More Than Words

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

mornin's weather was great for slpin
but hadd trainin as usual.
ask'd mummy to write an excuse letter as my
legg was hurtin but she didnt wan to,
so prepare'd and left for trainin.

basically spent my whole trainin coachin
daa juniors and empirin daa game.
nothin much cause my legg was hurtin
and i couldnt walk properly wad more
trainin wid daa team.

trainin daa juniors was one diff task
that i seriously HATE loads.
it reali boils me up and makes my blood
vessels explode lyk a volcano..
i've got daa passion to let them learn daa
proper technic of netball,
but widout payin 100% attention...
one can learn nothin.
dere's a limit to wad i can teach and daa
rest is up to them to slowly absorb.
time's runnin up real quickly,
today's trainin is daa 2nd last one..
hope everythin turns out fine durin NorthZone.

lunch'd at khatib mac wid weili and steph.
chat'd and as usual was laughin and goin crazy
about daa ahlay.

DUN ACT AS IF YOU GUYS NOE ME.

i'm not as fortunate as how you guys tink,
i dun get every single thing i ask for,
i dun have that complete family love you tink i have..

i aint who you guys tink i am.
all you guys see are fake acts frm me,
nvr will you get to see daa real me.

STOP ACTIN AS IF YOU NOE ME!!!

countin down another 2days more to rebondin.
hope i'll get a new hairstyle that i'll LOVE and
definitely hope nothin will get screw'd up.

jie has sent me daa pics we took ytd
in daa train on our way home..

i guess i'll be rottin my day watchin
my MVP valentine again = )

-daa pic i love

-daa pic jie loves

There is nobody
Who can make me cry
Nobody else can do it
Nobody but you

There is nobody
Who can make it right
Nobody else can do it
Nobody but you

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:20 PM.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

finally out wid jie, lulu and felicia.
town is already a very borin place,
so lulu decide'd that we shld head down to bugis.

met jie at yishun, train'd to met lulu and felicia
at khatib and down to bugis.
lunch'd at ajisan and we start'd spree-in ard.
sumthin very sweety caught my eyes and i
decide'd to get them for fwens durin x'mas.
esp, yanhan and zz korkor.

got myself an anklet and a purple nail polish,
while jie, lulu and felicia got daa stuffs they need'd.
SHOP, SHOP, SHOP...
start'd cam whorin wen we were waitin for
felicia outside daa fittin room.

saw a purple crumbler at 77th street and i fell right
in LOVEEEEEEEE wid it.
IT FREAKIN COST 149BUCKS =(

-LOVE IT LOADS!!!

dinner'd at daa foodcourt cause all of us were
broke, chicken rice for all..
YUMMYLICIOUS.

train'd back and cam whorin start'd again,
but this time it was all usin jie's phone..
so no updates of those pics..

homeSWEEThome.

-I LOVE DAA WAY YOU SMILE.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:30 PM.

Monday, November 28, 2005

today is jus so not my day.
tues outin is cancel'd but soon
found sumone to go out wid..

my joyce jie will be headin out wid me tmr.
finally, aft daa exams we could go out.

trainin was quite slack today but
i didnt train'd much too.
my legg was hurtin and i couldnt do
much, skip'd daa warm-up and sprintin.

lunch'd at 759 coffeeshop wid steph and weili.
chat'd and they hadd a sudden urge to play badminton,
call'd doggy and ask'd him to lend us his rackets.
wen up to his hse to get it frm him and we head'd
to 802 court. play'd for lil while den return'd back.
wen to mrt's 7-eleven, got our instant potato and
steph got her instant mushroom soup.
sat down and ate while lookin at paser-by(s).

train'd back home on daa phone entertainin doggy,
he was dyin of boredom.
wan'd to watch my MVP valentine but was entertainin
him daa whole while and i didnt have time.
shall watch it later i guess..

my tummy aint feelin well now.
o gesh, wads wrg again..

homeSWEEThome.

you came and changed my whole world now,
i'm somewhere i've never been before.
now i see, what love means.

in my heart,
in my head,
it's so clear now,
hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
i was lost and you've rescued me somehow.
i'm alive,
i'm in love you complete me,
and i've never been here before.

-THIS IS WAD LOVE MEANS

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:00 PM.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

some ppl have reali nothin better to do
in life other den goin ard taggin ppls blogg.
o come on...
wana tagg, STATE YOUR NAME DEN!!!

o wellish, why shld i get so work'd up over some
ppl who have totally nothin better to do.

nothin much about today,
as usual slackin at home daa whole day.
slept till an hr past noon,
couldnt barely open'd up my eyes but my
dad woke me up...
bein a light-slper, i got up soon aft.

ate my lunch'd and wen online.
past daa rest of my time watchin my MVP valentine.
watch'd it in daa room cause my father was singin
karaok wid my aunty and uncle.
made daa whole atmosphere felt lyk i was in daa theater.
wid daa lights off, aircon on and blinds down...
daa usual me, cry'd along wid daa show wen those
depressin parts were on...

trainin again tmr, daa last week till daa holis are over.
HAPPY TRAININ TO ALL = ]

life hadd always been a mistery to me.
nothin seems to go right and smooth,
havin you in my life made everythin
wen better...

nvr will it be perfect,
but at least it was smoother wid you ard.

mySWEETaddiction <3
7:30 PM.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

thanks to all my fwens for showerin all your
concerns and love...
i'm pwettie alright now,
so worry no more yea.

iain: thanks for bein dere, thou you tink you werent dere enuff. you were alright, you were always dere.

it's pwettie hilarious how ppl copyrights things and
jus change it here&dere to make it look as if it's ORIGINAL.
WHERE'S DAA ORIGINALITY MAN!!!
i seriously dun wana mention names,
jus in case daa person decides to sue me.

it's pwettie frustratin to see sumthin very similar ard.
SUPPORT ORIGINAL, STOP PIRACY.
havent anyone heard that before,
i'm sure many have.
it's been in daa theaters for sumtime before too.

anyway i'm at his hse now,
will be here till 2...
so happy slackin ard to me.

i cun wait for tues,
it's definitely gonna be suchah enjoyable day.
for those who are wonderin wad i'll be doin...
IT'S A SECRET!!!
so too badd, only few noes wad will be goin on..

TATA.

as my happy days continues...
i'll bid goodbye to nightmares.

-I LOVE YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:20 PM.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself
That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:37 PM.

hadd breakfast wid daa gurls at 795,
saw neri and her grp of bballers...
they were goin to our sch for some match...

maths remedial at 9 but as usual we were
late again for daa second time..
this time was even worse, we reach'd half-an-hr later.
head'd to NTUC aft that to grab'd some snacks and
den wen to steph's hse wid sihan.

they taught me how to play mahjong,
aft gettin daa hang of it...
we play'd a total of 4hrs widout stoppin,
it's jus so addictive man.
left at ard 5plus and bus'd to northpoint
wid sihan.
she accompany'd me to jean yip to check
out daa prices for rebondin and cuttin,
book'd my appointment for nxt fri.
wen to gift a name too.

UNBREAK HER HEART.

words that came out of his mouth
was hurtin, jus too hurtin...
daa fact that none of my feelins were
regard'd at any point.

FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU...

i nvr thought he would use those words on me,
he may say that it wasnt referin to me..
but it clearly was wen i ask'd who it was referin to.
at any point of a time my feelins were regard'd?
NONE, NOT AT A SINGLE POINT.

wid no one to turn to,
no where to run to...
she still chose to hide inside her room.
wid daa lights off,
comforter over her head..
she allow'd her tears to flow freely,
under wad circumstances was she able to hold.

she stay'd still wid daa phone in her hand.
confuse'd on who she shld turn to
but still turn'd to her own in daa endd.

sumhow it feels lyk she needs to make a decision,
a decision on whether wads right for her.
a decision she may regret aft makin
but mayb daa best option in daa endd...
*wad am i suppose'd to do = (

show me where it all leads to,
show me wads right for me.
take him no more for this heart aint that strong...

fairytales are jus a pack'd of lies,
which were all made for us to feel so real and true.
this story....
pls make it all right for me.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:45 PM.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

HONEYMOON PERIODS OVER.

that's wad jo told me wen i confide'd her.

GUYS ARE JERKS WEILIN.

is wad i got nxt frm her.

i'm reali feelin very DOWN right now.
i expect'd him to rmb wad day it was today,
in daa endd it was still me who ask'd...

as daa music player plays all daa depressin songs,
i'm feelin all so EMO-ISH right now.
my wish was for him to rmb this very day,
guess wish's dun reali come true aftall...

i'm jus gonna stay home daa whole day,
i'm MOODLESS to do anythin right now.

help me to hold on those tears,
it's heavy and i'm gonna give way soon.

chattin wid adeline right now,
she's gonna explain why she apologise'd that time.
*bad feelin i'm havin
but still told her i wun get angry aft hearin.
verdict out.
she tinks she had bad-mouth'd me by accident.
seriously, i kindah expect'd that too.. haha.
jus lyk wad i told weili daa other time,
i'm tired of all these stuffs..
and i dun have much energy to continue these too.
*i'll jus take it as i didnt noe anythin.

HAPPY 8TH MTH BABY.

baby baby,
you held me thru all those times.
i love you
i love you...

daa more i look at you,
daa more i'll fall in love wid you.
wen i see you smile,
deep inside daa lil heart whispers you are daa one.

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:15 PM.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

time check, another hr exactly to...

i guess he reali forgotten bout it already.
supposingly to be chttin on daa line wid
him but he's dead tired and already in bed.

great news:
iain and sherwin have finally finish'd their
stressin exams. *hope to see them soon = )

joyce jie is thru wid all her exams too,
meetin up soon wen she's back frm cruise.

boredBOREDbored...

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:00 PM.

song playin: GOING CRAZY

RAINS, RAINS, RAINS.
daa weather that is always here at near
endd of daa year which is supposingly
to be PARTY-IN TIME.
it's reali freezin at home,
daa rain doesnt seem lyk its gonna stop
anytime soon..

finally finalise'd wen i'm gonna do my rebondin,
thanks to siree. she told me jean yip has a better
offer. so i've decide'd not to head down to
aunty alice's saloon since i can get
a better offer at jean yip.

tmr is daa day,
does he rmbs it at all???
i wish i hadd daa ans too.

mum's cookin some tonic soup for lunch.
and she mayb headin out lil while later,
PEACE AT HOME.
gave a skip'd wen jo'n ask'd me out,
rainin does spoil all my mood
and mum's at home too.

so babiie boi aint gonna break daa
promise'd he made almost 2yrs back..
i'm glad in a way too,
but i've got my limits in doin things.
*fang xin ba, bao bei.
most prob will be catchin a movie or sumthin.

so baby will be home late again,
that's gonna explain how extremely
bored i'll be for daa rest of my day home.
den again, i cun have him 24/7.
GOODY GOOD LUCK TO ME = )

love you
love you
may i love you baby...

open up that heart of gold,
let this lil one step in and explore
that fantasy she always dream'd of.

-I REALI MISS YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:00 PM.

Monday, November 21, 2005

update'd ytd's entry but my window
close'd before i could finish updatin.
so daa lazy me didnt wana update again..

did nothin much actually.
jus wen to visit my uncle who jus hadd
his eye operate'd.

as for today,
as usual hadd trainin in daa mornin.
but today's weather was super great
for slpin. alison didnt turn'd up, leavin
me to train daa whole team SOLO-LY.

did nothin much, spent almost half-an-hr
comfirmin and measurin our jersey sizes.
main 7(s) and daa reserve'd did half court game
while mdm faridah train'd daa sec1(s).
funFUNfun, loads of laughter and slippin of balls.
so we practically play'd in daa drizzle since
we may get this kindah weather condition durin
NorthZone match's.
wrap'd up wid a game against daa juniors,
main 7(s) in a team and daa rest of daa juniors.
mdm faridah flare'd today,
daa sec1(s) seriously aint performin.
dun tink they've actually improve'd
much this whole yr...
so much of our efforts wen into trainin
and mouldin them...

lunch'd at khatib mac wid weili and steph.
chat'd loads again, our usual topic of guys..
and steph pop'd out a sudden qns,
"wun you fall in love wid other guys wen you see your bf so lil days?"
and i reply'd nope,
it's been so much of goin thru...

while listenin to those depressin songs
on my way home,
babiie boi suddenly appear'd in my mind.
i dunno why but he jus appear'd.
mayb i was jus lookin back at those times..
and he still owes me sumthin,
but i seriously doubts he still rmbs it.

homeSWEEThome.

i got you and that's all i wan.
how everythin will turn out to be,
i dun wana noe.
each and everyday as daa time pass's,
all i see is you inside my mind..
that's not gonna change,
never will i wan that day to come.

-you're nvr gonna be replace'd.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:50 PM.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

train`d down to boon lay to meet my baby
and we train`d down to town.

lunch`d at swensens and finally hadd my
fav vanilla nut icecap ice-cream.
head`d to wheelock to get his stuffs done,
help`d him to get a few pics for his work.
waste`d some time at fareast before headin
down to paragon to give hong xin daa money.

train`d back to his hse and slack`d ard
watchin the exorcism of emily rose.
it`s actually a very nice show,
daa graphics are great and daa sound effect
definitely sends chills down me.

met gq at 8 and baby drove us down to
chinatown for frog porriage...

and homeSWEEThome it is..

i`m glad everythin wen smoothly
and i hope that everythin will jus continue
to stay this way.
i`ve jus notice`d that in a mth of 31days,
i actually only get to see him for 4days.
so i guess i`m reali gonna treasure it.

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:29 PM.

Friday, November 18, 2005

BADD BADD DAY.

i guess i finally lost my cool.
scream`d at her and told her off infront
of daa whole team.
yes, i wen soft wen she cry`d but i couldnt
control no more.
daa whole team`s hardwork is at stake, i aint gonna
let anyone affect daa whole team`s performance.

tina came today, and i kindah felt so much
better by jus seein her..
chat`d this&that in between breaks and stuffs.
i guess i`m jus trainin as hard as i can in order
to run away frm everythin.

i guess keepin everythin to yourself aint daa
best option but wen you`re jus all lost and confuse..
mayb dere aint other options anymore.
-it means daa whole world to me to jus see a smile frm you.

i`m not sure wad i`ll be doin for daa rest of my day.
it aint plan`d yet sumhow cause sumthin crop`d up.
so i`ll jus be waitin till he calls...

nxt week is comin and i`m so lookin
forward to it...
but i doubt he rmbs it at all...
but it`s alright,
nothins gonna change my love for him.

it`s tirin to keep runnin away,
but i dun have any other options...
it`s better to keep everythin to myself
den say all out and see you frown.
nothin means more to me den jus a smile frm you.
-i LOVE you, yes i do

mySWEETaddiction <3
12:50 PM.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

was nappin last night and i hadd a
sudden panic attack`d.
got a sudden shock`d and jump`d out of
slp, feelin all so scare`d and confuse`d.
hadd difficulty breathin in and i
suddenly kept sobbin to myself in bed.

jus got up frm bed not long,
as i didnt felt lyk rottin my day away longer.
so i rather slp and let daa time pass by.
i`m STARVIN now but i`m very lazy to
head downstairs to get lunch.

my head is actually feelin lyk it`s gonna
split apart anytime now..
i`m feelin so dizzy.

finally aft SOOOOO MANY days,
i`m able to see him tmr.
will be headin down to boon lay as usual
and i`m gonna eat swensens ice-cream.
it`s been so long since i last ate my fav
ice-cream frm dere...
will be at his hse aft that watchin "movies"
and i guess i`ll be accomplanyin him down
to NP for some ict meetins which is BORIN.

so since i aint feelin very well today,
i`ll be skippin "harry potter" daa movie
my cousin wana watch.
and jus stay at home and have a
GOODY GOOD rest so i`ll
be perfectly fine to enjoy myself tmr.

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:05 PM.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

prepare`d breakfast for daa ladies.
trainin in daa mornin as usual,
but i was slightly late today..

hadd our 2.4km run and my timin scuk`d.
was kindah "scold`d" by ahkoh.
and she wans me to improve my timin
on our nxt trainin which is on mon.
OH SHIT.
frm 16.03secs to 15secs.

fianlly daa jerseys are final`d and are waitin
to be print`d. daa samples were here today.
special guest, tina, was here today to share
some drills she hadd learn`d...
not badd i must say, daa drills were fresh and
fun to train wid.

i seriously hope that dere`ll be a day wen all
daa seniors are back to train wid us.
i reali miss those times trainin together
for fwenly match`s and tournaments..
it`s tough durin trainin but nothin is better
den havin a whole grp of great teamates.

lunch`d at khatib mac wid weili, steph and adeline.
ee san and gang were dere too,
probably studyin for their nxt paper.
but steph was daa limelight...
yaduh yaduh yaduh..
*CANNOT BE SAY`D OUT. shhhh...

my tummy hasnt been feelin very well lately.
i tink it`s because my "aunty" is here.
if you get wad i`m tryin to say.

i tend to have cramps durin trainin recently
and it definitely scuks pls.
how am i suppose to perform wen my cramps
are jus out to kill me.. haha.

i`m missin daa sweet sweet times...
days widout you seems so unmeaningful to me.
wid no motivation and nothin to keep me goin on..

but i`m still lovin you no matter wad it is.
as seein you smile and seein you happy
jus makes me feel so good..

-BABY, I`M AWAITIN FOR DAYS WE`RE TOGETHER.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:05 PM.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

hadd maths remedial this mornin.
it was suppose`d to start at 9 but honey,
weili, steph, adeline and i met only at 9 odd.

broke`d down wen honey reach`d.
i hugg`d her and tear`d slightly,
mayb i jus miss havin her laughters ard me.
these few days havent exactly been very good...

so we expect`d loads of ppl to be absent so
we practically took our time and stroll`d to sch.
as expect`d, only 13 out of 41 ppl came....
it felt reali lyk`d i was at home cause i was
listenin to my songs, usin my phone
and did daa worksht that was given.

lunch`d at khatib mac wid steph, weili,
honey and i. bus`d to northpoint wid honey
to spent my 5bucks popular voucher.
endd`d up walkin ard lookin at so many things.
make-ups, slippers, bags, rubber bands for our hair..
finally stop`d at BK and decide`d to slack`d dere.

we were bored, real bored to be exact,
yet i didnt felt lyk headin home...
so i took`d my phone out and cam whorin start`d..

THIS WAS HOW BORED WE WERE AT BK.

i`ve nvr regret`d makin this decision.
it`s a bless to have you in my life
mayb this is a test for us to overcome.
i hope we`ll be able to overcome all of it.

sumtimes words that comes out of you is
actually very hurtin.
it doesnt seem lyk you`ll care for how i feel.
you`ll jus let every single thing out and
expect me to bear it all in mind.

i`m not perfect neither are any of us.
i jus hope you`ll understand.
i noe you`ve given me loads of chances
but sum things you`ve jus gotta noe that
instant effect will not come.

bearin so much whether i`ve change`d..
whyy not try to see daa other side of me,
those small things that i do for you..
do you reali appreciate all those???
it may be small, wid lil effort in it.
but it still does comes frm daa bottom of my heart.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:33 PM.

Monday, November 14, 2005

a sudden urge to read his past
blogg entries...
it`s a thing i realise`d i`ll always
do wen i`m upset..

I MISS YOU.
-i wish i could shout it out to you

i now noe why everythin happen`d.
blames on myself and none other.
i expect too much attention wen
he too has his own stuffs...

i admit defeat to daa one inside my heart.
i`m afraid to let him have daa slightest space,
it`s not daa trust neither isit us.
i`m afraid that daa day of darkness will
fill me and my life again.

a past that huants kills me,
breaks me up into thousand pieces..
i need assurence once a while,
i need him to remind me once a while.

mayb you`re readin this,
mayb you`re not..
i`m not sure bout it.
but all these are lingerin inside my heart too long.

i dun wana admit defeat to darkness.
it fill`d my life too long.
i`ve now found my rainbow,
i aint gonna let anyone destroy this.
yet sumhow i feel that i`m daa one
destroyin it myself instead.

a part of me use`d to be missin,
till daa day you appear`d.
sumhow my life was complete`d aft that day.

-hold on tight to her and let her feel safe again

mySWEETaddiction <3
6:37 PM.

woke up feelin all so depress`d.
didnt felt lyk goin anywhere.
i hadd daa urge to seclude myself frm everyone
but i hadd to go for trainin..

met joyce jie at mrt station,
and she say`d my face look`d reali stern
wen i dun smile while walkin.
seriously, i was totally moodless.
i felt no motivation at all daa whole day.

she kept tellin me to cheer up but i cun.
so aft a while i was smilin and all,
once again i hadd to lie and act as
if i`m perfectly fine. jus to ease daa minds
of ppl who cares for me.
-it`s tirin and hard cause i`m not fine at all

daa weather wasnt helpin at all today
firstly, it was so hot and we were drain`d frm
all daa drills and strategy.
den it rain`d and we hadd to change`d daa whole
trainin plan rather stickin to daa one we hadd.
so it was physical trainin for daa last 1hr.

bus`d to northpoint wid jie and slack`d ard.
wen to her bro`s sch to fetch`d him and
we lunch`d at northpoint`s foodcourt.

am home feelin all so dead tired.
i`ve got totally no more energy..
-how i wish you were here to embrace me

sumtimes fairytales have sadd enddins,
but as for my fairytale...
i wan it to have a perfect enddin.

no matter how much we have to go thru,
i hope we both will work hard for this
relationship to keep it goin...

nothin else matters more den YOU to me.
it`s jus me, my lil heart and us.
- I LOVE YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:05 PM.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

spent my whole aftnoon at my cousin`s
hse-warmin. did some catchin ups wid my
other cousins who were dere too...

met baby at jurong point at 7plus.
was eager to see him before that but...
mix`d feelins was jus all i hadd inside,
i was suppose`d to feel reali happy that
i got to see him but yet...

shant elaborate much here...
all will be deep inside of me only,
i doubt i`ll be sharin anymore bout my probs.

daa best part for daa day was havin baby huggin me
at daa mrt station while waitin for his train to come.
that`s daa BESTEST BEST part for today.

i feel very weak inside and everythin seems
to be drainin me. i`m aware that i`m drainin
him up too but..
i`m not doin it on purpose..

seein couples inside trains jus hurts so
much. not that i dun have him and stuffs
but mayb things are jus diff aft sumtime..

lyin to fwens aint daa best thing to do.
but mayb jus for now,
i wana face things alonee..
i`m not sure whether i`m up for it.
but i guess i need some time alonee...

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:55 PM.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

I`M A HAPPY LIL GURL.
DANCIN IN DAA SAND UNDER DAA MOON.

as you can see frm my title,
i`m actually very happy today = )

shall do lil bitty bits of update first and daa
rest shall come mayb tonight aft daddy`s
birthday celebration or tmr if i`m dead tired.

i`m very happy cause i dun have
to see that person at daddy`s
birthday celebration.
that soooooo made my mood high.

anyway, i wouldnt wana see suchah
hippocrite and backstabber man.
-it`ll so spoil my mood for daa day

so someone call`d mummy last
night askin whether that person could
join`d us last min, aft our reservations are made..
aft i hearin it, i flare`d lyk a volcano and erupt`d at daddy.
but lucky me, reservations are too full to add any one.

and so you see...
i`ll not forget wad you`ve done.
once and for all...
I`VE BEEN USE`D BY YOU ENUFF I GUESS.
SO I WOULDNT EVEN WANA BE
ASSOCIATE`D WID AT ALL!!!

and ppl if you all are gonna have a SUPERB
bigg mouth and decide to spill out
anythin i`ve blogg`d in here...
YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR MOUTH.
AND DUN LET ME FIND OUT WHO IT IS.

i`m gonna go tink of wad i shld wear for tonight.
and gonna make breakfast for mummy and myself.
i`m so starvin!!!
mummy hurry get back frm daa market..

she dances under daa moonlight
in daa arms of her price charmin..
she`s smilin and she`s happy,
no danger could eva get close to her..

wad more can she eva ask for,
she already has you in her life..
and that`s more den wad she hadd eva ask`d.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:38 AM.

Friday, November 11, 2005

got up as usual and hurry`d got ready.
into daa kitchen and prepare`d breakfast
for weili, steph and adeline..
quite happy to hear that they love their
breakfast... and will be preparin it for them
on our nxt trainin again = )

trainin was pwettie slack`d today.
didnt reali do much. daa juniors
join`d our trainin so alison and i hadd to
focus more on them rather den trainin ourselves.

so gave a few instructions to daa rest of daa team
and left to coach`d daa juniors.
did drills and games. stay`d back to discuss`d our
final decisions for our jerseys.
den stay`d back AGAIN till 1 cause ahkoh was
discussin plans wid us.

train`d back home and lunch`d on some food.
online-in and tv-in will be for me daa rest of daa day.

-i miss my baby.

my heart beats for you,
i breathe jus for you.
YOU JUS LIGHT UP MY LIFE.

countin down those days for our nxt meetin.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:25 PM.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

FIXIN A BROKEN HEART.

my life seems very lonely.

slpin till noon time tryin to let time pass`d by
me as fast as it can go doesnt seem to be helpin.
my holis dun seem to make me as happy as i
thought i will actually be,
whereas it kindah made me seclude myself frm
everythin that is happenin and thus runnin away.

i`m runnin away most of daa time,
but daa fact of me runnin away widout a reason
is jus drainin me up.
i guess i`ve not yet overcome`d daa fact that you`ll not
leave. daa past.... they nvr fail to keep huantin me.
how i jus wish that i can *bangs bangs my head real
hard on daa wall that my past will jus vanish away.
it`s jus causin me and him too much hurt.

i find i`m slightly stronger now,
daa fact that he threaten`d to leave always scares me.
so i dun turn to anyone else now unless
i`m reali lost and confuse or
wen i jus deaperately need sumone dere.
i`ll cry to myself at night,
and since i promise`d to not cry so easily..
cryin wid my tv drama(s) seems to help too.

"7 sistas" seems lyk a name that is known to
everyone and ppl gets curious...
but to me it doesnt reali matter,
i jus wan`d daa bondin and happy times we
once hadd again. but yet daa holis made us
drift apart or mayb we didnt even have that
bondin i thought we could have in daa first place.
mayb sihan is right, we`re jus lyk any other ordinary
fwens out dere.
where is that strong bond we`re suppose to have???

life today will be as normal,
since trainins are only on alternate days.
tues and thurs will always be daa "ROTTIN" days.

i`m so hungry now but have totally
NO appetite at all...
so i guess it`ll be BYEBYE breakfast/lunch.

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
And I jus love daa way how you can tell.

-I MISS YOU

mySWEETaddiction <3
1:55 PM.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

feelin all emo-ish right now.
a day of trainin and walkin ard...
RARR.

and and yes, my whole team`s leggs are practically
out of service right now due to our stamina trainin
on mon which actually threaten`d to break our leggs apart.

everyone was complainin on how achey it actually is
daa whole trainin. so i decide`d to be nice and
change`d our drills for daa day to stationary drills.
cause warmin-up was already a diff task for us.
DRILLS AND STRATEGY FOR TODAY = )
was daa camaraman for daa last part cause we need`d
photos for our upcomin sch mag...
and i`m very proud of daa photos i`ve taken.

lunch`d at daa canteen while waitin for sihan and eileen.
since they decide`d to head down to northpoint instead
of bishan or causeway, decide`d to tagg along.
brought them to popular and told them bout daa
assesment they wan`d. i found out that my popular
card is actually overdue`d.
how great!!! means i`ve gotta go renew it AGAIN.
-it`s very sickenin to keep renewin it again&again

accompany`d adeline, sihan and eileen to LJS
while i jus rot dere awaitin for them to clear
their lunch. which actually took FOREVA.

sumthin`s reali wrg wid my tummy today,
it suddenly hurt so much jus now which i
almost almost brought me tears..
head`d down to cold storage to get baby`s fav
tomyam maggie while i got my pepper crab maggie.

am late actually.
told baby i`ll be home aft trainin but
i only got home ard 2.30.
baby`s so gonna be madd at me.
*SORRY LIL ONE = D

i`ll be stayin at home,
not intendin to go out as my leggs are jus too weak
for me to be movin ard right now.

I LOVE YOU
-deep down it`s only for us to noe

hold on tight for this dream to continue
till daa day my final dream come true.
which is for us to be together foreva.
havin only me to YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:05 PM.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

got up and was starvin but to find
my whole hse EMPTY was jus drastic.
so *rings rings to mummy`s office, and order`d
myself a regular seafood supreme and drumlets.
-i tink i`ll be gainin a few more pounds aft that

slack`d ard since i didnt intend`d to head out.
my body is ACHIN LYK SHIT thanks to ytd`s trainin.
so my day was pratically rottin away till my dear
hong hong ask`d me to accompany`d her down town.
so we train`d down and head`d to paragoon for her
job interview. head`d to heeren for lil while and down to
cine for a long chat aft that cause my legg was jus superb
SUAN. and gosh.... saw a unexpect`d sumone while
crossin daa road.
shant say who it is, but jus sumone i didnt thought
i`ll bump`d into and wish`d to bump`d into = )
-HAPPY GUESSIN

far east was our nxt stop and we wen SHOPPIN.
was suppose`d to browse thru only but endd`d
up buyin a earring and a sliver flats for myself.
while hong hong got her earring and her gold slipper.
our time shoppin was real fun.
we`re jus rushin thru our shoppin and things we
wan`d to get. train`d back home and *hops on
my comfy comfy bed.

MY BABY IS MISSIN SINCE 6PLUS
WEN HE WEN TO GET A NAP.
WHERE IS HE NOW???

-serious help need`d = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
10:50 PM.

Monday, November 07, 2005

dead tired aft havin trainin in daa mornin.

did loads of sprints and ball drills.
so call`d stamina sprints, push`d ourselves
and our body to daa max today.

hadd very little break time today.
so most of daa time, we`re jus pushin ourselves.

lunch`d slightly at mac wid steph, adeline and weili.
hadd nuggets and ice lemon tea, couldnt ate much
cause i was gonna eat again wid baby later...
saw joyce and gang muggin for their 2nd paper.

GOOD LUCK PPL = )

hung ard for an hr or so and left as we`re jus dead tired.
train`d home and wash`d up, slack a while before
baby came and start`d eatin again..

i`m off for my 9pm show now.
BYEBYE.
it`s daa new series and i`m sure it`ll be great.
it`s a show bout dance, i`m sure everyone will love it.

SLACKIN DAA WHOLE DAY WID BABY.

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:15 PM.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

been a goody lil gurl daa whole day.

watch`d "Man of Honour", a very good show.
i tink i`ve watch`d it lyk more den twice but
i`m jus nvr get sick of it...
daa song that they play`d suit`d it so well i must
say. it reali tells wad daa story is all about.

did some lil catchin up wid a pri sch fwen, jiaming.
i guess, it`s been 3yrs since we last talk to each other.
but everyone jus changes aft they grad frm pri sch...

I MISS PRI SCH DAYS...
THOSE YOUNG AND INNOCENT TIMES..

i wana gather all of them and meet up SOON pls.
* SOS, i need help in that = )

isit you or isit jus me,
days that we hold hands walkin down daa lane
carve`d deep into my heart,
feelin all so safe beside you.

you`ve got me and my whole heart.
awaitin for daa day wen we`ll walk down daa aisle together..

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:00 PM.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

seriously, whyy do ppl BOTHER even plannin things
wen it always endd up bein screw`d up by others.

not ONCE did my plan turn out fine,
dere`s always a this or a that to change...

den in daa first place whyy do i even...

i`m jus wastin my time aint i.
but too badd, no one cares...

DRAIN`D UP PLS...
-whyy cun life be peaceful for goodness sake

it`s true i guess..
good times jus nvr last long,
while daa badd times jus carry on..

mySWEETaddiction <3
9:20 AM.

Friday, November 04, 2005

i`m tiredTIREDtired already pls...
i`m already drain`d up lah!!!

no good news eva comes can.

I HATE IT.
-i hate wadeva that is happenin

he loves me... he loves me not...
daa bud opens its first petals to a pair of
sparklin eyes which twinkle wid a new passion.
a passion that overcomes all sense until finally
a risky chance is taken.

i try to sound alright,
i try to sound as if i`m fine.
but do you even noe that i`m actually
cryin deep inside.
that all this is jus hurtin so much.

will things turn out better...
-sometimes i jus hope`d that life was jus perfect

mySWEETaddiction <3
4:58 PM.

GOOD MORNIN = )

i`m actually suppose`d to have trainin,
and trainin wasnt cancel`d even thou daa
rain was so heavy.

my head wasnt feelin very good wen i got up so
i intend`d to jus go for trainin but not train.
but daa rain was soooo HEAVY and my head
was sooooo dizzy.

my mummy is suchah deary today.
told her that i`m very dizzy and i dun
wana train later. and she ask`d me to skip`d
trainin and she`ll help me write a letter.
-aint she suchah deary today = )
call`d steph and alison tellin them
that i`ll not be headin down today...

so i got up sooooo EARLY at 6.45, bathe and
actually got ready for NOTHIN.

so i`m actually feelin very dizzy and my head keeps
spinnin. feelin of pukin seems to be comin again.
and my temp seems to be sumhow risin = (
-i wana get well by tmr, i wana meet my baby

since baby`s time-table hadd change`d,
he`ll be enddin late every fri, so goodbye meetin ups on fri.
so HELLO ROTTIN again.

you`re daa thought that starts each mornin,
daa conclusion to each day.
you are in all that i do,
and everythin i say.

you`re daa smile on my face,
daa twinkle in my eye.
daa warmth inside my heart,
daa fullness in my life.

you`re my silly, mature, carin,
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
daa one who holds me tightly,
wen i need to cry.

you are all i`ve wan`d,
you are all i need.
you are all i`ve dream of,
you are all of this to me.

mySWEETaddiction <3
8:54 AM.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

[ */ EDIT`D ]

to ZHIZHONG BRO:

thanks for entertainin & cheerin me up = )
your tamil accent is very ticklish you noe.
i jus couldnt stop laughin my ass off.
LOLS.
daa way you play`d your soccer game was
jus so hilarious pls..
once you scored you`ll go "GOAL"
thanks so much..
if it wasnt for you, i guess i was
still irritatin him daa whole night thru.

-LOVE YA BRO

--------------------------------------------

i couldnt slp,
and if you rmb...
i cun fall aslp widout hearin your voice.
but i finally fell aslp at 2 aft feelin so drain`d up.

you say`d you`ll call me later,
but daa later nvr came...
i wait`d and wait`d, only to receive`d a msg sayin
that you`re gonna go slp.
my heart shatter`d but i kept mum.
i didnt wana irritate you more...

i was angry, i was upset.
did you noe???
all i wish inside that lil heart of mine
was jus a sweet msg frm you...
that was all that i was askin, but it nvr came..

wen your sorry came,
my heart soften, tinkin i still hadd a chance
to step into your life and be dere..
i`m wrg too..

---------------------------------

was suppose`d to meet up wid baby today,
but sumthin happen`d and he decide`d
to cancel`d it again..

so i guess it`ll be more ROTTIN for me today.

i tink i need to head down to esplanade,
jus sit dere and relax..
i dun wana tink so much of wad hadd happen`d.
anyone care to accompany me???

i'll still be dere,
i'm shatter'd but i'm not gonna give up.

i'm here foreva...
jus give me a chance to step into it.
i wun leave you alonee in daa dark
and that's a promise..

-all i wan'd you to noe is I'M HERE FOR U.

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:10 AM.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

i wan`d to be dere but
i guess i chose daa wrg approach.

irritate`d you instead of bein dere.
i jus wan`d to be daa one whose dere wid
you thru those rough times,
but i nvr seem to have a chance to step into it.

sumtimes i feel so tired of tryin,
all those times of fear i felt.

i`m jus grateful that he`s dere wen i need`d sumone.
dere to make me laugh and smile,
make me feel that things arent that badd aft all...

mySWEETaddiction <3
11:40 PM.

terence say`d i hadd gain`d weight and
i shld go slim down again...

RARR.
wad a news i`ve receive`d = (

anyway, i guess i`ll be back to my dietin plan again.

it`s actually quite hurtin, but i guess i shld
jus trust wad he hadd told me.
aft all guys can see more difference den we gurls..

i`m confuse`d, lyk sriously..
shld i go back to my dietin plan..
and not eat or eat jus a meal a day???

peeps i need comments pls..
do tagg and let me noe, thanks = )

mySWEETaddiction <3
3:30 PM.

i`m feelin all emo-ish now.

drag`d myself out of bed, wash`d up and
got all ready for trainin.
met steph at khatib and walk`d to 800 to meet weili.

trainin was quite slack`d.
*my passion for it seems to be fadin as days pass
daa sun was scorchin HOT, even before we step into
court you can actually feel daa heat already.
did physical again and a few rounds of game before
dismiss`d. my legg is not any better now, it was
actually hurtin daa whole while durin trainin.
but i didnt wana be daa only one who kept
restin so i jus held on to daa pain...
till our coolin down run, i couldnt held on to
daa pain anymore. it was draggin my whole
body down and i hadd to stop`d.
was suppose`d to run 3rounds ard sch but i
only complete`d half a round before i gave up.

lunch`d at khatib mac wid weili and steph.
chat`d so much bout stuffs and wen nuts too...

will be rottin daa rest of daa day at home i guess.

are relationship suppose`d to endd in a miserable way?
if it was, i would pause all happy times together wid you.

time spent together are priceless,
no amount of money will be able to buy it for me.
it`s priceless not only cause it was times together,
it`s priceless cause it was spent wid YOU.

mySWEETaddiction <3
2:20 PM.