr.
fill`d up and complete`d my poa contents page.

GOOD LUCK FOR TMRS TEST PEEPS = ]

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:05 PM.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

I MISS MY BABY
HIM, MY ONE&ONLY.
todae`s lesson was reali fun, kindah bring out daa fun
of goin to sch. rather den, facin those books all dae long.

chemistry, we wen to daa lab and did sum experiments.
so fun, my grp`s real so cute. we`re all so blur and didnt noe wad to do.
jiemei and me were afraid that daa bunsen burner will explode,
kept askin natasha to do daa lightin of it for us.

poa, bekah was freakin madd. while mr joseph was teachin,
bekah was screamin outside our class.
here`s daa funny part. daa wae bekah was screamin,
was as if she kena rape lyk that.
that freakin made our whole class laugh`d. we jus kept laughin
lyk sum madd class in lala land. lols.
-
met up wid suling aft sch at blk 800. intend`d to go home,
but saw alfred, chao sheng and wei liang on daa bus.
chat`d and we end`d up goin for lunch at chong pang
together. hadd "xiang xiang fishball noodle" and
we kept gossipin bout wan ah wan.
-
at home rottin i shall sae, dun have anythin to do except chattin
online and watch tv. that`s bout everythin i do wen i`m home.
-
twinkle twinkle lil starr,
she smiles brightly lookin up daa sky.
she noes that those broken dreams has left her life.
twinkle twinkle lil starr,
she thanks you for sendin this lil angel down to her.
she`ll lurf and cherish him wid her whole heart.
so jus let him stay and not bring him awae...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:35 PM.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

sch was alright i guess.. nothin much happen`d.

i kindah got guai. did my maths homewk.

file`d up my poa file

(haven update`d my contents yet).

did chinese work and i listen`d in class...

and so.... things in my head are still complicate`d.

i`m into goin cambodia but yet i dun wana miss 1week of lessons.

yuh, sum ppl may sae "weilin will study??" and so,

yuh i dun reali study but i still do wana score well.

i`ve thought of my future, my goal aft i grad is to aim for poly.

i dun wana land up havin no choices = [

wait`d for my cousin and daa rest of daa gang.

wait`d from 2 - 4plus. while waitin slack`d in daa canteen chattin wid

derong and msgin my baby..

simon, tanfon, my cousin and me wen to 921 to eat our dinner. talk`d bout stuffs...

slack`d and left ard 5plus 6. wen to daa pet shop,

and i saw a maltese, daa dog is reali CUTE.

I SERIOUSLY CUN WAIT FOR BABY`S PROJECT TO COME.

I WANA SEE THOSE CUTE LIL KIDDYS...

There may be times

I seem so far away

But never eva wonder where I am

Cause no matter wad, i`m always by your side baby.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:02 PM.

Monday, June 27, 2005

first dae of sch scuks lyk HELL.

as usual daa checkin of attire and all. got call`d by lee weiwei for daa cambodia

trip. didnt noe my decision yet. jus kepy noddin my head...

i reali dun wana be daa onli one in class goin. i`ll be missin lessons

for 1week. missin my fwens for 1week... o man o man...

howHOWhow???

i noe it`s a rare chancce but...

(tinkin so hard that my head`s gonna burst in no time)

met baby and daa rest of daa gang for daa movie "initial D"

not a badd movie i must sae.. but...

yamei and my ass was freakin suan ok..

saw loads of familiar faces..

daa nbss peeps... saw sum other guys who were quite familiar but aint so sure.

sum parts were real borin, we didnt catch wad was goin on too...

overall grade is 7/10. (not badd)

LOLS...

hang`d ard and wen home..

now home wid baby, watchin "spy kids"

TATA EVERYONE = ]

To have and to hold from this day forward,

for better for worse,

for richer for poorer,

in sickness and in health,

to love and to cherish,

till death us do part...

i loveLOVElove my baby.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:29 PM.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

[ *EDIT`D ]

my moods DOWN now.. real down.
i`ve totally no mood to blogg...

and so... we nearly endd up quarrelin again = [

as you wish, as you sae...

that`s wad i`ve been saein.

i dun wana continue, i reali dun

i noe we`ll endd up quarrelin agian.

peeps out dere...

you guys may tink that i`m alwaes happy.

problemless to some you may sae.

it`s not true peeps, it isnt.

some things, lookin at daa outside isnt true.

problems hit me, i`ll cry to myself at night.

cry to my close fwens, but no matter wad happens

i`ll still have to face everythin myself. yes, fwens are dere for me

but it`s still gonna my prob.

they could onli bring me thru it, facin it will still have be ME, myself.

so once again.

you`ve state`d your point. i didnt wana carry on. yes, as you wish i`ve to sae.

reali... as you wish. i wouldnt wana carry on. so daa point is state`d i cun sae anythin

more to be exact....

sch`s startin tmr, once again i`m feelin daa pressure.

HOW WILL THINGS TURN OUT TO BE,

I REALI DUN WANA NOE.

I JUS WANA HOLD ON AS LONG AS I CAN,

TILL DAA DAE I CANNOT CARRY ON...

I wish you only knew

but you will never understand

just how hard it is for you to understand.

( after readin this, so much got into me)

Shattered glass fallen tears

Lonely girl full of fears

Heartfelt letter empty soul

Lonely girl no longer whole

Falling star crystal beads

The knife is all she'll ever need

Soft whispers muffled cries

Deep inside she slowly dies...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:17 PM.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

baby came to my hse aft he`s drivin...

slack`d ard as usual. didnt wana leave daa hse as it

was freakin hot out dere.

baby got nuts wen peeps from msn were chattin

to me, he so into replyin them wid nonsense. Lols.

he kept typin while i kept backspace-in.

so funny.

HE`S SO KINGY TODAE.

i`m practically he`s maid thru out ok.

haha. but it was fun thou. havent done so much for

a long time already.

my parents would be glad for me.

he wan`d water, and so i`m suppose`d to get him

he`s water he had ask`d for as he was lazy.

mum bought bagua and he wan`d but was lazy

to munch on suchah big slice.

so i`ve gotta cut it into lil bits and i`ve gotta feed him too.

shop`d ard at cold storage while gettin dinner.

bought a few uncook`d stuffs, brought home and cook`d.

i cook`d, he stands dere stirrin he`s soup. haha.

ate and continue`d our tv marathon.

sae`d byebye to baby at 10.30.

loveLOVElove YOU.

yes, i`m talkin about you.

To the world you may be one person,

but to me, you may be the world.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:58 PM.

Friday, June 24, 2005

and so as daa holis are about to endd,

my slpless nights are here to huant me.

i wish`d i was able to slp that late for daa first 2weeks

of daa holis. but yet i kept feltin slpy.

how nice!!! now that daa holis are about to endd.

my slpless nights are here.

so i couldnt fall aslp last night,

roll`d in bed till 3am and den manage`d to fall aslp.

was tinkin of wakin up early todae,

but yisong`s call at 12plus woke`d me up instead.

my head was feelin heavy,

makin me reluctant to get out of daa bed.

so my house is EMPTY.

dere`s no food for me. was intendin to be on a full dae diet

todae. but my head is killin me.

order`d pizzahut delivery.

had a reg pizza and 6pieces of drumlets.

and dere goes, all daa CARBS AND FATS...

My love for you is a journey,

Starting at forever,

And ending at never.

i lurf you more den i`ve eva lurf`d,

i need you more den i`ve eva do.

you`re so far but yet so close

and my heart will alwaes be dere for you...

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:05 PM.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

wen to bugis to meet my baby ALONEE.
lucky me, yisong chat`d on daa phone
wid me thru out daa whole journey..
-
intend`d to go and get my bag.
but didnt saw any suitable ones for school.
but i saw loads of nice outin bags.
*gonna saveSAVEsave money
-
change`d my mind out of a sudden.
hadd a backup plan. a bag i saw that caught
my eye from OP.
so we decide`d to catch a movie.
-
train`d back to yishun.
baby fell aslp on my shoulders.
gosh, he looks freakin CUTE aslp ok.
intend`d to watch "initial D" but onli daa front
seats were left. change`d my mind,
watch`d "ice princess" instead.
GOODGOOD show i must sae.
i wana go watch`d it again = ]
-
we got high sumhow.
kept laughin non-stop for no particular
reason at all. Lols.
reali happy that i manage`d to spent time
wid him todae.
suchah short moment but yet a very meaningful one.
-
Don't leave and break my heart
It hurts because I love you and it'll tear me apart
Never too late to say we're sorry and try another way
Baby, don't give up, don't give in
Walkin away won't solve anythin
There's nothin that I wouldn't do to make you happy
So if you love me, then don't leave me baby...

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:01 PM.

I LURF MY BABY = ]

HAPPY 3RD MTH ANNIVERSARY.

i`m gettin shivers all ard my body.

daa thought of sch`s reopenin by daa endd

of this week, jus sends chills to me.

i`m now at home.

bored as usual, nothin much

of entertainment for me...

so i wen to read all my testis in fwenster.

sumhow, daa past jus all gush`d thru my head.

memories jus start`d fillin me...

happy/sadd memories fill`d me up suddenly..

awaitin for my dearr baby to be done wid sch,

gonna go bugis wid him.

i needah get a sch bag.

mum`s been naggin daa whole week,

hurryin me to get my bag before sch reopens..

I am here for u, alwaes here for u

Wen u`re needin someone to hold u

Remember wad I told u

I am here for u, foreva here for you

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:10 PM.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

wen to billy bombers for lunch wid yisong.
was meetin jie but she kindah wen home to get her ring
so she was late...
ate and chat`d wid yisong till jiejie came.
we were laughin our wae thru everythin..
-
shop`d ard for baby`s present...
intendin to get sumthin from daa wallet shop
but we stood dere for freakin long
and i still couldnt decide wad to get.
so we wen to flash&splash to get daa present = ]
-
wen to sbc to find baby.
pass`d him daa present, wait`d for him outside.
he was piss`d off by he`s coach...
walk`d wid him to daa mrt station but he`s face
was so black. i dun even dare to talk to him.
so i jus kept quiet all daa while.
-
baby was so nice to take daa train wid me
all daa wae to yishun...
wen to northpoint wid yisong.
wen to S11 to get blah blah blah...
sat down under daa blk and chat`d for
lil while before goin home.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:13 PM.

[ *EDIT`D ]

i`m freakin sadd NOW pls...

am suppose`d to go town to get sumthin for

my baby for tmrs anniversary

but...

NONE OF MY FWENS ARE FREE!!!

o great....

so i`ll be meetin him wid nothin in

my hands...

how guilty could i still feel??? = [

i feel real badd bout all daa nonsense

i`ve cause`d for baby..

i wana APOLOGISE`D to by baby...

jus found sumone to acc me to town..

so WEE... i can go get my present..

*muacks muacks to jiejie.

shant sae who she is. [as request`d for]

i`ll be meetin yisong first before meetin jiejie.

may pop by at sbc later to see how my baby`s

team is playin.. provide`d jiejie in good mood.

*PRAYS REAL REAL HARD = ]

To you >> sorry for all my nonsense and all of

my cryins that are drivin you NUTS!!!

i noe you reali cun take it at times wen

i reali cry too much and stuffs... = [

but thank you for comprimisin me

thru out daa whole r/s.

i lurf you so much baby.....

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:15 PM.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

[ *EDIT`D ]

baby...
you`ve totally no idea how much i`m missin you now.
i miss daa times wen you hugg me tightly
reassurin me all daa time that i`m never alonee.
that i have you ard, to protect me from all dangers...

i miss daa times wen you often hugg me tightly,
lookin into my eyes and jus whisper into my lil ears
on how much you lurf me...
and jus kiss my forehead and tease me on how
small my mouth is...
-i reali miss those times-

Long slow kiss`s
sweet soft whispers
nice strong arms
silly little smiles
these are the moments i love most when im with you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:00 PM.

i`m feelin reali DEPRESS`D now...
sch`s gonna reopen nxt week.
gotta start muggin wid my homewk todae = [
-
cun see my baby that frequent anymore
both of us will be busy wid sch, fwens and sports...
both of us are lyk freakin sports ppl.
will go all out for it even wen we`re not feelin
well on that very dae. LOLS.
-
so i hadd a quarrel wid my mum ytd.
she`s freakin not herself alright.
i dun see a need in scoldin daa HELL out
of me jus cuz i accidently stain`d my shirt in mud.
and so.. i dun care if she wasnt in a good mood.
cuz i wasnt too.
-
and time spend wid baby will be lesser
seein each other aint gonna be that easy anymore.
stayin out late will be harder.
-
yuh... i dun reali lyk daa idea of not seein him for long.
i jus feel that things arent daa same anymore.
those three words "i lurf you" and "i miss you"..
they jus seem to jus get lesser as daes pass`s = [

i pray, i pray

that this story will have no endin.

even if an endin has to come,

we`ll still be together.

yes... jus us, hand in hand

thru thick and thin.

those good times will still continue to

be a part of us.

-our very own story-

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:17 AM.

RANTS AT DAA MUM!!!
NAGG AND SCOLD ME FOR ALL YOU WAN.
IT`S ALWAES MY FAULT.
I DUN SEE A THING THAT I`VE
NEVER GOT BLAME`D FOR.
-
BUT YOU BETTER DUN EVA DRAG MY
BF INTO DAA PIC.
THIS HAS NOTHIN TO DO WID HIM!!!
-
YUH.. I NOE THAT I SAE`D IF YOU DUN
BELIEVE, YOU COULD GO ASK HIM.
BUT YOU FLARE`D. WHYY??
CUZ YOU JUS CUN STAND IT THAT I`M
FREAKIN CLOSER TO HIM DEN YOU.
-
IF I WOULDNT HAVE SAE`D THAT,
YOU TINK YOU`LL EVA BELIEVE ME!!!
DUN WAN ME TO MENTION HIM ANYMORE??
SURE, WHYY NOT.
I DUN FREAKIN SEE A NEED TOO.
-
SO WEN I`M OUT NXT TIME.
YOU BETTER NOT ASK WHO
I`M WID. YOU BETTER NOT.
-
YOU FAIL`D AS A MUM.
YOU`VE FAIL`D!!!
EVEN MY FWENS ARE UNDERSTANDIN
ME MORE DEN YOU PPL.
THEY LOOK MORE LYK MY FAMILY
DEN YOU ALL...

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:42 AM.

Monday, June 20, 2005

so i wen to amk cc. walk`d ard amk for nearly 30mins before reachin.

qingyao kor sae`d he knew how to go. made me and he`s fwen

walk`d till so tired. walk`d half wae and i felt pain on my stomach.

so it was daa GASTRICS again. didnt ate anythin since i got up.

watch`d baby`s team play`d and saw other teams play`d too.

was foolin ard wid qingyao kor, pushin here and dere.

freakin hell, he push`d me till i fell on daa grass.

thought it was dry but wen i got up.

my t-shirt and shorts got stain`d wid mud.

wen to daa toilet to wash up and stuffs.

was standin ard watchin baby`s team play`d, he`s fwen suddenly

walk`d over intendin to jisiao me. i kindah hide behind kor

and he decide`d not to jisiao me. LOLS.

hire`d a cab and wen to yishun mrt. wen to S11 and got

our dinner. baby stay`d till 9pm.

as usual i couldnt stand daa part biddin FAREWELL

so i tear`d once again. baby was wipin my tears wid

he`s sleeve.

*daa part of biddin goodbye

hurts dearly.

i`ll land up in deep thoughts wonderin

wen i`ll get to see you again.

isit 1 dae, 1 week???

hearts change... i know they do...

but this heart will always belong to you

hearts hurt... i know they do...

but this heart hurts more without you...

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:35 PM.

okiie SPECIAL THANKS to tina & zz kor.

tina. help`d me in editin my pic. NICE NICE i must sae.

zz kor. help`d me in loadin my pic and changin sum stuffs

in my blogg..

woohoo... lurf them loads = ]

-----------------------

so i`m up reali late todae.

felt so tired that i wouldnt wana get up from my bed.

ok. so i`m actually gonna start completin my holi homewk

this week. HAVE too. or i`ll be dead wen sch reopens.

but baby`s havin a match later at amk.

and as usual i`ll be goin.

so i guess i`ve gotta move my plannin till tmr.

I`VE GOTTA MUGG,

I`VE GOTTA MUGG...

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:36 PM.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

so sadd, so sadd.
my heart`s crush`d up lyk a piece of waste paper.

daa sudden urge of breakin down and cry.

slidin daa penknife across my wrist.

~SLIDES SLIDES~

yisong chat`d wid me, comfortin me.

askin me to not tink so much.

thanks so much for bein dere dude.

>>but life wun be daa same if he left

I LURF MY BABY TRUCKLOADS!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:26 PM.

IT`S FREAKIN UNFAIR!!!!

WHYY MUST YOU BE TAKEN AWAE FROM ME ON MON.

MON IS DAA ONLI DAE WE CAN SPEND DAA LONGEST TIME

TOGETHER. AND SO WHYY IS EVERYTHIN SO UNFAIR???

whyy??? whyy??? whyy???

ans me. sumone, anyone. whyy?????????

sobs sobs. it`s my last week before sch`s gonna reopen but yet...

and once again, i guess i`ve made you piss`d off.

life isnt jus goin daa wae it`s suppose`d to now.

everythin seems to be in a mess.

my family, fwens and YOU.

you may not noe how much

this whole relationship means to me.

you`re daa precious gem,

that rare pearl.

i may not be lucky to have you foreva.

but i`m happy enuff that i once hadd you = [

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:50 PM.

>>THIS IS ENTRY IS BOUT DAA FATHER.

i reali am startin to hate YOU. yes YOU.

ytd you reali piss`d me up daa wall.

and you`ve totally no right to ask me stop msgin.

you`re dere usin daa phone too.

pot callin daa kettle black.

so wad if you bought loads of TOTO&4D.

huh. so wad. you tink i care at all.

NONONO, i dun freakin care.

ASK ME TO TOLERATE YOU TODAE???

YOU TINK I WILL, I WUN.

you tink buyin loads of those stuffs will allow you to strike

loads of money??

YOU`RE JUS DAE-DREAMIN.

dun ask me to tolerate you, weneva you bought loads of those.

they aint gonna let you win.

and so wad if you win???

you win thru luck and NOT HARD WORK.

YOU TINK DAA MONEY WILL STAY IN

YOUR HANDS LONG!!!!!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:32 AM.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

ATTENTION PPL.
I SERIOUSLY MISS MY BABY TRUCKLOADS NOW.

i miss ur huggs&kiss`s.

so here i am, drownin myself in those sadd songs now.

rewindin all daa memories i hadd wid you.

playback them, jus lyk i`m in a movie theater,

treasurin them bit by bit.

not lettin a single moment spent fade awae...

---------------------------------------

i saw this quote online and found it reali meaninful.

baby, this is for you my lurf.

>> He was daa one who broke my heart

For so long I was torn apart

Den you came into my life

Made me forget the bad and put away daa knife

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:23 PM.

wen for tuition in daa mornin. got back home at ard 11am.

was havin gastric, mum bought me breakfast/lunch[brunch].

was freakin full lah. haven reali been eatin my proper meals.

so my baby`s temp now is 37degrees. still very worry`d = [

gonna go for my family dinner later. but dun reali have appetite

so i guess i`ll jus eat a bit.

my gastrics are droppin by weneva their free.

and they seem freakin free lately. havin gastrics

lately lyk nobodys business. LOLS.

Why do i love you..

1) i lurf daa fact i could tell u anythin

2) i lurf daa way u look`d at me

3) i lurf talkin to u

4) i lurf ur eyes, ur smile, ur whole body

5) i lurf it wen we had our little talks

6) i lurf it wen u tell me u lurf me

7) i lurf daa way u tell me i`m nv alonee

8) i lurf ur adittude and personality

9) i lurf it wen we are together

10) i lurf u for u and i lurf u so much more

but words could never explain!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:26 PM.

Friday, June 17, 2005

and so everythin as not plan`d out properly as usual.

daa nxt sec i knew, i`m bathin gettin ready to go my baby`s hse.

LOLS. okok so forget bout daa first entry.

yisong was dere to acc me again. he`s my angel aight.

he met me at my hse downstairs. took a train den a cab to baby`s hse.

acc baby to see a doc. gosh.

he was runnin wid a 39degree fever. and he did not noe.

wen back to he`s hse. was he`s private nurse for daa dae.

kept takin he`s temp and naggin at him to drink

loads&loads of water.

watch`d tv and wen online. found out that sumone IDIOTIC person

wen to tagg my blogg. daa funniest thing was he spell

poser as POSUER!!!

muahaha. wana tagg but yet dun dare to leave name.

wad a WIMP.

baby`s mum is reali reali sweet. overall he`s whole family is reali

NICE. except for that busybody : D

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:00 PM.

it`s already my second entry now.

i`m all lost for words i dunno wad to blogg.

but i`m feelin reali sadd inside. i feel so sour.

i`ve daa sudden urge of BREAKIN DOWN & CRY.

i`ve been repeatingly hearin

"i dun wana fall in lurf" by tony mitchell

for daa past 1hr 30mins.

whyy am i feelin lyk that??

i reali dunno. i`m jus holdin on to my tears.

i`m feelin very very sour inside.

i wana cry out but mum`s at home.

i guess i`ll be skippin my lunch & dinner again.

dun reali have any appetite at all.

>> suddenly havin daa urge of lyin down,

close my eyes and DIE.

i`m feelin very dizzy now, my head`s spinnin...

i`m not alright, i`m not alright.

i`m very worry`d for my baby.

but i cun see him todae.

hope my baby is alright = [

i dun wana fall in lurf

till i fall in lurf wid you

and you show me wad my heart already knew

i dun wana fall in lurf

till i noe daa lurf is true

cuz i need you feel daa wae i do

wen i give my heart to you

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:47 AM.

i`m up SUPERB EARLY. cuz baby wan`d me to go he`s hse.

couldnt slp at all thru out daa night. afraid how it`ll

be lyk wen i get to see he`s family. felt so scare`d.

so i`m up and waitin for baby to reply me. but....

HE SAE`D THAT I DUN NEEDAH GO

ALREADY CUZ NO ONES

HOME & HE WANS

TO GO SEE A DOC.

hello. can anyone out dere tell me whyy am i up now???

i`m freakin bored lah ok. i`m not piss`d.

but you`re very contridictin. it`s not daa first time either.

you wan me to go and wen i hesitate you`ll sae pls and stuffs,

but every single time i sae`d ok. daa nxt thing i`ll noe is

i dun have to go.

whyy make me....................

fine i`m freakin PISS`D.

PISS`D

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:42 AM.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

met my baby and we wen to esplanade before meetin my cousins

for daa band concert. and so...

her fwens were late and they didnt have a sense of politeness to

apologise for bein late.

they were freakin RUDE ok. dao me and joel wen

we sae`d hi to them. wth...

got to vch and we sat at diff sits. werent so "into" daa concert so we

sat at daa corner row. wanting sat wid them

but came over a lil while later. lols.

durin daa inerval time, baby was feelin worse.

that got me freakin WORRY`D so i force`d him home. joel

was so nice to acc me. we took a train to boon lay and den a cab

to baby`s hse. saw him got inside and i was so at ease.

hire`d a cab and took back to yishun. joel was freakin

shagg`d already = ]

WE PRACTICALLY TRAVEL`D FROM ONE SIDE

OF S`PORE TO DAA OTHER SIDE.

RAFFLES - BOON LAY [BABY`S HSE]

BOON LAY - YISHUN

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:30 PM.

SKIPPIN LUNCH & MOST PROB DINNER TOO = ]

my tummy was still hurtin a little wen i got up.

i`m feelin hot&cold. hands and legs are cold but body

is HOT!!! lols. wads wrg???

i`m weird. i`ve been feelin cold for no reason this daes...

wasnt feelin very good. was havin a very weird feelin.

so couldnt slp well thru out daa whole night.

was damn worry`d bout my baby.

got up a few times in between my beauty slp. kept tinkin

bout how baby was. glad that he has recover`d from

he`s fever already. GOODGOOD SIGN.

was suppose`d to go he`s hse but....

lalala lalala lalala.

i`m not ready to meet he`s whole family so am not goin.

havin daa meet-daa-parents fright syndrome.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:27 PM.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

my parents brought me & baby to sum kallang restaurent

for buffet dinner. wasnt actually keen on it cuz i`m on a diet.

but wen we got dere, baby kept askin me get food.

aft all i ate more den usual as compare`d to daa past, i`m still eatin

wae too little. mum was naggin bout me eatin so little.

but i haven been eatin proper meals for a while,

cun expect me to eat so much at one go.

baby was havin fever half wae thru daa dinner.

that got us all worry`d for him.

finish`d our dinner and my parents sent him home.

i`m not feelin well too. tummy hurts.

OUCH OUCH = [

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:05 PM.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

TO ISAAC & ISRAEL.

happy fifthteen guys = ]

was suppose`d to meet my baby at my hse downstairs,

he has trainin at 111 and he doesnt noe wher it was.

wait`d and finally he call`d and sae`d that he`s teamates were

waitin for him.

yaduh yaduh.. so in daa endd he wen wid them.

i was freakin bored lah. wait`d so long den....

in daa endd, bekah was superb nice to acc me dere.

was meetin her at daa mrt station but i wen to 755

to find her instead.

took a bus dere. sat ard and stuff.

she left at 8.30. i was all ALONEE.

wen to chong pang cc to find korkor(s)

they were havin trainin too.

qing yao acc me till 9.20 den he had to gather

or sumthin.

LONELY me, walk`d back to 111 myself.

call`d didi but he couldnt come out.

so call`d yisong. he was in daa bus hence, he rush`d down.

how sweet once again of him = ]

we sat at daa playground. and i got to noe this lil

boy name`d roy. he`s freakin cute.

he calls himself dash from daa incredibles.

wait`d for baby from 8.30 - 10.30.

at last end`d. he gather`d wid daa rest at

110 coffeeshop. yisong acc me sat sumwher.

wait`d and he sent me home.

I can let my hair down

I can say anything crazy

I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground

I never felt so beautiful

Baby as I do now

Now that I'm with you

With you...

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:55 PM.

Monday, June 13, 2005

wen to watch`d "madagascar" wid my baby.

wen to yishun10 to check out daa time. saw bekah and gerlyn at LJ.

wen in and slack`d ard. chit-chat`d wid them.

so ask`d whether they wana go catch`d daa movie wid us.

they sae`d ok. gerlyn wen home to change, i sat dere wid baby. wait`d for

bekah to finish`d eatin.

we wen to northpoint to walk`d ard, wait`d for gerlyn.

aft daa movie we wen to timezone to shot sum balls.

play`d a few rounds, my hand was sore aft that. lols.

walk`d everywhere, play`d ard at cold storage. was talkin bout everythin

that caught our eyes.

wen to S11 to get our dinner and we wen home.

baby slack`d ard at my hse till 9pm. he jus left and

i`m startin to miss him = [

I gotta let you know

I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much

I gotta let you know

I think that we are destiny

For you I'd cross the world,

for you I'd do anything

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:20 PM.

I CUN SLEEP.

I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH = [

hadd a tiff wid my baby. and i`m lyk so LOST now.

it`s 12.30am now. i cun slp, i dun wana slp either.

i keep cryin, my eyes are sore already.

i haven cry`d for suchah long time. and my eyes are tired.

aft readin daa reply, my heart was so so hurt.

i kept cryin non-stop. i couldnt help even thou we have a promise.

i thought i was gonna lose you that very moment.

my heart stop`d beatin for that very sec.

i dun wana lose you havin not able to see you for daa last time.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:39 AM.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

wen to admarity to help my sista to handle my 3 LilCutiiePies.

got dere ard noon, my jiefu wen to get us lunch. hadd spegetti.

entertain`d those lil ones for daa rest of daa dae. was so shagg`d.

yisong got so nice, he came admarity to accompany`d me back to yishun.

wen to cold storage to get my stuffs.

now at home, mum`s naggin and naggin. WTF!!!

i jus hope she`ll suddenly DISSAPEAR. wosh wosh.

cannot even allow me to have a dae of peace. for goodness sake.

one dae dun nagg will DIE isit. wads daa prob.

come on lah. it`s not as if i`m alwaes buyin clothes and stuffs.

yuh, so wad if i`m alwaes out. SO???

by stayin at home doesnt mean anythin. i`m still wastin my time wad, OLD WOMEN!!

dun try to threaten me ok.

so wad if you`re my mum. you`ve NO RIGHT at all too.

if you wana ground me, TRY LAH!!!.you`ll regret de.

i`ll HATE you lyk i`ve never HATE YOU!!!

i`ll make sure you regret for your whole life.

cuz even if you ground me,

I`LL STILL GET OUT OF THIS HSE.

you aint no one. so stop tryin to act as if you reali understand me.

cuz you dun understand at all.

not last time, not now, NEVER!!!

YOU`LL NEVER UNDERSTAND AT ALL.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:08 PM.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

you alwaes put me in this spot...
i dunno wad to do or sae..
you sae`d that your head was hurtin,
but wen i ask`d you to not go..
you sae`d you were alright.
whyy isit that bball is more impt den your body???

i dun see a point in apologisin. i reali dun.

i`m jus so DEPRESS`D right now. you alwaes have a wae to force me

to eat and stuffs... but yet... i never have a wae to do that.

i wan`d to sae for MY sake but tinkin you`ll still go, i decide`d not to sae.

WAD CAN I DO??? I REALI DUNNO.

jus hope your head is reali not hurtin now.... hate to feel this wae.

it hurts, it hurts.. it reali does = ((

HAPPY 15MTHS ANNIVERSARY JIEMEI!!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:05 PM.

Friday, June 10, 2005

wen somerset to meet my baby... HATE goin alonee as usual but this time was better,

yisong got nice my accompanyin me dere.. he`s so sweet!!!

wait`d for my baby for sumtime. he was late. muahaha... = ))

walk`d ard town...

*WALK`D HERE, WALK`D DERE...

jus US, you&me hand in hand together...

was in daa train "ready" to go home. wasnt in a very good mood. he sae`d he`ll go straight home aft fetchin me home. aft i heard that, my mood was down daa whole time.

was in daa train goin to marina bay back down... immelia jiejie msg`d me...

yaduh yaduh and i cry`d in daa train.. wan`d to go changi airport but tinkin it was

too late.. but wen baby saw i was tearin, he took me dere..

took daa skytrain to terminal1 and saw daa air planes..

i miss those childhood daes, baby too. we`re talkin so much but

our young daes and stuffs....

aft that we took daa train back to yishun. wen to power9 to get my

matchsticks [earsticks], wen to BK to get my dinner.

baby stay`d at my hse till 10pm. watch`d daa 9pm show wid my mum.

*i wana hold ur hand,

and let you noe

that no matter wad happens

i`ll alwaes be dere for you, baby.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:19 PM.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

not feelin well todae. got out of bed, head feelin very heavy and felt very dizzy.

MY WHOLE WORLD WAS JUS SPINNIN AWAY.

msg`d my baby, tellin him i`m awake. told he i wasnt feelin well. hadd my breakfast

den sat on daa sofa, tinkin that i`m be fine in a while.

but i was WRG. i felt worse.

hurry wen into my bed and lied down and watch`d tv. my baby told me to do a leg rise

so my blood could flow to my brain.

once i rise`d my leg, i felt a sudden gush`d to my brain.

daa blood is all gushin their way to my head...

CHIONG AR...

listen`d to my baby, i wen to took a nap for an lil while. wen got up and wen online.

hate lyin on daa bed doin nothin you see.. makes me feel so LAZY!!!

i`m better now... chattin wid zz kor online.

and and WE HAVE A SECRET!!! only we two noes... lalala...

awww...

she`s so pwettie,

she`s so sweet,

she`s suchah cutie pie.

he lyks her,

but yet he still denys...

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:05 PM.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

my baby came to my hse todae.. am sooo happy.

didnt reali do much stuffs, as usual watch`d tv and chit-chat`d....

my baby was so nice, he bought LAYS for me. ~munch munch~

reali very happy that i got to be hugg and kiss by him. i cun wait for fri. i`ll get to see him again. WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

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am freakin PISS`D for goodness sake.

to this aunt whom i dun treat you as one >> SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!

you have totally no right to put words into my mouth. i dun hate your sons alright,

they`re my cousins. hate them for wad!!! frankly if i do hate,

YOU`RE DAA ONE I`LL HATE FIRST!!!!

daa chalet is freakin over lah. so whyy bother. so wad if i didnt invite your family???

it`s my chalet, it`s only fair that i invite who i wan right.

so wad if you`re my aunt and they`re my cousins.

does that mean i`ve to invite my WHOLE family dere too...

you`re so uncivilised ok. i dun see why i shld get bother`d by YOU too..

calm down weilin, calm down....

i dun needah get angry over ppl who arent impt at all.

my mind`s jus goin LALALA....

i still hear ur voice,

wen u slp nxt to me.

i still feel ur touch in my dreams.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:07 PM.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

decide`d to blogg early as i wun be headin out at all todae.

as usual rottin ard. watchin tv, hearin songs, chattin online... yaduh yaduh...

aint gonna see my baby todae, he`s havin sch daa whole dae, havin a match later at sbc too.

>> baby, jia you jia you. i noe you guys can do it de. prove daa other teams who looks down on you guys WRG!!!

i cun wait for tmr to come. my baby will be at my hse. gonna start doin sum work. lols.

call`d doggy jus now, was intendin of askin him to acc me chat on daa phone

but opps : X he was still slpin. so i ask`d him to go back to slp.

ok so i`m now rottin lyk hell. doin nothin but jus slackin ard....

DOGGY HURRY WAKE UP!!!

YOUR OWNER IS GONNA BORED TO DEATH ALREADY.

widout you in my life,

i`ll nv find daa colours my life consist of.

you`re lyk my angel,

alwaes dere wen i need to cry and to be protect`d.

i miss you soooo much baby...

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:52 AM.

Monday, June 06, 2005

was watchin tv and heard this song. it`s techno but daa lyrics is reali meaninful.

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.

I still feel your touch in my dreams.

Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.

Without you it's hard to survive.

[chorus]

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

Need you by my side.

Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so.

I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, you heart is my sky.

They wipe away tears that I cry.

The good and the bad times, we been trough them all.

You make me right when I fall.

[chorus]

thou it`s techno.. but i reali feel that this song has a reali great lyric.

read properly, and you`ll slowly catch every detail wad daa song is tryin to tell...

*baby i`m missin you so much. i cun wait till wed,

i reali wana see you..

nothin can change my lurf for you.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:21 PM.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

chat`d online, wait`d for my baby to arrive at my hse.

he`s havin a match at amk. am gonna go down to see daa match wid my cousin.

but we`re jus gonna sore ard at my hse first till 5.30pm.

acc him to amk as i was meetin my cousin dere too. freakin funny.

he was lyk "howcum none of my teamates are here yet"

and out of a sudden i saw one of he`s teamates and daa rest where at a corner. lols

and we start`d laughin. cuz it was a corner no one will eva go notice`d.

so he tagg along wid he`s teamates and i wen to my cousin`s hse to slack ard first.

15mins to 7pm we left and head`d to daa bball court.

was actually tinkin that it`ll be damn bored. but luckily, i saw wei de, justin and edwin dere.

daa 213 peeps, haven seen them for sumtime. den edwin told me kang xin and qing yao korkor

both playin too. lols that`s so coincident. watch`d their match, den aft sumtime i saw

DaDa korkor... suchah nice dae. haven saw him since daa holi start`d.

slack`d ard, and watch my baby`s team play. my cousin and i were practically laughin

our ass`s out. so funny.

acc my cousin home first aft daa match, den baby and i took a train back to yishun.

wen to long john for our dinner. didnt hadd any appetite but baby insist`d that i ate...

he sent me home aft that.

my parents were damn surprise`d that he sent me home, as he stay`d quite farr.

wan`d him to go home straight but he still insist`d.

>> THANKS SO MUCH BABY... *ILU

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:53 PM.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

was rottin at home. pleadin time to hurry pass so i could see my baby.

but thanks to daa weather, he doesnt have to go for trainin as it was cancel`d.

we were lyk crackin our brains, tinkin of wher to go.. lols.

endd up meetin my baby at somerset. and i hate doin stuffs alonee aight!!

but thanks so my bestiie siree, she sooooooo nice.

she chat`d wid me on daa phone wen i left my hse all daa wae till my baby came.

so we slack`d ard town doin practically NOTHIN. but it`s alright, all i wan`d

was jus to see my baby. wen to paragon as he wan`d to find he`s god-bro.

but we walk`d everywher and we couldnt find daa shop he`s god-bro is workin in. lols.

so we left and head`d to far east. walk`d ard and ard. start`d laughin for no reason.

hadd reali nothin to do, so we took a train all daa wae down to marina bay and den

back to yishun. wen to cold storage and den to S11 to get dinner, head`d back to my hse.

my parents were singin karaok. we`re jus eatin.

show`d him my baby photos. and he start`d saein this and that. i`m lyk wadeva. lols.

soooo happy cuz he stay`d till 10pm+, he was waitin for guoqing.

;IT`S A WONDERFUL DAE, JUS YOU&ME

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:32 PM.

Friday, June 03, 2005

chat`d wid my baby till quite late last night. was damn shagg`d so i slept till ard noon time.

was woken up by jo`n msg. askin whether i wana go find her at mos later aft her art

thingy. but i wasnt feelin very GOOD. so i decide`d not to go out.

but I MISS BELLE LOADS!!! and not forgettin jo`n too...

slept back and was once woken up by a msg, this time it was immelia jiejie. she was bored..

so i hurry woke up, wash`d up and wen online to entertain her...

wasnt feelin very good and i`m not very sure whyy. my head has been spinnin lately..

was freakin bored so i chat`d wid immelia jiejie online thru out,

aft that we endd`d up chattin on daa phone for 3hrs 45mins, my head was goin lalala..

---------------------------------------

>> jo`n, i`ll support you no matter wad your decision is and i`m sure you noe i`ll

stand by you. it doesnt matter wad daa outcome is, as long as you`re happy

it`s worth it. mayb nxt week or sumthin i`ll go your hse to entertain you and

BELLE too kz. miss ya gurl *smuacks

>> baby, i cun wait to see you tmr... i miss you so much. it`s been 4daes

since i last saw you. we`ll go for dinner or sumthin tmr or have dinner wid my parents

den slack ard at my hse aight. *muacks muacks

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:40 PM.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

got up real early this mornin at 8.45am.

~yawns yawns~

hurry wen to wash up, bathe and got ready to go meet my deariie mei jo`n.

met her at khatib and daa wae she dress`s todae is real HOT.

we wen into blueberry to get her green tea, daa auntie was lyk "todae wear till so sexy ar"

lols. and she was lyk "sexy meh"

gurlie, it`s reali HOT. we took a train and was suppose`d to head to esplanade but

thanks to daa weather she decide`d to head to sumwher wid aircon...

decide`d on paragon but last min, she change`d to cine. wen we got to town,

we head`d to none of daa places. we wen to heeren.

and since we were dere wae too early, none of daa shops were open except daa neoprint shop.

so both of us got into daa spirit of neo spreein..

got to billy bommers and hadd our lunch dere. sat down and chat`d alot bout things that were goin on...

aft that we decide`d to head back to jo`n hse first before meetin fishball, van and aaron.

hadd fun dere.. slack`d ard in her room, chit chat`d wid auntie jo and play`d

wid belle and skippy. hadd so much fun playin wid belle. guess i`ll be goin her hse tmr

again. provide`d that she`ll be at home...

took a cab down to mos and met daa rest. aaron was tryin to woo van back but yet he kept hesitatin to ask... so fishball, jo`n and me kept goin to daa restroom for no reason, jus

so that we`re givin them sum privacy..

sent jo`n off and wait`d for her to get into a cab, took a train back to yishun

wid fishball and van. we wen to yoshinoya for dinner..

am now home dunno wad to do.. most prob jus slack ard.

*baby.. i`m reali tired of quarrelin wid you everydae. i`m so sick of it, i wana be happy in

this relationship... i dun wana have quarrels everydae.

i`ve been cryin for straight a few daes. i`m reali shagg`d : ((

i reali hope you`ll understand. wen i sae that i didnt wan you to be tired...

you reali dun needah reply me back so hushly...

i reali hate it wen you go "up to you la" "suan le la" "anythin"

i`ll get real hurt lo. i hope you`ll jus spear a thought.

i`m afraid that things will go wrg. pls dun let this relationship turn sour

to all of our bikerins and all... *sobs sobs

I HATE IT WEN THINGS JUS DUN TURN OUT RIGHT

LIFE IS NV FAIR, IT`LL NV BE TOO...

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:06 PM.