More Than Words

Friday, December 30, 2005

that is love...
it makes daa heart breaks into half
and makes me crying helplessly.

*

thanks to all my fwens who have been
dere for me this whole while,
not forgetin those stuffs you guys told me to sort out.

i've finally sort'd out everythin inside...
and i'm much happier now.

as for wad my last decision will be,
only close fwens will get to noe = )

tmr, daa day my life will shout
"HELLO 2006 AND GOODBYE 2005"

lyk wad immelia sis told me,
bid goodbye to those hurt and pain tmr
and jus live a day at a time as it pass's...

*will not be home till sun evenin.
pics and posts will be update'd aft i'm back home.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:20 PM.

was readin immelia's blog and i'm
really glad that things are goin back on track for her.
*sighs
unlike me...

anyway i woke up freakin early, 7am.
wonderin wad was happenin again,
as usuals havin my nightmare/dreams.
but it was an exception thou,
i had a dream instead of my usual nightmare.
*IT'S ONLY A DREAM SILLY = (

it felt so real and it felt so true,
i saw that we were back together again.
tryin to solve thise unsolves...
havin embrace'd by him felt so good..
i wish'd it wasnt jus a dream but
a dream that really comes true...

i didnt wan to wake up cause
i dunno wen i'll see him again...
other den seein him in my dreams..
- I REALLY MISS HIM....

mum decide'd to buy be daa cam ytd
wen we're actually suppose'd to get it today...
but wad's wid a cam widout havin him and my pics.

sch's gonna reopen nxt week,
so my week now is pack'd fully wid outings...

will be meetin my dear sis, joyce later
and definitely widout forgettin her bro..
owells, hope i'll be in my bestest best mood today.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:05 AM.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY = )

i'm so HAPPY right now alright.
no, not cause we're alright already but
cause my honey is BACK is back in s'pore..

i couldnt get much slp again.
jo's words hit'd me real hard,
was actually in confusion for quite a while.
it was quite true but as i say'd before,
i really dun wana be daa one who'll
regret at daa end of daa day..

woke up early and got ready for trainin.
trainin was super slack'd today
cause many didnt appear'd.
and i got so piss'd off wid a junior.
really cant stand it wen ppl give
bloody attitude durin trainin time.

did passin of balls full court and
game among ourselves...
ahkoh didnt came cause she had a
meetin to attend.
while doin our warm-up run,
chat'd wid adeline...

while walkin over for lunch my ankle
was hurtin so much..
rarr.
i hate daa pain alright..
lunch'd at 848.
our usuals, roti prata and mee pok.
glad that i've finally ate sumthin
widout havin daa urge to puke any out.

countin down to yr 2006...
hope everythin will be fine by daa last day of 2005.

Ocean's apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:20 PM.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

it's pwettie early right now,
it's 8 in daa mornin.

it's been days that i've lost so much slp,
that i couldnt close my eyes widout havin fear.

will be up real early tmr again
and head for trainin. it's been real long since
i last touch'd daa ball...
shall train real hard lyk dere wasnt gonna be tmr = @

i may seem lyk i'm tryin to run away,
but other den doin it...
do i have other choices to make???
thou it'll only be 2hrs30mins widout
havin to tink wad my life will be lyk..
i'm very much content'd already.
thou it's only been days, but it felt lyk weeks.

how long am i suppose to endure all these pain???

i've been really tryin very hard,
tryin very hard to sound lyk i'm alright...
been smilin so much and
tellin everyone that i'm alright...
am i really alright???
thou i'm only actin,
at least i wouldnt be much of a burden to YOU.

daa moment you left,
you made me stand where i first start'd.
broken heart'd and helpless...

i dun wish to noe how tmr will be lyk,
cause it'll only be fill'd wid nothin but pain.

i cant stand the pain
but i can't make it go away
no I can't stand the pain...

i've made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just wana scream
how could this happen to me..

i'm slipping off the edge
i'm hanging by a thread
I WANA START THIS ALL OVER AGAIN

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:00 AM.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

nothin was better den seein him today.
thou it was only a mere 3hrs plus,
i was really very happy.

i thought i will receive good news..
*daa DREAMIN me..
how silly... = )

train'd back alonee and got....

it suck'd alright,
i hate that mad guy who...
shant elaborate bout it..

DIRTY, DIRTY,DIRTY
DIRTY, DIRTY, DIRTY....

i wish to have you back in my arms again.
pls let me have that feelin of bein love again.

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:05 PM.

i wish i wish...

i wish that today will be a better day.
but will it really be???

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:23 AM.

Monday, December 26, 2005

too many feelins,
emotions runnin away wid me.

can this be real?
how can i put into words wad i feel?
i thought i was complete,
but it seems lyk i'm losin control...

*

[ /*EDIT'D ]

i'm really very bad in controlin my emotions,
sorry for daa tears that flows as i continue this post.

a decision he made that got my heart broken into half...

i'm tryin to be strong,
tryin to show that i aint a burden no more.
i'm tryin very hard to control those tears,
puttin up a strong front tellin all i'm alright.

but i dunno how long i can hold on.

i cant help but to keep readin his archives
over and over again...
to turn back and see how happy we were...
but it was still ME who cause'd all to fail..

i type'd an email intendin to send it to him
but i delete'd daa whole mail in daa end.
i wasnt sure whether it was a right thing to
sent it to him, i was afraid i'll make things worse.

in total confusion right now,
i couldnt help'd but cry'd lyk a baby aft
readin daa email honey sent.

i really wish a fairy godmother will appear...

you let me go...
and made me walk into a world of unknown.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:45 AM.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

SANTA can your hear me?

all I want is one thing

i want my baby,
i want someone to love me
and someone to hold

tell me my true love is here
he's all I want just for me
underneath my Christmas tree
i'll be waiting here
SANTA that's my only wish this year.

*

ytd.
i'm really tired to type out wad exactly happen ytd.
alright, i'm lyin.
i'm jus too upset to say wad had happen'd.

train'd down to boonlay as i was meetin him at 3.
and we train'd to marina square - esplanade.
those are daa two places i'll definitely miss real badly.

i couldnt help'd but cry'd till my heart's content,
i was jus feelin real bad.
train'd back home alone,
and i wen to find papa at 139 bball court.
intend'd to drink till i'm dead drunk but
change'd my mind in daa end.

wait'd till he was home at ard 4plus,
but i jus couldnt get myself to tuck into bed.
so i finally fell aslp at 7am, but was up at ard 9plus.

i seriously dun deny i'm too afraid of daa ans i'll
receive that i really cant get myself to bed...

today.
i'm lyk real drain'd but my dad chose to talk to
in daa mornin, and mum decides to ask me stuffs..

pls...
i'm really gonna break down so soon,
spare me today.
jus let me be all alone.

was ask'd to go for a x'mas lunch
at my sis good fwen's hse.
but wad kindah mood shld i bring dere???
so i decide'd not to go.

i'll stay home and wait.
wait for my precious ans...

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 AM.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

firstly, thanks to lucia aka lulu princess for
her x'mas card. it was really sweet of her.

quote'd inside "in a super duper sweet love",
wen i read it i couldnt help'd but cry'd...
no, not cause i was touch
but cause things isnt daa same anymore.

honey is flyin off ard 10plus,
which is really SOON.

my life is turnin upside down...
nothin has been goin on right lately.

havent been havin enuff slp this two days cause
all that appear'd inside was YOU.
all those terrible dreams,
JUS HATE THEM SO MUCH.
but i guess, it'll be my first and last x'mas wid him.

will i be sayin goodbye my love tonight???
i seriously dunno,
all i noe is i cant LIVE widout him.

honey_
i noe you may not be able to read this,
but rmb wad i told you ytd...
bout how things will go aft he decides to bid
goodbye...???- i meant it.
cause i duno how to go on anymore.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:27 AM.

Friday, December 23, 2005

Please give me one more try for daa sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance cause I cant give you up.
I cant live one more day widout you in my arms
I could never find another like you.

Baby give me one last try.

*

jus got back frm meiling's hse,
an innocent cheerful pri3 kid.

it was great havin her and her siblings company.
but it didnt took me long before realisin
i wasnt happy at all.

I MISS HIM SOOOO MUCH.
our 9mths today yet i was widout him.

i smile'd back wen she smiles at me.
but yet time aft time,
i knew i wasnt myself at all.
i was jus puttin up an act once again.

wad can i really do other den that???
i seriously dunno.

pwettie frustrate'd right now,
papa delete'd my msn.
and my fuck-up com wouldnt allow
me to redownload daa programme.
thus, i'm left widout msn till solution comes.

my one&only chance dash'd.
guess i was jus put into all this for a reason,
a reason i wouldnt wana noe.

cause it jus hurts too much to take him away.

I COULDNT STOP BUT TO JUS HATE MYSELF.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:40 PM.

[*/EDIT'D]

HAPPY 9MTHS BABY.

in daa heavy rain i sat,
pour'd onto me non-stop...
hurt overcomin me other den pain i felt.
i wish'd so much that daa rain could
wash all pain away.

it's been so long since i last walk'd/play'd
in daa rain. yes, as i'm older i'm definitely
becomin more and more vain.
thus explainin why i'm not doin that no more.

but it was an exception for today.
only by sittin at daa side of daa bball court
feelin those huge droplets fallin onto my face,
i felt that i wasnt alonee.

daa regret i was havin,
it aint helpin in anyway...
it was too late,
jus too late to save wad i've done...

i wish i hadnt exist in this world at all.
i've cause'd hurt and pain to everyone ard me.
nothin more other den that...

why put me in this world
wen you noe it's gonna cause me nothin but pain.

*

was browsin thru some poems online.
http://breakuppoems.com/breakuppoemsad.html
couldnt help but start'd cryin lyk a lil kid,
those touchin yet heartbreakin facts.

*

DEAR SANTA,

i noe that i havent been a good kid this yr.
but PLSPLSPLS dun forget my x'mas wish.

i've got a real bad feelin that sumthin
will happen before my wish come true.

but PLSPLSPLS rmb my wish.

all i wan for x'mas is YOU.
i hope i'm all you wan too...?

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:20 PM.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

seriously...
wad are PROMISES wen all
humans do are to break it...

RANDOM PICS TAKEN TODAY.

I MISSSSSSSSSSS MY GURL.
HAPPY HOLIDAY = )
AND AND SEE YOU IN A WEEK'S TIME.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:40 PM.

HONEY'S FAREWELL LUNCH.

farewell lunch for honey wid papa and spencer,
so our plan was supposingly to head down
to J8 for pastamania.
but wen i met her at yishun mrt,
dere was a change'd of plan.

since daa guys werent ready yet,
we train'd down to jurong point instead.
since daa journey took us ard 45mins,
we decide'd to cam whore thru out.
even thou we reach'd boon lay,
we still had to wait for them
cause they were still LATE.
so we head'd to daa toilet and
carry'd on our cam whorin.

had pizza hut aft daa guys decide'd for so long.
papa was playin ard wid daa cam and he jus
couldnt stop snappin us.

met up wid baby aft that.
shop'd ard for his prezzie for daa ICT party.
they left first since they got sumthin else,
so i accompany'd him till 5plus.

he train'd back home wid me.
I LOVEEEEEE HIM = )

met up wid ahbong, jerry, benny and derong.
walk'd ard northpoint so MANY times.
was practically laughin thru out,
jerry and his nonsense couldnt stop at all..

left ard 8, thou was ask'd to stay longer,
but a promise'd made to my baby was
definitely more impt = )

homeSWEEThome...

it's actually pwettie fun meetin so many
peeps in jus half a day.
i mean, we only have 24hrs a day aftall..

pics will be update'd wen honey sends it to me.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:05 PM.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

SAVE MEEEEEEEE!!!

i'm dyin of boredom pls.
yes, i did mention'd that i'll be headin
out today but sadly honey change'd
our meetin-up to tmr.

i'm soooooooooo BORED now.

things i've done today.
- tvTVtv and more TV
- online
- pizzahut delivery for lunch
- listenin to songs
- chattin on daa phone

dear honey is out shoppin wid her mother
for CNY clothes.
and i'm left home all ALONEE.

i'm actually very grumpy now.
miss grumpy you can call me,
was up as early as 4.30 this mornin.

my baby was goin to pulau ubin wid
those ICT geeks. opps = X
so i got up early to give him a mornin call.
couldnt get back to slp aft that as
my head was killin me.

once again i was browsin thru online
and happen saw that...
daa usual stuffs that will sumhow
be relate'd to me and my honey.
i'm really startin to wonder if all these
were jus mere coincidence or
does she jus dun have a life of her own.
it's not only gettin on my nerves but her's too..

some ppl jus really dunno wad's call'd
YOU BETTER NOT CROSS DAA LIMIT.

i'm missin him so much now...
he's at pulau ubin and daa reception
dere sucks lyk shit.
so he only manages to reply me every 1-2hrs.

I love you for so many reasons
big small and all of them are wonderful!
I love you for all the specialty you bring to my life.
You're one of a kind,
cause you're 24/7 on my mind...
I love you for the things you do
that brings such special meaning to me and you
I love you for the silent times
when your arms and eyes rap me in u're spell, of love.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:05 PM.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

i had daa sudden urge to change my blogskin.
yes, daa sudden fetish for white
backgrounds wid faces of YOU&ME.

*

so i was still unwell ytd,
thus i skip'd trainin and wen out for
a movie wid my baby in daa aftnoon.

i'm sick but not to daa extend till
i needah lay'd flat on my bed.
so pls dun ask why i could still head out.

daa usuals, train'd to jurong east to met
up wid him den head'd to marina square.
lunch'd at carvana and we got our ticks for
daa movie "KING KONG".
it's overall a nice movie EXCEPT that they're
really super-duper long wind'd..
it was a 3hrs long movie,
and our ass's were SCREAMIN FOR HELP.

Man, how i wish my bf was an ape/gorilla/chimpanzee.
At least i suppose they know what is true love and will protect you against all odds rather than a human being who hurts you way too much.
-copyright'd frm zhiting's blog.

i seriously think that it's so true.
aft readin her blog, this few lines struck me deep.

so we dinner'd at crystal jade.
it was so hilarious, we both we freezin till
we had brain-freeze'd can...

got home ard 11,
and daddy was naggin.
OH WADEVA!!!

some random pics taken.

today.
home all day since he doesnt wana come down.
SIGHS = (
*definitely DEPRESSIN pls.

my throat sucks,
i'm still not anywhere near recovery now.
man o man,
X'MAS IS IN 4DAYS TIME.
HOHOHO...
MERRY X'MAS.

i'm basically goin nuts now,
i'm so bored at home.
yet i didnt wana go swimmin wid papa
and spencer...
my dear honey is workin seriously on her impt
LIL PROJECT that she decide'd not to head out tmr.
BOO...
but nvm, i'll be headin to her hse instead den.

countin down till she leaves.
i'm gettin myself fuckin depress'd again..

I'M MISSIN HIM SO MUCH.
WHERE ARE YOU PRECIOUS???
<3

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:30 PM.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

MY X'MAS WISHLIST.

- digi cam (ex-s600)
- MP3 (ipod/creative)
- sling bag
- heels
- tops&bottoms
- cute cuddlies

- uncondition'd love frm him
- more time spent together
- havin less probs
- evalastin love

i guess it's jus lyk that for now.

it's startin to get depressin right now,
dear honey will be leavin s'pore soon.
and she'll only be back in a week's time.
RARR.
my life will definitely turn upside down widout her.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:20 PM.

TRALALA..

i tink sumone had mistaken
*MEOW MEOW for himself/herself.
haha.

was out at bugis wid my baby,
he accompany'd me dere to get my
x'mas prezzies for my peeps.

so before we start'd shoppin ard,
we lunch'd at pastamania.

-half-way thru lunch

wasnt feelin very good i must say,
my flu was gettin worse and my nose
felt lyk a watertap.

walk'd round&round aft gettin my prezzies.
and finally felt that bugis was gettin borin.
i wen INSANE on our way to marina square,
it was so hilarious wen baby play'd
back how i was reactin daa whole while.
intend'd to catch a movie dere since it's
always so EMPTY, but wen we got dere..
daa crowd was jus HUGE,
so we head'd to starbucks to slack ard.

wen past a shop which has many funny
badges inside.
and sumthin reali CUTE caught my eyes.

-CONDOMS.

-SPERMS.

got him a wallet aft he finally consider'd
for suchah LONG TIME before we got it.

accompany'd him to upper payah lebah to
get daa car and head'd back to his hse.
bought our dinner'd on our way back too.

got daa shock of my life wen i heard
that his cousin was gonna be at his hse too.
haha.
aftall she did mention that she wana see me..
but everythin was alright thou,
he drove me back ard 12.40...

wait'd for him and we chat'd at ard 2,
finally slept at 3 wid my nose blockin...

today.

i'm so gonna be a GOOD gurl and
stay home today,
since i've develope'd sore-throat overnight.

REST, REST, REST...

i'll be meetin up wid him again tmr.
YAYNESSSSSS = )

you hold me thru all dangers,
hold me thru all pain..

thou you do cause hurt,
but it's nvr always that way..
-iLOVEyou my baby.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:47 AM.

Friday, December 16, 2005

rarr.
i'm so irritate'd right now,
was updatin half way and my com
decide'd to jus hang and my stuffs are gone.

so i've got type it all over again.

AH CHOOOOOOOO.

yes, flu has jus came my way.
and my sore throat hasnt recover'd yet.

i seriously hope i'll recover before x'mas
so i can enjoy my day/night.
or else i'll be sneezin my way thru. haha.

daa start of my day was jus HORRIBLE.
shant elaborate bout it,
but i'm jus glad it's all over now.
i nearly died of another heart-attack pls.

train'd to his hse durin noon time,
daa journey was quite slow today.
chat'd lil while wid brandon bro,
did some catchin ups and daa rest of
my time was spent hearin songs..

had some communication prob on
where we shld both meet but
everythin was settle'd soon aft.

slack'd at his hse while he took his nap.
he was on medication, thus explainin why
he was so slpy daa whole while.
browse'd thru some stuffs online
and sumthin got me reali PISS'D off.
call'd honey and told her bout it,
she too find that *MEOW MEOW
reali dun have any sense of her own.

for those who are wonderin,
you can start guessin now = )

and i jus found out that my mum
doesnt lyk *MEOW MEOW too.
*aint my mum suchah sweetie.
she finds that *MEOW MEOW is reali
rude and thus doesnt lyk her at all.
she start'd bitchin bout *MEOW MEOW
to me that day too.

jus some words for you.
if you wana try and copy&paste things
relate'd to me, pls dun do it so obvious.
any blind ones can see that.
thou you may not "notice" it but
it's startin to get on my nerves already.

left his hse ard 4.45 and head'd to his sch.
he had his ict meetin so i wait'd outside
e-garage for him till he was done.
which it actually took him an hour,
that goes widout sayin.
i stood out dere for an hour.
but i'm grateful that spencer was sms-chattin
wid me keepin me full company.

bus'd to bukit panjang and took 171 home.
dinner'd at delifrance and
homeSWEEThome it is...

You only you can make me feel whole,
You are the joy within my soul.
You are the blood that runs through my veins,
You are always there to take away my pains.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:05 PM.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

i wish i could translate how i'm feelin now.
but it seems lyk none other den myself,
can understand wad i'm goin thru now.

i've nvr known daa feelin of losin
sumone till i met him..
i've nvr known daa feelin of
needin sumone so much till he appear'd..
i've nvr thought that life would be a livin
hell till he left that very day..

I USE'D TO HAVE A FAIRYTALE,
A FAIRYTALE I THOUGHT WILL LAST FOREVA.
BUT IT SEEMS LYK MY FAIRYTALE IS
STARTIN TO VANISH RIGHT INFRONT OF ME.

I wish you were here wid me,
so I can tell you directly,
how much you mean to me..
I'll hug you tight and hold you near,
den I would whisper to your ear,
YOU'R THE ONLY REASON WHY I AM HERE.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:40 PM.

some pics frm ytd's flagday.

-daa doll lookin baby we saw at carefore

got up feelin all so drain'd,
still wasnt feelin better...
kept coughin till i felt lyk pukin..

out wid honey and papa today.
accompany'd papa to bring honey
to daa doc, lunch'd ard that area too..

saw jeremy at daa coffeeshop,
he's still very much daa same except
wid his ahbeng-ish dye'd hair..

wen to 136 to find papa's cousins,
sat at daa playground downstairs...
seein daa both of them so happy together,
makes me feel so happy for them too.
missin my happy times at daa very same time.

some pics taken today.

-two sickly gurls smilin

-my blur lookin honey

-wads papa doin???

-aint daa both of them SWEET..

i have totally no appetite today,
so BYEBYE to dinner.
i'll be skippin it = )

as those depressin songs play along,
my heart miss's you so much...

i'm sorry for not understandin you as much
as you wish sumone out dere will...
but i'm tryin my best in other things too...
i noe that i'm a selfish gf to you,
but doin so much is cause of daa
fear of losin you once again in my life.

i guess wad ppl say is jus right.
daa tighter you hold on to him,
daa faster he'll leave you...

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:10 PM.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

I WISH I WISH...

i wish he'll ask how i am,
aft noein that i'm not feelin well...

i wish he'll ask me to drink loads
of water jus lyk how he did in daa past

but none is goin that way anymore..

i wan'd to msg you,
lettin you noe that i'm so sad cause
i feel that you're not bother'd at all.
i feel so sick,
even worse aft you not showin any concern.
where's daa one who always nags at me
weneva i fall ill...???

i wish'd i had those times back..

as i type,
daa heart is achin too..

feelin all so weak right now,
all that i need is YOU.
but sumhow you're so near,
yet so far away frm me...

-

up super early this mornin at bout 5.
hurry'd got ready and met honey,
6 at yishun mrt station.
made our way to daa bus inter-change.
bus'd 851 all daa way to tiong bahru plaza.

saw daa others at mac,
wen to get our donation stuffs and head'd
to chinatown..
split'd into pairs,
honey and i stood outside daa mrt station.

very good experience i must say..
and dere's this very cute lil boy
who came and ask'd for a sticker...
lols. he's jus super cute.

finish'd at 12 and train'd to suntec.
did window shoppin and lunch'd at swensens.
head'd back ard 3,
we were jus too shagg to carry on walkin ard...

I'M SICK SICK SICK.
MY THROAT'S KILLIN ME,
MAKIN ME FEEL ALL SO WEAK.

THANK YOU FOR ACTIN LYK YOU CARE...

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:50 PM.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

LALALA..

woke up and honey ask'd to accompany her
to find papa at bukit panjang...
he feel sick and had asthma attack last night.
so i accompany'd her dere.

was actually suppose'd to slack at her hse
so hurry'd got ready aft everythin was settle'd.

bus'd 171 down, daa journey was quite fast
actually, faster den takin mrt..

wen up and start'd slackin,
got so jealous can.
both of them were so TIAN MI MI.
and i couldnt stop tinkin bout my baby.
honey and i start'd cam whorin as i was bored.

-see daa colour diff??? = )

late lunch at bukit panjang plaza mac,
and i got DIAO by a faggy gurl.
cant believe it can,
she was wearin a skirt for goodness sake
but yet she open'd her leg...
LOLS. mayb daa weather is jus too hot.

back to papa's hse and start'd slackin again.
play'd PS2... loads of funny stuffs happen'd.

cab'd home as it was rainin very heavily.

so fcukin piss'd off now man,
sumthin's reali wrg wid fwenster.
i cant understand why i can view my edit'd
profile yet others cant view it.
RARR.

gotta wake up early tmr,
ard 4.45 or 5 i guess..
havin flagday at tiong bahru plaza.

Nobody's going to love me better
Ima stick stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
Ima stick stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
Ima stick stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Ima stick stick with you

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:00 PM.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

finally back in s'pore.
3days in daa international sea was great.
esp. havin baby beside me for 54hrs.

daa best part was havin no distractions lyk
sms's and phone calls that keeps us busy..

loads of FOODfoodFOOD dere..

first day.
it was over very fast as we only
check'd-in ard 6.30,
into daa rooms and off for dinner.
bella vista was our first stop.
*thumbs up to daa food dere.

second day.
woke up early to catch daa sunrise wid baby.
manage'd to catch it for lil while before it start'd
drizzlin. so we head'd back to our room.
met up for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
other den that we all head'd seperate places..
daa breeze up that daa deck was great,
wen we had nothin to do...
i'll pull baby up dere.
star glaze'd and chat'd so much wid him.

our topic was actually ppl who you call FWENS.
realise'd that our so call'd fwens have some things
in common actually... LOLS.

today.
got up ard 7 and did our washin up.
breakfast'd and head'd to daa deck for
daa last time before we're off daa cruise...
back to daa room and pack'd our stuffs
and assemble'd at daa LIDO for daa
passport and stuffs..
and off daa cruise it is...

baby's dad came to pick'd him up,
while my family and i train'd back home.
head'd to northpoint wid my parents,
supposingly to get my two-way cake and bra
but i end'd up buyin a handbag, bra(s) and eye liner.

bought pierre cardin bow belle bra(s).
daa same pattern but all of daa colours,
it's very very comfy and mum got nice.
jus as we're about to leave,
saw a white plain handbag and dad got so nice
and he bought it for me and another bag for mum.

wen to bodyshop to get my two-way cake
and jus wen to checkout daa eye liners.
so happen that it was of wad honey and i
were huntin for a long time so mum got it for me.
will be goin to honey's hse tmr,
gonna bring it for her to try out...

late lunch at northpoint and
homeSWEEThome..

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:05 PM.

Friday, December 09, 2005

it shall be a short entry before
i'm off to pack my stuffs...

will be leavin s'pore tonight and
will only be back in 3days time.
so my nxt entry will be up either on sun/mon.
it depends whether i'm dead tired wen i'm back.

will be meetin up wid honey and papa later.
my last lunch wid my babe till i'm back = )

I'M SURE GONNA MISS HER BADLY.

alright, i'm done for now.
gotta hurry pack my stuffs,
leavin in daa early evenin.

> pics and more pics will be update'd wen i'm back.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:59 AM.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

A DAY BEFORE CRUISE.

over to honey's hse for lunch,
she order'd KFC and we were watchin
vcd(s) and slackin ard.

chat'd bout everythin and anythin
that pop'd into our head.

i felt so red-black today.

slackin ard was fun,
did loads of catchin ups and bitchin ard.
so much happen'd since daa holis start'd.
notice'd that honey's marble fish was giantic.

boredom left us both playin ard
wid eye liners and her workin uniform
but oso not forgettin CAM WHORIN.

decide'd to head down to northpoint for a while
as she was gettin bored at home.
on our way to daa bus stop dere was
construction work in progress..

wen to LJS for a snack cause sumone's
stomach was feelin hungry again...

hung ard timezone,
we were ball-shootin dere.
damn fun, it's been so long since i last play'd that.
and walk'd back to her hse for more slackin..

left ard 6.45, and head'd back home.
wasnt feelin very well...
thanks to my menses...
was havin bad cramps, dizzyness and felt lyk pukin.
it freakin took me almost 20mins to get home
wen i can actually reach'd by 10-15mins..

dad's back frm TTSH,
wasnt feelin well so could only wen
downstairs to get him bread for dinner..

I'M MISSIN MY BABY SO BADLY.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:30 PM.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

sumone who lies,
sumone who stabs,
sumone who pretends to care,
sumone who takes you for nothin...
sumone who you call'd FWEN.

finally done wid my MVP valentine show.
was suppose'd to head down to TTSH
but in daa endd dad told me not to.
was suppose'd to pass him sumthin as
he was gonna undergo an operation.

regardin how serious it is,
i'm reali not sure as he wen to TTSH
durin midnight and hasnt been home since..
he say'd that he'll be home tmr,
so all i can do now is to wait for his msg.

lunch was simple,
some jap chicken and rice.

-before

-after

aft lunch, i felt lyk pukin everythin out immediately.
guess it's cause of wad i did to myself 2days ago.
not headin out,
so daa usuals of jus slackin home daa whole day.

2days more to cruise,
will be meetin up wid honey and papa on fri
aftnoon for lunch before leavin s'pore in daa evenin.

you are such an amazing person
no one is better then you
i love you so much
i'm giving you my whole heart
and i'm trusting that you wun break it
aftall of that i've been thru

no matter how I'm feeling
you can always make me smile
you make this whole living life a thing
all worth the while

i love you so much
dere's no better feeling then being in your arms
i hope it will never change
and that you will always make me feel this way..

-US IN OUR LITTLE CORNER.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:25 PM.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

A BAD DAY TURN'D GOOD.

was preparin my stuffs and jus as i was
blowin my hair, i heard a very loud "BANG"
on my window.
i was tinkin "WTF MAN" so i hurry'd put on
my clothes and pop'd my head out of daa window,
and guess who i saw???
it was honey and papa,
they were reali sweet. they pop'd
to see how i was.

chat'd bout 45mins and left,
rush'd to meet jo at yck.
my head was spinnin and i felt so dizzy
on our way down town.
and i felt i could faint any moment,
daa stubborn me still decide'd not to eat.
wen to cine and sumhow jo manages to
convince'd me into eatin sumthin.
lunch'd at yoshinoya but ate only half
cause i had not much of a appetite and
oso cause we saw a lil COCKROACH.
head'd to cine's toilet and cam whore.

-my first smile for daa day(force'd)

to heeren and we took neos.
it's been ages since i last wen heeren,
loads of changes dere..

jo got herself a top frm fareast and
a roxy bag frm pacific plaza.

saw sumone and it sumhow gave jo and i a
SHOCK'D OF OUR LIVES!!!

head'd to taka to get some food and
cab'd back to jo's place.
on our way back in daa cab, decide'd to take a risk.
msg'd him, thou he only reply'd a word.
i was happy enuff. dinner'd dere and stay'd till
our 9pm show was over.
aunty jo was so nice,
she help'd me call'd a cab back home.
4bucks extra charge, so total fare was 10bucks.

homeSWEEThome.

gonna go conference wid honey and papa..
CIAOS.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:58 PM.

DEEP CUTS,
DEEP CUTS,
DEEP CUTS...

why is this happenin???

I'M WRG,
I NOE..
BUT I'M TRUELY SORRY.

LORD,
WHERE'S MY MIRACLE
THAT'S SUPPOSE'D TO HAPPEN!!!

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:05 AM.

Monday, December 05, 2005

why do i keep starin blankin at his
blogg entries..
i've been starin at it for hrs,
and only fear has been circlin ard me.

why do i feel that sumhow things
cant be talk'd out properly this time.

why do i feel all so helpless and depress'd
at daa very same time,
wid hurt and confusion risin up on me.

daa fear last'd thru out daa whole night,
barely even slpin for 2hrs.
but yet i dont seem to be tired at all.
my tears are flowin uncontrollably,
flowin till i've got totally no energy to allow
it to carry on flowin.

starin at my phone tryin to hope
that sumhow things will turn out fine..
tryin to act as if i'm alright and look on daa positive side.
mayb i'm jus bein too naive.
but i'm jus hopin for a miracle to happen.
hopin so much that you'll msg me,
but each time my hp beeps i start fearin
that i'll receive sumthin i dun wish to see..

jo was reali nice,
she came over to my hse for bout an hr.
chat'd so much and i couldnt help breakin down.
yes, i'm very upset and depress'd.
i jus wish'd so much i would have known
that things will turn out lyk that.
that hr seem to pass by real long,
talkin so much yet daa time seems to go slow...

guess my dad noes sumthin had happen'd.
he call'd and ask'd whether i was alright,
as usual i lied my way thru sayin that i'm fine.
thou my voice didnt convince'd him much,
but i was glad that he didnt ask on further.

PLS SHOW ME A MIRACLE,
AND MAKE THINGS TURN OUT ALL FINE.

it's a damn cold night
tryin to figure out this life
nothins goin right
and everythins a mess.

everythin seem so confusin.
it's true, for me dere's only YOU.
been missin you so much i have to say,
been cryin daa whole day.

LORD,
PLS GUIDE ME THRU THIS ROUGH TIME
AND MAKE A MIRACLE FOR ME.

dun wana lose you
i'm here to say
pls believe wen i say
i never meant to make you feel that way
i cant take another day widout you
here by my side.

mySWEETaddiction <3
5:10 PM.

daa thing i did for not considerin how you felt,
i noe i'm wrg but i truely dun wana let this endd.
you noe you mean a whole load more to me
and i didnt meant to make you feel lyk this.

daa pain i'm feelin,
tryin to explain my mistakes..
daa tears that flow'd uncontrollably.

she noes where daa mistakes lies.
but she needs you to forgive that...

PIERCE'D DEEP.
DAA MISTAKES LEAD ME TO HELL.
i'm reali sorry.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:10 AM.

Friday, December 02, 2005

hadd trainin in daa mornin as usual,
but daa weather was extremely HOT.
realise'd that i was burnt weni got home.

rush'd home cause ahkoh decide'd to let
me off late. call'd and change'd my appointment.
wen to honey's hse first since i was early,
she was so sweet pls.
she fry'd some snacks for both of us to munch'd
on since we were both so hungry.

head'd to jean yip and start'd daa process....
daa hairstylist dere were very fwenly,
chat'd and play'd ard so much.
as you noe, rebondin has a very long process
and we actually sit dere frm 1.30-6.
*OUR ASS'S WERE SO SUAN = D

-before

-after

so in between, we were actually very bored
so we start'd cam whorin again..

aft daa rebondin,
met honey's boo at mac.
sat dere for 1hr waitin for 3 more to arrive'd.
while waitin i got bored again,
so daa cam whorin start'd.

wen over to mrt station cause they were
fetchin us frm dere.
once all were in daa car,
daa ji siao-in start'd and it actually last'd till
they sent me home.

daa whole grp of us head'd to 925 for
chicken rice...
and homeSWEEThome it is now.

I HADD SUCHAH GREAT DAY = )

you were nvr forgotten at all this whole while.
-MISSIN YOU NVR SEEMS TO STOP

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:20 PM.